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Few days ago I was surfing the net and this video came up, literally from nowhere. The thing I was looking for, had absolutely nothing to do with this video.. I mean it was nowhere near.. even remotely))

Anyway, Google chose to suggest this video to me, for reasons unknown.)) The thing is, I know this band very well... everyone in ex-USSR knows this band very very well, I’m no exception. I don’t know why exactly, but I clicked the “Play” button... 10 seconds later I was dancing)))

Yes. Me. Dancing. To this music. I wanna get some things straight. Last 5 years, everyone who knew me, heard me saying a lot of unpleasant things when the subject of Russia would come up in the conversation. I have my reasons. I lived there for some time. Didn’t like it and I’m not going back.

At the same time I think it’ll be fair to say that I do enjoy Russian folk music and their culture overall. I’m watching Russian films(mostly Soviet era ones) listening to Russian music and all that. I know the language very well... actually I’m fluent in Russian, so I just can’t escape it. It is what it is.

So, after watching the video (and dancing to it) I thought... I wonder if a person who dislikes Russia (and there are billions of them these days) would enjoy this video. I’ll ask a person to forget about everything she/he knows about Russia, put away any feelings, and just watch this and then tell me if she/he liked it at all.

I didn’t have to think for a long time who should I suggest this video to. I have friend, who’s a Brit, living in the US. Two countries where anti-russian propaganda is breaking all the records! To say that my friend’s reaction surprised me, would be a gross understatement.

She wrote “ You want my reaction? Wonderful!! It was full of joy, color, smiles, happiness, great music, great vocals, and I felt I would love to join in and dance....only one problem....I couldn't sing along with them. Loved the lead singer’s jubilance...showed me a side of Russia I haven't seen before!”

5 minutes later she added “I showed it to Mike, he watched right through and said he loved the energy....Could I share it on fb?“

My response was “I do believe that people should watch these kind of things to  discover the side of a nation(people, country.. whatever you call it) that no news channel will show...“ I have to say that I stand by it. Want to learn about the nations of the World? Go through the “Culture channel” and never mind the rest. I mean, think for a second, what do you think about when you hear the word “Russia”? These days it’s “Putin” and “Nuclear weapons”. If we go back a little, the cliches were “Vodka, Balalayka, Bears”. Is that it? Aren’t you curious about digging a little and finding out what the real Russia is? If not - it’s ok, they’ll survive it, as will you)) If yes - you really should be careful with the source of the information. Especially nowadays! Like I said, learning about a nation through their culture is the only way you’ll get the full picture of what that nation is all about.

I want to add... um... scratch that... there’s nothing to add. You either agree with me or disagree. That’s it. The only way I know how to learn something new about the nations of the World is through their culture. Right. I’m repeating myself, so I better just stop.

p.s. Enjoy the video.

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G.I.R.L.Z.

Hey there, girls. I wanted to start this post with some sort of a saying about you and how we, guys, can never understand you or whatever, but then I thought nah, all those stupid sayings are by guys and most of them were cunts anyway.

Ok, so, this is the part where you decide whether you want to read this or not, ‘cause I’m not gonna censor myself. I say what I think and there’s no filter. I’m tired of being PC.

Ok, so those of you who’s reading this for reasons unknown… get ready.

THIS IS GOING TO BE… boring.

I always wondered, what the hell is wrong with you girls? Most of you are amazing human beings and yet… Some of your decisions are beyond not just my, but any human being’s understanding. And most of those decisions are about… us, guys.

In many ways girls are better than guys. I honestly believe that to be true. I’m not gonna name all your great qualities.. Everyone knows how great you are. Some will admit it and the rest are morons, so fuck ‘em.

I honestly believe that this world would be more peaceful and prosperous and a much better place overall if it was led by women. You wouldn’t start a nuclear war just because you have an itch between your legs. We would. I can’t imagine a woman doing all those STUPID things that we did and keep doing. All the great discoveries and achievements made by men were and still are backed by women. One of the greatest things created.. Ever.. was and still is that thing we all know as a computer. Alan Turing created it, yes. But would he succeed without Joan Clarke? Don’t think so…

Every story has a great woman behind it. You’re mostly behind the scenes, but you’re there.

