girlwithnomemory1563

[girlwithnomemory1563]

yo what the fuck

im so happy i have no memory and i didnt even want to write this here but jesus christ i have Got to let this out into the world.

idk if i ever discussed a hunk of a coworker i work with on here, but long story short we fucked and this pussy made him fall in love. so we started dating. this son of a bitch.

a little into the relationship, he gets a text from his ex asking to hook up. now i knew about this heffer and her effects on this man, so you know i started shaking a little. not too much, bc i still had faith in my man, but i did have a little quiver in my tone.

this son of a bitch tells me that he responded to her but was all like "eww youre disgusting to ever think that i'd do that". period. my man my man. he lied! i asked him that night and was like "did you think about it" because lets be honest, we all know you did, i just want to know if you'll tell me that. he said no and he lied! he didnt even tell me he lied about this until the next day so im like "oh wow.." you know? bc wtf are you supposed to do, end it there? nah i gotta see this out now. im bored!

i really should've minded my own business. we keep talking bc we still fucking work together and we're all like "yeah we're gonna get through this" and all this other bullshit. and i'm like "okay if you text her again, like you reach out first, then im done." tell me why the Fuck he did that exact thing.

so now im in his face talking "all you do is lie, why tf would you do the one thing that would break us all the way up if you really fuck with me like you say you do" blah blah blah. and i still stay entertaining him!

so now i know this bitch is texting her. this causes strife in my mental because now i feel like im competing with a bitch thats already won. like shes already dated him, she was his first. im already not a competitive person so why tf am i going against a bitch thats already winning like. bc at this point we weren't even together fr. he kept saying he was claiming me but be so fucking fr. you cannot claim two girls at once.

so im like pulling away from him. we went from facetiming and seeing each other everyday to like maybe a few texts ya know. and he stays consistently saying that he does love me and hes just stupid and that im his best friend. so we go to a restaurant together. and im like, "are you still texting her? what do y'all even talk about?" and this motherfucker goes "im not even gonna tell you, its just gonna hurt you". and this should've instantly made me jump out of the car but nah, im nonchalant fr. so im like "bro...thats the worst answer you could ever give."

i forgot to say. the night before this "date" or whatever the fuck you wanna call it, he had told me verbatim "SHES NOT AN ISSUE ANYMORE". why? bc she asked to hook up and he said no bc hes so loyal to me so they blocked each other. so i was instantly like "and what made her feel comfortable to strike up the question again?" bc im not stupid. despite all of my choices ive made, i am not stupid. i just do it for the plot unfortunately. which is why i asked what tf they were talking about again the next day at our "date".

ok lol sorry but yeah we get to dinner, im in this sour ass mood bc he wouldnt even play a song that i wanted on the way over here. now we're sitting in silence and im just like looking at him and he's hanging his head like a sorry ass dog. this fool finally just says "i told her i have feelings for her still. thats why she asked to hook up." when i tell you i laughed so fucking hard in his face dude. i wasn't even mad in the moment fr, i was just happy to know i was right like i always am. bc throughout this entire situation, i have been right and have been doubting myself on that shit.

so yeah we get out food togo (this shit happened before we even got the appetizers bro) and now he's crying in the car and im literally asking this man if i need to confirm my uber bc bitch im trying to get home and get tf out of ur face rn. but yeah he takes me home, refuses to leave so he spends the night and we talk and stuff. wrong decision LMAO. we end up fucking the night after and then i dont really keep engaging with him fr. like we texted but like i said, it wasn't nothing like how we used to be. and i see him at work and stuff.

that date night was like monday i believe so then we work together friday and saturday. friday night, we're fine. he asked me to come over after work but i stayed strong and did not. saturday, he asks me to come over so we can talk bc he feels like i hate him. i didn't hate him, but i needed to go over there and tell him that i cant keep doing this back and forth, so i agree. i should've brought a fucking bazooka dude.

