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Why I am a skeptic... tonight I had an ah-ha moment. For a while, for as long as I can remember, I have considered all the coincidences surrounding me and my life that I love so much as just that...a mere coincidence. That is, until last year when I started what I call "the beginning of my spiritual journey" which is silly considering we are all on our spiritual journeys. I just become more aware, if you will, last year. But I have been fighting an internal struggle. A struggle to free my mind. I am hard wired to believe only what I can see.  But I learned a great lesson from air and the wind... We are not aware of the subtly of air until we see the leaves of a tree dancing when the wind blows. We don't see the wind tickling the leaves but we do see the leaves dancing as a result. I see life as the same way. There is a force behind every single object, person, animal. A force we cannot see but we all know intuitively that it is there. It is the force that will cause even the strongest of atheist to pray at their death's door. Yet in our waking life we deny that it is there. I deny that it is there from time to time. Why? Why do I do this? I get spiritual messages all the time and yet I try to rationalize. I am sure that I am not the only one who does this.    I meditated on this and an answer sprung upon me. Most of the time, at this moment in life, I am a walking contradiction. I am a skeptic because a part of me won't let go of the idea that seeing is believing. Yet I trust in the universe, in the invisible power that drives us all. I know deep down that I will never know all the answers, at least not in this consciousness in the three dimensional space. I am exactly as I should be, because I AM. And as I began to let that sink in, another answer came to me. Maybe I am a skeptic because I am meant to awaken my fellow skeptics. Most of my waking thoughts are consumed with thoughts about what I cannot see, trying to figure out why I am here and what I am meant to contribute to society. I am a believer in miracles and the power of prayer. I am a believer because, in my own life, I have witnessed these energies and I experiment with them in my life practice. And yet I still have a war going on between my body, spirit, and mind. As I said, I believe I am going through this right now because it is a test, a lesson, for myself. A test I will overcome. I am only getting started. Now I want to touch a little on science. I will start off by saying I love science. But we live in a time where science has a little too much control...it feeds the logical mind too much and leaves out the imagination...at least for the people who don't understand why science came about in the first place. (Scientist have the intuition [something you don't see, but feel] that there is a greater truth) There is more to our three dimensional world than we currently know. Let us zoom out and see how silly the logical mind actually is. The reality is that science is only proving what was already there to begin with. The best scientist are the ones with the crazy thoughts that seem impossible...until they prove that such was not impossible all along, it was just waiting to be proven.. Science is a beautiful gift bestowed upon us because it is for the skeptics. It is progressing constantly as scientist are working to find new answers about the universe every day and make the answers known to the general public. I do not believe science will ever be able to prove all truth because there has to be room for spirit and the mystery it encompasses.

 I love Galileo so I'll just throw this in here...

"Galileo began mounting a body of evidence that supported Copernican theory and contradicted Aristotle and Church doctrine. In 1612, he published his Discourse on Bodies in Water, refuting the Aristotelian explanation of why objects float in water, saying that it wasn’t because of their flat shape, but instead the weight of the object in relation to the water it displaced. In 1613, he published his observations of sunspots, which further refuted Aristotelian doctrine that the sun was perfect. That same year, Galileo wrote a letter to a student to explain how Copernican theory did not contradict Biblical passages, stating that scripture was written from an earthly perspective and implied that science provided a different, more accurate perspective. The letter was made public and Church Inquisition consultants pronounced Copernican theory heretical. In 1616, Galileo was ordered not to “hold, teach, or defend in any manner” the Copernican theory regarding the motion of the earth. Galileo obeyed the order for seven years, partly to make life easier and partly because he was a devoted Catholic." (Galileo. [Internet]. 2015. The Biography.com website. Available from: http://www.biography.com/people/galileo-9305220; paragraph 8.) "In the 20th century, several popes acknowledged the great work of Galileo, and in 1992, Pope John Paul II expressed regret about how the Galileo affair was handled. Galileo's contribution to our understanding of the universe was significant not only in his discoveries, but in the methods he developed and the use of mathematics to prove them. He played a major role in the scientific revolution and, deservedly so, earned the moniker "The Father of Modern Science." (Galileo. [Internet]. 2015. The Biography.com website. Available from: http://www.biography.com/people/galileo-9305220; paragraph 12)

 So with this post I challenge the skeptics to come to me and question everything. Let me see what it is you are struggling with. Let's help each other grow in a peaceful manner. Let's open our minds to the possibility that we actually do not know anything at all.

