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[kittyann]

im finally rewatching ep 3 and i remembered that i meant to make a post abt how captain christ is sus as hell. as in this whole scheme he's got going with kant to me feels less like a legitimate (or as close to legit as it can be given the circumstances) investigation into a string of high profile murders and more like some kind of personal vendetta he has, maybe even w lilly specifically. and i have no basis for that other than how odd christ's reaction was when kant told him fadel and bison have different dads. idk the vibes are just off. there's something not right abt him. the whole situation stinks.

speaking of lilly tho i don't believe for one minute she's got her sons out there ridding the streets of bad men in some act of vigilante justice. bison literally calls it out in the first scene, saying that he'd seen their next target helping poor kids on the news or whatever. and yeah ok bad men often do good deeds, and ofc lilly uses that to try to belittle bison by saying that he's always been easily fooled by appearances. which is a little on the nose given the whole kant thing, but i think that actually the point was that she's referring to herself. as in she's the one doing the fooling this whole time w her conditional kindness and her weaponised warmth. helping poor kids while doing bad things behind the scenes. yknow. a common modus operandi in these circles i'm sure.

anyways my original point is that she tries to make out bison is naive and silly for even asking but at the same time the reasoning she offers them for why that guy has to die is vague as fuck. 'he's the man behind corruptions, drugs, human trafficking, and so much more'??? she might as well have said he steals food straight out of the mouths of the kids he claims to be helping too seeing as tho we're just saying shit. like girl cmon. you're an entrepreneur. i know you've trained those boys not to question you at all but lets try a little bit harder queen <3

i also do think lilly had smth to do w whatever happened to fadel's ex and that that might be why he lied to her when she asked if bison is seeing someone. at least partially. if he knows what she's capable of in that sense then he'd want to keep that shit under wraps, not for kant's sake but for bison's. i've said it before but bison's ignorance only exists bc fadel has worked his ass off to keep it that way. i feel like fadel knows, or at least suspects, that lilly isn't the woman she wants them to believe she is. but ofc fadel isn't gonna tell bison that. ignorance is bliss, and even if it wasn't that's their mother. her and bison clearly have a (relatively) warm relationship. fadel wouldn't want to ruin that with the truth.

also i don't trust style's dad either. why include a character in the intro that is seemingly so unimportant? what the fuck is up with the whole 'boonterm' thing? style's dad is obviously at LEAST mechanic running in these 'bad guy' circles considering style had to drop off the secretary's car to her. which like. idk what kinda bougie ass mechanics rich ppl be having but having your car dropped off to you - by the mechanic's son no less - at some random host bar instead of having to go pick it up seems like special treatment. like maybe it's not just a simple mechanic/customer relationship yk

and u know what as i'm typing this i'm thinking about the spiderweb motif that occurs in the show, first in kant's tattoo and then with keen in the intro (and he has spiderweb tattoos too i think?) and how everyone speculated they may be exes and maybe they are. but like. i also think it's more than that. like i just think that in this show there are a lot of people caught in a lot of webs who haven't yet realised they're the fly, not the spider. yknow.

[kittyann]

Fascinating take. I love how it reframes the situation and Fadel and Style’s relationship. Before reading this, Style was my least favorite character, bordering on dislike, but now I have a new appreciation for him.☺️👍So glad I found this post.

*cracks knuckles* Okay lets talk about the elephant in the room: Style going to the support group for those who've suffered loss and telling what appears to be a fake story about losing his pet dog.

I'm going to point out a few things that I think provide a framework for Style's actions here. Not because I think it excuses what he did, but because I think a nuanced read is what the character deserves.

Point 1: An irresistible opportunity

The subs put the "Support Group for Loss" on the image in the notebook, but I'm not sure there's anything to suggest that Style would've known that was what this image represents until he showed up and saw the sign on top of the door.

In episode 2, Bison says, "He plans everything down from years, months, weeks to days" and then tells Kant:

So Style is literally just going to addresses/locations at given days and times, potentially not knowing what to expect. And as much as Fadel is certainly attending this meeting as a response to having that heartbreaking flashback (😭), this is also something he attends regularly and has planned to attend way in advance. So Style has no reason to think Fadel is attending this meeting because of a recent resurfacing of his pain.

