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Literally the marauders!!!!!

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For those of you who need motivation or scenario ideas for you marvel DR…

[Disclaimer! Haven’t shifted yet]

Me, Natasha, and Wanda Will occasionally pick up Peter from school to embarrass him

Sometimes me and the team will go on road-trips, hikes or amusement parks

I give the whole team nicknames

We have team movie night every two times a week

I take Pietro Paragliding

I help Peter vlog a video around the compound for a documentary for school (Everyone knows he’s spiderman but it doesn’t affect his life at school)

I do Bucky’s and Pietros and Lokis and Steve’s makeup whenever they fall asleep around the compound

I teach Thor some things on Earth and take him on a small field trip of New York

Me and Wanda often wake up and bake at night together

Me and Natasha and Wanda get matching tattoos together

Once a week me, Wanda, Natasha and Pepper have girls day

I hang out in Tony and Bruce’s lab to keep them company on boring days

Me and another avenger will dress up as a mockery of iron man and Captain America and then trick or treat at the compound to annoy them

Steve and Natasha get together eventually with the help of me, Wanda and Sam

Sam and me fly everywhere together on random days when trying to get away from Steve’s morning training

Wanda and Vision have Billy and Tommy for real and Vision doesn’t die

Me and Tony will sing Star Spangled man to annoy Steve

Me and Sam always laugh at meetings

Me and Peter steal Tony’s cars to go get food

Me and Clint take funny photos of the team and make a whole online scrapbook and show them

Me and Clint play hide and seek in the vents

When Rocket visits earth me and him steal Bucky’s arm but Bucky always catches us

I make Bruce his morning tea and will bring it to him in the mornings

Peter thinks of me as his sister

Yelena is an avenger and we always make macaroni together and go on late night trips with Pietro, Kate and Peter for gas station candy and slurpies

I teach strange about the multiverse

Me and Kate always Snapchat each-other weird photos of ourselves

Me, Kate, Yelena and Peter randomly host fashion shows in the compound and use Pietros, Natasha, Tony’s, Steve’s and Wanda’s Closet to do so

There’s always comedic bickering over the coms between people on missions

Scott and me prank each other all the time

Peter shows me all his school projects that he aces and I always tell him I’m proud of him

Me and the team play board games

After Tony’s parties the team always plays truth or dare and other games

I teach Vision about Humans and help him with his feelings

Me and Kate jokingly flirt before I started dating Pietro

Jarvis and F.R.I.D.A.Y gives me daily compliments which confuses and annoys Tony

I get a German Shepard and name him Bear and he lives at the compound

Me and Valkeyrie make fun of Loki and Thor together and also have one on one drinking games

I get everyone what they wanted for Christmas and never fail to get them gifts they need or wanted

Me and Peter wear matching pajamas once a week and make Tony match with us

Every day I’ll ask Pepper about my outfit and give her a ootd for fun, I always go to Pepper with drama and always talk to her about everything

Me and Wanda start a kickstarter to put down Pietro, Bucky and Tony when they’re mean(Peter, Sam and Steve love to donate)

I challenge Yelena to go bull riding with me and we both set new world records

I purposely set my phone up in front of the avengers when they call me so they can see the terrible and hilarious contacts I give them

We all live together In the compound

I babysit for Laura and Clint (her and the kids live at the tower and have a whole floor to themselves)

Me, Pietro, Wanda, Peter, Kate and Yelena, post the most chaotic youtube videos

I take the avengers to a fair and make them go on roller coasters with me

Me, Natasha and Wanda will do random challenges and dares in public when with the rest of the team

I watch the flash infront of Pietro to annoy him

I hire a personal assistant for the day with Tony’s card just to annoy him

Me, Pietro and Yelena read fanfictions of us to laugh about

Peter and me have a secret handshake

Me and Kate make the avengers do TikTok’s with us

Me and Cassie dye Scott’s hair pink and he calls us both traitors

Every Monday I’ll run to a local coffee shop down the street from the compound and buy everyone coffees and pastries

Before I began to date Pietro whenever someone would hit on me, Wanda, Kate and Sam would always say we were together and then insult the person hitting on me very subtly

Me, Kate and Pietro always sneak alcohol at Tony’s parties even though me and Pietro can’t get drunk

I cook for the avengers all the time because I’m the best cook out of everyone

Me, Sam, Pietro, Clint, and Pepper are very chaotic when grocery shopping.(Me, Pietro, Clint and Sam always manage to fit into one shopping cart and we make Pepper push us around, Tony always trails behind because he’s embarrassed)

The team always goes shopping together

I tell Pepper the embarrassing moments of the team

Me and Sam always annoy Bucky with redwig

Me and Yelena will fully mock the team infront of them just for kicks

Occasionally I’ll invite Ned, and Mj over to the compound and me and Ned will not so subtly try and get Mj and Peter together (it works)

Me and Morgan always play dress up and eat ice cream together while watching Barbie, Tony always accuses me of “stealing his child”

Me and Peter and Kate purposely use gen-z references infront of Steve, Bucky and Tony to annoy and confuse them

Me and Loki will blast the most inappropriate music and vibe to it infront of everyone

Sam and me always do ballet at the most random times together in the compound

Me, Pietro and Clint play the game where any time one of us says “Andy’s coming!” The other two of us have to drop to the floor until told otherwise

I always yell at Tony in different languages To confuse him

Whenever In insult battles I always make a comment about Lokis, thors, Bucky’s and Pietros hair

Me and Yelena always make the most inappropriate jokes

I buy the weirdest merch of all the avengers and wear it infront of them to annoy them

Me and Natasha randomly put ‘Kick me’ signs on the team and then kick them and laugh so hard with each other about it

Happy and me will randomly break out into comabat battles and I always win

I make Happy wear a security dress, and me and Tony can’t stop laughing for the rest of the day

I bought a drum set for Morgan and Tony almost threw me out of the five story window, Pepper had to stop him but I could not stop laughing

Me and James Rhodes whenever he comes to visit will always call Tony ‘Stank’

Me and Kate both fake a pregnancy test and show Tony and Clint

Now Good Luck and go shift! I know you can do it!

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Title: Monster

Warnings: mentions of blood, cursing, injuries

Word count: 3246

A/n: This is an updated version from my second account

Summary: Remus doubts himself in being good enough for Y/n, his friend since year one, and once she finds them in the forest after a transformation he at the end of the night has no choice but to confess

Y/ns POV

"Good morning." I greeted to the four boys before me who were already devouring their breakfast. "Morning." All of them groaned. I chuckled before taking my usual spot near Remus.

"Hey." He sheepishly murmured to me as I sat. I smiled warmly at Remus. "Hi." I replied and filled my plate with toast and eggs. "You okay?" I whispered.

It was definitely a lot quieter than normal and that was scary. It was like when a toddler went radio silent when you were in the next room. It always meant trouble.

The three other boys peeked there heads up staring at me and Remus as he murmured back a response. "Perfect." He said as his best attempt at a smile which warmed his face.

I decided to ignore the weirdness amongst everyone today and brought up topics of upcoming quidditch games, new books from the muggle world I had found, and literally anything else that would peek the interest of someone here.

After breakfast I caught up with the marauders who were headed back up to the common room.

"Hey guys wait up, why don't we head down to Hogsmeade today?" I suggested. It seemed to perk there interest. "I'll pay." I added which sealed the deal for Peter, james and Sirius but Remus still insisted on lounging back today and hanging behind.

I waved a small sad goodbye. It felt stupid to be upset over something so small, but I could tell when my friend had something bugging him and it always tore me to shreds when they didn't allow me to help.

"He's fine, just a tough day." Sirius randomly stated. I looked up at him and linked his arm with mine.

"What happened? Was it Snivellus or Malfoy again because I swear I'll hex them to an oblivion!" I snarled as my voice suddenly raised.

"No no! Nothing like that just personal problems." It was suspiciously vague and it made me mad. "Care to be specific?" He shook his head rather fast. "He must be the one to tell you."

The four of us finished up a few hours later after we filled the time with Butterbeers and laughter. Time had snuck by us and it quickly became seven at night. The boys seemed frantic to get back home and I was startled and worried at there rush.

"What's the hurry?" "Homework." Sirius replied which caused me to snort. "You three? Homework? Bullshit." "Look we just don't wanna leave Remus alone tonight, it's just family stuff and we feel bad leaving him to suffer the whole night." James stated it almost as a question as he looked around at Sirius and Peter who gave affirmative nods confirming his story.

"Family problems?" I questioned as guilt started to nip at me. "His grandpa passed away three days ago and it's taken a toll on him." James sighed.

"What? His grandpa died four years ago." Confusion clouded my thoughts. "It's what he told us." Sirius lamely argued. As soon as we reached the castle the three rushed upstairs but I was hot on there tails and followed the whole way.

When we reached the common room remus was the last one there. He sat near the fireplace with his knees tucked up to his chest.

"Rem." I whispered and went to sit right next to him. I cradled him in my arms and wrapped him in a tight hug. He accepted the gesture but once my grip was loosened his head snapped over to James, Peter and Sirius who all shook there heads.

"Sorry mate, we felt bad not saying anything. She knows your grandpa passed." Sirius apologized emphasizing his words.

"Oh right!" He frowned. "You should've told me." I whispered holding him close in my arms again. "Do you want me to stay tonight?" I asked. "No!" Remus quickly blurted.

My eyes clouded with hurt. "No! Not like that it's just you need rest to and I don't want you to get in trouble for being here." He assured unconvincingly.

"Okay." I stood up and let my hand linger in his another second before giving smiles to all and walking to my dorm where soft snores already filled the silence. I smiled sadly to myself.

Remus's POV

"Seriously! That's the best excuse you could find?" I snapped as Y/n left the room. "Sorry Mate but would you rather have let the fact your a werewolf slip?" Sirius asked raising an eyebrow. "Shhh!" I was quick to silence him not wanting any lurking ears to hear in. "No, your right I'm sorry." I mumbled.

We snuck away and made our way down to the forbidden forest where I stood impatiently with the tears already clouding my sight.

"It'll be okay." James assured giving a reassuring squeeze to my shoulder. I offered a smile and could slowly feel the pain begin.

My body had started to change slowly but surely. I was screaming in pain until I'd lost all control and howled into the night.

6:00 am

Y/ns POV

"Hey guys." I whispered. I snuck my way into there dorm only to find all empty beds. My heart clenched from worry.

"Where are you?" I whispered to myself and ran over to James side of his bed.

I felt underneath until I could grasp the rolled paper from underneath. I unrolled the map and found there locations within the forbidden forest.

I fought everything in me telling me not to go and snuck outside and into the forest.

"It hurts." I heard a whimper from an all to familiar voice and all of a sudden my feet took control. I was now sprinting desperately trying to find the voice.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." "It's okay bud, we're gonna get you help." The voices got louder and I ran and ran. "Shh." Remus shushed. "Someone's here." I could hear leaves crunching and I knew they had stood up ready to fight. I still ran.