I mean, doesn't it make sense that maybe none of us can agree on anything as a whole because none of us actually know anything? Hmm...

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Can you teach me, or explain to me exactly how I can live in the NOW?

Great question!There are a lot of different methods and practices out there but I’ll share with you what I’ve come up with that helps me and hopefully it can help you as well.It is not an easy task as it is so easy to become caught up in all of our external surroundings. Our mind is on autopilot and it is narrating our whole day and throwing in scenarios and thoughts that distract us from being fully present. It’s like a storm cloud, blocking our site for clarity.To become more aware of your thought patterns and the busy-ness of your mind, just pay attention to it. While you are driving, showering, or trying to fall asleep may be the best times to observe it. This is challenging at first-but try to observe it without any bias. Observe your thoughts as if they aren’t yours. Imagine your thoughts being an entirely different physical being, attached at your hip always putting in some sort of input.After a while of doing this you will begin to see how ridiculous some of your thoughts may be. But most importantly-how insignificant your thoughts can be.Remember, you are not your thoughts. So don’t feel guilty or ashamed or even annoyed by some of the things you think about. Just observe without attachment and let it be. The reason I am saying to not become attached to your thoughts is because when we become attached to them...we add fuel to the fire..we encourage those silly thoughts to grow and spread and then as a result, an unnecessary thought will eventually become a “reality” in your external surroundings. Remember, thoughts are energy. And you attract what you put out. That is why it is so important to grab ahold of your thoughts and realize that that is all they are!Also-I’m not saying to supress your thoughts. They will come back with a vengeance. I’ve been there, done that. It is a lesson I have just recently learned. Just accept the thoughts for what they are, don’t encourage the thoughts, and move on.Once you have become better at observing your thoughts (this takes practice every day!) you will become more clear-headed and it will be easier to become present. When I say present I mean that every single part of your being is in whatever moment you are in completely. You aren’t thinking about the bills you need to pay, work you have to do, the concert you’re going to next week, etc. You are completely emerged in the now-the present moment.Your senses are all activated-you can hear, see, smell, taste, and feel everything at once. Your worries melt away because that isn’t what is with you in that moment. You are mindful of what is going on around you.Here’s an example:Let’s say you are working on a task and it’s proving to be stressful. You are being hounded by external circumstances, maybe a boss or coworkers as well as your mind discouraging you and so that storm cloud comes and begins to make your effect thinking foggy.Simply take a moment for yourself. Take three deep breaths and count to ten at whatever pace you like. With a clear mind and control of your thoughts, you can be more efficient at your task. You can be calm under pressure because you are doing the best you can do and that’s all you can do-and you know that. If you have a boss or coworkers pressuring you or irritating you--let it go and let them be. They are only behaving that way because they have personal issues they need to work on. OR you are receiving it in a negative way because you have personal issues you need to work on.When you begin to open your awareness and understand that everyone is only doing the best they can at the awareness they are in at the present time, including yourself, you will become more patient. Which is incredibly helpful when learning how to be in the now. Finding a hobby that you are passionate is also great practice for being in the present because it helps you become completely absorbed in that moment--whatever it is you enjoy doing.Also, MEDITATION, MEDITATION, MEDITATION :)I know I have rambled but hopefully I have answered your question effectively! Let me know