What we, the audience, and what the characters know are very different things.

Now, should Style have turned his cute ass right around once he realised what this meeting was? Of course he should. But that wouldn't have been true to Style's character. We've been told by his best friend that he is "crazy" and been shown repeatedly that he lives right up to that description.

Style is impulsive. He's all base instinct and he acts on his desires without thought or contemplation. And by this point he is desperate for a deeper connection with Fadel. He's fascinated, captivated by the mystery that is Fadel and this is an excellent opportunity to finally see behind the wall Fadel so carefully maintains.

When Style sees the sign above the door, Style looks at the notebook (which, again, shows nothing but people sitting in a circle with the words RISE UP) like he's just realising what it means. He then gets this amused, almost rueful look on his face (like he's thinking "am I really going to do this?") before it shifts to determination and he walks through the door.

(My soul for the ability to once again gif something because FUCK Dunk is doing SO MUCH in this show!!)

To Style, this is just too good of an opportunity to give up.

Because let's be real, Fadel is so clearly lying and hiding something:

Fadel is shady as FUCK. He is simultaneously actually a really good cook (Style finally tries his burger so he knows, now), and also has the skills to work at a strip host club, and also can take on 3 guys in a fight, and also can break a man's arm with his thighs. Can you honestly blame Style for losing his mind just a little bit about wanting to get his hands on something, anything, to figure this man out?

Style is being absolutely consistent in his persistence to understand Fadel. This isn't about the car or about finally 'winning' the fight (thank you @airenyah for giving such a detailed framework to understand what Style's been doing until this point) anymore. This is about Style wanting to know Fadel himself.

Point 2: The potential implications of the setting

Now, what might give us a bit of insight as to why Style is this way? I have a theory (albeit one that could prove to be very wrong, but hear me out). I think this whole entire show is set in what could potentially be quite a small town/suburb.

There's a few things that make this theory plausible:

(1) Fadel and Bison are in hiding after Bison blew their previous cover. They're probably on the run from some section of the authorities and so it makes sense to settle in a quiet/out of the way place.

(2) Style seems to be really familiar with the people in the area. Like he grew up there and its the kind of small town where everyone knows everyone and everyone is in everyone else's business.

(3) Style is clearly the darling of the market aunties and uncles.

Style just lost her a sale and potentially a loyal customer, and she's still rooting for him? In episode 2, when Style asks the uncle to let him borrow his cart, it takes nothing but his word for the uncle to give Style his entire cart of produce for his ridiculous scheme.

Style is so clearly someone they all know well and have great affection for, and a very plausible explanation for this is that they all watched him grow up and the entire market (town/village) is fond of him.

And honestly?? Yeah, we see the way Style is actually quite sweet in that careless, guileless, thoughtless way. He goes the extra mile to fix his mistake with Fadel by replacing his car parts for free in episode 1. He helps out by taking orders in episode 2 without being asked and takes it seriously. In episode 3, he tries to drive more business to Fadel's store (bless him, he so clearly does NOT understand how restaurants work, but he MEANS well!!), and can we all acknowledge that it works?? He understands how to appeal to potential customers in the area because he knows the people there. It's not (entirely) his fault that Fadel wasn't remotely prepared for an actual rush crowd and Bison was off getting kinky with Kant and not doing his (fake) job. He is so clear about not judging Fadel's host job and tries his hardest to help him (to absolutely NO effect, but still) when the 3 guys gang up on Fadel.

Style is so loved and more importantly so very loveable.

Point 3: What this could mean for Style's character

So, potentially, Style is someone who grew up in a small town, who has been well loved, potentially spoiled and coddled, but also very much kept within the confines of the narrow viewpoint that a quiet, country town places on you.

