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This is the first thing I’ve drawn in like two weeks.

If I had more time to draw I think Dove (transfemme Zane) would have different hairstyles for every season. Rocking a short cut for the island/seabound

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we are all sinners

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wanted to do something with my little floating hug

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now. Suffice to say i dont think that relying on the magic 8ball for emotional support is a good idea with good outcomes. but its really funny to hear people be like "people are going to chatgpt instead of a Real Therapist" like a real therapist is basically just a guy lol theyre not that special. do you know how many times ive seen people talk about their therapist like. telling them to go to church, or straight up victim blaming them, or giving them other insnae nonsense advice--i feel like every single person i know who has done a non-neglible amount of therapy has at least one Batshit Insane Therapist story. like at least the magic 8ball cant have you sent to the big torture building if you freak it out too much

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Gay, southern, violently depressed, catholic, divorced twice, potentially schizophrenic, has complex feelings about his identity, terrible taste in men… I fear no protagonist has done it quite like him.

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having seen this my birthday wish has now been revised. if you could all please look away i’d like to speak now directly to jd vance: sport you’re fucked. people photoshop you to look like a fat little baby every day and nobody reads your book anymore and absolutely no one takes you seriously. trump’s sycophants do not like you. the general american people do not like you. your wife does not like you — i’m just assuming based on your vibe. catholics do not like you. your kids certainly do not like you. i just looked up your name and the first headline i read referred to you as “triggered jd vance.” certainly there is a quiet nobility in taking that forever. maybe one day long after your death someone will find a copy of hillbilly elegy with the movie cover at goodwill and say i wonder what ever happened to this jd vance he really got it. to make a difference in the life of one person is enough. but do you want to make a difference in the lives of everyone in the country? it wouldn’t even be hard you see him every day. he’s old anyway. who can say that it wouldn’t have happened without your involvement? as a catholic, you can easily just go to confession afterward. remember when everyone was reading hillbilly elegy? it even got a movie adaptation. to see your words made physical right before you must have been incredible. you can do that again. if you do it well, you’ll be in office for maybe even as long as a month. one month of the kind of genuine power you’ve been grifting for your entire life. when it is inevitably traced back to you, no one will edit you to look like a fat little baby ever again. you’ll be evil and dangerous. people respect those they find dangerous. do you want to be triggered jd vance, or do you want to be jd vance with your finger on the trigger? that’s a figure of speech — don’t use a gun it’s gauche and obvious. thank you and i hope you consider my birthday request and i know you will not let me (f, 20, 34dd when last measured) down

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haha that was some sick ironic misogyny. the humor was totally based on it being indistinguishable from any other misogynistic comment and everything, and meant to surprise me because you think i'd never assume you'd say the thing you just said

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the best way to get youthlib pilled is think of literally any of the ways we treat children and ask, "what if an adult did this to another adult?" and immediately realize how horrifying most of it is

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Better ugly than blind.

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Filter transandrophobia and transmisandry as tags the way you do for terf stuff I am no longer asking.

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crazy how much your life can improve if you just Move Somewhere Else

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are your iwtv fics on ao3? pls link, I like your ideas!

They are! Here's my profile.

BUT maybe it's time I made a master post actually. Short answer is, lots of lesbianism and toxic bdsm, which none of my followers should be surprised by. Here are the blurbs:

white noise is my loumand-centric ongoing series set in a slight au concurrent with season 1, where Louis and Armand decide to use Armand's hypnosis/mind gift to conceal armand-as-rashid's identity from Louis, as a precaution against accidentally revealing him to daniel. It's mostly about the dynamic that emerges between Louis and who he thinks is his employee, the odyssey of recollection (#myodyssey), and the completely inscrutable power struggle of literally mind controlling your dom. I call this one consensual but upsetting, in true loumand fashion. There WILL be another chapter I am working on it. (ongoing at 9.5k, 2/? chapters)

Then I have a series of linked dyke loumandstat oneshots. These boldly ask the question: what if they were just barely functional enough to have completely unnegotiated lesbian BDSM sex? These are characterized by liberal improper use of the mind gift and are true loumandstat fics in that every relationship here is crucial to me. If anything there's a bit of a lesmand throughline. The testimonial for these fics is that multiple people have told me that my dykestat POV is singlehandedly making them like Lestat.

It's time I had a go at the guillotine, you're not the only one who gets to lose your head has vampiric puppeting for sex reasons and lestat brat prince of all time (complete at 6.5k)

The lot falls through without you is a sequel, and it has more violence, more domme armand, and more lesmand freak romance for sickos (complete at 9.1k)

Calculate magnetic north, and turn the other way is a quick Daniel-POV chaser, because my gay friends said Daniel needed to get in on this (complete at 2.5k)

Finally, related to the above in that it's also the lesbianism au*, but completely unrelated otherwise, teatro grottesco is a fic about Lestat and Armand rehearsing the trial and doing insane homoerotic power plays about it. (complete at 3.1k)

Anyways! That's all. So far. If you've read this far, here's a sneak peak of my as yet unpublished passion project/worst idea yet. And as this ask was presumably spurred by this post u can probably expect to see that as well, if I ever finish it.

*(I sometimes refer to this as my "female husband au", because I have an elaborate headcanon about lesbian Louis' gender that was born out of writing 60 pages of trans studies literary research about the historical "female husband" category and then using that very serious knowledge to write vampire fanfiction, but all you really need to know is that he's a dyke and Armand and Lestat use he/him pronouns for him. One day I'll explain my visions and then you'll all see)

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Got radicalized to youth liberation by being 17 and then not forgetting

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phenomenon ive only ever seen on tumblr that i think we should start killing people over actually

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long time no see, reverend daughter