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Crazy dream last night... It was set a year from now, July 4th, 2015. I was in a place unknown to me right now…I was surrounded by trees. I was with some people, I cannot recall who. …it was late at night but there was a red hue in the sky from fires. I could smell smoke. Above me there was dark aircraft with red shining lights, firing bullets. I was running through the trees trying to get inside the nearest house I could find. As I was running, my legs were being hit with something, possibly bullets. It felt like blades of fire cutting into my skin but my adrenaline was pumping so hard that I could not stop. I was terrified. I remember thinking I didn’t know how I would escape this. I approached a yellow house and stumbled up the staircase to get inside. I looked behind me while running up the stairs and saw a dark figure really close, chasing me into the house. I got inside and collapsed to my knees, I didn’t see anywhere to hide. The dark figure, a person dressed in a black suit from head to toe, came up behind me.  This part of the dream was interesting because I went outside of my body and had a view of the back of my neck. In my vision was the back of my neck. The barrel of the gun entered my vision and I could feel it as it pressed against the right side of my neck. The trigger was pulled and my limp body fell to the ground. But I did not wake up from this dream, no. Instead I transcended. I had the realization of my death as soon as it happened. I sprang up from my body and looked at my surroundings and finally felt safe amongst all the chaos. There was a mirror in the room, long in length, so I went over to look at myself. I looked the same as when I was alive. Shortly after examining myself, a figure of my dad formed in the mirror and he stepped out of the mirror, hugged me and said he was happy to see me again and that he was proud of me. It was a younger version of my dad. He had a full head of blonde hair and looked youthful. I turned around and there was another man, dressed in a white long sleeved tshirt and blue pants. He looked to be in his early 20′s and he hugged me too and said nice to finally see you again. I asked him if he was my uncle rudy and he said yes… Eerily, I don’t know how I knew that it was him, it was intuitive…my uncle Rudy died long before I ever met him. He was my mom’s brother that passed away while they were still very young. That’s all of the dream that I remember. It was a very interesting dream to say the least

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Let's talk about "truth." Have you been seeing more and more people saying "find your purpose, follow your truth." Have you thought about what that means? Well I certainly have. And in my mind I have come to a conclusion that is really, really obvious but hard to remember and easy to forget. NONE OF US HAVE THE SAME TRUTH. We are all unique..not a single soul in this universe is exactly the same. Let's thank our DNA as proof of that. Lately I have been following a lot of inspirational posts on facebook and youtube; I have been reading a lot of spiritual books trying to find my "truth", my "purpose." But I feel like watching these videos and reading all of these words has been hindering me more than helping me. And so I began to think...why is all of this information that is meaning to help me, hindering me?

I now know the reason why. Although a lot of what I am hearing and reading is resonating within me, it does not mean the same to me as it means to the speaker or writer. What they were feeling is not the same as what I am feeling when I am absorbing their information. That is because it is THEIR truth, not mine. I can seemingly relate to it, but at the end of the day it does not belong to me. I cannot become attached to words and thoughts and feelings that are not mine. Lately I have been struggling trying to find my own purpose. It is eating at me, consuming most of my thought because I feel something brewing inside of me stronger and stronger each moon. Something that is leading me and telling me not to give up. To not follow what everyone else is saying or doing but to find my own way. I know that it will take time, commitment, and patience. Trial and error. But my whole life has been preparing me for this, as your life has been for you. Tonight I took the Myer's Brigg test to see if it could help me find a direction. My result is INFP. This stands for Introvert, Intuitive, Feeling, Perspective. None of that is surprising to me, it all resembles me pretty well.  However, it was surprising to me that my percentage type is one of the loneliest of all personalities...a mere 4% of the population is INFP. 0.0 Immediately my brain started making connections as to why I have felt as I always have. It makes a little more sense now. Although this is not a life epiphany as I have always known that I've never quite been like others, it gives me a better understanding. Anyway, I was prompted to write about my truth after reading my personality type. I would like to share some of my truths right now because I believe being honest with myself and others about who I really am is something I need to work on. So why not start by putting some of it out on a public blog, ha ;)

 -I get into my head more often than I would like to. Meditation has helped me a lot though.

