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[kingbiwing]

narrator: this was a lie. he did not keep the 0.1g for tomorrow. he is currently busy regretting his entire life.

me saying “i spent 350€ on cocaine in 30 days" is actually just a statistical error.

i spent 70€ within the first 21 days.

the 4 grams i got within the past 9 days are outliers and should not have been counted.

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okay maybe i lied just a little, but like just a little

i had forgotten that i borrowed 300€ solely to buy coke after running out of money

its not as bad as it sounds though, coke's just way too expensive lol

me saying “i spent 350€ on cocaine in 30 days" is actually just a statistical error.

i spent 70€ within the first 21 days.

the 4 grams i got within the past 9 days are outliers and should not have been counted.

[kingbiwing]

me saying “i spent 350€ on cocaine in 30 days" is actually just a statistical error.

i spent 70€ within the first 21 days.

the 4 grams i got within the past 9 days are outliers and should not have been counted.

[kingbiwing]

daily reminder that cocaine is not worth it

like yeah its nice but it's hella overhyped and especially OVERPRICED

i got 2 grams yesterday and paid 140€ (which is about ~$151 or ~122£) only to consume 2/3 (tWO THIRDS!!!!!) of the bag in less than 25 DAMN HOURS

94 EUROS, 101 USD, 82 GBP

GONE IN ONE DAY???!??

anyways fuck cocaine

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once again, tw drugs

dw i'll disappear after fr fr, BUT

do i think coke is overrated? yes, yes i do

did i finish my bag? yes, yes i did

will i be getting more tomorrow? yes, yes i will

the moral of this story is that i am an idiot

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wait no before i leave again i gotta say

my psychiatrist is a BITCH and she's LEAVINNNNG

after wasting 2 years with her im finally free wooo!!!

[kingbiwing]

hi sorry for ghosting everyone

remember how i was getting better and all that?

turns out i actually ended up having a hypomanic episode and a bipolar diagnosis is in the works

oh and also i got hooked on drugs and i'm in deep shit

luv y'all i'm disappearing again ooooooh

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im pretty sure my pot is not supposed to literally eject my spaghetti

[kingbiwing]

Here is your reminder that you are loved and appreciated a hell lot, and that I, your cheesy dad, am very very very proud of you for doing all those steps towards healing and overall getting better. I am incredibly lucky to know you as you are an amazing lil' pal'.

Love you petit patapon 💚

(also, Ovide and Alicia say hi, Ovide just nodded and Alicia says she is very proud of you as well ^^)

thank you so much, i really appreciate it <3

i'm kinda struggling atm (family issues) so it means a lot to me, even if you probably sent this before that.

(say hi to them for me!!! and thank you a lot alicia!)

[kingbiwing]

i love you people with "scary" mental disorders i love you people with OSDD i love you people with DID i love you people with homicidal urges/thoughts/impulses i love you borderlines i love you narcissists i love you sociopaths i love you schizophrenics i love you people who experience psychosis i love you people with eating disorders i love you people with bipolar i love you paranoid people

[kingbiwing]

Hey how are you? I haven’t spoken to you in a while but you were always nice to me and I appreciate that, especially when you didn’t stop being nice just because everyone else did.

hello, thank you for the ask!

i've been doing great! not many news, except that i've gradually stopped using social media as much. it wasnt exactly on purpose i'd say? i was just so busy trying to better my life that i just... forgot? but its good, i think. i needed that.

i also have a pretty strong feeling that i might know who you are, and know that i didn't forget about you. it's been over a year, maybe two, right? i still think about you sometimes.

i've been trying to answer this for over two hours now, but i am simply unable to say everything i want to say. im terrified of it coming out the wrong way, or making it about myself, or just fucking up somewhere. my original response was much more poetic and whatever but it wouldnt work, not with everything i want to say.

so just. thank you so much. for accepting my kindness even when i had little of it to give. for remembering. for messaging me.

i missed you. i was worried about you. thank you. i dont even know what to say.

my dms are open, j. you're just as much my friend as you were before, and just as welcome in my dms.

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i also met my aunt on my brother's birthday and she took a single look at me, turned to my mom, and i've never heard so much love in a voice before she said "i remember when you looked like that too"

i almost cried (/pos)

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OMG WE'RE GETTING A NEW DOG

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me, seeing my brother in the living room at 3:50am: *picks him up* what are you doing awake?

him, now reaching my midsection instead of my hips: im sick and struggle to breathe, i need medication

me, getting them out: sure!

also me, having an existential crisis: *inside* since when can i understand him??? hell, since when can he speak??? why is he so tall?????

my brother is now 7 and tbh i disagree

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his birthday was almost 3 weeks ago yet i only now realised that he wasnt a toddler anymore

my brother is now 7 and tbh i disagree

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my brother is now 7 and tbh i disagree

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i like Ma & Pa Kent a lot bcos like, their whole thing is that they’re the normalest, nicest human parents in existence, but also, they are the people who found a baby inside a crashed spaceship and just took him home and told no-one.