i get over there, im high as fuck bc i was closing so what am i supposed to do, not hit my cart? and im not being serious at all lmaooo hes like trying to talk and i keep just staring at him bc only when im high do i feel like i truly love that man. then i finally lock in. and i ask him if hes been talking to her. he says yes. i ask about what? he says "just catching up." mind you, they've been catching up for 3-4 weeks now, so im instantly clocking the bullshit. and i'm like "bro be fr." and hes like "no it'll just hurt you" and at this point, im nearing crash out bc i can tell hes abt to confess something. like his lips were turning pale, his face was pale, im just waiting at this point. and im like "no fr tell me. if its gonna hurt me then i already know yall are doing more than catching up."

He looks me in my eyes, "I fucked her."

dude when i tell you my stomach dropped. but once again i just laugh bc i was right! im always right! i asked him when did this happen.

tell me why the FUCK he tells me they fucked last friday, the friday before he told me he blocked her bc she wanted to hook up and he said no bc hes so loyal. they fucked before he fucked me in the same bed. he fucked her before he told me that he could never have what we have with her and that he loves me and that im so gorgeous.

dude im like getting pissed writing this shit out again bc how the fuck are you ugly, fat, selfish and have horribly dry skin and you're fucking two bitches in the same week??? in the same bed?????? you fucked me in the same bed you fucked her??? and i know your disgusting dog ass didnt even wash the fucking sheets? i slept in the same bed she had her fucking pussy and asshole in?

so yeah i tried to leave after i like started shaking so bad bc i swear i was gonna hit him. but nah i had to go back and get my lick back. and actually im like embarrassed that i even showed my ass at all but like it had to be done bc even after he told me they fucked, he was like "are you still going to talk to me?" and i said "yep!" no i blocked him on everything.

that was saturday, we worked together sunday and got off at the same time and this fucking clown. i clocked out early but like kept chatting so i hadn't left the store yet. this fucker asks to leave early too, clocks out after me and runs out to his car. im like "lol whatever" and keep chatting and then leave. i walk out and hes just standing by his car looking emo as fuck. all i can do is laugh as i walk by to my car and even as i pulled out of the parking lot, that dumbass motherfucker was still standing outside of his car, watching me drive away. like he parked in front of the store so all of our coworkers saw that shit. thats so fucking embarrassing.

but yeah what the fuck. now i just gotta sit here and do my school work and act like nothing even happened. and every time i want to call him, i think of him being with her and i put that phone down!

so yeah stay safe y'all holy shit

[girlwithnomemory1563]

hello?

i went out again and once again didnt end up going home with someone! don't let that fool you, i still verbally harassed random men bc i was drunk and bored! however, it was spring break at the college town i live in so the bar was so dead. like there was a wedding going on and we were dressed for the bar...LMAO WE GOT TO MEET THE BRIDE THO! AND CONGRATULATE HER !

it started with me like not even wanting to go tho bc we didn't have a secure place to stay for the night (fr was going to sleep in our non tinted cars) and i didnt know anyone who could get us some cheap alcohol bc once again, its spring break so no one was on campus jfc. but we were like determined bc my friend sami was finally in town for a thirsty thursday so we needed to go out. so eventually, my other friend misa came through for us!! i completely forgot she has her own little shed house so she offered it up for us to stay in and then got her grandmother (?? hello?) to get us some four lokos! so off we went!

we arrived to the empty ass parking lot and got like nervous bc why the hell is it empty....where is everyone...but alas, we started to down our four lokos anyways. we get to the point where we feel tipsy, so we all head in and like as we're getting our id's checked and everything, we peak into the literally dead ass bar. bro what? so we get in and go straight to the bathroom and have to devise a plan bc wtf are we doing here. how are there grown ass adults sitting on the smoking porch, dressed to the nines eating and enjoying each other's company? where is sexxyred? where is gasolina? WHERE IS MR 305 MR WORLDWIDE???