I sometimes think that you, ladies, have no idea how great you are and how big of an effect you can make on our fucked up history. My bet is - you’re the ones who’ll right all the wrongs. Or maybe I’m an idiot.. Who knows? Not me.

Anyway.. Being as awesome as you are… my question to is… what the actual fuck? Why do you let your partners behave the way the do? Huh? I mean male partners. I know many awesome girls who, before changing their “relationship status”, were fun, strong, interesting… you could see that spark in their eyes. Aaaaand once they start dating, not to mention marriage or whatever,... it’s all gone. Some guys take over… and I mean they TAKE OVER... of your movements, thoughts, interests, activities… everything… and train you to be a “good girl”. You don’t do this, you don’t smile like you did before, you’re home at a very specific time and so on… in the end you talk and move and speak and live the way you’re told. If not - there’s a scandal and you’re mostly labeled as a bitch or a whore. And if that’s not enough there’s always physical violence. And so you live a very boring life, just wasting away your precious years, like a puppy. All you need to do at that point is to pick up a paper with your teeth and take it to your master.

Sorry, I just threw up in my mouth…

I described the worse case scenario of a “happy home life”.

Do you know a person whose life can be described as hell? If not - imagine the situation I’ve described. Who do you blame? The partner who charmed her and once he got full access to the body - the inner animal took control? Maybe it’s her fault? But how can it be her fault? She didn’t do anything… it’s him who acts like a piece of shit.

Well, there we go, she didn’t do anything. That’s the answer. She just chose him. But how do you choose a guy? I mean seriously… What is it that you pay attention to? What’s the first thing? I asked few girls I know this question… and fucking hell… the answers I got… Somebody kill me.

If I ask a guy.. What’s the first thing you pay attention to when you see a girl? 9 out of 10 would lie. They’ll say “eyes” or shit like that. It’s simple. Ass, tits, lips. That’s it. Done. Guys actually “look” at your face like a week later.

Ok, so I’m just gonna quote some answers from girls without naming them... although I’d love to… oh anyway. I promised them confidentiality. La-di-da…

I asked the same question.

“What do you girls look at when you see a guy? What's the first thing? What's your criteria of a guy being likeable?”

“Fingers and wrists”... And then she added “I know I’m weird”

Maybe you are, ok. Next.

“First of all... it depends where I’ll meet him. Next, it’s everything. They way he speaks, behaves, what’s he wearing...”

What’s he wearing?... Um… Ok, I’ll bite. Moving on.

“A year ago I’d say shoes, but now it’s hair”

Shoes. Hair. Looks like I’m gonna need a tranquilizer sooner than I thought. Fine, next.

“How fit he is”

Well that’s a cliche, no?

“No specifics. When I see him I’ll know it’s him. That “zing” thing will just happen”

Ok, fair enough. Neeeext.

“The way he talks, behaves”

Looks like behaviour is… kinda important.)) Neeeeext!!

“First hair, then shoes”

Shoes. Again. SHOES!!! I want something for my headache… NEXT!

“How fit he is, hair, clothes, odour and he must be clean”

The Ken doll?

“He must have that thing, charisma… must be a gentleman and an animal in bed”

Woah… I said the FIRST THING! You’re killing me))) NEEEEEEEXT!!

“Even if the guy is very hot, the INSIDE is very important. Men look at 1 or 2 things, women look at 100 things at the same time”

The overall thing… sounds complicated, but ok ))

Sooo… You girls want a Ken doll, who’s interesting on “the inside”, goes to the right places, has good fingers and wrists and is an animal in bed. Um…

15 minutes later

Um….

30 minutes later

Still ummm…. No I’m not meditating. I’m just trying to understand how the fuck can a supercool girl pay attention to fuckin SHOES!!!!!!

Guy’s shoes can be ideal…. And if you pay that much attention to it… those fuckin shoes can be orgasmic… AND the guy can be your worst nightmare. What’s your reaction? Something like “oops”?

I’m not judging you, girls… who am I kidding? Hell yea I’m judging you! I personally don’t interact with girls who BORE me… The girls I asked the question are amazingly cool. So the overall description of a guy who would interest you makes ME wanna puke. I mean is that it? Really? SERIOUSLY?