I was close and my legs were burning in pain but my feet kept going. Until I saw him.

Remus was a bleeding, sobbing mess on the floor and Sirius and James were awkwardly stood with there wands in hand also bloodied and bruised.

"Remus!" I cried and in and instant I let my legs give out and sunk next to him hugging him carefully. I panted. "What the hell happened?" "Why are you here?" We both blurted at the same time.

"I came to check on you and you weren't there, so I took the map and followed you guys." I could hear James mutter saying something about not touching his stuff. I brushed it off and stared at remus waiting for an answer.

"Nothing important." Was all he could mutter. I sighed and decided not to press just yet. I pulled out my wand and stood up guiding James and Sirius to the floor next to remus.

I held Remus's hand as I focused on his wounds first seeing he had it the worst. "Vulnera Sanentur." I whispered and it physically hurt to hear the whimpering and cries coming from remus.

I latched onto his hand tighter and finished healing the deep wounds. The spell had cleaned the wound and healed it to what he needed but all left massive scars which made him sigh.

Now that I realized it his whole stomach and arms held loads of scars I had never noticed before. I gently placed my hand over them and slightly brushed over them with my fingers which made him flinch away.

"Sorry." I said instantly feeling I had crossed boundaries that were not meant to be crossed. He was now huddled up against a tree with his hands covering the scars on his stomach. I felt tears well in my eyes as I saw the tears stream from his.

I stood up and walked back over before crouching down to his level. I held his arm up and whispered another spell. "Episkey."

That would heal his wrist that was without a doubt fractured. "Ferula." Within an instant the rest of his wounds were covered with bandages.

I stared at him as he repositioned his hands to cover his scars again.

I sighed and let a tear slip. I placed my hand on his face and cradled his cheek. I stared at him and looked at him as if I was asking for approval.

He stared at me unsurely and I could've sworn he was considering it.

Although when he flinched away again and I saw no sign he wanted me to do what I do desperately wanted to I embarrassingly scrambled away to Sirius.

He was laying on the floor groaning in agony but still managed to shoot me a smirk, which I would've so gladly smacked from his face if he wasn't already hurt. "Shut up." I breathed.

I quickly whispered two simple spells healing up the little cuts he had and bandaging the rest.

"Hey where'd Peter go?" I asked as I made my way to James. "Slimy little git ran away, I swear he almost pissed himself, again."

I shot him a glance that made his cheeks burn red and his eyes bulged out in terror.

"Again? Is this some usual occurrence that happens amongst you idiots!" I snapped. James sheepishly looked at remus whom was now glaring daggers at him.

"No, no I just ummm." He sputtered. I placed a hand on his shoulder to wave it off. The interrogation could wait until they were all back safely.

I whispered the same two spells as I did with Sirius and helped them all stand up. I stood in between James and remus with both arms around there shoulders as best I could considering the insane height difference wal Sirius stood on the end with his arm around James shoulder.

"Almost there." I said softly. The three were now trying there best to hide there whimpers and cries of pain.

"Ah fuck it." I whispered and grabbed my wand out again. I huddled up the boys in a circle who were to tired to ask any question. "Apparition." I whispered and shut my eyes tight hoping this went right.

It was a hard spell to perfect and could end dangerously terrible if done wrong.

And thank god it hadn't. All four of us were now inside there dorm. Teleportation at its finest. I smiled proudly to myself.

Though I quickly jumped back into action at helping. I sat them down on the couch and filled up three waters and ordered them to drink. Wal they sipped there waters I grabbed clothes for them.

I took the empty glasses and placed them in the sink before helping Sirius up and taking him to the bathroom to quickly help his limp self get changed, I did the same with James and all went well with the two of them besides there obnoxious snarky comments.

Even half unconscious and they were still the same annoying gits they were every other day.

I sat both of them back on the couch and went to help remus but he grabbed his clothes and insisted he could do it himself.

I hesitated to let him do so but handed over the clothes and helped Sirius and James to there separate beds and covered the two of them pressing kisses to both of there foreheads. "Goodnight." I whispered.

Remus's POV

I winced as the fabric scratched over my skin. A burdening guilt sat in my stomach. She saw me. She saw them. Scars.

They decorated my whole body and while I was used to it I also had the advantage of long sleeve shirts and covering them with makeup.

But Y/n saw them, ripped t-shirt nothing to cover the hideousness of them. I was disgusted with myself. She must've been repulsed and I couldn't blame her. I was hideous in every way and my scars made me ten times more of the monster I already was.

My heart started to race at the thought of Y/n finding out what I was, and then my head went to the dreaded unimaginable, What if she came earlier? I could've killed her, I could've hurt her. I would've proved to her that I was a monster.

God I was a coward and in no way good for

Y/n. Unfortunately feelings didn't matter if you were bad for someone or in no way deserving of them.

It didn't matter if I was a beast and she was the princess, I still fell for her.

I finished pulling my shirt over my head and fought the urge to look away from the mirror.

In an instant images of Y/n on the floor with blood pouring from her and me standing over her. My breath got heavy and I forgot how to breathe.

I heard a knock or at least I thought I did. It was forgotten about rather quickly however as I dropped to the floor wal clutching my chest. The door handle shook and I heard Y/n whispering a spell under her breath which allowed the door to swing open.

She was by my side in seconds and held both my hands whispering me to breathe and I was safe. "Rem, look at me, hey."

I couldn't it was impossible. My breathing kept picking up its pace and before It had any chance to increase anymore Y/n kissed me. She was kissing me.

It took me a second to realize what was happening but once I comprehended, I kissed her back.

She pulled away and I was staring at her with nothing but confusion. "Wha- I-I." I stumbled on my words. Her face flushed a bright red.

"I heard holding your breath could help with panic attacks." It clearly had worked. My breathing seemed to slow and I was so focused on what just happened that I wasn't as panicked as before.

"What happened Rem?" I sighed.

No. She would leave and I didn't want her to go. Was that selfish? Holding out on the truth just to keep her for longer. Maybe, but I wasn't ready to let go.

"Please not right now." I begged. My voice trembled. Y/n didn't ask any other questions and helped me up.

She walked me over to my bed and laid me in it, covering me up she whispered a small goodnight. I closed my eyes hoping to stop the tears that were threatening to fall.

Why did I have to be a monster that everyone hated? I just wanted one good thing. And if Y/n found out she'd leave, she was my good thing. She was my everything and I couldn't have her. I couldn't keep her forever.

With that thought of knowing she wasn't mine and couldn't be, I dozed off.

"No no no!" I cried, now human, I stood over Y/ns body holding her in my arms. Sirius and James stared at me with shock.

She was bleeding out and crying for help. "Why'd you do this?" James asked demandingly.

"What? No I-I didn't mean to she was, I." Sirius interrupted me. "Monster. You killed her. Sick, and you wonder why everyone leaves." Peter appeared from behind a tree and all looked at the now limp body before chanting. "Monster, monster, monster-."

I shot awake in a cold sweat. "No!" I cried scanning my surroundings. I had found Y/n on the bed shaking me until she saw my eyes open.

"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry." I apologized, hugging her as tightly as one could. "Remus? What happened?" I sighed and dreadfully pulled out of her embrace.

"I had a nightmare, I killed you." I uttered embarrassed. "Rem you could never hurt me!" Y/n quickly assured. "I could!" I snapped back. "Why do you think that."

My eyes filled with a fresh wave of tears. "Y/n I'm a werewolf."

I closed my eyes and waited. I waited for the stinging in my cheek, I waited for the sounds of running on the floor and a door slamming, I waited for a scoff of disgust. I waited for her to go.

But when i peeked open an eye like a kid at a scary movie I found all my fears to be just that, fears.

Y/n was still here. Right in front of me with a soft smile.

"So?" It was a question no one ever asked. Everyone assumed the worst before asking why it was such a horrible thing. "So? Y/n I could've killed you if you came any earlier to that forest!"

"But you didn't." She sat down on the bed right in front of me in between my legs and stretched her legs out past me. "But I could have." Y/n out a hand out signaling me to stop.

"Remus we could go back and forth all night. But in the end, you could never hurt me, you never will, because I know you, you could never hurt me not even when out of control. I trust you and you need to learn to trust yourself to."

I cried. "Y/n, I'm a monster and-and what about the scars? They don't go away." My voice broke.

"So what about the scars Remus they make you, you. They make you the boy that I love." I stared at her in shock not in understanding of what way she meant "she loved me."

I placed my hands on her face and stared into her eyes. "Can I kiss you?" Y/n laughed and nodded.

I slowly and hesitantly brought my face closer to hers, I could feel her breath on my face, and my heart raced.

My lips hovered inches from hers. "Are you sure?" I whispered.

Though instead of speaking Y/n wordlessly brought a hand behind my head and smashed her lips against mine.

I immediately kissed her back and our lips found a rhythm. The kiss was passionate and hesitant and gentle.

When I pulled away I placed my forehead against hers with my hands still on her face. "And Remus, don't ever refer to yourself as a monster again." I nodded.

"Please never leave?" Her hand rested on my knee. "Promise." "I love you." I whispered. "I love you to. So much."

Y/ns POV

"You think they did it?" "Ay mate shut up they'll hear you." "Does she know?" "How would I know?" "She definitely knows."

I opened my eyes and saw Sirius and James bickering over top of me. "I know." I whispered with my cheeks tinted pink.

My face turned a deeper shade of red once I realized Remus had both arms wrapped around me holding me tightly.

"And you stayed?" Sirius asked, you could tell he was shocked and it broke my heart knowing that no one ever stayed for him. "Why would I have any reason to leave?" I smiled up at Remus.

Who could think he was a monster?

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Title: Miscommunications

Warnings: angst, cursing, self hatred, mentions of rape

Word count: 1699

Summary: Remus overhears reader talking and assumes it's him she's talking bad about since she found out about his "fury little problem" a couple days ago

Y/ns POV

One week ago-

"Remus." I breathed, my eyes began to water at the sight of him.

He was laying in the hospital bed, cuts covered his body, he had a horrified and embarrassed look plastered on his face.

I wasn't supposed to be here.

He didn't want me to see him like this.

He didn't want me to know.

But I was.

I was seeing him.

And I knew.

I knew Remus Lupin was a werewolf, my best friend.

And I don't love him any less. In fact his strength, bravery and courage made me love him more than ever.

It seemed to be known to everybody but Remus that I though of him more than a friend.

I fancied him.

And I fell deeper in love with him every time I saw him.

"Y/n.." His voice cracked. "I'm so sorry." He cried. I fell apart at the sight of tears in his eyes. He didn't deserve to have to doubt if I would still be here for him.

He didn't deserve the hell he got.

It wasn't his fault. Now or ever. It was never his fault, but he always took the blame.

Four hours ago;

"What the hell?" I muttered to myself as I caught sight from my window of four boys sprinting across the courtyard and into the forbidden forest.

Four recognizable boys.