ultimately, we decide as long as we are drunk enough, we can have fun anywhere so we run back to the car and start chugging out four lokos. as we do this, a car pulls up next to us that has two men in it!! what a coincidence! at this point, we are already tipsy and chatty and just getting more drunk by the sip. so ofc me and misa, frequent thirsty thursday attendees, want to go chat with them! i mean, by this point, they've gone inside and seen that its dead and come back. and now they're just sitting in their car, with the doors open might i add so its almost like an invite, smoking a cigarette!! that is catnap to a cat and i am just a little kitty cat. and they've obviously seen us like leaning over to see them and us laughing and just being foolish since my car has no tinting whatsoever. but miss sami is being all like "noo we can't do that we dont know them blah blah blah" but that is the point! cmon ma! so we go over there and im instantly like "haiii is that a cig?" and its two guys, one that looks like a 2019/2020 tiktok eboy like had the cross earring and everything, and then another guy that had long hair and just looked greasy but also like a fun gi. a fungi... anyways, they give us a whole cigarette and entertain us for like a whole 20 mins! we all just chat with each other and i end up showing them the super cool awesome bass i have in my shitty car. then, they leave and we are stuck to our own decision making. do we call it quits now and just uber home while we can, or do we go back in and see what the ferk is up! we go back in!

we go back in and its like less dead now so we feel a little better, but there's still like just an awkwardly not small, not large, sorta medium sized crowd in the middle of the floor with people actually sitting down at the high tables and stuff. so to the bathroom we go and hype ourselves back up. we chat with some girls, hit the carts and vapes and then go back out there! still really the only ppl giving like...thirsty thursday and not dive bar in the south but its alright bc atp we are like blasted and crossed and just dancing together on the outskirts of the random dance crowd. this is when we meet the aforementioned bride! she was wearing a bridal dress and everything and she even showed us her groom (not cute, she could do better but as long as mother is happy). and then, as we keep dancing, we spot a guy we used to go to highschool with! sami is the one who notices him and is like "omg is that so and so" and i was like "omg yeh...should i go say hi.." and she was like, ofc, "omg no!" but this one i sorta agreed with bc i actually didnt know him that well, i just knew of him bc he was sorta popular but also sorta not? but i also was in yearbook in highschool so i knew of everyone even if they didn't know of me LMAO. so we keep dancing and then somehow, we are beside him! so sami is finally like "ok now go say hi" and like a sleeper agent activated, i just turn and go say hi to the feller!

he actually is like cute and was way cuter when i was drunk bc he was taller than me, so i get him talking and bring in misa and sami and we all chat. and then his random ass sister comes up to us, probably drunk, and is like "ooohh isnt he so cute? isnt my brother so cute?? god hes sooo cute and soo single" so i got the message but also like, hey girl we are just talking and catching up and youre doing alot rn whats up! she seemed sweet tho and we ended up talking with her too but that was just a weird ass first impression of her. then sami is like "didnt u used to do the fortnite dance all the time?" and he was all like "pshh no what i dont even...i dont even know how to" knowing full damn well that he knew how to fortnite dance. so we pull up a youtube video for him and he gets on stage and fortnite dances for us! so kawaii!! and he also tried to get the dj to play no hands but mr waka flaka like three times but he just kept playing some country ass shit every other song so we go to leave! our plan was to uber back to misa's shed house, but then the bouncer is like "uber doesn't run this late." what! what do now! we think and think and our new found friend is still with us and he's like "im taking my sister and her friends home." and then sami has the brilliant idea to make him take us home as well! except he didnt have enough room in his car. so he took his sister all the way home, came back to pick us up and then took us all the way home. free of charge. i was going to venmo him gas money but ive forgotten so many times now that i just dont want to text him anymore. and i ended up losing my ring in his car. and we texted abt it and flirted a little (hehehe) but i suck at texting so we havent talked in like a week LMAO.

but yeah, fun thursday! super tame but also super fun! i wish i was better at being a communicating human so i could still being chatting with that guy but alas. thats all.

