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one time someone said to me:

"Love is between a man and a woman. Two women or two men could love each other but it's not as strong as a man and a woman because they're so different so to overcome those differences and love each other is a much greater achievement and makes that emotional bond so much stronger. But I guess this world is so fucked up God doesn't care who loves who anymore because finding love is so difficult in this world." -A real person who said this to me, oh I should also mention this was right after they called me a homophobic slur because "there's nothing wrong with that word, I don't know why you people get so offended by it"

I just- what. I just needed to share because wtf

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Hurt me

tell me I'm worthless

tell me I'm selfish

ungrateful

entitled

say it's all my fault

rip me to pieces

make me hate myself

because I could never hate you

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Wolfstar fanfic idea

I'm gay and can't sleep. Maybe this already exists, but imagine a Hogwarts era wolfstar fic that's based on the song Naked in Manhattan by Chappell Roan.

Chapter whatever number

"Don't touch, I'll never cross the line, so I pushed you down a million times"

Sometimes Sirius tries to kiss Remus, but he never lets it happen. Sirius is either always drunk or high off the dopamine of winning a quidditch game. But Remus wants him to kiss him, he wants to run his hands across his body, tangle his fingers in his dark curls. It's all he can think about when Sirius jokingly flirts with him like he does with everybody. Or when he gets out of the shower and just hangs out shirtless until his hair dries because "Moonyyyy it makes my shirt wet :(" but then purposefully ties his hair up with his wand anyway.

Chapter whatever number plus one

"I'd love if you knew you were on my mind, constant like cicadas in the summertime"

Everyone thinks Sirius doesn't concentrate in class because he finds it boring and would rather goof off. The truth is, it's a little difficult for him to concentrate when he has a rather attractive boy next to him, scribbling notes in his oversized clothes because even though he is tall he was skinny so everything is baggy on him. And every once in a while he runs his hand through his sandy blonde curls, or bites the inside of his cheek in concentration.

When he talks, Sirius stares at his pink lips, wondering if they would feel as soft as they look. And when he speaks first thing in the morning, voice all deep and rough, Sirius thinks about what that voice would sound like whispering things into his ear. If Sirius walks into the library and finds him surrounded by students at a table, all listening intently to him explain something to them, nodding along, Sirius just wants to push the book away from his hands and push him against a wall.

And when he goes to sleep, he thinks about the boy sleeping in the bed across from him, curled up in a ball hugging a pillow. He always looks so peaceful when he sleeps, and Sirius would like nothing more than to replace the pillow he's holding.

Chapter whatever plus two

"could go to hell but we'll probably be fine"

When they finally admit to themselves and each other that they have feelings that go beyond friendship and decide to try it, they're scared. Scared they're going to ruin their friendship, ruin the marauders, ruin their rooming arrangement, ruin the rest of their time at Hogwarts. Sirius is scared of what people would think, worried about it getting back to his family. Sure, he does everything to piss them off, but he's scared of them. Remus is scared of feelings and scared because of his lycanthropy. And most of all, they're afraid of hurting each other. But when their lips finally meet, it's better than either of them could have imagined in their many years of pining. Sure, it's awkward at first, both of them feeling nervous as hell, but even after a tentative press of their lips, they feel as though they could kiss forever.

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Professor Lupin Headcanon

idk if someone's already said this, but I don't think Remus being a magnet for girls stopped when he left Hogwarts. In fact, when he returned as a teacher, he quickly became the favorite teacher especially among the girls but really everybody

He always had chocolate because of his time of the month, but he also had extra for students who particularly appreciated it during their time of the month

He had a habit of having muggle painkillers because he used to have them for Lily for cramps because "honestly Remus, there's a spell for everything but period cramps. This is what happens when you leave men in charge"

If he notices a student curled up in their chair, hugging their knees or clutching their stomach he quietly offers them an ibuprofen

The first time he offered a student ibuprofen they ran back into his classroom an hour later, "Professor! Where did you get those? They work brilliantly!"

After that he had students periodically asking him for one of his "special pills"

This led to him taking five minutes out of the start of class to explain to everyone that they were muggle medicine and for them to please not call them "special pills" because it made him sound like a drug dealer

Because it's Hogwarts and they all live together, their periods sync up, so every month Remus would have a crowd of people needing pain meds

That slowly turned into vent sessions where they would all drink tea and complain about anyone and anything

By October, Remus Lupin was the favorite teacher they had ever had at Hogwarts

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POV Remus finds out he's straight

JK Rowl!ng: Remus Lupin is straight

Everyone: *laughs*

JKR: Remus Lupin is canonically heterosexual

James: he is?

Lily: he is?

Regulus: he is?

Hermione: he is?

Dumbledore: he is?

McGonagall: he is?

Voldemort: he is?

Sirius *sitting on Remus' lap*: he is?

Remus *cuddling and kissing Sirius*: I am?

JKR: Remus Lupin lives a heterosexual lifestyle, he gets married to a woman and has a son.

James: oh so you are kidding

Lily: he can't even take care of himself

Regulus: Sirius is trans?

Hermione: but there's a war happening?

Dumbledore: he what

Minnie: he what

Remus: I what

Snape: is Sirius the girl?

Voldemort: do they adopt harry?

Sirius: *gets on one knee and proposes*

Remus: *fills out adoption papers*

JKR: No, he gets married to Nymphadora Tonks and she gets pregnant with their son Teddy

James: WHAT

Lily: WHAT

Regulus: is it his?

Hermione: WHAT

Dumbledore: WHAT

Minnie: WHAT

Snape: WHAT

Voldemort *snaps wand in half*: WHAT

Sirius: MY COUSIN'S DAUGHTER???

Remus: HIS COUSIN'S DAUGHTER??