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you ever think about how kaeya is everything crepus wanted diluc to be.

this makes me soooo sick bc imagine being diluc. your entire childhood you strived to make your father proud and rise to his expectations and you DO, you get a vision at 10, become a cavalry captain at 14 (we should talk about that actually, what in the child soldier—) and everything is great. but then your dad dies and your entire world falls apart in just one day and you leave everything you know behind on a pointless quest for revenge. you come back years later and everything is the same but so, so different.

and then there's your little brother. undoubtedly capable, but never truly showing what he can do. he's cunning and strategic and always five steps ahead of everyone else, but timid, usually letting you or jean do the talking. he prefers sticking to the shadows (your shadow, specifically—), working behind the scenes. that's how you remember him.

but you come back and there he is. a stranger wearing your best friends face (not your best friend, not anymore, not after—). he's still the same, capable and cunning and smart and strategic, still working behind the scenes, but he's so, so different. gone are the gentle, shy smiles, the timid personality, the preference for sticking to somebody's shadow (there's no shadow to hide in, anymore—).

instead, he's outgoing and confident and there's a near-constant cocky smirk on his face and you don't know who you're looking at. to the people, he's the beloved cavalry captain. the acting grand masters right-hand man, a talented swordsman and vision-wielder. the "top candidate for grandson-in-law" if the word on the street is to be believed. he's reliable and witty and kind, always offering aid when he can. he doesn't look down on anyone, friendly even towards the most unusual visitors.

the model knight, one could say.

he walks into your tavern one night, orders his usual (a death after noon, your father's favourite, of all things, is he joking) and you watch as he chats up the most random people there. all charming smiles and suave words and you have to blink a few times as he absentmindedly twirls his wine glass. your mind is playing tricks on you, you know it, they have zero similarities in physical appearance, but for a second you could swear—

he looks just like your father.

(there's this little girl that follows him around sometimes. well. really, he's following her around, with the way she always runs ahead. she's energetic and chatty and you can't help but notice the pyro vision shining from her backpack (mocking you—) as kaeya looks at her with pure, unfathomable fondness, like she's the only thing that matters in the world.

the first time you hear her calling for his attention, you pause, for just a second. you've seen them around enough to be familiar with the duo, but that. that's a first. an excited voice sounds from somewhere over your shoulder, "big brother kaeya! look, look!" and you take a moment before glancing over. the little girl is crouching on the sidewalk, pointing at something on the ground and staring up at keaya with big, curious eyes. kaeya's there, leaning over her with a gentle smile and a soft, soft look in his eyes—. you turn away.

you can't quite catch kaeya's response, with him having a lot more control over his volume than an enthusiastic child, but his quiet chuckle and following, affectionate tone still register in your mind.

"looks like he's a model older brother, too.")

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact) Characters: Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: aprilluc, aprilluc 2025, Day 26: Portrait, Diluc and Kaeya are Siblings (Genshin Impact), Diluc and Kaeya Reconciliation (Genshin Impact), Soft Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Soft for Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Kaeya Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Kaeya Angst (Genshin Impact), Diluc Angst (Genshin Impact), Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Reconciliation, Injury, Injury Recovery, Delusions (Genshin Impact), Drawing, Portraits, Scars, Kaeya's Eye (Genshin Impact), Kaeya's Eyepatch (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is from Khaenri'ah (Genshin Impact) Summary:

Aprilluc 2025: Day 26 ~ Promise

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Diluc huffs a little laugh, more for Kaeya’s sake than his own. Curiosity gets the better of him, and the question slips out before he has the chance to stop himself, “Why do you cover that eye, anyway? I think I asked you a hundred times when we were kids, but you never gave me a straight answer.”

Kaeya’s lips press into a thin line, and his gaze darts around Diluc’s face, calculating.

“You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to,” Diluc adds quietly.

Kaeya sighs, reaching behind himself to undo the knot at the back of his head.

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OR: When Diluc takes up sketching to help rehabilitate his hand after using the Delusion too much, and Kaeya becomes his latest subject, Diluc notices a scar underneath his eyepatch that wasn't there before...