[girlwithnomemory1563]

muhaha

hellooo i went out to the bar thursday and saw an arrangement of characters! they won't seem that important but since there's like lore behind every single person in the small ass town i live in, having these special appearances being made was a big deal to me! i love a special appearance! a surprise guest on the show! this will be a long post bc there is a lot of yapping. i was contemplating making a second post but no bc that would just be weird i think...

so the night started with me and jane and her boyfriend jack hanging out at her house getting ready. and while we were getting ready, jack gets a snap from his roommate (matt) admitting that he drank almost all of the bottle of vodka! by himself! so that pissed us off (me not so much bc hes just an alcoholic baby guys dont be so mean to him) but jack was able to get another bottle very quickly and very luckily! so once we got that bottle, we sat in the parking lot and passed it between us. then we went in! this is where my memory is blurry like the timeline of things, but i remember events so that's what i'll talk about.

i remember jack and jane fighting a lot abt something i literally can't even remember right now, and me trying to mediate. my mediation skills are already poor so you can imagine what being drunk did for them. i got a look from jack after i said something and i knew thats when i needed to pipe down. and did! they eventually got over it and we were able to go back in and dance. i love dancing with them bc i get face jane and dance towards her and still be able to see jack since he's dancing behind her. i'll be blunt, the liquor was making it give threesome energy. jack kept looking at me sorta weird and like smiling when i was dancing with jane and she was like watching this happen and smiling at me too? hello guys im also smiling? smile? idk it was weird and def just caused by the liquor. now that im sober and sane, i would neva!

ok ok so now for the special guest stars! i had the pleasure (yuck) of seeing my older cousin's friends from highschool! i only went to school with them for two years, so i don't totally know them but i know them enough to be like "hey guys omg! yeah yeah he's my cousin he's good!" with them, ya know? so drunk me did just that bc it just happened to be like the three most obnoxiously jock type of guys. ofc i had to go talk to them. plus, the guy i went up to has been coming by my fast food job a lot so i had to approach him. so i go up to him and we're both like, exclaim at the same time at each other which was unexpected on my side but i was like "oh my god you're at my job so much!" and he was like "oh my god my favorite fast food worker!" and it was funny. and we chatted and i offered him my cart and he made this real sleazy face and was like "why are you being so sweet to me". imagine roblox smirk face, i am not even lying. and then we just chatted more and then i started talking to his friend some how who i actually didnt recognize fully but i knew he was in their class. and when i would dap this guy up to show respect (he was talking abt quitting something or something) he would like try to intertwine our fingers and hold my hand. i had to laugh in his face bro i couldn't help it. and then i like dapped him up again to leave and he tried to hold it and i took it away real quick while still laughing and went back to jane and jack. then we just danced and i felt all of their little group judging us lowk. idk maybe im just being insecure but i felt it dammit!

ok thats really all i remember LMAO. i know more happened but i can't for the life of me remember. something something happening back in jack's room, tension ooo? i wish i could remember but i CANNOT! but yeah that's all! luv a good girl's night :]

[girlwithnomemory1563]

the poor decision i made today was smoking and eating damn near the whole family sized box of white chedder cheezits

[girlwithnomemory1563]

I let my pussy make my decisions, call that clitical thinking

[girlwithnomemory1563]

i forgot!

OMG ok so another small thing happened last thursday that i completely forgot abt bc the man i had was so yummy looking i got hypnotized.

but ok ok this guy i had previously hooked up (toby) with usually goes to the bar we go to and we saw his friend so i text toby to see if he's also there bc i need someone to buy me a drink. but then i forget that i texted him bc i met the other guy. and later in the night, jane comes up to me and was like "i just saw old dude with some blonde girl" and im like "alr whatever" bc im sitting on the lap of a 6'5 230lb man.

and later i check my phone and toby texts back "yeah with my gf"... how do u already have a gf when we just smashed two weeks ago? ok maybe thats not a crazy amount of time but it just made me raise a brow bc huh...

but yeah it was just a funny moment to me bc i thought id be more hurt when i saw him with another girl (i make everything so serious i have an issue) but it didnt bug me that much at all. i am getting past my hopeless romantic era...finally...im free of my chains..

