greysylv6

[greysylv6]

i literally never wanna eat again i wish i could just starve and be at my GW already. i don’t deserve food and i should not be allowed to eat for at least 2 days.

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keep forgetting to post cause was dealing with finals but finally on summer break and trying to lose a bunch of weight

this is what i ate today 6/12/23

breakfast: skipped

lunch: plain cheeseburger (340) and fries (290)

dinner: steak (220)

snacks/other: halo top chocolate cake batter (330) and monster ultra paradise (10)

total: 1,190 cals

burned: 1,014 cals

net: 176 cals

[greysylv6]

literally need to lose like 20 lbs asap bc i have my graduation in 3 weeks and im not at my GW.

Someone help give me motivation to eat under 800 cals for the next 3 weeks 😭😭

[greysylv6]

stay skinny for summer babes !!

no binging

only restricting

[greysylv6]

being suicidal and living for others is the most drowning feeling ever.

why can’t i find a reason to live for myself?

[greysylv6]

i just ate an iced lolly that was 260kj now i wanna shove my fingers down my fucking throat. i cant even make myself throw up i hate myself

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my cals for today!!! my net is -300 omg !!!

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I’m gonna start taking pictures of the food i eat for my food logs to keep myself accountable and make sure i stay at 800 or less cals and so i eat more healthy like i swear i eat like sh!t and eat sweets its honestly disgusting.

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i literally binged today because i ate peanut butter i hate myself i wanna starve and never eat again.

[greysylv6]

list of my safe foods/drinks: (is getting updated)

breakfast:

-oui yogurt (usually around 180-200 cals)

-caramel macchiato (instead of eating) (180 cals) or (95 cals) when using almond milk

-tea (35 cals only use 1/4 cup milk)

-hard boiled eggs (70 per egg)

lunch/dinner:

-tyson chicken strips (250 cals)

-caesar salad (usually low calorie but it varies so around 200 depending on how big the portion is)

-uncrustables (peanut butter and honey or strawberry)

-maruchan chicken ramen (even though its really bad with sodium and its 370 cals its a safe food 😭😭)

snacks:

-protein bars (250 or less cals)

-granola bars (200)

-goldfish (140 for 55 pieces)

[greysylv6]

idk who needs this but i found out that ramune is low cal! and its soda and i know a lot of people dont like liquid cals but it might help for energy and if you’re craving something sweet.

This was the kind that i had and it was strawberry flavor and only 80 cals!!

[greysylv6]

slow progress is still progress

[greysylv6]

don’t eat today. skip your meals. it’ll be worth it. you wanna get to your gw, be skinny and have people be jealous of you. You’ll regret eating that cheeseburger or those sweets in the end. get your summer body year round.

[greysylv6]

i haven’t posted on here in so long but if any other ppl with ana wanna join our discord server then DM me for the link!! Its a safe space to talk about your ed and share advice and help each other with getting to our GW.

[greysylv6]

manifesting no binging for the rest of the year and making it to my GW

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food log (trying to have negative net cals) 1/26/23

breakfast: skipped just had a grande iced caramel macchiato from starbucks (250 cals)

lunch: skipped

dinner: spaghetti and 1x piece garlic bread (estimate of ~384)

snacks/other: 2 pieces coffee ice cream mochi (180)

total: 814

burned: 988

net: -174