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spoon + yoongi

it's not even that funny asghjk why am I laughing sm

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killing it girl and by 'it' let's just say haha....

myself

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화양연화 (2015.04.29 - FOREVER) ~ dream, hope, keep going.

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THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOMENT IN LIFE PT.1

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One of the things that the drama did was reveal an incredibly important part of hyyh vmon's dynamic that has always been there but I just didn't get before.

We know that Tae looks up to Joon as an older brother figure that he can rely on, and that Joon takes this responsibility very seriously despite being so young himself. What used to confuse me before was that Tae's safety was his responsibility, but Joon never stopped him from doing those illegal activities. In fact, he would join him.

In every one of the hyyh pairings, there's a give and take.

Jihope is made of two liars and one is in the hospital room pretending to be well and the other is there pretending to be sick but among the white walls and hallucinations and fainting and pills they give each other something solid to hold on to, a tether to reality.

Yoonkook is a cycle of addictive self-destruction born from the co-dependency of someone who latches on too obsessively and needs hurt to feel alive, and someone who cries guilt but can't help but hold on to the one person he can hurt again and again but won't disappear no matter how hard he tries.

So what did Joon get from vmon? What was the take part of this give heavy dynamic? I honestly can't believe I didn't see it before.

"Do you know what I hate most about myself? I get used to things, whatever that is. I give up and don't even fight on- no... I don't even want to fight."

Joon who is only 16 but is the breadwinner of his family, who works and works and works to support all the people who rely on him, whose worth is determined by his reliability and even temper and maturity in every situation. The first to forgive, the hardest to anger, doesn't even complain when he locks away the box that contains all his potential and dreams for people who suck him dry and give nothing back.

"I see you pouring out your anger and I get vicarious pleasure. After that, I grill you not to do that and even rationalise to myself that I'm right. That's who I am. I'm a despicable coward - so who am I to console others!? How could I understand other people!?"

I forget sometimes that Tae is older than Jungkook when he represents the clinging to youth aspect so well. He's loud, he's brash and angry and kind and rough and empathetic and raw around the edges in all the ways a child is allowed to be. Joon doesn't get that, he's not allowed that. So he lives through Tae, lets him pour out all the emotion and the thoughts he doesn't let himself say.

That scene at the container after it was set on fire breaks me because it represents this so well. He was almost murdered and he stands there silently while Tae yells at Jin all the things he doesn't let himself feel enough to say. It's like Tae is talking for him in that moment, straight from his heart, and that's what he gets from it. That night only one of them watched his home go up in flames at the hands of people he holds not an ounce of power to, knowing that they expected him to burn along with it. There are three people there in the aftermath and it is only him that doesn't cry. That just smiles and thanks Jin for the warning and tells them to go to bed.

I want to scream. How did Dogeun end up being the character I felt the most physical hurt for. How is his apparent normalcy the most tragic thing in a show littered with suicide and murder and mental illness. Agh.

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look look i get the point of sabrina's manchild but why do I keep imagining cute namjin moments with it?????

not saying who's the manchild in this scenario for the sake of mystery and ambiguity

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i have so much free time now but I'm not writing at all while all i could do during my exams was come up with plots for stuff (iemdy, cr55 and pnsr had consumed my mind whole)

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I'm going to eat him

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for tbc jikook ⁠♡

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NOW COMPLETE

The Breakfast Club

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Chapters: 2/4

Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Jung Hoseok | J-Hope/Min Yoongi | Suga, Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon | RM/Kim Seokjin | Jin

Characters: Min Yoongi | Suga, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Jeon Jungkook, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Kim Namjoon | RM, Kim Taehyung | V, Park Jimin (BTS)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - The Breakfast Club Fusion, Min Yoongi | Suga-centric, Popular Kim Seokjin | Jin, Jock Jeon Jungkook, Outcast Min Yoongi | Suga, Nerd Park Jimin (BTS), Popular Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin are Best Friends, Alternate Universe - High School, Detention, Enemies to Lovers, but in my typical fashion it's purely one sided, Social Commentary, of sorts

Summary:

7 high school students, with seemingly nothing in common, stuck in an all-day detention. What could go wrong?

[or. the bts breakfast club au that no one asked for but everyone needs (trust me)]

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me, everytime writer's block hits: moodboards moodboards moodboards

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time-jimin / suspended-hoseok

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body is bodying😮‍💨

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