"Damnit you twats." I whispered again and quickly slipped out of my dorm.

I followed them out to where I watched them go and listened for any hint of where they were.

"Shut up Pads!" Bingo.

I ran towards the familiar voice of James. Only faltering as the voices were no longer heard and a howl filled the silence.

Fuck.

Stupidly I continued my mission of finding the boys. "James!" I whisper shouted out into the night. "Siri?" ..."Rem?" ..."Pete?"

Nothing.

I let going until I heard the crunching of leaves behind me. "Oh you blo-." I stopped mid sentence as I turned anticipating to see James, Peter, Remus and Sirius ready to scare me.

Though the sight I got was quite a heart stopper. A werewolf, barring it's teeth at me and beginning to growl. A step closer from the werewolf resulted in a step back from me.

There was someone within the fury creature. A person. I knew that much, a student perhaps? A teacher?

My gaze along with the werewolf's redirected on the bark of a dog and a stag coming in between us.

The dog began to distract the creature while the stag nudged me with its antlers.

Where the hell were the boys? Were they safe? I need to find them!

I listened to the physical direction of the animal and began to run.

"James!" I yelled once more. Shit.

I turned around to see the sight of the stag being knocked to the ground and the dog being thrown out of the path of the werewolf.

I tripped on a root as I wasn't watching where I was going and surely twisted my ankle.

I winced as I tried to stand.

A squeak broke me from my panic and began to tug on my shoelaces with its teeth.

The boys. I needed to find them.

The rat continued to squeak crazy. "Fuck!" I cried as I attempted to stand.

The werewolf was getting close, I could hear him.

Tears fell from my eyes as I began to run on my hurt ankle.

"Remus!" Nothing.

The rat was running beside me.

I fell once more as the pain became to much. Growling could be heard and about ten feet away from me, was the werewolf.

He got closer and closer as i desperately tried to scoot away.

He raised his paw and swiped at me, successfully clawing my stomach.

"Ahh!" I clutched the wound my breathing picked up. Once more he swiped, leaving a mark on my upper right arm.

I whimpered. The werewolf seemed satisfied with its work and ran off, howling once more.

"Y/n!" Peter. "Y/n stay with me!" James.

"Guys the, you have to run!" I grunted as my eyes started to flutter shut.

"Y/n. It's okay, we're safe!" Sirius said through tears while squeezing my hand tightly.

"No! It's a werewolf. I don't want him to hurt you." My eyes became heavier.

"Y/n. It's us. The dog, Stag, rat.... Werewolf it's us." My eyes shut but I breathed out my realization before I went unconscious. "Remus."

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"Don't." I whispered making him flinch.

"Do not apologize Remus. This isn't your fault." I hushed. Cautiously I limped towards the bed he laid upon.

"Y/n stay back. It is! It's my fault. You're fucking limping because of me. You're here because of me. Lift up your shirt!" He ranted.

"Y/n please! I need to see, please just do it." Slowly I became to tug upwards on the bottom hem of my top until it showed the large scars that were left on my chest.

Silently he turned away and began to sob.

"Remus...it wasn't your fault." I began to cry.

"Please stay away." I disobeyed his wish and laid down on the bed beside him and wrapped my arms around his waist. His back was still facing me.

We both sat there crying. He cried because he thought he was a terrible monster and because he thought he had hurt me. I cried because he was crying.

"It's not your fault."

"Ye-."

"Remus, it's not your fault."

"Y/n. Pl-."

"Love. It's not your fault. I don't and never will blame you. Whenever or if ever you're ready to tell me how, or when your condition started, I'm here to listen."

Silence washed over us again for another ten minutes before he spoke up, and told me everything.

I held his sobbing body in my arms and kissed his forehead. "I'm so proud of you Remus, thank you for telling me."

He turned over and looked at me. He finally had made eye contact.

"I love you my boy." I whispered. The weight of the secret had magically lifted from my shoulders.

"I love you too." A smile appeared on his face.

Hesitantly I leaned down and captured his lips with my own. A soft delicate kiss.

We talked a bit longer and I kept on ensuring him he was still the Remus I know and how I loved him still and how he was brave.

And then we fell asleep tangled up with one another.

Once he got discharged, we both went our separate ways for bed, all without making anything official or asking about feelings, instead we went just with another kiss and a whisper of  "I love you" and for now, it was enough.

Remus's POV

Present

I subconsciously smiled as I heard her laugh from a distance.

Quietly I made my way through the portrait and just about turned the corner to the Gryffindor common room but abruptly stopped as I heard Y/n talking to Sirius, James and Peter.

"I can't believe I was ever willing to be his friend. The idiots disgusting and stupid to think I'd ever want to stick around after what he's done." The four of them laughed and I felt my heart plummet.

Was she... taking about me?

"He's a freak. I'm pissed I ever let him near me and that I ever was willing to trust him, he's a fucking monster."

Tears began to fall from my eyes. No.

I left. I ran out of the room and went down to the library.

Freak. She was right. Why does everyone always leave?

I didn't bother reading, I just sat in the corner of the isle filled with history books where no one ever went and sobbed for at least an hour before someone's footsteps startled me.

"Rem?" Y/n.

"Go away." I croaked.

She sat next to me and tried to interlock our fingers but I pulled away and stood up.

"Screw you Y/n." I whispered. Her face contorted In confusion.

"What?"

"You know you were fucking right! I am an idiot, an idiot for thinking you'd ever love me. You told me I wasn't a monster! You fucking promised. I told you everything and you went behind my back. I told you my insecurities and feelings. I told you I loved you to. You called me a monster." I finished, my voice breaking off at the end.

I tried to run but Y/n grabbed my leg with her hand making me stop.

"What are you talking about? I never called you a monster! I meant it when I said I love you Remus. You are not a monster." Her voice was surprisingly calm for someone who just got told off.

"I heard you in the lounge. They laughed at your comment. They laughed at me." I whispered, tears fell as I remembered the laughs of James, Sirius, Peter and Y/n.

"Remus, we weren't talking about you. We were talking about Snape, he touched me and Lilly. He tried to rape a third year. I would never say something so untrue and hateful about you. I love you Remus Lupin. So fucking much it hurts."

My blood boiled. "Where is he?" She shook her head and grabbed my arm. "Not important, administration is taking care of it."

"Y/n-." "Remus we need to continue this. I know you're scared, I'm scared too. But we can work. I love you. I've never have and never will see you as a monster. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me."

Tears continued to fall.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered and fell to my knees, hugging her around her waist.

She went to her knees to and brushed hair from my face. " I love you." "I love you to Y/n."

"Promise me something?" She stared up at me expectantly.

"Never leave?" "Never."

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Title: Two pounds

Warnings: Cursing, slight angst

Word count: 3572

Summary: Sirius makes a bet with reader, if he can make her fall for him by the end of the year she owes him two pounds, if not he'll give her seventy five pounds.

Y/ns POV

"Hey love." I rolled my eyes at the voice.

Picking up my pace slightly in hopes to avoid him.

Though him being taller gave him the advantage, as seeing he was caught up with me in seconds.

"Sirius." I huffed. "Don't act so displeased to see me, you know you love me."

I scoffed making him place a hand to his chest, feigning hurt.

"So.. Hogsmeade, next week, why don't me and you go together?"

"Hmm.." I placed a hand to my chin to mimic I was considering his offer. A sudden light grew in his eyes as he believed the act.

"No." I gave a sarcastic smile before glaring his way and attempting to walk away. Though just like the last time he caught up.

"Please Y/n. You won't regret it I promise!" He begged. I wanted to laugh at him for his behavior knowing he gained his ego in ways like this. Girls begging and flirting until he finally agreed to take them out.

Though the irrational part of me couldn't help but swoon, he seemed sincere. However I knew deep down, he just wanted to get his run with me. I was just another quick fuck to him.

I couldn't help but consider his offer for real this time. If I did agree to go to Hogsmeade with him, it didn't mean I had to sleep with him. Which I wouldn't. Not on the first date anyways.

I mentally cursed myself for thinking such things.

Just a friendly date perhaps. Would there be such harm in it?

"Or..." Sirius trailed off breaking me from my idiotic thoughts.

"We could make this into a bet, friendly game if you will." He smiled sweetly.

I rolled my eyes. I knew something was up.

"Oh piss off." I slurred out and this time before having the chance to speed off, Sirius gripped gently onto my forearm.

"No! That's not what I meant." He insisted. Desperately pleading for me to forgive him with a simple look carved in his eyes.

"Fine I'll play. What's your "bet?" He beamed at me making my stupid heart (which by the way was now just begging to be torn apart) swell.

His soft but devilish eyes, his switch of a sweet smile and an enticing smirk, his intoxicating scent that reminded me of rain, was now all getting to me.

My head spun and I caught myself in the mistake of falling into his gaze.

I shook my head for a quick second as if I was resetting myself, or preparing myself to hear his words that were surely going to be meant to turn me into putty within his hands.

"If in the occasion I can make you fall for me, you will owe me two pounds, and if I can't I'll owe you seventy five." He shrugged as if it was nothing, which to be honest, to him it probably was.

My eyes widened to the size of saucers and my mouth hung open.

I tried to sputter out a response but that just resulted in me opening, then closing, then reopening my mouth again and again.

Some could say I looked like a fish on land.

"What?" I gasped.

"If I can-." I cut him off with a slap to the arm.

"No you idiot! I heard you, I mean- I don't even know what I mean but why, why would you do this?"

He rubbed his arm with a pout before showing off his signature smirk.

"I like you. If that hasn't been obvious." I shook my head in denial. "No! You don't like me you must just be confused."

He frowned slightly and made a bad attempt at hiding it. "I'm not confused about you. Not at all Y/n. Please just consider it? You won't even talk to me without finding cause to bite my head off, so why not do it while I hold money on the end of the line?"

My heart fluttered at the realization how close he was to me and how he held my shoulders within his hands.

He sent a quick smile and a wink before turning around to leave. Though before he could get away I gripped his wrist.

"How much time do you have?" I questioned, not entirely opposed to the wager.

"Say..... til the end of the year, seem fair enough?" I nodded hesitantly. I didn't know what, or why I was doing this for.

"Fine then. You've got yourself a deal Black." I nodded and stuck a hand out.

Immediately Sirius shook it.

His face held a smug look that all made me realize I'd definitely regret this.

"Starting on last name bases. You're not gonna make this easy are you Love?" I ignored the way my heart beat faster and reciprocated his smile.

"Not at all." I agreed. He nodded and ran a hand through his hair before walking off without another word.

Game on Sirius Black.

Two months later

Over the last two months, ever since the bet was placed between me and Sirius, he had started to begin a never ending streak of flirting.

I leave my dorm he's at the bottom of the girls staircase waiting to escort me to the dining hall or classes, I have a class, Sirius is always there to walk me, I have a run in with a Slytherin who passes a snide comment, Sirius is always there to stick up for me.

And alongside of all of him always being there, he has to pair it with his witty comments.

