jingles-system · 3 years ago
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You know what sometimes it's nice to see so much positivity online for neurodivergent people. But sometimes it really sucks having to act like I'm glad about it or that if I was able that I wouldn't choose to be neurotypical. Looking back at my childhood we were bullied so much and most of the time I didn't know why; throughout our life we've always felt like we've been missing crucial information, we've spent so much time learning to mirror and mask unconciously and then sticking to it so strictly and not knowing why we were burning out so badly and needed to spend so much time away from ANYONE because we didn't feel like we could unmask in front of anyone (but we didn't even have the language for that. Just that it felt like we couldn't be safe, comfortable or relaxed around other people). I (the host) really like to make crafts and have been trying to sell them for years and years but have not met with much success no matter what I've tried and even though I've been undercharging. I make things for friends and family and everyone seems to like the gifts I make them but I never can sell the same things online. So what if they were just lying. Recently I've even seen some tiktoks about people showing videos of people being passive aggressive (and don't get me wrong, we grew up in a very passive aggressive household and had to learn to read people at an early age) and it made us panic because they seemed like they were actually being very nice. So it makes me wonder how much other potentially dangerous slips we've had like that in the past where we missed something vital. And how is it that I can be so good at reading people (especially for emotions) and also so shit at interacting or missing important subtle things? I hate getting so easily overwhelmed by my environment or food or whatever. I hate that because I probably have adhd as well that a lot of my quirks or whatever contradict each other. I hate that people don't really treat me seriously and trying to explain my issues with food just makes people think I'm crazy or high maintance or a jerk or whatever. But then they also won't respect my actual food allergy either.
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jingles-system · 3 years ago
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Currently freaking out because our therapist's office just sent us a letter saying our info got leaked from emails and I checked their website and it was 100% real. In the letter it said the emails had all our personal info including our insurance and our diagnosis and everything. I would assume also having access to any notes our therapist took
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jingles-system · 3 years ago
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So I'm short on the money this month since I'll be getting her shots this week but Mistletoe is badly in need of a haircut especailly with all this heat. I'm once again opening $5 tarot, oracle and rune readings. If you just wanna help out but don't want a reading just let me know
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jingles-system · 3 years ago
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So after a year almost two years our abusers moved literally 20 mins away from us to be closer to our older brother. We've been doing so so badly; looking over our shoulder whenever we go out, not sleeping, feeling ill, physically collapsing, nightmares. And our phone crapped out and I have to wait til our dad decides to be generous to come get us to get a new one. Our dog scared us this morning by making us think she ate our sleeping pills and so I only had a few hours sleep and won't be able to sleep tonight because I won't be able to turn on an alarm
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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That awkward moment when you're too mentally ill and unstable for even your other mentally ill friends
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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Hey guys I'm partnering with a friend of mine to do paid readings so I can put money towards getting a service dog. If you don't want a reading but would like to help you can always DM me for my PayPal or you could donate to my ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/A4422LT0. If you like cosplay content I've also got an onlyfans https://onlyfans.com/
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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unironically dean’s ending feels more like a bury your gays than cas’s to me
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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I've added some new items! I've got a set of 4 mini bunny plushies based on the elements that you use for protecting your space. I've also got a new deity plush. Deity statues for your altar can be really expensive and I think a fuzzy alternative isn't a bad idea. Just let me know who you'd like me to make a plush based on
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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https://jinglescosplay.storenvy.com/
Hey guys I've got like $20 in my bank account and I really need groceries soon. I've added some new items of the Pagan variety. But if you're not into that I've got tons of other things. Please take a look and share if you can
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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me looking at photos other people took of me: Who is this incredibly awful person? This bridge goblin? Who let this happen
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Winona Ryder and Sadie Frost as Mina Murray and Lucy Westenra 
Bram Stoker’s Dracula (1992) dir Francis Ford Coppola
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Enya, as intended. (via lilmissshitpaws)
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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*pic for attention
So I could really use some advice about my therapist if anyone's willing to share their thoughts. So obviously I know with DID my alters are just parts of me but at the same time it's something I'm not really ready to face head on for a number of reasons. But my therapist keeps being adamant on reminding me that they're just part of me and not their own person despite me saying that it currently made me uncomfortable.
I mean I'm kind of upset about this. But is it dumb to be upset because she's trying to get me to face that we're all the same person or am I being overly sensitive?
I mean honestly trying to think of them as not really real and that the people that care about me, love me and want to keep me safe, that I've actually just always been alone and am still alone hurts. A lot. And I don't want to think about it. Is that wrong?
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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Me calling asking to be let in during a crisis
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jingles-system · 4 years ago
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Jax's introduction basically
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