-I've never felt like I've completely belonged anywhere. I am very adaptive though and can easily mold to my surroundings to "fit in." Now I'm beginning to realize that fitting in is overrated and I'm ready to go my own path and do my own thing.  

-I feel isolated a lot of the times because I know that I see things in a different way than others. This is a realization I've had within the past two years. It is hard for me to express, it just IS for me.

-I feel like I am back on this three dimensional plane to help people in some way.

-I hate to conform. If you tell me to do something, I will most likely do the opposite. My brain is just wired that way.

-I can see the good in any person and any thing.

-I find it hard for me to open up to people and express myself. A lot of the times I start talking and I can't express how I really feel or it comes off the wrong way and that makes me close up even more.

-I feel misunderstood when I try to understand people for who they are. When I am getting to know someone, I want to know the dirty details. I want to know the things that they are afraid to share with others. I want to know these things because I am insanely curious about why people are the way they are. I do not judge and would never judge someone who is confiding in me because I understand how hard that is. I am only here to help.

-I believe that all things are exactly as they should be. No matter how bad my life gets, I know that there is a lesson hiding somewhere for me to realize. I believe we all incarnated here for a purpose and along our life paths we can either choose to follow our intuition and reach our goals a little easier. Or we can ignore it and take the rocky road and risk never living up to who we were meant to be. Oh, the humor of free will.

-I am empathetic and feed off of the energies that are surrounding me. It truly affects me and most of the time I am absorbing these energies without even realizing it. I become very drained in large, crowded settings. It seems the older I get, the worse it becomes. Good thing I love to be alone ;)

-I have a vision that we (people, plants, objects, anything) can learn how to live with each other in love and harmony. I am a dreamer. "but I'm not the only one" ;) And I realize my visions are big. But I have heard that the ones crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that are.

 These are some of my truths. They are changing frequently as I continue to grow. Life is all about growth and making our own, unique experience. We humans have amazing brains and we should feel very fortunate to be a part of this world and of this experience. I encourage you all to take some time away from TV, books, radio, news, magazines, etc. and spend some time in silence to figure out who YOU really are without outside influence. NEVER STOP GROWING. NEVER STOP EVOLVING. NEVER STOP LEARNING. This is a great time to be alive, folks :)

 Love & Light

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Why do we run from ourselves?

I'd like to note that everything I say in this post, and every post after, are all the way I see things. I understand your point of view may be different and I'm okay with that and I hope you are okay with that too. I'm only sharing my thoughts and ideas.