Whether that's complimenting my outfit or hair, or noting how gorgeous I look today, or telling me I'm smart and beautiful, wonderful.

You get it.

He is playing a never ending game of unfairness. Sure their were no rules or boundaries set in place but how can I not fall for him when he's always there?

It was to late to take back on the deal now, and no way would I cower out and tell him to back off even in the slightest.

He was making it impossibly harder every day, and unknowingly to him, he's always had the advantage considering my (not so tiny) crush I've had on him for, a counting of two years now.

Wherever there's Sirius there's a group of three other idiots.

The marauders as they call themselves. A popular quartet among the school which consisted of, James Potter, "Mr. Lover boy", Remus Lupin, "The kind nerd", Peter Petigrew, "The awkward blonde" and of course, Sirius Black, "The heartbreaker."

All of which had become closely acquainted with myself and I'd even considered the four my closest friends.

With Sirius following me around constantly that meant so did the marauders.

After a while I stopped minding and they even allowed me to join in on their pranks from time to time.

Remus and me constantly studied together and he'd even confided in me with as he liked to call, his "fury little problem."

James had come to me with the need for "advice" on how to get a girl, and he had totally taken, and accepted the role of playing a big brother to me.

Peter showed me his love for music and instruments, and even though he was quiet and shy he had to have hands down the best jokes within the group. He made me laugh the hardest much to the rest's dismay.

And of course. All of this came with the price of Sirius repeatedly projecting the words to "Not steal his girl from him" onto them. He had done of terrible job of hiding his jealousy whenever I'd hang out with the others.

It was honestly quite adorable to watch his pouty face complain about how he never spends time with me anymore because of his stupid friends hogging.

Despite that being an absolute lie, all of my time was spent with him, I still made extra time to hang out with him and enjoy his company.

Not that I'd ever admit he was actually good company.

Summer was approaching fast and James had invited me, Remus and Peter over to his house.

With a-lot of wasted parchment used to convince my parents to allow me to spend summer with them, they finally agreed.

Later

"Hey love." Sirius smiled and took his usual seat next to me in the dining hall.

"Hey guys." I grinned back to the four boys who oddly weren't in the common room to walk together to the dining hall per usual.

"Where were you this morning?" I finally asked.

Remus attempted to speak up but Sirius cut him off.

"Packing...." He paused. "Why? Miss me?"

I scoffed though couldn't help but feel the heat rush to my cheeks and the flush in my ears and neck.

Deciding to play along, I sent a smirk his way and got up, climbing around the table and sat directly on Remus's lap.

"No. But I did miss my favourite marauder." My voice toned as high and flirty as possible.

His stare made me shiver. Remus blushed heavily and attempted to keep himself from touching me at all, scared of the glare Sirius shot him.

I laughed which kept me from realizing Sirius had gotten up.

A loud squeal left my mouth as soon as I felt two hands on my waist lift me up and carry me off Remus.

"Moony you're dead." James chuckled through a mouthful of mashed potatoes.

Peter shot him a disgusted look and wiped the crumbs James spat onto him off his robes.

"Oops- m' Sorry." James replied, food still in his mouth.

"You think you're funny?" Sirius raised his eyebrows, his face and body way to close to mine for my liking.

"Maybe." I shrugged. My voice coming out hoarse.

"Get a room!" James whined covering his eyes along with the other two.

"Oh we will." Sirius smirked picking me back up and carrying me away.

My hands banged against his back as he threw me over his shoulder.

"Sirius put me down!" I demanded but couldn't hide the laugh that I let out. I could barely look up, but I managed and noticed the common room below us. We were walking up the stairs to the boys dormitory.

The sound of the door slamming behind us could be heard from the common room for sure.

I was thrown onto the mattress of Sirius's bed.

Eventually I propped myself up and pressed my back against the headboard and crossed my arms with a pout.

"Rude." He glared at my murmured statement and let out a dry chuckle.

"That stunt was rude. You're mine, not theirs." He whined.

My heart swelled but I ignored it. "Im not yours. The deal was you try to make me yours. So I'm still single and allowed to date whichever marauder or any other person I prefer."

I was teasing him now, purposely attempting to get on his last nerve.

"Yeah. Whatever." He muttered. "I still have another two months and I will make you mine." He smiled determined.

I couldn't help but raise a challenging eyebrow his way. "We'll see Black. Im still holding out on getting that money." I grinned playfully as he shook his head.

Scooting to the end of the bed. I stood up and walked closer and closer til we were face to face, inches apart.

"Goodnight Sirius." I grinned and pressed a kiss to his cheek. He sheepishly smiled and blushed before placing a hand over his cheek where I had kissed him.

It was within that moment I left his dorm, I allowed myself to realize that I was going to lose this bet.

Once to my own dorm, thankfully, Lilly was there.

"I lost." I whispered. Her head snapped up and she stared me in the eyes looking confused so I clarified.

"The bet between me and Sirius, I lost."

Lilly had knew of the bet since day one when we both agreed. Her being my best friend within Hogwarts, I told her immediately afterwards.

She had to have been the only person who knew of my crush on Sirius.

"I figured." She shrugged with a teasing smile.

With a huff of frustration I sat next to her on her bed.

She wrapped her arms around me. "I love him." I whispered, more to myself than her.

"I know sweetie. I know."

The fear was rushing through my bloodstream once again. He was a player. Or at least used to be. I still was scared of trusting him but I knew I could. And I knew I would.

Within a matter of time, if he'd still have me, I'd take him in a heartbeat.

Three weeks later

"James!" The voice of who I can only assume is James's mother has all five of us looking for the voice through the crowds of people.

A hand shoots up in the air "over here!" And we all walk towards it.

As soon as James sees his mother and father he runs into there arms ands stands there for a while in their embrace holding onto them tightly.

Once James pulls back he motions towards the remaining four of us where we were now standing.

Sirius doesn't waste another second and is second to engulf the two adults into a hug.

Me, remus and Peter had all been aware of Sirius and how he was living with the Potters.

I also knew how he considered them as his own parents.

And the sight of Sirius holding onto them so tightly with a smile so bright made me grin myself.

Once Sirius stepped back, James took the opportunity to continue his introduction of us.

"Mom, Dad, These are my friends. That's Remus, and he's Peter and than she's Y/n."

The woman who I knew as Euphima, pulled Peter and Remus into hugs first while the man, Fleamont went around shaking there hands.

Once Euphima got to me she grabbed me just as tight as she did Peter and remus.

"It's so nice to meet you ma'am, I've heard so many great things about you!" I smiled politely at her.

"Please call me Euphima! It's great to meet you dear! I was surprised once James told me you'd be tagging along." I scrunched up my face in confusion. Was that supposed to be a bad thing?

"Oh... why?" I tried to keep from looking to nervous.

"We'll it's just surprising hearing how you'd voluntarily want to spend more time with them, considering it's James and Sirius." She winked and I couldn't help but laugh, which caused James and Sirius to cross there arms and feign hurt.

"They sure are a handful, though they also are fun.... Most of the time, when there not to busy being annoying."

All four of them groaned in defense and started to argue back. Ultimately proving my point.

Euphima and me giggled at there reactions before Fleamont took her previous spot in front of me and shook my hand.

"So you're the Y/n my boy is always on about?" I looked at James who gave me the same disgusted look I wore. "Not me! Him." James exclaimed and pointed down the line to Sirius who was now looking at the floor blushing hard.

"Im reserved for my lillyflower. And her only." I smirked at James and than back at Sirius who caught my eye for a quick second.

"I suppose I am sir-." He gave me a pointed look which made me stop for a second. "Fleamont." I finished to which he nodded in approval.

"Okay! Well let's get going kids. Don't want to get caught up traffic now do we?" We all agreed by silently ushering our way through the platform and running through the pillars before finding our way to their car.

The entire ride had consisted of James telling his mom the entire way about his "progress" with Lilly. Which being her best friend I knew she had feelings for him just refused to admit to him. Peter counting every yellow car we had passed out loud and making sure to tell us about every single bird we saw when passing. Remus stared out the window while humming a chorus of different songs to himself.

And Sirius and me played rock paper scissors, me winning every round. All while bickering about dumb things.

Once arrived I allowed help and helped the boys with mine and their suitcases.

"Thank you again for letting us stay." I smiled at the two.

"No problem at all dear. We love that you all can be together over break." Euphima grinned back.

James took everyone up to his room while Euphima worked on fixing dinner.

"Hey James do you have a phone I can borrow?" He nodded and pointed down the hall to where a phone rested on a table.

"Thank you." I mumbled and walked over.

Quickly dialing Lilly's number, I put the phone to my ear.

"Pick up, pick up, pick-." "Hello?" Lilly's voice interrupted my muttering.

"Lilly I need your help! I need to tell him. I can't keep this secret any longer it's driving me insane. What should I do?"

"Y/n?" "Yeah." I confirmed quickly and continued to wait for her advice.

"Okay first of all calm down. Second of all, why won't you tell him?" Sighing, I answered.

"What if he changed his mind about me? There's no guarantee he kept feelings!" I exclaimed. Panic rising up my body and word's threatening to spill over.

She laughed through the other line. "You are oblivious. The boy is infatuated with you. He stared at you like James stares at me." My mouth went agape and my cheeks began to burn pink.

"He does not!" I ensured. "So does." She promised. "Look, Y/n, do you love him?" Without a missed beat I responded, "yes." "You only have mine and the rest of the marauders word to go off of, which I know is not ideal. But the only way you'll ever be sure is if you trust us. Hand him his two pounds and leave it up to him if he wants to move forward within you're relationship or if his feelings changed."

I sighed nervously. She was right. I had only there word to believe if Sirius loved me.

"Okay." A sudden boost of adrenaline hit my veins. "Okay?" She assured. "Okay!" I replied once more, enthusiastically.

"Good luck." The smile in her tone was evident. "Just know I'm gonna be endlessly playing matchmaker for you and James if this goes well." She scoffed. "I wouldn't expect anything less."

After saying our goodbyes, I hung up.

I sprinted to the spare room I was supplied with and dug through my backpack until I found my wallet, I pulled out the two pounds and shut my door behind me.

I knocked on James's room where all the boys were and opened it once I heard the "come in."

Wordlessly I stepped in, walked up to Sirius and placed out the money to him.

Confused, he reached his hand up from where he was sat and took it.

And with that I left the room just as quickly as I entered.

:

"Holy shit!" Remus suddenly said, Peters eyes widened a second after while James and Sirius still remained clueless.

"What?" Sirius asked staring at the money before glancing back up to the door where Y/n had previously exited.

Peter and Remus glanced at each other before

falling to floor in laughter.

"The bet you idiot!" Remus sputtered out. James eyes flew wide and he joined in on the hysterical laughter.

"Oh." Sirius smiled, still slightly confused. "Oh!" His eyes widened and his mouth went agape. To say he was smiling was now an understatement, he was beaming.

His eyes twinkled with happiness. The boy was overjoyed.

