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[floweunoia]

I'm like a hurricane and I'm sorry, but I won't fit in the box you want to lock me in. I will knock down any wall and snatch the soil with me, but you will never be able to catch me and tame me like a pet. You will always hear me scream, even if you don't want me to be heard.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

For them, it's always

"you left"

For me it's always

"yes, because of you"

And at the end of all ends

I end up with a villain face

And they never ask "why?"

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

When you're talking and no one is listening, so you start screaming and still nothing, they look away from you, carelessly, and you tear up your lungs and listen to the loud howl of pain.

why doesn't anyone care?

why are they so deaf?

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

It hurts,

like a blade stuck in

your heart,

like a needle sliding

across hot skin,

like fingers tightening

around your throat

before your body lets out

a dull whine

"enough!"

no one listens, no one cares

you are all alone

again and again

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

I finished theraphy 11

months ago

but I haven't fully

healed yet

even if I think it was quite

a long time ago,

but not even a year...

I am twenty.

And every time I run

to my mom to show

my painting.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

The most valuable thing we have is freedom and privileges.

But the most vain thing we have is pride and selfishness.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

heart heavy

again

it said before “be aware”

while I chose “it is not the same"

well, I guess...

but here I am

and suddenly I have doubts

suddenly,

I can see

and I think It's sad.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

And once I became open, once I opened my heart, wanting to be the truest, the world turned its back on me, terrified of the reality we found ourselves in.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

Silent

suddenly

(but truth be told, not really)

became

disgusting

thing

we unfortunately learned

why didn't anyone tell me

that scream

is so attractive

awakens the blood in the veins

and stimulates all body cells

leads to rebellions and relief victories

and even then

I want to tear my lungs in half

knowing it's the right thing to do

the only one.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

Blood

You are bleeding

Straight from the ugly heart

Blood is leaking through your fingers

And it ends up at my feet

I can hear their screams

A howl of pain and despair

I hold the bloody blade in my clenched fist

Everything my mind whispers

"GUILTY"

But I look with sinister eyes

Into your cold darkness

Holes

Full of fury and grief

They say

"VILLAIN"

When you look at me

The curved mirror of your soul

And sins

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

“something changed"

well, I guess...

maybe it is the way

we pass each other

every chance

we get

or maybe it is just me

hah

again...

well, I guess...

something changed

maybe not in the way

you or I want it

to be

rather than

to exist.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

“You act like a princess"

Honestly, I wish to be like one of them. The little mermaid never listened to the "father's authority" closed in his rigid framework, in a world built on lies and prejudices. She took the risk to discover the truth and see it with her own eyes, even if she had to renounce her roots. She always had the courage to look in a different direction than others, even if she was called crazy. She taught me madness and faith in my own strength. Mulan showed me that a woman can also go into battle and use other types of fighting as well. Using tricks, opposition and voice for a just cause is also courage and standing up for battle. Tiana had dreams and she wouldn't let any man take them away from her. Rapunzel coped perfectly on her own and was able to defend herself and her loved ones. Elsa was always full of love, even if the world tried to paint her in cold colors, and Anna believed in sisterly kindness and watered her stubbornness, which blossomed in her with courage and strength. Merida was able to say "no" loudly and clearly, even though she was met with misunderstanding and opposition, and she never gave up when things got tough. Bella saw the good in the darkest corners, never giving up on her faith in people even when they tried to take everything from her.

So yes, being a princess like them is a real honor. Princesses change this world when it least expects it. And as Lorelai Gilmore said, princesses go on adventures in heels.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

“Black lives matter

but that doesn't concern me much”

“Love is love

but not for everyone”

“Human rights

but only a certain skin color”

“Freedom for everyone

but I will allow bombs to be dropped on them”

What do you represent anyway?

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

I don't know

how many more poems

I have to write

I don't know

how many more films

and photos need to be made

I don't know

how many more appeals

must be heard

I don't know

how many more people

have to die

I don't know

when it will be our turn.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

When I say “No”

He says “Yes”

When I say “go away”

He says “I stay”

And when I scream

He's acting like a victim

And the last word is always his

And I stand and keep fighting

For peace.

Happier, 2024

[floweunoia]

My dear,

I hope to see you bloom one day

when your pain will be taken away

when your earth starts breathing

and the birds singing

I wish you never had to beg

I wish you could smile every day

grow and bloom like the most beautiful

flower of the sun

like the brightest star in our hearts

like a river that never ends

and always finds its home

in the sea.

For 🇵🇸

With Love,

Happier.

[floweunoia]

My shattered heart

My torn soul

Their eyes full of pleading

A whine in our empty,

Shameful heads

We will pay.

Happier, 2024