i‘ve started talking to myself through tiktoks when i‘m heartbroken and it really helps.
I get my heartbroken often bc i have a lot of hope, wonder and i let everyone in. i never learned to close the door and i just let everyone flood in and take as much as they need even if it‘s just „something to do“.
this time, i was actually respected and treated well. it still hurts when people i care about leave that space i made for them.
i‘m not gonna be ashamed for having hope and love for people who don‘t feel the same about me. i don‘t want to stop being this way bc one day someone will stay and someone will keep me.
this one hurt to write. i met someone who i thought was gonna stay, they didn‘t. to this day it still pains me to think about them, because how could i have misjudged a situation so badly? i thought we connected so deeply, but it was only on my end. and i wanted to be with them so badly. i need to let them go in my head, too. that’s why i wrote this.
it was inspired by molly-margaret. she wrote a poem about not slamming the door on someone and it got to me.