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Stuck in a gray zone

Of not wanting to live and wanting to live

Stuck in a gray zone

Of scared to die and scared to live

Stuck in a gray zone

Of not wanting to fall asleep and not wanting to wake up

Stuck in a gray zone

Of feeling no emotions and full of emotions

Stuck in a gray zone

Of seeking help and avoiding help

Stuck in a grey zone

Between expectations and no expectations

Stuck between morning and night

Stuck and it's a maze to solve to get out

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I feel broken.

I know I'm not,

but not being able to love,

too scared to love.

Yet still able to like.

I can't call it falling in love.

It's not.

Feels like a set-up play.

Of myself, by myself.

Therefore I am broken.

I'm not but I am.

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I know happiness is not forever. It's in the little things. Yet,

Even when I'm happy. I'm anxious.

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It's been a couple of days and I can't get it out of my head. I keep telling myself it is because I have nothing else better to do, yet it still persist.

I saw someone say something along the lines : "if you're a lesbian and you're weirdly obsessed with mlm ships, consider you're bi trans."

I don't consider myself lesbian, I am predominantly attracted to women and I am already under the trans umbrella but damn how that one simmer of thought struck me into rethinking my whole existence. Scaring me because I thought I am finally ferm in my gender. I guess gender is really fluid

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Animal Crossing quotes I found on the internet that were too real:

love some good existential crisis Animal Crossing.

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love elizabeth s.

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The moment you see my flaws, you'll run away too.

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― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[text ID: It is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere.]

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“I feel occasionally my skull will crack, fatigue is continuous – I only go from less exhausted to more exhausted & back again.”

— Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath (via violentwavesofemotion)

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I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

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 Andrea Gibson, You Better Be Lightning

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May Sarton, The House by the Sea