Quickly, ignoring the cheers and comments the rest yelled after him he ran to Y/ns room.

:

I paced back and forth. He was taking oddly long. I checked my watch, four minutes. Was Lily wrong? Had he lost feelings? Did he-

My negative thoughts were interrupted by my door swinging open. A wave of relief washed over me as I saw the shaggy black hair of him, with a smile so bright.

I reciprocated his grin. Wasting no more time, Sirius stepped closer and closer until I was backed up into the wall.

Tentatively, he reached his hand up to my face and cupped my cheek. "You've won, Sirius Black." I whispered. "It seems I have."

Before I could speak another word, his lips crashed down onto my own and our lips began to move in sync. The kiss was slow and sweet, it was everything I could've dreamed of.

His lips came off mine and he pressed his forehead against my own. "I love you Sirius."

My eyes opened as I gauged his reaction. His smile couldn't have gotten larger.

"I love you to." "My girl." He added.

"Yours." I confirmed before leaning back up and kissing him once more.

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Title: Scared

Warnings: Angst, cursing, taking advantage

Word count: 1882

A/n: Based on the sound- "...something's changed in you. Towards me..."  From American horror story; Tate & Violet

Summary: Y/n realizes her feelings for James and in turn pushes him away out of fear and James can't understand what he's done

James's POV

"Come on Sirius!" I frowned as I watched a drunk Y/n drag Sirius out to the dance floor and laugh along with him.

We were fine. A month ago we were us. Normal, not this.

Suddenly a month ago, Y/n began to not so subtly distance herself from me. Just me. I tried to talk to her about her obvious avoidance towards me but she always brushed me off.

I cried so many tears for the girl I loved, the girl who avoided me like I was the plague. The girl who was my best friend.

"You okay Prongs?" Remus asked, standing from his place propped up against the wall like the proud wallflower he was.

"I'm fine." He gave me a knowing looking letting me know he wasn't buying my bullshit. "No really, if Y/n wants to ignore me and go off and get pissed and dance with Sirius and completely pretend we weren't best friends not even a month ago, then I'm happy for her. If she's happy, then that is all that matters."

He set his drink down and placed a hand on my shoulder, squeezing softly. "I'm sorry man." "I really thought she liked you back, I thought you guys were finally getting somewhere."

"Me too." I ignored the tears that began to sting in my eyes and forced myself off the wall.

"I'm gonna go dance." I nodded a quick goodbye and went to find someone. "James!" I cringed at the high pitchy voice of Lily Evans.

I swear the girl had a disgusting obsession with me. She could never take the hint that I

Was into someone else.

But now I just needed a distraction. And some whiny, hot red head would do the job, especially when she was constantly flinging herself at me.

"Hey ladies." I gave a half smile to the group of girls she was with, they all just giggled in return.

"Wanna dance?" She asked already latching onto my arm and dragging me away.

"Sure." I shrugged and held her waist as she rested her hands on my shoulders.

We continued to dance to a few more songs before she stood on her tiptoes and placed her lips at my ear. "Wanna get out of here?" Just as I was about to agree, eager for the distraction to begin. I saw Y/n being dragged out by Lucius an uncomfortable smile planted on her face.

Without responding I took off and ran towards the exit. "James!" Lilly yelled after me.

I pushed through the doors and looked both ways only to find Lucius pinning Y/n to a wall, placing kisses to her neck.

I froze as I heard Y/n "James." She moaned our my name.

"Get the fuck off of her man!" I yelled jumping back into action. I grabbed him from her and held his collar while I punched him repeatedly.

"James!" Y/n gasped from behind me. I continued to punch him over and over until a drunk Y/n pulled me off of him.

"I thought it was you." She suddenly cried and dug her head into my chest, I wrapped my arms around her and held her tightly.

"Let's get you to bed huh?" She nodded and took my hand, regaining her bubbly attitude she giggled and began to run up the steps of the boys dormitory.

Wordlessly I handed her a t-shirt of mine and closed her in the bathroom.

She knocked from the inside letting me know she finished changing and dragged herself out before flipping down on my bed

"Come on Jamsie." She laughed and held her arms out. Hesitantly I made my way over to my side and stripped off my shoes and jeans and laid down next to her.

"Y/n?" "Huh?" She hiccuped back.

"Why'd you leave me?" I questioned. Tears stung my eyes.

"I have feelings for you." She answered so simply. I held back a scoff as she snuggled further into me.

"No. Something's changed in you. Towards me. You're distant, cold. I don't know what I've done, but I'll leave you alone from now on if that's what you want. Is that what you want? You know why I'd leave you alone? Because I care about your feelings more than mine. I love you. There I said it and not just in some letter that I never even gave to you. I would never let anybody or anything hurt you. I've never felt that way about anyone."

I sighed and let more tears fall as I heard soft snores coming from her.

I got up and dug through the trunk at the foot of my bed before pulling out an envelope.

The envelope with the undelivered letter. I was gonna tell her how I felt two weeks ago, which was the day we first met ten years ago. But the she ignored me and the letter became irrelevant.

I placed it on my side of the bed and put on my jeans and shoes before heading back down.

"Hey man you disappeared." Sirius noted now standing off with Remus. "Yeah, Lucius tried to take advantage of Y/n so I got her to bed." The two pushed off the wall immediately. "Where is he?" Remus demanded.

"Taken care of." I motioned to my cut fists and they nodded. "Is she okay?" "Yeah."

"I gave her the letter." It took them both a minute but soon they got it and widened there eyes in shock.

Of course they knew about the letter, they helped me write it.

"Oh. Right now?" I shook my head "I put it on my bed for her to open in the morning."

"Right. Well shall we camp out in the common room, so we don't wake up Y/n?" Me and Sirius agreed.

"Shouldn't we get Peter?" Sirius chuckled and shook his head no. "I have a feeling he will not be coming back tonight."

He motioned towards Peter and a girl kissing.

Quietly we all tiredly made our way back to the common room and crashed.

Y/ns POV

I jolted awake at the sound of laughter coming from outside the door. A headache and ringing in my ears followed after.

"Ughh." I groaned, regretting the alcohol I consumed last night.

Suddenly everything came flooding back, the alcohol, Sirius, god Lucius ew. James. James!

"You're distant. Cold." "I'll leave you alone from now on if that's what you want. Is that what you want?"

"I love you."

I wasn't asleep. I heard him. He loved me.

A poking in my thigh made me sit up carefully and feel around until my hands wrapped around an envelope.

Y/n

I opened the envelope as I recognized James's writing.

The ink was slightly fading, this was written a while ago.

Y/n,

       Happy ten year anniversary! This is only part of your gift so I hope you enjoy this letter and the rest that's to come.

I can't believe I've gotten so lucky to know someone as great as you. You walked into my life and instantly made it better.

Every smile, every look every moment we share is special and will always remind me of why I fell for you.

I love you Y/n. More than anything. I can't wait to see you tonight and hopefully you can give me an answer.

Will you be mine?

I've always been yours to have.

And I always will be.

-James

Tears ran down my face as I read the letter over and over.

What did I do? I pushed him away over my own feelings. My feelings that were reciprocated.

My only goal was to ignore these feelings and hopefully have them go away not mess up the best relationship I've ever had.

The headache was forgotten as soon as I stood up. I slipped on the slippers that I kept over there and ran downstairs in James's shirt and a pair of shorts that I left in the boys dorm from a few nights ago.

"I'm interested in someone!" "Oh really Moony who then?" Sirius shot back.

"I Umm." I ignored the rest of there conversation and made myself known as I walked over to where James stood, propped up against the wall next to the fireplace.

"Y/n hey." Remus awkwardly greeted.

I placed a hand delicately on his face and leaned in and brought him down until our lips met.

It took him a minute to finally respond, but he did, kissing me back with just as much force.

"Okay prongs!" Sirius cheered.

I pulled away and rested my forehead on his, Remus dragged a whining Sirius upstairs.

"I wanna watch this!" "Shut up." 

James stared at me wide eyed.

His face contorted into confusion then hurt then anger.

"What the hell was that?" He asked. I stepped back in shock, or At least tried to, but his strong grip on my waist restrained me from moving.

"What. I- I thought." I cut myself off to think of all of this was a misunderstanding or if he really didn't have feelings for me.

"Y/n, you can't just be my best friend and then ignore me for a month and then kiss me! It's mean. And it's confusing, I know what I want! I want you, it's not fair if you aren't sure. That note was me admitting my feelings to me, I know what I want, you don't!"

I shook my head and ignored the tears that rolled down mine and James's cheeks.

"I do! I know what I want, I always have. I want you. Only you." His grip slightly loosened but I didn't move away.

"So why'd you leave me?" I sighed and looked down. "Because I realized my feelings for you. I wanted them to go away because I didn't know if you felt the same and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. It was stupid of me. I left and I promised I'd never hurt you and I did. Truth is I was scared- hell I still am. Ten years! We've known each other for ten years and I don't wanna ruin that if things don't work out."

I closed my eyes as his hand cupped my cheek. "So what is it you want. And I need you to be one hundred percent sure if you're about to say what I think you are."

I opened my eyes and smiled softly, looking right in his eyes I whispered, "you."

He leaned down and connected our lips. We moved in sync and his one hand held onto my waist while the other tangled in my hair.

"I love you James Potter. Please never doubt that because I do. I promise to never leave you again. Never again."

"I love you to." "Thank you." He added. I stared up at him with a grin.

"For what?"

"For being you."

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300 prompts, categories and character descriptions.

Leave however many prompts you want with the genre of writing and any necessary character descriptions and any extra detail needed. :) (make sure you also leave

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1. Why did you leave me

2. Am I that useless to you

3. I hate you

4. I love you

5. Can you hug me

6. Do I mean anything to you

7. Please stop your hurting me

8. Don't look at me

9. You disappoint me

10. I am (so) proud of you

11. Can I sleep beside/with you tonight

12. I'm scared

13. Can I hug you

14. Please hold me

15. Your hands are shaking

16. Stay by my side it doesn't have to be forever

17. Promise you'll return alive

18. I've always hated you

19. I've always loved you

20. Your safe now I've got you

21. Your the only one I trust to do this

22. Your too good for me

23. You've got to be kidding me

24. Have you lost your damn mind

25. Please don't leave me

26. Why don't you come over here and make me

27. Are you jealous

28. I almost lost you

29. Wanna bet

30. Looks like we'll be trapped a while

31. Just once

32. Shut up

33. It's not what it looks like

34. Sometimes it's hard to keep pretending

35. And if I don't

36. I can't help but stare

37. Make me

38. Can't you pretend you love me just once

39. Is your ego really that big

40. Come dance with me

41. Just shut up for one minute

Original/ (not off Pinterest)

42. What are you afraid of

43. Just love me damnit

44. I'm broken and unfixable

45. She's mine

46. I suggest you back off

47. Fuck off mate

48. I'm not watching you mope around like a loser

49. I'm trying to break up with you

50. Did you ever care

51. I was a fucking game

52. Im not your toy

53. She's so annoying

54. Your nothing but a stupid mudblood

55. You tried to kill me

56. I could've killed her

57. Im a monster

58. I hate myself to

59. How'd you do that

60. She never smiles anymore

61. She only smiles when he's around

62. I'd rather date Sirius

63. This time your 'prank' went to far

64. Just my parents

65. You don't deserve this

66. They don't deserve you

67. You have a beautiful voice

68. She's stunning

69. I have to go I'm sorry

70. I can't do this

71. Are we just friends

72. You could never hurt me

73. Your a wolf

74. Are you serious

75. I'd never date you

76. I don't believe you darling

77. You're cheating on me

78. It's over

79. Im pretty sure I'm drunk but you're really hot

80. We can't do this

81. Im sorry

82. It's better this way

83. "Fuck you!" "When?"

