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Filmed for 4 hours yesterday. Will anything come of it?? Stay tuned to find out! 😬😬😬

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Hey when your unemployed, does the feeling like your going to be in trouble or get written up ever go away??? Asking for me, thanks!

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Want by Gillian Anderson

emotional ▪️ sad ▪️medium-paced

4.0 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

*borrowed from my local library

I gave this book 4 stars because in the beginning it felt like looking into someone’s diary and getting some juicy secrets (which I love cause I’m messy) but then as I progressed through the book, I got so sad for some of these women (or people, as gender is specified!) but most of these people express in their fantasies how they just want to be seen, understood and respected, which to me IS the bare minimum! SHOULD be the bare minimum!

It’s also really sad when some of these fantasies are considered shameful and will never be communicated to their partners in fear of consequences. It really just shows how unsafe the world is for women and femme presenting people when even our sexual fantasies are at the core are just being understood, treated kindly and respected as people.

Link to my book review

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Shoutout to external hard drives!!

I’m never using a cloud ever again! Fuck that shit!

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@staff why can’t we like community posts the same way we do regular posts?! And why can’t they show up in my likes?? 😩😩

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Some spring photos 🌸🌷🌱

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Today was supposed to be my last day, they didn’t even give me a shift and locked me out of my account. Bye, I guess? Like what an unprofessional piece of garbage company they are.

dude, one last fuck u from my work for cancelling the rest of my shifts. truly cant wait to leave that place behind.

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Me when my neighbour is smoking a fatty on his deck

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I’ll probably never buy a house in my entire life, but I made a list of properties I’d love to own some day. Dude, tell me I check in on all of them and each of them are sold. 🥲😭😭😭

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From Wanted by Gillian Anderson

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dude, one last fuck u from my work for cancelling the rest of my shifts. truly cant wait to leave that place behind.

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spoke deeply to me.

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You know what’s just so fucking weird about this company, is that even if something is good or great even, it’s still NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

These companies want us to do our best and then even when we do, it’s still not good enough. And that’s just so wrong and dare I say dehumanizing? Abusive?

Like for example today, I’m on call with a supervisor and she’s like “oh you have to get your productivity up, head office is really cracking down.” And then when I mention that the sample of numbers we have to call isn’t good, and that there’s a lot of answering machines, wrong numbers etc she contradicts herself and goes “oh I know the same project your dialling on is brutal and I only got 1 survey.”

Okay OKAY !

So if you know that already why the fuck you telling me to get my productivity up when you already know how hard it is to get surveys on a shitty phone sample. ???

Like can we use our brains seriously???

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I did it!! I owe it to myself to try this new path, and fuck it, I’m doing it!!

I’ve been holding off on making a big ass decision in my life and it’s feels surreal because it’s not a physically smart move to make, but a more spiritual and intuitive choice. And I’m trying to constantly ground myself to make sure I’m making the “right” move, but also the right move for myself.

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I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And now I’m carrying the appropriate amount, it’s manageable and I can carry it better. Phew! 

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Okay update, I didn’t miss a payment, but my bank is incredibly slow to take my money out. Still feel like I can’t do anything right.

Crashing out rn cause I think I missed a payment on my consumer proposal. And no one has reached out to me or told me anything. I hate my life rn. Why can’t I just be a functioning human being??? But also trying hard to NOT be hard on myself.

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Crashing out rn cause I think I missed a payment on my consumer proposal. And no one has reached out to me or told me anything. I hate my life rn. Why can’t I just be a functioning human being??? But also trying hard to NOT be hard on myself.