[girlwithnomemory1563]

r u serious

pardon my lack of posts; i actually haven't had much time to make poor decisions! just smoke too much, sleep too little and work all of my days away! :,} so actually, a pat on my back is needed since i've been good these past weeks. despite my lack of activity, i have lots of yapping to partake in. i'll try to include a TL;DR at the end to sum it all up.

so we went out thursday! i slept most of the day and then met up with my friend, jane to get ready together. we smoked with her family (hello) and i ended up leaving with a cool ass ashtray! its a pyramid and it opens up to hold all of my roaches :3

ok ok then we head off to her boyfriends dorm and we pregammed with some sort of peachy alcohol... i forgot. but we drank almost the whole damn handle between the three of us before going so i came into the bar just looking for some funsies. immediately, omg, i spot this tall ass hunk of guy (so cringe but if y'all saw him, heeyunk is all you'd think) so ofc im like, ok mental note made. idk if the universe wanted us to meet or if we're just both tall so we saw each other over the crowd LMAO. anywho, we get in there and start dancing after chatting with all of our friends. i got to see an old coworker from my first job! then got scolded by her for being underaged! she actually unleashed a whole bunch of lore onto me abt this other girl we worked with who i actually had such a huge crush on. blah blah basically the girl cheated on the coworker i ran into with her ex and her now current bf. and then ran off to texas! huh!

ANYWAYS OMG we get back onto the dance floor and i see the large man in my radius again. he was like blonde and had the serial killer glasses and a good ass pedo stache. and he was just sooo beefy you have no idea oh my god. and he was 6'5. 6'5!! i'm a 5'10 girl so he's already won me. so we've like seen each other at this point but i keep dancing obviously. the music was so good that night actually, wasn't the normal overplayed playlist. and while im dancing, he somehow ends up in front of me with my group of friends between us and shoves into my friend! and my friend yells at him so obviously i watch with intent and then im like "guys WAIT hes literally a cadet PLS show some respect" so we all saluted him. and he rolled his eyes and i came. lmao jk but it was stupidly attractive and made me reflect abt myself.

we keep going in and out of the bar to smoke and finally, and i've forgotten how we started talking, but he ends up beside me and my friend so i talked to his hunky ass! he was wearing one of those baja (? i googled the style) hoodie in the bar so im like "are you not hot?" and blah blah blah. and we start dancing. and his strong ass beefy arms stayed around me and he was so big grrr. and this bitch bumped into jane so obv jane apologizes. and then the bitch's little goonie ass friend is like "yeah sorry you were in the way.." pardon? so jane comes and tells me and i whip around real quick to find this munchkin bc hey, i have my snake belly ring in so like obv i can do so damage..../not serious at all. and this man...this hunk man...like moved me to be beside him and was like looking for her too! he was down for the gang!

oh god im yapping and i havent even gotten to the GOOD PARTTT. ok so we all go outside and i sit in the chair next to him and we're just chatting. and then he just seamlessly pulls me into his lap??? didn't even struggle? came once again. so im sitting in his lap chatting with him and we go to get up and leave and this man...picks me up and does curls with me still in his arms....never wanted to ride a man's face more than right then and there. so in this moment i have decided im not leaving without this man. and it wasnt even that hard! i mentioned i was going to sleep in jane's boyfriend's floor and he was like "pls i have a bed for you to sleep in" and i was like "say less". i do need more survival instincts BUT you dont get it. if u were feeling the liquor like i was while feeling his huge buff arm around my neck in the bar then you'd understand that i had no other choice. actually lmao as we left, my other friend stella grabbed me and was like "ma he looks like jeffrey dahmer, think abt it" and did! i did think! with my dick!

