lnknight11

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I’m tired of looking at you and feeling everything.

[lnknight11]

And then I told you “good for you”, in the same way that I once told you that I’ll never tell you that I’m happy for you if it was in that relationship.

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Here I am just thinking over and over again that maybe you’ll change your mind and give me a chance.

I keep fantasizing with being with you, holding you, and calling you mine.

I still want you… I think I was in love with you. Once I allowed myself to feel again I realized it.

This is day 2 of writing what I feel for you while watching you fall in love with someone else.

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I dream about you. Thinking we’re back together and when I wake up I realize what I want to have.

I hear you talking about him and forgetting that I still feel something for you.

I see the way you like him and the insecurities you have but I can’t do anything but be there with you.

And finally I wish for a second chance.

This is day 1 of writing what I feel for you while watching you fall in love with someone else.

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You made me a letter, you let me read it.

This is me answering back. I’ll give it to you the day we get back together.

I think I was in love with you… I just didn’t realize and know it is not the right time. It hurts, it hurts hearing you talk about him, seeing that you like him, that right now I’m too late.

This is day 1 writing about what I feel for you while watching you fall in love with someone else.

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It hurts… the fact that I don’t feel anything… it’s almost as if I am not meant to love… some months and nothing…

[lnknight11]

“If I had to chose in between breathing and loving you; I would tell you “I love you” with my last breath, without a doubt you are what I love and will love until my last sigh.”

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“An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backwards. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it’s going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and keep aiming.”

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And if someone asks me if I have regrets, I’d say yes. Regrets of things that could had been but weren’t and things that were but should had never happened.

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“Why should I apologize for being a monster?…

…Has anyone apologized at least once for turning me into one?”

[lnknight11]

“Isn’t life ironic??? The person that I needed the most is the one who showed me I don’t need anyone.”

[lnknight11]

And I kept wondering ‘how can you break your own heart while dreaming?’

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“I committed suicide on the most beautiful way… How? I feel in love with someone I couldn’t have.”

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I’m so tired of not being able to talk about what I feel for you with someone, I feel so confuse and guilty right now but I know it’s not the time to say anything… it hurts when I watch you with them.

[lnknight11]

The moment I realized I was masking my own feelings whenever you are around for you to not know what I feel about you… it’s the moment I also realized I was fucked

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And maybe, just maybe I started writing the love story I didn’t even know that I wanted… it hurts.

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And pretending everything is fine becomes as easy as it seams, just as if you were writing a paragraph on a writing.