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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact) Characters: Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Il Dottore (Genshin Impact), Adelinde (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: aprilluc, aprilluc 2025, Day 23: Promise, Promises, Diluc and Kaeya are Siblings (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Protective of Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Hurt Diluc (Genshin Impact), Protective Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Diluc-centric (Genshin Impact), Diluc is a Mess (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Not Okay (Genshin Impact), Diluc Has a Bad Time (Genshin Impact), Diluc Angst (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is Protective of Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is Not Okay (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is a Mess (Genshin Impact), Hurt Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Whump, Torture, Implied/Referenced Torture, Aftermath of Torture, Waterboarding, Emetophobia, Broken Bones, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Panic Attacks Summary:

Aprilluc 2025: Day 23 ~ Promise

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“Kaeya holds the back of their clasped hands to his chest and finds Diluc’s gaze. “I promise I’ll be back for you. I promise. And you have to promise me you’ll stay alive until then, okay?”

Diluc’s lips press into a thin line.

Kaeya’s lip wobbles. “Please, Diluc. Promise me.”

It feels like yet another shackle around Diluc’s wrist – barring him from the mercy of the easy way out, should he need it – but the clock’s ticking, and Diluc refuses to let Kaeya get caught, so he forces himself to nod. “Okay, I promise. Now get the hell out of here.”

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When Il Dottore finally gets his hands on Diluc, Diluc doesn't think it can get any worse... until he sees Kaeya laying on the floor of Dottore's lab.

Will the brothers be able to escape? Or will Dottore grow bored of his experiments and send Diluc to an early grave? Can promises made be promises kept?

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Diluc/Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Adelinde & Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Lisa (Genshin Impact), Albedo & Diluc (Genshin Impact) Characters: Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Adelinde (Genshin Impact), Lisa (Genshin Impact), Albedo (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: aprilluc, aprilluc 2025, Day 18: Vampyre, Alternate Universe - Vampire, Character Turned Into Vampire, Vampire Turning, Vampire Bites, Vampires, Vampire Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc and Kaeya are Siblings (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact), Soft Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Protective of Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Hurt Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Kaeya Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Diluc-centric (Genshin Impact), Whump, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Biting, Making Out, Kissing, Boys Kissing Summary:

Aprilluc 2025: Day 18 ~ Vampyre

"Three times now, Diluc's considered heading to Angel's Share for a cat nap in the spare room upstairs, but there's been a rash of disappearances in Mondstadt lately, and he just simply doesn't have enough faith in the Knights to leave it to them - despite the extra patrols he's heard them whining about at the tavern.

When he looks back on this moment in the days and weeks to come, he’ll curse himself for not realizing that pushing past his limits to catch whoever’s responsible makes him an easy target."

OR: When Diluc finds himself turned into a vampire, how will he cope? Will he be able to keep the people around him safe from himself? And why does Zhongli seem to know so much about vampires, anyway?

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If I don't find someone to talk about Hanzo to soon, I might actually implode. I have the best angst fic idea I've ever had and I can't talk to anyone about it and I am gnawing at the bars of my cage, y'all.

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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Shimura Nana & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Shimura Nana, Sensei | All For One, Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead Additional Tags: Retired Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Mentioned Shimura Nana, Mentioned Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko, Villains, Anxiety, Anxiety Attacks, Panic Attacks, Panic, Guilt, Survivor Guilt, Injury, Major Character Injury, Blood and Injury, Permanent Injury, Canonical Character Death, Temporary Character Death, Nightmares, Nightmare Fuel, Gore, Blood and Gore, Disintegration, Scars, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Trauma, Psychological Trauma, Angst, Whump, Crying, Self-Esteem Issues, Self Confidence Issues, Self-Doubt, Verbal Abuse, Sobbing, Men Crying, Psychological Horror, Paranoia, Headaches & Migraines, Cold, BNHA Angst Week 2019, Day 2: Rain/Cold, Confusion, Yagi Toshinori | All Might-centric, Yagi Toshinori | All Might Needs a Hug, Protective Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Tired Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Soft Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort Summary:

BNHA Angst Week 2019 - Day 2 Rain // Cold

Toshinori curls his arms around his abdomen and lays down on his side, bringing his legs up onto the cushion next to him and blinking rapidly in an effort to steady his blurring vision. There’s a sharp throb of instinct, telling him there’s something terribly wrong, just before a sudden wave of drowsiness washes over him and sweeps it away. He nuzzles into the cushion beneath him and lets his eyelids droop closed, plunging him into the depths of unconsciousness.