It's in the way his dad scolds him as if he was still a child when he's at least in his mid to late 20s. It's in the way Style was so mad at Fadel for scolding him ("thanks for the lecture, dad"), like that hit a sore point for Style. It's in the way no one in the market takes him seriously; they're fond, but he's still a kid in their eyes. It's in the way he has an abundance of free time like he doesn't REALLY need to work at his dad's shop. It's in the way he sees Fadel beat 3 guys up with ease, starts wondering if Fadel is an assassin or a hitman, and is completely unfazed like he doesn't quite have a handle on reality.

It's in the way his best friend is a man who has no qualms about lying to him and putting his life in danger, and how Style seems to have no other friends or people (aside from his dad) in his life.

@wuxian-vs-wangji made a comment to me about Style being desperate for a meaningful connection, and I think she hit the nail on the head. Because along comes Fadel, a mysterious stranger with a suspiciously versatile set of skills who is also very hot and keeps giving Style these wonderfully complex reactions? Who sometimes wants nothing to do with Style, but at other times seems to be at war within himself about desperately wanting him? Who treats Style with anything but apathy?

This is catnip to Style; he never had any hope of resisting this.

Breaking news: Style is a complex and imperfect character...

Here's the thing, though: he was never going to try. The show has been incredibly upfront about who Style is as a person. Regardless of whether I'm correct about why he is this way (ie. that he is very much the product of the environment that didn't know how to handle a kid with Style's personality), episode 3 shouldn't have surprised anyone about Style. He's been incredibly consistent and true to himself.

He wants Fadel and he's "crazy" enough to go all in, no holds barred about it, and the Support Group was the biggest doorway to finally discovering something REAL about Fadel.

And its not just about sex or to prove his superiority anymore. Because if it was just that, then Style would have reacted very differently to their first time.

In this scene, Style is pleased and evidently enjoying himself, but he isn't exuberant. He isn't overcome with joy. If anything, he was more happy and excited when Fadel let him help out in the diner than he was when Fadel is literally fucking him. He lets Fadel set the pace; barely moves to touch Fadel except to hold him close. Almost like he doesn't want to accidentally mess this up, like he's worried he'll take too much, so he'll take what Fadel gives him and no more. For a character that has been so aggressively on the offensive, this is shocking until you realise that sleeping with Fadel - while it's a step in the right direction - isn't Style's end goal anymore.

And he makes that abundantly clear throughout this episode:

Does Style even fully realise the weight of this desire? I doubt it. But I do believe that Style is in earnest. He doesn't fully understand his own feelings, but he also doesn't really care to either. All he knows is that he wants Fadel, wants his attention and his passion and his focus and his heart.

...but Style is also kind of, sort of, perfect.

Because he's exactly, precisely, breathtakingly exactly what Fadel needs.

Because Fadel is hurt and broken and bleeding inside. Because Fadel is barely holding it all together for Bison's sake, but has already given up hope for any true happiness for himself. Because Fadel can't trust anyone or anything in his life, when he's been used and used and used by the family who should've loved and cared and protected him.

Because it's going to take nothing short of this kind of unwavering, unshakable, uncomplicated determination to give Fadel even a chance of healing and opening his heart to love again.

[kittyann]

🔥👑🔥

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merry christmas from the gmmtv squad 🎄🎅🏻

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ABOUT ME ☺️👋 : a survey provided by my Twitter friends @Alley0girl and @infinit_dreamer

Part 2/2: The answers

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ABOUT ME ☺️👋 : a survey provided by my Twitter friends @Alley0girl and @infinit_dreamer

Part 1/2 : The questions

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#OnlyFriendsSeries era ❤️‍🔥 #RaySan

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I’m not sure whether I can participate in this event directly, but I am working on a Not Me fanfic right now. It’s a Black-centric story with BlackEugene, SeanWhite, and one-sided ToddBlack. The premise is this:

What if Ayan’s dad had a really good reason to divorce his mom? What if the divorce was just another way to keep his wife and son safe? What if Ayan’s parents were actually BlackEugene from the Not Me Series?

I’ve never written a fanfic as complicated as this before. Would anyone be interested and available to help out or serve as a Beta reader? Comment below if you can. Thank you !