84. Im going

85. Im stopping at nothing to get her back

86. Because I'm in love with you god damnit

87. It's too late for me

88. I fancy you

89. Would you fancy a date day at hogsmade this Saturday

(From Pinterest)

90. Im tired of being your secret

91. Who did this to you

92. You are not fine

93. I thought you hated me

94. Im not leaving you

95. I don't owe you an explanation

96. I thought pushing her away was for the better

97. Nobody wants me

98. I want an answer goddamnit

99. No one's ever done that to me before

100. This feels nice

101. I haven't been hugged in years

102. Im pathetic

103. Im not happy here

104. I want my best friend back

105. Go away

106. If he can't see how amazing you are that's his loss

107. What are you smiling about

108. What's in it for me

109. Do you ever stop talking

110. Isn't this what you wanted

111. She's better off

112. Can I hold your hand

113. You can't do that shit

114. You can borrow mine

115. I'll wait

116. He hit me

117. Your one of them

118. I like your scars

119. Don't fall asleep on me

120. Can I date your brother

121. Your a deatheater

122. Don't make me say something I'll regret

123. Can I braid your hair

124. Your really pretty

125. Let me help you

126. You stubborn arse

127. Your in love with her

128. Stay I need you more than you know

129. Your killing me here

130. Tell me I'm wrong

131. I'd be lying to you

132. Lie to me

133. Prove it

134. I'll never get another chance to say this

135. I never stood a chance did I

136. Tell me again

137. This is why we can't have nice things

138. Do you regret it

139. I'm not going anywhere

140. Another nightmare

141. You've thought about it haven't you

142. We need to talk about last night

143. We were drunk we can just put it behind us

144. You were my biggest mistake

145. Are you drunk

146. What happens if I do this

147. I can't have you

148. Just for tonight

149. Be mine for just one night

150. She was crying because of you

151. We're not just friends and you fucking know it

152. You could die and I couldn't care less

153. I never cared

154. Please don't cry I can't stand to see you cry

155. Walk out that door and were through

156. Yell, scream, shout, say something

157. I can't breathe

158. I hate how much I love you

159. Where do you think your going

160. I'm not letting you walk at night alone three miles back

161. I need time and space

162. Run away like you always do you fucking coward

163. You can keep pretending it didn't happen all you want but guess what it fucking did

164. Can't we just be friends again

165. Stop acting like your okay cause I know your not

166. Just talk to me

167. Bite me

168. If you insist

169. I think I'm in love with you and that scares the shit out of me

170. I think your just afraid to be happy

171. I'm afraid I'll hurt her

172. Why are you so nice to me

173. Choose me

174. Shut up and kiss me

175. Your blushing

176. Is that my shirt

177. This is awkward

178. Please come home I miss you

179. It won't happen again

180. I don't see a future with you

181. Why are you helping a monster

182. Stay the fuck back

183. Please pull the trigger

184. Leave! I don't fucking care

185. I can't save us

186. So save yourself

187. Why didn't you tell me how bad it got

188. I never said I wanted a relationship with you so why are you crying

189. I deserve more than this

190. I'm not anyones favorite person

191. I just want to be wanted I'm tired of being needed for everything

192. I know! But you didn't have to use her like that

193. We can start over, please I'll do anything

194. Everything can be perfect so please don't leave

195. I guess we just weren't meant to be

196. You're always leaving me

197. Stop lying

198. If you die I'll go out of my fucking head

199. Your cute when your mad

200. And Your adopted

201. You gave us quite a scare

202. We can work it out

203. You're overreacting

204. You're all I have left

205. I don't care what they think

206. It's me

207. You make me feel safe

208. You guys read my diary what are you five

209. I don't recognize you anymore

210. You make me sick

211. Sorry can't fix what you've done

212. Do you really have feelings for me

213. Don't look at me like that

214. Give me a break

215. It's not a party without alcohol

216. Truth or dare

217. It's six in the morning your not having anymore firewhiskey

218. Your drive me fucking crazy

219. I'm dangerous please stay back

220. Did you hit your head as a kid

221. She's not yours anymore

222. She's deaf dumbass

223. I'm sorry for my brother he's an asshole

224. Oi, fuck off please

225. "I could kiss you right now." "Do it then"

226. What are you doing to me

227. Just admit I'm right

228. He's hot

229. Your my brother I'll always care for you

230. I'm personally offended I didn't get picked to be your fake date

231. They don't love me they're not that stupid

232. We'll what can I say I'm badass

233. Do I get bonus points if I act like I care

234. Excuse me I have to go make a scene

235. I'm gonna need therapy after this

236. Do your parents realize they're living proof that two wrongs don't make a right

237. I'm going on a date

238. Will you be my girlfriend

239. Would you rather kiss me or Lilly

240. Your bloody obsessed

241. She looks so perfect

242. You look beautiful

243. I wanna become an animagus

244. Stop coming back

245. Do you love him

246. I can't love you

247. You made me better

248. You ate my leftovers

249. Just get it over with

250. Were best when we're together don't you think

251. Can I kiss you

252. If I kiss you It's gonna change everything

253. Fuck it

254. I'm pretty sure I just made a fool of myself

255. Can you stop ignoring me

256. I'm friends with a bunch of two year olds

257. Hug me

258. Oh deer

(Amortentia)

259. Chocolate, old books and rain

260. Cologne, wet dog and leather

261. Cologne, broom polish and fresh cut grass

(Pinterest)

262. Are you hitting on me

263. This was fun, we should do it again

264. You owe me

265. I swear I'm gonna slit his fucking throat

266. Did you just kiss me

267. Huh ironic isn't it I'm a lone wolf

268. You hooked up

269. You kissed her

270. Teach me

271. What are we

272. What if I do

273. I want you to be happy

274. I think your beautiful

275. Why do you have scars

276. Shut up before you wake them

277. This is why we don't listen to you

278. What do you mean maybe

279. Hey whose side are you on

280. It's okay you didn't know

281. At least my parents are still alive

282. That wasn't love it was a perfect illusion

283. She makes my heart beat at a million miles per second

284. I'm not in the mood to fight with you tonight

285. Come stay with me

286. Don't call me love

287. I always keep my promises

288. Revenge is my best work

289. Why are you up

290. He's amazing

291. She's not going with you

292. I wasn't lying when I told you I loved you

293. Why are you scared

294. Why aren't you scared of me

295. If your a monster for what you've done than I'm the fucking devil

296. You fucking traitor

297. I'll always love you

298. I will never leave you no matter what happens between us I'll always be there

299. Please stop

300. I fucking love you thats why

Genre/ type of story

Friends to lovers

Enemies to lovers

Fluff

Angst with a happy ending

Angst with a sad ending

Fluff to angst

Angst to fluff

+ more

No smut

Character x reader

Sirius black and reader

James potter and reader

Remus lupin and reader

Lilly Evans and reader

Regulus black and reader

Marlene McKinnon and reader

Characters house

Slytherin

Gryffindor

Ravenclaw

Hufflepuff

Any added features

Name?

Hair color

Eye color

Attitude/personality

Relationship status with parents and other characters

Any important details.

[graces5169]

Title: Secret of mine

Warnings: Angst, cursing

Word count: 2421

Summary: Regulus is done being James's secret, so when he finally confronts the issue and James can't help but want to please everybody, Y/n intervenes and helps.

General POV

James stared down at Regulus and watched his chest rise and fall.

He smiled lovingly and continued to watch his boyfriend in admiration until Regulus stirred awake.

"Morning love." Regulus murmured and cuddled in closer to James. A smile grew on James's face.

"Morning." He whispered back and peppered kisses on his shoulder, up to his neck and landing one more on his cheek.

Despite the protests of Regulus, James got out of bed the second the clock hit five a.m and started to dress himself.

"James." Regulus started but fell short. "I'm sorry, maybe we can sneak some time together in the broom closet by the dining hall later tonight?" James wiggled his eyebrows suggestively but dropped his grin as he saw Regulus frown.

"Are we ever gonna tell Sirius? Or anyone for that matter?" Regulus stood up and was already ticked.

James couldn't say he was shocked by the sudden hostility. Regulus hated hiding there relationship, James knew this. Though he couldn't risk making Sirius upset.

He couldn't do it.

"Reg. I just need time." James muttered as he finished throwing his shirt over his head. Regulus scoffed and backed up as James took a few cautious steps closer. "You've had the whole summer James. I don't know how much more time you could possibly want." He threw his arms up exasperated.

"Regulus. Dear, please. I promise I'll tell him. I just need a little longer." Giving up, Regulus rolled his eyes and nodded glumly.

"Alright." He agreed. "I love you. I'll see you tonight then?" Regulus nodded, "love you to."

~

James was taking too long. Regulus grew bitter by the day, they no longer met in broom closets to snog. James rarely stayed in Regulus's dorm when Barty and Evan were gone for the night anymore. Regulus hadn't said 'I love you' to James since that night in the dorm he agreed to give James more time.

~

"Y/n." James greeted as he took a seat next to her. She set her book down and tossed him a warm smile.

"Hey James."

Y/n L/n and James Potter were practically twins, they were so alike on almost every level. They were closer than James and Sirius were.

The only difference between them was Y/n knew how to be selfish. Not in a ill-mannered way, just she knew how to say 'no' to people when necessary, Y/n knew how to take what she wanted, and lastly she knew she couldn't please everybody, she knew there was no use in trying to please everybody because someone was always gonna find a reason to hate you.

"I need help." He murmured shamefully before softly banging his head onto the library table.

Y/ns eyes grew soft and she smiled slightly before packing her things up and bringing herself and James to there tunnel.

Last year Y/n and James found a secret tunnel built within the walls of the corridors. It was a small room, nothing more to it. Though they decorated it with so much red and gold that even James agreed it was slightly much.

"What happened?" Y/n started wearily. "Regulus and me. We're having.. issues? I think. I'm just confused right now and I'm trying so hard to ease Sirius into the idea of Regulus dating somebody but Regulus doesn't want to wait any longer. Now he's mad at me."