This makes me think… Either we, guys, are so fucked up that you just wanna get one, like a pet or something. OR somehow your standards are surprisingly LOW. And the question is… WHY? Why do you grade yourself down? Some of you want a happy family… you can’t have a happy family life with that piece of shit, girls)) Come on. Think.

The family life is the hardest and most interesting game ever created. It only works when the pair plays it together as a team. Otherwise it’s a disaster.

This is really weird. You, girls, demand equality in everything and in my not so humble opinion you deserve no less. It shouldn’t even be a topic for a debate or conversation even. Equality must be an axiom. That’s it. No questions asked.

It turns out that you, girls, are getting better at solving worldwide problems, making a difference, changing things for better… but at the same time you’re getting worse in.. choosing a partner. It is a problem. I know many young families.. How many of them are really happy? Despite everything… 2! and that’s because those 2 families play the game as a team.

This whole post is a mess with bunch of mistakes and all that.

I feel like I don’t really have a right to say all this, but I am saying it, whether you like it or not. Some of my thoughts are cliche. No doubt about it. But there you go.

The main point of it all is that you, girls, have absolutely no clue how awesome you are. And it’s fuckin sad.

[hrayrdallakyan]

I’ve been thinking lately. What is it that “thing” that makes me want to write…?

I realized lately that being a writer is much more than just entertaining a reader or something like that. I was questioning myself, why am I much more happier when I’m creating worlds and characters than I am in what you call a real life? I think I know the answer. I realized that the only people who will never disappoint me are those whom I created in my imagination. And that’s the key for me. I could’ve kept them to myself, but… life, as it is, is quite disappointing. So if I’ve created a character who will be of comfort to other people as it is for me - I did well. If the worlds I’ve created will bring happines and joy to other people as they do for me - I did well. And here’s the ultimate reason why am I happier when I write… Because everything you can think of, is possible in imagination. There are no limits. Whatever happens there, there’s always hope that it will end well. Instilling hope. The ultimate reason for me to create, to write. Because for me, that’s what it’s all about. That’s what we, storytellers, do. We instill hope when there is none. What better reason to write…?

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hill valley, california 4:29pm on wednesday, october 21st, 2015

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This is crazy. Last night I.. sort of .. saw a sci-fi movie in my dream. I'm sure I haven't seen it before... it was awesome. I just wrote down the whole thing and I'm going to make it into a screenplay, 'cause it's too good. I've had this experience with some of my songs, but this will be the first "dreamfilm".

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Intentional failure or something smart...ish as a header.

Ok, so I’m writing a screenplay without actually knowing what the hell am I doing. Yeah... sure... I took some online screenwriting lessons and such... but it’s like trying to build a freakin’ spaceship, when all you know about it is just basic maths. Other writers are amazingly nice and very helpful and I’m reading endless advices, books etc by Chris Nolan, Stephen King and many others... but I have this feeling I need something more. I’m not sure what it is... still looking for it. While I'm at it... I will continue doing what I'm doing. Telling a story. I've suddenly realized that this is what I love to do most.

They say you must learn to walk first before you can run... well... I say fuck that. I will run anyway. Yes, I will fail... then fail again and again and again... but I will run eventually.

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Once again, spite concurs all.

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blackstacks:

Laputa: Castle in the Sky

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I want my old nintendo back. And my tetris. Now!!! 

This is really awesome... I mean... come on))) My childhood. :)

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What Guys should do to Drunk Girls - Video

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Always loved classical music.

My favorite Happy Birthday variations... )))

Ok, so 31 it is. Moving on :)

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Here goes.

I've decided to start this blog for... no specific reason really...

Just needed some place where I can write down my thoughts.. mostly.

I named my blog "The Search" because even though I'm in my early 30's I am still trying to find my place in this big crazy but beautiful world. 

I can honestly say that my life was a sad song for over a decade, but recently it started to change for the better... somehow. 

I've found out that there are things that I like to do but never tried before... And now, when I dared to try, I don't know how to do it. So I'm exploring the new world of drawing, animation, writing... 

It's quite a challenge.

p.s.

...and if I can figure out this "being lonely" thing - that'll be just brilliant.

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"Hey Jude" is my ultimate favorite of all time. It helped me and guided me many times. So I'm going to "Na Na Na, And make it better"!!!