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rumble your thoughts in a form that can be organized at the very moment, or later on while you go about your day. Going in a direction that has a perfect setting in to allow you yourself to succeed and become a better well around person

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I've walked up to the grave that hold the body of someone that was my whole life. I spent months trying to find this spot, in wrong information from someone kept me from attending his funeral. So for months I asked his family members that all never could give me an answer, and even told me to call his grandmother. I just felt as if couldn't call his grandmother and speak with her. Out the blue had someone call to only the other end of the phone was another family member, she knew who I was gave information in finding him.

I walk up and stand at the foot of his grave looking out into the distance was such a beautiful view. As I lay some flowers on his grave, tears started rolling down my face, as if water was flowing.

How do you say goodbye someone was there your whole life, someone always there when you needed them, someone gave me loyalty respect and love.

The last time I saw him was a few weeks before his passing I remember saying "Bit" man take better care of yourself, I can't lose you too. The conversation we had, the long goodbye as I walked out the door never thinking would never walk through that door again, to see the only person that was real, and staed in my life when the rest of the world ran.

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Need no-one's permission to be yourself..

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Don't need permission in be who you want to be, and do whatever you want.

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Nothing is better than "YOU"

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Watching a flame burn has you really thinking about what a flame could do, and people say we are a form a flame, so when we are lite as a flame are we slowly burning out.'

We have been burning out from the time we came into this world, the ones leave us so early have gotten blown out but the flame wasn't even strong enough to burn and melt the surface of what we are burning for?

For example a tea light candle burner. We add stuff to the top, that slowly burns into either smell or whatever the use is for at the moment. We are the candle flame starts off real strong and melts the top when flame slowly weaken the stuff on top slowly stops getting heated .

That was just a personal thought in my alone time.

Thanks for reading.

P.S. If it didn't make to much sense to one may make sense to another.

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I feel like needing to keep running away to another place, and another life that isn't all to stressful. I know allow over the years any and all stress. Then one day turn into wanting nothing but peace.

Never had experience with pace in my life growing up. Growing up everything was drama, down to where you sat at the kitchen table to talking on the phone to your friends. Kind of thought that is how life really went. Until out the blue notice that my life never was suppose to have been like it.

How do you go from okay to drama in 2 seconds. I just don't understand.

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I have had a wonderful time speaking with my cousin from time to time. My cousin had even written a book in what had gone through in life. I really would like to see what writing a book would be like as well would be a great idea in thinking that could help save someone's life

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Amputee Moment

Soon as you become an amputee you, no longer hold the human can, you become a freak show, freaks no longer come out night, they com out when you lose your leg....

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Live the dream and dare the impossible.

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Discussion

The importance of a positive attitude when dealing with an amputation.

June 19, 2023 almost one year below amputation not to many people have been around knows the same pain?

If are an amputee let me know lets show love, and support each other.

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“I am thankful for the difficult people in my life. They have shown me exactly who I don’t want to be.”

— Unknown

Building a wall show that you will stand firm on a decision that could have a big lasting effect

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Truth is there when you wake!!

There you go coffee brewing, only to piece everything together with the truth is there when the last puzzle goes in. May not be in that type of an easy truth reveal. It has felt like being at a revel party, waiting for the final revel then it paused for years, then one day it stopped buffing, and then its a..

For a few years now things have been a little lifting slowly in what has really been going on? Sitting back, is almost the reason why people treated me and my family. The bitterness sat in, it had nothing to do with me, it had to do with something that I got away kind of beauty.

They must think I had a better life then as I was 1,000 miles away and didn't have to suffer in the things that they were. So that is why they want to bully me or hate me. You had your hardship, and I have my own powerful struggle. There were two of them there for each other, and there was only me. Yes there was me!

There was family that took care of you, and let you get to be free in the world. While I was attached to a ball of chain. Ony set free long enough to go to school and come home then back to the chain of life.

I was raised for 14 years by the most amazing grandfather in the world. Then after his passing, I was the evil child, and the abuse started happening...

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Mom's and dad's out there...

If you can't love your children that will allow them to never search for any type of love that comes along, or keep looking for acceptance for someone loving them, is proud of them, or whatever they need to look for to make them feel special.

Watching a best friend constantly look for all that in me, and the people around me, as well him. Then when things fall apart feel that they must hurt someone, or make them other around the feel smaller in them to feel some kind of love.

best friend wasn't in a home, where his mother, and father lived together. Mother wasn't perfect in showing him positivity, and whatever feelings that makes up a happy and secure mind friend and will attack perfect relationships. Maybe not perfect but perfect for that one.

What makes me express this thought, is that his wife doesn't love him properly. He settled for a woman that doesn't know how to tell the truth, hurt people at no cost, and lied to him about things just to get a large amount of money. Do things that always put her in the hospital, she does things to get other men around her to look at her and brake up happy homes.

Watching him think that is love, has made me die inside over and over again. Making herself sick to the point that she has to be put on life support to just get him to run to her, and not make money.

I feel that she wants to watch him fail and hit rock bottom. I am sorry for her luck, he will always have me to fall back on, and look to me for the support that he will need to keep a float.

Not sure in what to keep thinking about the lady, and what you can do about her in helping her to go in a direction that will put her in a mind that this crap stop happening.

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Who can listen to birds singing their own little song, all day long. I bet it is over half of the earth's population. The songs that where first sung before the human start making records, and start trying to get the number ones hit in thinking you become popular.

Popular isn't something to honestly be proud of. Proud of you for thinking that the album you just released is better than all the other songs that came out from other people's albums. The song could suck and have no meaning, yet be #1 on the charts, and that was because the artist was not winning the spot for his vocal talents, he was winning it for his looks.

We all not living by the quote:

Never judge a book by its cover

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Discussion

The importance of a positive attitude when dealing with an amputation.

June 19, 2023 almost one year below amputation not to many people have been around knows the same pain?

If are an amputee let me know lets show love, and support each other.

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Come follow me, and grow with me in my journey of new life as an amputee.