OR

Puttering around his apartment is Toshinori's new normal, now that he's retired. But there's something wrong with him today - he's disoriented and in pain, and he can't for the life of him figure out why.

But someone needs to... and fast.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Adelinde & Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Jean (Genshin Impact), Crepus & Diluc (Genshin Impact), Crepus & Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Adelinde & Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Bennett & Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Razor (Genshin Impact), Bennett & Razor (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Tartaglia | Childe (Genshin Impact), Kaeya & Tartaglia | Childe (Genshin Impact), Tartaglia | Childe & Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Kaeya & Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Venti (Genshin Impact), Diluc & Xiao | Alatus (Genshin Impact), Amber & Diluc (Genshin Impact) Characters: Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Adelinde (Genshin Impact), Jean (Genshin Impact), Crepus (Genshin Impact), Bennett (Genshin Impact), Razor (Genshin Impact), Zhongli (Genshin Impact), Tartaglia | Childe (Genshin Impact), Venti (Genshin Impact), Amber (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: Diluc and Kaeya Reconciliation (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact), Hurt Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Suicidal Diluc (Genshin Impact), Diluc Angst (Genshin Impact), Diluc-centric (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact), Diluc and Jean and Kaeya are Childhood Friends (Genshin Impact), Minor Jean/Lisa (Genshin Impact), Bennett Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Bennett is a Ray of Sunshine (Genshin Impact), Parental Adelinde (Genshin Impact), Protective Adelinde (Genshin Impact), Adelinde Deserves a Raise (Genshin Impact), Good Parent Crepus (Genshin Impact), Protective Crepus (Genshin Impact), Suicide Attempt, Suicidal Thoughts, Self-Harm, Hurt/Comfort, Grief/Mourning, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Eroch Bashing (Genshin Impact), Implied/Referenced Torture, Waterboarding, Panic Attacks, Depressed Diluc (Genshin Impact), Forgiveness, Loss, Friendship, Archon Venti (Genshin Impact), Protective Venti (Genshin Impact), Diluc's Time Away from Mondstadt (Genshin Impact), Diluc's Hair (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Not Okay (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Soft for Kaeya (Genshin Impact), Diluc is Good with Children (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is Protective of Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya is a Menace (Genshin Impact), Liyue Lantern Rite (Genshin Impact), Mentioned Mondstadt Characters (Genshin Impact), Mentioned Liyue Characters (Genshin Impact), Mentioned Inazuma Characters (Genshin Impact), Mentioned Sumeru Characters (Genshin Impact) Summary:

“It was all my fault. I’m so sorry, Dad. I'm so sorry,” he sobs. “You were so much better than I will ever be. I don’t know how to do this without you here. I don’t want to.”

Diluc falls to his side, curling his knees up to his chest. “You could have lived, and here I am instead, wasting everything you gave me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what you’d want me to do.” His breath hitches, and another wave of tears rolls down his face. “I’m all alone.”

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Suffocating under the weight of grief and feeling disconnected and lost, Diluc's passive suicidal ideation starts to develop into something more concrete. He's struggling with his father's death, what happened to him during his time away, and the damage he's done to his relationship with Kaeya. Forgiving himself seems impossible, and it's getting harder and harder for him to get out of bed every morning.

Meanwhile, Kaeya just wants his brother back, Adelinde wants Diluc to stop running headfirst into danger, and Jean wants her childhood friend to smile again, and they - along with some new friends Diluc makes along the way - are determined to show Diluc how loved he truly is.

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Fallen Dragon

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YeeHan Knights AU for January's patreon art!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Cyno/Tighnari (Genshin Impact), Collei & Cyno (Genshin Impact), Collei & Tighnari (Genshin Impact) Characters: Cyno (Genshin Impact), Cyno's Divine Spirit (Genshin Impact), Tighnari (Genshin Impact), Collei (Genshin Impact), Gandharva Ville Characters (Genshin Impact), Gandharva Ville Residents (Genshin Impact), Sumeru Characters (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: Whumptober, Whumptober 2023, Sleep Deprivation, Cyno and Tighnari Acting as Collei's Parental Figures (Genshin Impact), Protective Cyno (Genshin Impact), Tighnari is Soft for Cyno (Genshin Impact), Cyno Whump (Genshin Impact), Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Blood and Injury, Gandharva Ville (Genshin Impact), Anxiety, Angst with a Happy Ending Summary:

Cyno shifts from one foot to the other. Tighnari sighs, getting out of bed and coming up to Cyno, pulling him into a hug. Cyno buries his head in Tighnari’s shoulder and returns the embrace, inhaling his scent. Tighnari pets his hair, gently easing out knots that have gathered at the ends.