(gif by @magicaldreamfox1)

One Year of Not Me is a fan-run event to celebrate the one year anniversary of Not Me Episode 1. The event starts on the 12th of December, 2022 and ends on the 18th. We aim to celebrate the show by posting and sharing fanwork made specifically for the event. All fanworks of all types are welcome and can be posted across platforms. The event will be hosted on the @theory-of-khaithird tumblr blog, which will share all fanworks posted under the tag #one year of not me on tumblr, and an AO3 Collection will be opened for the fics. Please make sure to go through the Rules as well as the Prompts for the week. For any further queries contact one of the organisers tagged below via asks.

(Organised by @disaster-j and @magicaldreamfox1)

[kittyann]

At this point I believe First just went to the director and said "the voices in my head said that you should create a series like friendzone but more gay and with me and Khao"

First making any decision ever:

[kittyann]

👑My Favorite Dramas in No Particular Order (2/2)

Comment below, or message me on IG @emkuru22 if you want to talk about any of these amazing Asian dramas. Analyzing dramas and composing "what if" fiction are two of my favorite hobbies. 😂

26) Theseus no Fune

27) 18 Again

28) Colorful Bone

29) East of Eden

30) Moorim School

31) Great Men Academy

32) Hotel del Luna

33) Ghost

34) My Boss, My Hero

35) Gokusen 2

36) Nobuta wo Produce

37) Nirvana in Fire

38) Orthros no Inu

39) SHARK

40) Tiger & Dragon

41) The Romance of Tiger and Rose

42) The Eternal Love

43) Hello, Dear Ancestors

44) ReLIFE (& the webcomic)

45) Skip Beat (aka: The Extravagant Challenge)

46) Time Between Dog and Wolf

47) Hi, My Sweeheart

48) TharnType

49) Bad Buddy

50) Koshite Akuma

51) Twenty Again

52) Nine: Nine Travels Time Travel

53) Circle: Two Worlds Connected

54) Pinocchio

55) 13-sai no Hello Work

56) 3 Nen A Gumi: Ima Kara Mina-san wa Hitojichi Desu

[kittyann]

👑My Favorite Dramas in No Particular Order (1/2)

Comment below, or message me on IG @emkuru22 if you want to talk about any of these amazing dramas. Analyzing dramas and composing "what if" fiction are two of my favorite hobbies. 😂

1)The Eclipse Series

2) Not Me Series

3) The Shipper

4) The Gifted & Gifted Graduation

5) Kill Me, Heal Me

6) Word of Honor

7) Killer and Healer (C)

8) The Untamed

9) Aishite tatte Himitsu wa Aru

10) Beyond Evil

11) Devil Judge

12) Flower of Evil

13) Kazoku Game

14) Someday or One Day

15) Kaitou Tantei Yamaneko

16) Cruel City

17) Live Up to Your Name (aka: Deserving of the Name)

18) Shark (KOR)

19) Proud of Love (s1&2)

20) Remember You (Thai)

21) Hello Monster (KOR)

22) Circle: Two Worlds Connected

23) The Myth

24) Tengoku to Jigoku: Psychona Futari

25) The Taoism Grandmaster

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PLOT BUNNIES: THE SHIPPER 💝

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PLOT BUNNIES: THE ECLIPSE 🌗

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🥳Yay! 🎉

After many years being a pure reader, I finally wrote my first post for AO3. However, “Plot Bunnies” isn’t a fanfic. It’s a collection of story prompts and what-if drabbles. My hope is that some talented writer will see my detailed prompts and think “What a great idea! I want to adopt this idea and write an amazing story with it.” 😂 Anyways, all these ideas are up for adoption. Let me know if you see one you like. I’ll keep adding new “chapters” as new ideas come to me. Current prompts are related to “The Eclipse” and “The Shipper.” Haha…my fondness for First Kanaphan is now spilling into my creative writing life.

[kittyann]

😯😊This Posh Thailand interview is a must-read for fans of First and Khaotung. Be sure to scroll to the middle to find the English translation, and Enjoy!