Tears filled James's eyes, he was a strong person, one of the strongest people you could meet. But when it came to him hurting those he cared about, in any way even accidentally, he grew extremely emotional.

"Come here." Y/n opened her arms to him and he sunk into her hold.

"Sirius is like my brother. I can't upset him. It would destroy me if I lost him." Y/n ran her fingers threw his hair.

"But it would kill you to lose Reg. Sirius will understand, like you said, he's your brother. He'll be okay with it, it may take time, but he'll find a way to be okay with your relationship." She paused for a second, thinking carefully of her next words.

"Regulus, you know how he is. Regulus is selfish, more selfish than me, especially when it comes to those he loves. He can't stand to be second, and now he's found someone who's supposed to put him first and he feels like he's not your first priority."

James sighed in disappointment of himself. "Y/n. Why can't I just keep everyone happy?" James asked helplessly.

"Because, people are selfish and snobbish. And sometimes your best isn't ever enough for people. But when it comes to Regulus and Sirius there not snobbish or prats, they're family, and they love you, and Sirius can come to terms with you and his brother." He smiled and hugged the girl tightly.

"You always know what to say." He pointed out and she shrugged with a grin. "It's a talent."

~

Surprisingly, Ravenclaws knew how to throw a party, a damn good one too.

Typically there house was always underestimated when it came to anything but book smarts.

There parties were just a good, if not better than Gryffindor parties.

Ravenclaws were impossible to hate. James hadn't found one Ravenclaw he disliked, so naturally all hoses were invited.

James stole glances at Regulus every chance he got. Barty would whisper in Regulus's ear every time James stared at him, to which Regulus would just turn his head and snicker with Barty at him.

~

"Truth or dare!" Marlene cried out cheerfully, already an hour in and she was hammered. Dorcas found it hilarious, but Lilly was prepared to scold her in the morning.

The game started, and almost everyone was in the circle. Of course by now many people left, some to go hook up, others having to much to drink, and the rest for reasons James couldn't care about.

The questions and dares passed along to a few, James was spaced out the entire time staring at Regulus, until he was called on by a drunk Marlene.

"Jamsie! My dearest friend. Truth or dare." James shook his head, shaking off his daze and confidently smiled. "Dare." His smile disappeared as soon as Marlene spoke, "I dare you to kiss Lilly."

His eyes grew wide and Y/n coughed beside him in shock.

It was obvious to James that Lilly had feelings for him. In his first year, he had a small crush on the red head but all was forgotten the first time he saw Regulus.

Lilly never lost feelings for James however and always took an opportunity to poorly flirt with him.

"Umm- no." James sputtered out. A few in the crowd playfully booed him, James wanted to make them happy.

Lilly clearly wasn't protesting this even if she realized it was making him uncomfortable.

"Kiss. Kiss. Kiss-" people began to chant and all James could focus on was the pleading look in Regulus's eyes.

More people wanted him to kiss Lilly compared to the one person who didn't.

Lilly was already sitting next to James expectantly. "No." James said once more.

"Oh come on Prongsie. Why not. You've got a girlfriend or something?" James coughed out a laugh but no one noticed, well maybe Regulus.

"No!" James responded to Sirius's teasing comment. "Is my baby all grown up and in lovvve?" Sirius swooned.

James was sweating and he wished, he wished he could blame the alcohol on his next move.

Wanting to shut everyone up, his hands harshly cupped Lilly's face and he gave her a small peck on the lips.

Anyone who knew Regulus could've seen the despair and hurt in his eyes, but to those who didn't, he just seemed like his usual self.

He grabbed Barty's hand and ushered the two of them to the dance floor. Weaving in between the small crowd of students he began to sway to the upbeat music with Barty behind him.

Y/n grabbed onto James's hand as he felt like he couldn't breath. Desperately he pulled at the collar of his shirt. What had he done?

He felt sick. Horribly sick with himself.

"James come on." Y/n whispered to him and pulled him up. Gently she led him to the couches in the Ravenclaw common room and held him in a hug.

Regulus wasn't selfish, James was just and idiot. Sweet, with a heart of gold, but an idiot.

"I messed up." He cried out and desperately wiped at the tears on his face.

He winced as he watched Regulus grind against Barty, and Barty smirk right at James.

The two continued to sway and dance to the song. "It hurts." He whispered to Y/n who just wiped at the tears on his face.

"Go get him." Y/n ushered encouragingly.

Without thinking James stood up and walked up to Regulus and Barty.

"Reg. Please can we talk." Regulus gave a sarcastic smile. "Of course we can. Should we go find a broom closet to hide out in?" James sighed. His throat felt tight.

"Reg come on please." Regulus whispered something to Barty before following James off the floor.

James's hand's immediately flew to Regulus's waist but Regulus stepped back not allowing him to touch him.

"Wouldn't want Sirius to see, now would we?" James swallowed the lump in his throat unsuccessfully.

"I'm sorry." James whispered. "Okay." Regulus shrugged and started to walk away but James grabbed his wrist and spun him around.

"Reg-" "Don't call me that." Regulus demanded.

"Fine. Regulus, please don't go back with him." James begged. "James. Barty over there, he actually wants me, he doesn't care who knows, he'll dance with me, kiss me whenever I ask, in-front of whoever, he won't treat me like some second priority." Immediately James retaliated.

"Regulus, you are my first choice. I love you so much." Please believe me, James thought.

"Show me then." Regulus continued once he saw James confused glance. "Kiss me. Dance with me. Go tell Sirius that we're together, otherwise we're through. I'm done with this, with you." James froze.

"Regulus-" James was cut off. "Decide or I'm leaving."

1.... 2....

Cautiously James took a step doers but froze once more. Physically he felt he couldn't move.

3.

"We're done." Regulus spat before walking away. James tried to say something, but couldn't.

~

"You fucking what!" Without a missed beat, the next second Sirius's fist collided with James's jaw, hard.

"Sirius!" Y/n gasped out and ran over to James's side.

After Regulus left him, something snapped in James. He didn't want to care what people thought about him.

He wanted to be with Regulus.

After the party, in the morning once Sirius was sober, James told him everything. All of it. Detail for detail.

About how he hurt Regulus by keeping it a secret, and kissed Lilly.

He deserved that punch. And he took it.

"You will fix this James. Now." James stared bewildered.

"What. I thought you didn't want anybody dating him!" James choked out. "I didn't. But it's different with you. I know you and I know if you say you love my brother you mean it. So do you?" Immediately James nodded.

"I do. So much. It hurts." Sirius smiled softly. "Then go. Get him back."

"I don't think he wants that. He said we were done." Sirius laughed. "You are such an idiot. Regulus still loves you. He just wants you to prove you love him, he wants you to put him first."

A smile lit my face and Y/n rubbed a hand up and down my arm.

"Go." She nodded encouragingly.

James feet carried him away and he was sure he's never ran faster in his life.

~

"Reg." James ran towards him as saw him propped up against a tree reading.

Just as he was a few feet in front of him, Dorcas stood in between them, blocking James from Regulus.

"Back off Potter." She barked. "Please. I just need to speak to him I promise I'm not here to hurt him."

She turned around and only walked off once Regulus nodded.

"I told Sirius!" James smiled proudly. "You did?" Regulus seemed unimpressed. "And he's okay with us." James trailed off skeptical of Regulus's reaction.

"Okay. And what if he wasn't." James froze. "What?" Regulus stared him down coldly.

"And what If he wasn't?" James felt hot, and that lump was starting form in his throat again.

"I don't want to care anymore Regulus." He stood up and stared James in the eye. "Fuck you Potter. I gave you every chance, I waited for months for you, and now that I'm gone and that Sirius is okay with us, now you want to be with me?" Regulus scoffed.

"Reg stop." James spun him around by his wrist and stood closer until they were inches apart.

"Please let me kiss you." James breathed out. "If you even have to ask, then no." Regulus looked down disappointed.

"We were never gonna work, I'm to selfish Your to selfless, we were a lost cause." Regulus said flatly before waking off leaving James to sob into his hands.

~

"You do need to learn to say no James." Y/n agreed. "I love you and your heart is nothing but pure and Your selflessness is admiring, but take what you want for once. Be selfish. Do it for Regulus."

Everything stopped moving. James couldn't breathe.

"If you even have to ask, then no." Regulus's words rang in his head.

Be selfish Potter.

"Don't ask." James mumbled and suddenly he was laughing. Be selfish.

~

The second he saw those familiar messy black curls sitting at the Slytherin table he set off towards him.

"Pott-" he ignored Evan who was likely about to tell him to fuck off and bent down cupping Regulus's face in his hands before kissing him, hard and determined.

Gasps could be heard from the entire dining hall and Sirius was cheering over the buzz of noise.

"Please take me back?" James begged. "You're blushing." Regulus noticed.

"Please?" Regulus nodded. "I don't want to care so much anymore." James whispered and Regulus stood up pulling James along, up to his dorm.

"I love you James." "And I love you."

~

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[graces5169]

Title: eavesdropper

Warnings: Cursing

Word count: 2880

A/n: My first ever oneshot on tumblr. I have more on my wattpad account @Potter_1609 I’m open for requests and hope you enjoy :)

(Also a slight bit of wolfstar)