Cyno relents. “I can’t sleep, Nari. I can’t sleep knowing someone’s after you and Collei.”

Tighnari hums and pulls Cyno’s hair out of the way, kissing the side of his neck. “Alright, I understand. I’m right here. Please try to sleep at some point tonight?”

Cyno doesn’t reply and Tighnari sighs, ears drooping down to rest against the top of his head, tail between his legs as he goes back over to their bed and curls up on Cyno’s side, closing his eyes. Cyno follows him after a moment and leans down, kissing his temple and tucking the blankets around Tighnari’s form. Then he goes back to his post at the window.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Alhaitham/Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Kaveh & Tighnari (Genshin Impact), Kaveh & Mehrak (Genshin Impact) Characters: Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Tighnari (Genshin Impact), Mehrak (Genshin Impact) Summary:

Whumptober 2023 ~ Day 2: "I'll call out your name, but you won't call back."

Delirium | "They don't care about you."

His room is quiet, void of color, and as he looks around, he realizes he’s completely alone. There’s no trace of his friends… no spear propped up in the corner, no Lunar Lotuses sitting in a vase on the nightstand, no chair pulled up to the side of his bed so someone can hold his hand, not even a nurse or doctor waiting for him to wake up. Kaveh makes a valiant effort to pretend the way his stomach sinks and the sharp pain that stabs through his chest are a result of whatever injury has landed him here. His friends are busy people, and who knows if they consider him a friend anyway, with how much of a nuisance he is.

“They don’t care about you, sunshine.”

He tangles his fingers together in his lap, blinking back the emotion he feels gathering in his throat. He’ll be fine on his own, he always has been.

OR: Kaveh thinking he's unloved, and being proved wrong.

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New extra-long, Dabi-centric chapter!

Chapters: 28/? Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Summary:

Shoto Todoroki can't seem to shake a thought that's been bothering him lately, and when the sobs and repressed memories strip away his rationality and leave him raw, the notion becomes much more appealing. Drowning in a haze of exhaustion, he can't seem to recall why he keeps on fighting, why living with the pain is somehow better than escaping it. For once, he doesn't put much thought into going through the motions.

Unfortunately, it seems he doesn’t have control over any facet of his life, not even his own death.

OR Shoto tries to kill himself, Kirishima is observant, Midoriya is roped into the fray, Aizawa is protective of his kids, and Class 1-A does their best to shower Todoroki with love and fluff.

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Some days, Izuku opened his eyes in the morning and just knew something bad was going to happen.

When a video is posted of Izuku from his middle school days being tormented by a group of bullies, how will his new classmates and teachers respond? Will they shun him for being quirkless like everyone had when he was younger, or will they accept him for who he is?

This is a piece I wrote about bullying for the first day of Whumptober, and here I am on the 11th posting it, but I wanted to get it right, and I am really happy with how it turned out, so here it is!

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New Chapter!

Chapters: 27/? Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Shoto Todoroki can't seem to shake a thought that's been bothering him lately, and when the sobs and repressed memories strip away his rationality and leave him raw, the notion becomes much more appealing. Drowning in a haze of exhaustion, he can't seem to recall why he keeps on fighting, why living with the pain is somehow better than escaping it. For once, he doesn't put much thought into going through the motions.

Unfortunately, it seems he doesn’t have control over any facet of his life, not even his own death.

OR Shoto tries to kill himself, Kirishima is observant, Midoriya is roped into the fray, Aizawa is protective of his kids, and Class 1-A does their best to shower Todoroki with love and fluff.

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Okay, I lied, I added another character :’D

And it’s Shinsou, napping in the background :D I loosely based their mer-designs on real fishies: Aizawa is a catshark, Shinsou a moray eel and Eri a little chimaera. By the way, I thought about a little backstory for them :D

Keep reading

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one more late one for mermaid season c: