imayormaynotlikehim

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Behind a grinning mask

Behind glass eyes

Posing as love

You reel in mismatched attention

As she awaits the impending hour of confession

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Anime only stans watching the new bnha movie: What the fuck is happening? Since when did they get so strong?

Manga readers: That's so sad. Alexa play Despacito.

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People's expectations of women is so unreal. We're people too. People's expectations of men make their lives hard. Why can't we just give each other peace?

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Murphy’s Law for Writers

Anything that can go wrong, should go wrong.

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They tease you, taunt you, torment you.

All I do is watch this happen.

Why?

Because I'm scared.

They tease me too.

I too have felt the wrath of their torment.

I too have cried tears due to their unrelenting taunts.

I've never wanted that to change.

It hadn't bothered me until now.

Until I saw the tears your smile hid.

If I make them go away,

Will you love me?

[imayormaynotlikehim]

Do you ever write a great first chapter but then the second just feels like it doesn't do the first justice so you start to doubt your ability as a writer...? Same.

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So basically what happened today was, he took my seat and I tripped in front of him. Embarrassing. Not only that, he doesn't think I'm nice. I try my very best to be the kindest and most generous person, but he doesn't see it. Honestly I just wish I could be over him. Why is it so hard?

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The more you avert your gaze, the more my heart beats for you.

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Exams are two days away, I have an assignment due tomorrow and I'm looking at funny Tumblr posts because yolo

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Ok but anyone else here have a super savage father who never backs down on the chance to roast you.

So on our way home from school my little sister's tooth falls out and she shows my father. He tells her not to fiddle with the new tooth or else it will end up like mine.

Stfu old man you're paying for the braces this holiday.

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Now imagine being ugly and dumb

do you know how hard it is being ugly.

i take 10 selfies and delete 12

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You know that feeling of writing some thing, you're super proud of it and everything and when it's time to update you reread and like start feeling insecure and take the book down much to the dismay of the 11 people who actually read your books

sighs

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Ok so I know I have a crush on this guy but just listen. My fujoshi heart can't help but also ship him with his best friend. Which is more far fetched than anything and the likelihood of the two of them ending up together is even slimmer than me ending up with either one of them. But you know I can't help but think about the fanfiction worthy possibilities lolol

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I bet he doesn't think about me half as much as I think of him and that breeds reason for despondency but will I learn? No because I'm a teenaged girl with unstable 16-17 year old hormones who hides behind large glasses, a headscarf and oversized clothing.

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The truth is, you're in love with someone who will never love you back. You're overly generous because no one wants to be around me unless they benefit from it. You cuss a lot because, as much as you want people to be by your side, you also don't want to be judged constantly so you keep them at bay. You cry a lot when you're on your own over people that wouldn't bat an eyelid for you. No one knows the inner struggle, the anxiety, the inability to eat or sleep,or the constant cravings. No one hears your cry for pain because your plastic smile is as deafening as it is blinding. We think ourselves ill-deserving and burdensome, so we never openly voice our struggles. Only those who dig deep can hear our silent cries.

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So yes I had a mini anxiety attack (not really this time though) when my crush asked me to pass him a chair during science but like today I had the courage to speak words back. It's a pity he couldn't hear me though...

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So the other day in class one of my closest guy friends traded places with the person I usually sit next to so that he could use my school tablet to play Fifa without getting caught by our teacher who has access to our computers. Now, our teacher, he notices, and questions my friend (who we'll call J) as to why he moved. He then asks if J and I are dating. WE ARE NOT. J is in love with his best friend who has a boyfriend. He's basically stuck in the friend zone. So obviously we're both quick to deny it, and our whole class (which compromises of mostly guys) breaks into "Oooohs" and "Aaaaahs" and my crush, WHOM I LIKE VERY VERY MUCH BUT DOESN'T ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE BECAUSE THAT'S HOW CRUSHES WORK, he turns back to look at me with that breathtaking smile that I fell for and my heart sank at that moment. WHY? BECAUSE I LIKE YOU, YOU DUMBASS!! I LOVE YOUR BRACES, YOUR CROOKED SMILE, YOUR SPONGEBOB GLASSES. I love it all.

Thank you for listening to my TED Talk.