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#Dear_Eclipse Q & A

6) I think Khan needed time to grow into his feelings. When he realized that being with Thua and being close meant more than avoiding the scorn of bystanders, Khan found the courage to speak his truth. This was a gradual process : spending more time with Thua (Khan had been avoiding him at school for years), feeling jealousy toward Ayan, finding out about Thua’s step-dad, being Bruce Wayne, confronting Ayan, kissing Thua in the tent, meeting Thua at the protest, and finally confessing. The delight he feels being Thua’s boyfriend is worse the risk or feel of public disapproval.

7)Yes! AkkAyan, KanThua, Wat, and Namo(?) should all hang out as friends. The dynamics would be similar to the relaxed, playful atmosphere of Prefect Trio buddies, but there would also be a mischievous and lovey-dovey Ayan sitting next to Akk (or leaning on him) . Khan would be a clingy and affectionate boyfriend to his quiet, matter-of-fact Thua. Wat is a fifth-wheel and simultaneously utterly amused and completely over everything. He has a film reference or quote for every conversation. Namo pops in and out whether he wants.

8)I thought the drama would have a real curse, like the school was haunted or something. I hoped that the solar eclipse played a big role and that Akk was terrorizing the student body because something supernaturally worse would happen if he didn’t. I also hoped that time – travel or time loops were part of it. For instance, Ayan lived through all the events of The Eclipse once, but he lost Akk to suicide, like his uncle. On the day of the eclipse, a grieving Ayan was sent back in time to the day he and Akk first met. I’m weak for that type of plot Oh well.

9) I’m not sure whether things will improve at Suppalo because that coldhearted principal is still in charge. Still, I hope the individual teachers like Chadok and Waree are shaken by events enough to try and do better by their students. If I was a student, I’d have a low opinion of y he school and of Tecaher Chadok for knowingly putting students in danger. I wouldn’t want to come back to school at all, and if I was forced to be at school, I definitely avoid everyone involved in the big revelation (like P’Akk, P’Thua, and P’Aye) like the plague.

10) Petitions. Social media campaign. Email newsletter. Campus forums. Boycotts. Appeal to Teacher Sani as much as possible.

11) The kiss in Ep6 isn’t a daydream, but when Ayan tries to address it, Akk calls it a mistake or denies that it ever happened. Ayan is not convinced, but he lets Akk pull away. Ep8 remains the same. Change the ending to Ep.11 and give the characters more time to process and wrestle with the consequences of those major reveals. I’d like to see a conversation with Khan and Thua, a conversation between Thua and Ayan, a conversation between Akk, Khan, and Wat, and finally, a second conversation between Ayan and Chadok about Dika. Have Akk apologize to the World Remembers gang. Extend the entire show to 15 episodes.One or the final episodes includes a kiss on the judo mat initiated by Akk.

12) Ep12 My Way: Akk loses his scholarship and is forced to leave Suppalo. He and Ayan get into a nasty agreement because of something Ayan does, and the “I hate you” scene happens. The cliff scene with Akk is Ayan’s nightmare. Akk is so frustrated he screams in the shower. Akk and Ayan make up and share in some sweet maybe spicy fluff. Akk initates a kiss in bed. Final scene is them relaxing on the fishing boat together. Happy ending.

13)AkkAyan, KhanThua, and Wat spend their college years together. Ayan helps Akk explore new interests and experiences until Akk finally figures out what he want to do with his life. Ayan is a force for change and inclusiveness wherever he goes, and Akk is a proud boyfriend. He lets Ayan drag him along to events and book talks and such. Ayan is likely a social justice & business major. Khan plays college basketball and studies sports business or sports medicine. Thua explores his voice through a literature and writing degree. Wat is a happy indie filmmaker and is the school’s go-to person for human interest documentaries and dramas. These friends stay together and support each other as they navigate a changing world and clash with parents and others who don’t understand them. Ayan’s mom virtually adopts everyone.

14) “Over the Moon” by Khaotung Thanawat, especially the duet version sung with First. 🐈‍⬛🐈🌓

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