Summary: After over hearing a rather interesting conversation between his best friend and brother regulus is left to decipher his own feelings. Though perhaps with a little shove of jealousy, his feelings will be deciphered rather quickly.

~~~~~

Regulus's POV

"So is my brother still an idiot?" I stopped in my tracks recognizing my brothers voice. I hid around the corner waiting for the conversation to go on. "As always, I swear he is the most oblivious person on this planet." Y/n. What the hell were they talking about?

"He'll come around to realize it." Sirius said comfortingly. From the little view I had, I saw Sirius place a hand on Y/ns shoulder. "God I hope, I don't know how much flirting or hints it'll take until he realizes. I'm almost convinced at this point that I could walk up to him and say I'm in love with him and he still wouldn't know." Sirius chuckled

My heart plummeted and my stomach twisted in knots, my throat went dry. She loved me?

I pondered making sure I had heard correctly. Fuck! There was no falter in what I heard. Y/n loved me. She was in love with me.

"How's it going with remus?" Sirius sighed. "The same honestly, although I think he knows and he just is scared." Y/n pulled a face.

The rest of there conversation started to fly past my head as I blocked out there words. My feet took full control and I ran from the Gryffindor common room making my way outside. She was fucking in love with me.

I sat close to the river and slumped against a tree. I pulled a cigarette and lighter from my coat before lighting it and taking a puff.

I breathed a sigh of relief feeling the cigarette calm my nerves.

It was a nervous habit of mine, smoking. Y/n had always hated it but I always kept the smoking light.

I lost track of time of how late I had been out here for but it had to have been at least a couple of hours seeing as the day slipped away slowly and it go dark.

"Reg?" My head snapped up and my heart clenched. "Y/n, hello." She looked at me confused. I never called her Y/n not unless something was bothering me or I was pissed at her. "What happened?" She quickly asked sitting beside me. She took the cigarette from between my lips and through it into the lake in front of us. "I hate that shit." I chuckled slightly.

I turned to her and that's all I saw. Her. Everything and everyone else around was forgotten. "I have to go." I blurted, remembering everything I'd just heard.

She loved me.

My best friend who maybe I loved back was in love with me. "Reg!" Y/n called after me but it was to late, I scooped my stuff up and ran.

Y/ns POV

He ran. Regulus left me, it was a weird gesture of his. He never just ran off. "What is going on in that pretty head of yours Reg?" I whispered to myself.

Regulus's POV

"Oi!" I heard and umff and looked up to see my brother. He knew. And he never told me.

"Regulus, what's the matter why are you-." I cut him off with a slap. He cradled his cheek and stared at me with confusion.

"What the bloody hell!" He snapped. "How long?" I questioned. Everything was hitting me at once and I was gonna lose it if I didn't get answers.

"How long what?" Sirius asked letting go of his face. "How long has she loved me you twat?" I rushed, impatient to get an answer. I saw a flash of confusion then shock then denial then recollection and acceptance fly through his face before he stood staring at me mouth agape trying to form words. One could've said he looked just like a fish.

"You don't know." He challenged staring at me with his cocky smirk. "How long has Y/n L/n been in love with me?" I questioned once more with a threatening anger rising in my tone.

"How did you find out?" He sputtered. "You guys should really scan a room before you talk about such stuff!" I spat waiting for my response.

It was a small incoherent murmur that was impossible to hear, so I spoke again."speak up!"

"Four and half years!" He gushed loudly, practically yelling. I nodded my head and rubbed my hands through my hair.

"Fuck!" I shouted quietly. "Why is that such a bad thing?" I scoffed. "Why do you think?"

"Because you're scared." He chuckled. "I am not scared, it's- we're- god were fucking friends! That's it."

"So you wouldn't mind if Avery from slytherin happened to ask her out?" My heart sank and my blood boiled.

"What?" He chuckled. "Yeah he asked her out and Y/n said she'd have to think about it." "She can't go out with him!" I gushed. "And why not brother?" "Because it's Avery! He's disgusting and rude and not good enough for her."

"Who would be then?" Sirius quizzed. "God you want me to say it that bad! No one is good enough for her but I want to be good for her, okay?" Sirius smirked widely.

"Finally a confession, I'd though I'd have to miss dinner waiting for you to admit it." I smacked his shoulder. "But it can't happen,

Y/n is my best friend and mother or father wouldn't approve of her, she'd be put in danger!"

"I've gotten with over fifty "blood traitors" as mother and father would say here and they haven't done bloody shit to hurt them so what's the difference?"

I tried to deny it once again but he continued, ultimately cutting me off. "And besides mother and father have no control over us anymore, we both are with the potters now so as far as you should be concerned they are nothing anymore."

Once again I tried talking but he spoke one last time. "I have to go, but honestly Reg, you heard her, the girl loves you, you love her. Stop worrying so much and just do what you want. Go be with her." He rushed off leaving me alone with my thoughts, a dangerous thing.

I loved Y/n, she loved me it all seems like a fairytale and one might think everything is perfect now and everything would all work out but is that the case here?

Bloody fucking hell! Why did everything have to be so damn complicated? Couldn't we just be happy. You could, you're just scared. Sirius's voice popped up in my head once again in an attempt to shut down my fears. "Ughh." I groaned plopping down on the nearby couch.

"Reg?" I had stayed on that same spot on the couch for about twenty minutes now thinking everything over but my head snapped up once I heard her voice.

"Y/n hey! How are you?" My tone came out a lot squeakier and high than intended. She chuckled lightly but came to sit next to me, which in response I immediately stood up.

"I'm good, but I think I should be asking if you're good. You've been ignoring me and dodging me all night. And you've been calling me Y/n, you never do that."

I sighed and stupidly thought it was a good idea to explain before running. "I heard you this morning, but I've got to get to class I'll catch you later Y/n." "It's Saturday!" I heard her yell after me, but it was to late I was already on the move with no intention of turning back around.

Y/ns POV

I was utterly mortified and safe to say embarrassed. Bloody fucking hell. He heard. He heard me say I love him. And of course he ran, he didn't love me back. God I ruined everything. I groaned out in frustration and embarrassment.

I stood up and ran into the one place I knew would have answers. I entered the boys dorm were no surprise I found all four of the marauders doing random shit. James was in the mirror with a script that in bold letters read "Ways to ask out Lilly-flower.", Sirius was laughing hysterically at Peter who was screaming wal flying upside down on a broom a few inches away from the ceiling, Remus was rolling his eyes at everyone every few seconds wal his nose was stuck in a book.

Quickly in a panic I grabbed out my wand, I took it and muttered a few spells which rolled up James script and flew it to my hand, flew Peter safely to the ground and flew Remus's book a few feet above his head just barely out of his reach. "I need help!" I snapped at all four before they could groan and complain to me about messing up there "fun".

All of them took a spot on there seperate beds wal I sat on the trunk at the end of James's bed.

"It's about regulus." All of them smirked, all except oddly Sirius. "Me and Sirius were talking about him and remus earlier this morning and I may have told Sirius about the progress of my feelings for Reg and now he's ignoring me and regulus told me he heard me."

All four of them yelled out responses at the same time. "What we're you saying about me?" Remus asked wal James had teased me saying "That twat is such a coward." Peter yelled out something along the same line saying "Such a twat, he's obviously in love with you." Though the response that seemed louder than the rest and the one that stuck out to me most was Sirius's reply, "he told you?"

My head snapped over to meet Sirius's eyes, "what do you mean he told me? Did you know?" I shouted out at him, my mom tone came out to scold the boy.

"He told me earlier though I didn't think he'd tell you!" "How long ago?" Sirius sighed. "Half an hour ago about." I grabbed my wand out once again and murmured a spell which moved the book that was currently in the air that remus happened to be reading seconds ago and dropped it over his head, erupting chuckles and laughs from the other three boys.

"Blood hell! What was that for?" He snapped. "Why didn't you tell me he knew?" I retorted. Sirius took a breath which seemingly calmed him down as he replied.

"I don't know, I didn't want to worry you. I'm sorry." I sighed the tears finally starting to spark my eyes.

"It's fine. It's not your fault he doesn't like me back." The four scoffed. "Bullshit." James smirked. "Maybe I have better bloody fucking chances with Avery." I exasperated. "With that filthy twat!" Remus exclaimed.

"God did I ruin everything?" I asked ignoring Remus's previous comment. "No of course not!" James assured scooting down to the edge of his bed to wrap his arms around me.

"Y/n! I've got it!" Sirius suddenly cried out making everyone jump. "Bloody hell." Peter cursed bringing a hand to his chest. "Come with me!" Sirius said grabbing my hand and dragging me from James's grip.

"Wait what did he say about me!" Remus yelled after us referring to when I let it slip we were talking about him earlier. Sirius blushed but ignored the comment.

Sirius's POV

I brought her out to the hallway where I started to explain my genius idea. "We should date!" Her eyes partially widened and her mouth opened and closed trying to form words.

"What?" Was what she managed. I realized how that sounded and backtracked. "No! No offense or anything but ew, no. I mean fake date! It's a win win, you make regulus jealous and he'll stop being such a daft dimbo and admit his feelings and remus will realize his feelings for me he obviously has and want me."

She scoffed and laughed hysterics before placing a hand on my arm and speaking.

"I have to admit not a bad idea but bloody are you over confident with yourself." I slightly smacked her arm and pouted. She just laughed again and intertwined her fingers with mine. "You better be right about your brothers feelings black." "I'm always right darling." I said emphasizing the nick name.

Y/ns POV

After deciding to go forward with Sirius's plan we ran back to the dorm informing James and Peter of our plan and purposely left remus out of the loop. It was decided we'd announce our 'relationship' at dinner, minutes away.

Regulus's POV

What the fuck? Sirius and fucking Y/n. I instantly caught Y/ns eye but was surprised with the horrible sight of her and Sirius holding hands and looking awfully happy.

An amused James and Peter followed behind them along with an oddly pissed looking remus.

"So love what did you want to do after this." Sirius asked looking down at her.

Love? That was my name for her.

"Well you know, we could head back upstairs to your dorm." Y/n and Sirius smirked at one another and she brought her head up to whisper some thing into his ear which caused the two to chuckle. Remus had seemed to go extremely red in the face and his grip couldn't have gotten any tighter on the fork he was holding, though Peter and James's grin just kept on growing.

I glared daggers at my brother and as if he had eyes in the back of his head he turned around and smiled at me wal waving. Was an arse! I flipped him off in turn and that seemed to have just made his smile grow. He whispered something to Y/n which in response she slowly turned towards me to sneak a glance. I blushed and turned away quickly.

After a seemingly long dinner, I ran straight up to the Gryffindor common room after seeing Sirius and Y/n go separate ways.

I somehow made it passed the fat lady before slipping inside.

"You bitch!" I snapped before slapping him. Sirius looked taken aback and just like this morning, cradled his cheek.

Before smirking

That twat smirked!

"Jealous of my girlfriend?" "Oh and by the way mate, you've got to stop slapping me."

His cocky grin just seemed to grow as he spewed out his words.

"No!" Part of me felt like punching a wall and crying for every lost fucking chance.

Though the other part of me felt like punching Sirius, right in his face. For taking Y/n away.

"What if you had the chance? To tell her you love her, If you had the chance, would you take it?" Instantly my head nodded.

"Than I think it's safe to say we're not really dating."

My feet took over and I was sprinting to find

Y/n.

And of course she was outside by the lake reading.

"Love!" I called once in earshot.

Her head whipped to stare at me confused.

Though before she could get any words out I kneeled beside her and kissed her.

It didn't take long for her to kiss me back and in a short amount of seconds our lips had found a rhythm, moving in sync.

"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I do, I love you to. So much." I assured and kissed her again.

She pulled away and flashed a grin at me, one that could've made me melt right then and there.

Sirius's POV

As soon as Regulus left,I ran to find remus. I figured he was up in our dorm which of course he was.

"Hey." He muttered,not bothering to look up from his book.

I sat down on his bed and placed a hand on his face, which immediately took his attention from the book and to me.

"What are you doing siri?" He asked with slight tears brimming his eyes.

I leaned down and captured his lips with my own. He pushed me away and my heart dropped.

"What are you doing?" He repeated.

"Your with Y/n- I."

"Me and Y/n weren't really dating, we did it to make you and Reg jealous. Which clearly it worked." He scoffed and shook his head.

"What about my condition Sirius? I'm a bloody monster, why do you still care to be wit-." I cut him off.

"Remus, I love you but please shut the fuck up." He slightly chuckled, a few tears falling from his eyes.

I held his face in my hands again and waited for him to give me confirmation.

Once he slightly nodded I didn't waste any time kissing him, to which he responded this time kissing me back.

"I love you to." He breathed.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

"Good."