so we drive to this dingy frat house in the woods (once again, survival is not my middle name hey) and we get in this room that's not even his btw, and there's a bed with a futon next to it. this jackass tells me im sleeping on that futon! and as we were leaving, he was like "no funny business tho, im going to bed" like ok! right! ok ok! but he was just pranking me after i had already started cleaning it up. so we get in bed and start watching tv and im like, abt to explode from horny since i now have this beef cake down to his underwear next to me in bed, so i say "fr no funny business?" and he's all like "i guess some wouldn't hurt" so we start kissing. ok kisser! not a lot of tongue but i get it! and then i move to give him head eventually and he's like instantly "how tf are u so good at blowjobs" and it really stroked my ego so bad. and he came really quick and it didnt throw me off bc for some reason, every man ive been with has ejaculated prematurely in everything. and then we try to go to bed and we're spooning and his boner is pushing into me so im like "you don't want to have sex?" and he says "nope!" and im like "ok! can i ask why!" and he's like

"i'm waiting until marriage!"

ok! ok...! ...ok... i respect that completely bc he went on abt how its like the highest form of discipline to be able to resist sex. so i'm like "ok just put me in the queue when u start sexing people" and we talk a little bit more and then off to sleep we go. so ive made him cum once so far and ive came zero times. which is ok! no its not. but whatever.

we wake up and like, he seemed sorta into me the previous night but i think he saw what i looked like in normal daylight and with no makeup so it turned him off. but we talk some more and i find out my friends killed my vape the night before so obv i bitch abt it. and hes like "i have another vape for you" and he meant his penis! so i give him head again and then he goes to pee. and this man farts so manly and loudly that i could hear it from the room and i cant even say anything. like i knew his tummy felt so much better after that. but then he gets a cup of coffee, doesn't offer me a cup minus 5 points, and then we talk some more. and he checked himself out in the tv reflection as he talked to me. minus like 2 points bc once again, hes beefy so i get it. then he drives me back to my rink dink ass 2005 honda accord and hes like "ah..it says a lot abt you" Hello? Get tf out of my face??

but yeah i left and we haven't talked since! i doubt i'll ever see him again bc hes currently a student at an out of state college. he went to the college in my town for the previous three years and studied biochem...splooged again. but yeah he was just down here for his birthday weekend. so i'll most likely never see him again but if i do, im coming with a wedding certificate so we can bone.

tl;dr: met an amazingly hunky guy, hyped him up so hard in my head, got to his crib and drops the abstinence bomb. i made him cum twice, i came zero. a lose for me but hey...he was so fucking fine i'd do it again any day of the week.

[girlwithnomemory1563]

boring day

my friend pulled out from our plans to go out tonight to save money (stupid smart responsible bitch) so i just stayed in for tonight. my regrettable decisions include:

sleeping all day (now i'll stay up all night)

getting mcdonalds (im not even hungry, just got the munchies)

smoked too much and now my head hurts :'/

not too bad but very inconvenient decisions. however, the night is still young. i just decided to post now so i wouldn't forget :3

[girlwithnomemory1563]

first post yippee!

okay so first things first, im taking a semester off of college! that is why i have so much time to commit to these poor decisions lol. so now let me tell u abt me!

i am currently 18! i've only completed one semester of college, major is psychology ofc bc what else would it be, and i just recently got promoted to shift lead at my fast food job. yippee! big accomplishments!

i have thursdays off so thats when we go out to drink, so i'll have stories to share fridays. and every other day of the week bc apparently, my only valid thought process is yolo.

i'm not sure what other info to share...im not trying to get too personal so i'll refrain from posting pics of me and my friends and i'll change their names. however, you would've had nooo idea if i hadn't typed it out lol :3. and any other lore that needs to be like shared will come out.