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I’m still here…

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Ask me, I fucking dare you.

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My body is failing me.

And so is everyone else.

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Why the fuck am I even here then?

Time to go.

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I'm going through withdrawals.

Alone.

It's unbelievably painful.

And I'm by myself regardless.

No friends, no family; just pain.

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He treats me like he treats his cat.

Except...

Everyone knows he loves his cat.

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Nobody else cares.

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Anyway:

I got new glasses.

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I love when I overwhelm people with my emotions.

It's so easy for them to shut me out.

I wish I could do that.

I don't want to exist anymore, anyway.

I'm too much- even for myself.

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I can't believe I'm still here.

I want to go home.

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This is me, screaming into the void.

You don’t appreciate me now, so what difference would it make if I were to be gone?

You are never here for me; no one is.

How could you have me do so much for you; support you emotionally and financially, but still choose everyone else over me?

I deserve so much better. (But haven’t managed to get anything near it.)

You get mad at me for being upset with you. The only difference is that my anger is valid, your anger is childish.

Stop calling this a game; I never intended for there tot be a winner or loser. But if those are your intentions, I forfeit.

You are incredibly stupid. Not because of your lack of knowledge, but because of your inability to apply it correctly.

I should have never loved you. You say you love me but everything you do proves to me that you never did. Now I am out all of my time, money and love.

You don’t care about how your attitude or actions make me feel. This convinces me you never cared at all.

I loved you the best I could and somehow still didn’t get recognition. Don’t tell me “I didn’t ask for you to love me” because that’s what ungrateful children say.

You obviously love sex with her more than you love time with me.

I anger you because I am right; what you are doing is wrong. You just don’t want to stop.

I could do anything for you and you still wouldn’t do shit for me.

The way you think you “owe” me nothing isn’t a way to think at all.

You ask me not to look out for you. I can’t wait to see you fall then. Maybe you’ll learn that 4 eyes are always better than 2.

I hate how you know I struggle when you don’t communicate with me, and knowing so, still chose to not do so.

You misinterpret so much and then fixate on what you got wrong. It’s frustrating. Just listen beforehand.

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Here, use this.

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This is a #BonsaiPot but the shape definitely screams "bowl" I trimmed it last night; great consistency and easy to work with. Could be my sharp tools or my sharp skills 🤔😅 #ceramics #clay #pottery #potter #SpeckledBrownstone #wheelthrown #trimmed #trimming #BonsaiPottery #BonsaiPotter #BonsaiPots #Bonsai #盆栽 (at The Potter's Shop) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUSj9dKAIFJ/?utm_medium=tumblr

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#Porcelain Oval Bonsai Pots! The one in back is quite big. But the small one in front makes it seem smaller... Perspectives do that. The handbuilding is going quite well. Especially with the porcelain clay. Fingers crossed for a nice turnout in the kiln! #Ceramics #Pottery #Potter #Clay #Handbuilding #BonsaiPottery #BonsaiPotter #BonsaiPots #BonsaiPot #Bonsai #盆栽 (at The Potter's Shop) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUC6fn6AWMV/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Glaze Kiln loaded with a cherry on top! #Pottery #Potter #Ceramics #Porcelain #SpeckledBrownstone #Wheelthrown #GlazeFire #Glazed #Firing #Kiln #BonsaiPottery #BonsaiPotter #BonsaiPots #BonsaiPot #Bonsai #盆栽 (at The Potter's Shop) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTvWQdYMZFI/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Slab. Yeah; also, still haven't had that glaze firing yet. I signed up again for the 12th. Hopefully it happens this time. 😂 #ceramics #clay #Pottery #potter #slab #Handbuilding #SpeckledBrownstone (at The Potter's Shop) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTkNGsQLzRt/?utm_medium=tumblr