I have this innate ability to run (not literally, I'm not a fan of running.) It's always been there and I'm sure it will always be there. This could be bad or good, depending on how it is looked at it.  I could look at it from a negative perspective and say that it is bad because it may seem as if I am running away from something. I could look at it from a positive perspective and say that it is good because it may seem as if I am running towards something. I could look at it from a higher perspective and say that I am thankful to have a choice in the matter at all. My example: When I first had the idea to move to Colorado, I saw it as if I was running away from all the problems I conjured in Alabama.  Life and I were not getting along very well at the time and so I figured I could run away.  The idea turned into a plane ticket that flew me to Denver for my first time. When I arrived I was overwhelmed with a feeling of security, nothing up until that point had ever felt so natural to me. So although at the time it may have seemed I was running away from something, I paid attention to the signs and the gut feeling that brought me to Denver, which could be seen as running towards something. The idea was far from rational; it was abrupt and most people did not understand. But I had a feeling inside of me that I could not put into words and I followed that feeling.  It seems to be that when we are at our lowest points, the universe has a way of showing us the signs we need to move forward. It is crystal clear to those who want to see it. My point is, as humans we do not listen to our true selfs enough. Our innovative brains are both a blessing and a curse. Most have not learned how to turn their brains off when they are not needed. We let these silly, mind made scenarios get in our own way. Am I doing the right thing? What if I make a mistake? What if I'm judged? etc. The only person you need to be pleasing is yourself, and everything else falls into place.  What we don't realize is this: as long as we are doing whatever makes us truly happy at the core...there is no longer "right" or "wrong." You just live in the moment, become honest with yourself and make the rules up as you go.  It is far from easy. It takes a lot of persistence on your part to get to know yourself. Something that should be easy is actually pretty hard when you are bound by so many things that don't make your "higher self" happy. Karma is real and it is something you will have to face. All of the problems I had tried to escape or ignore are always reappearing in my life in some shape or form. I see it as an opportunity to learn from my previous mishaps and make the appropriate choices for myself this time around. I see everything as a lesson. This has become easier over time simply because I have taken the time to get to know who I really am. Humans have a tendency to depend on outward distractions. We use copious amounts of energy focusing on material objects and short term satisfaction from others. Why? It is torture for ourselves. We are all incredibly powerful, intuitive, and creative beings. That realization alone makes me feel so grateful in this moment to just be. I had buried my inner voice so deep for so long that chaos had to ensue in order for me to remember that all I truly have is myself. I have never been happier. I am nearly always in a state of bliss...I feel connected to everything and full of love.  I have reached this point because for the past year I have been re-establishing the relationship with myself and the result has been so beautiful that I want to spread the message to help others.  Everything I've said should not be new to you. We have all felt this bliss at some point in our lives...when we were children, when we fall in love, when we look at a beautiful landscape, etc.  Have you ever wondered where that feeling comes from? or What you could do to make that feeling stay? You can begin loving yourself by realizing that there is a reason behind everything that you do. All of the choices you have ever made led you to be exactly where you are right now. Accept that and love yourself for it. If you do not like your life situation then make small choices everyday that speak to you, do what makes you happy and do not worry about what has already happened or what has yet to happen.  These are some daily practices that have helped me, hopefully these can help you too: 1. Spend less time on social media....we tend to compare our lives to other people's lives...we are all individuals and none of us have the same reality..accept that.  2. Spend less time watching TV and read a book instead. TV takes all of the fun out of using your imagination...and we could all use some more imagination! 3. Eat healthier...processed food and overeating fogs your mind. You do not need to follow any diets made by other people...all you need to do is listen to yourself.  That inner voice will tell you if what you are eating is beneficial for you. If you are having to rationalize the food choices you are making then you are ignoring what that inner voice is trying to say. It just takes some listening.  4. Have a hobby. Having a hobby distracts your mind from the outside world and requires all of your focus. It forces you to be in the moment. If your hobby requires physical activity, even better. 5. Practice quietening your mind. If something happens during the day that throws you off balance, take three deep breaths and then count to ten.   Meditation is fantastic. 6. Do not give up on yourself. Some days you will feel really great and other days you will slip into how you used to feel. Stay true to yourself. It is a process that does not happen overnight. There is no end point, you will forever gain knowledge and you will forever grow.  If you want to eat hamburgers and milkshakes all day while watching TV, then do that. But do not beat yourself up about it. Do not beat yourself up about anything, that is not good for your soul. Be in the moment and be happy with what you have chosen for yourself.  I ask that you do not take my word for anything I have said, but that you test these theories and experience it for yourself.  Every body is different...find your own way! :) "The meaning of life is just to be alive. It is so plain and so obvious and so simple. And yet, everybody rushes around in a great panic as if it were necessary to achieve something beyond themselves." -Alan Watts

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Took a drive to lookout. Took my breath away.

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What an astonishing thing a book is. It’s a flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny dark squiggles. But one glance at it and you’re inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author is speaking clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other…A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.

Carl Sagan  (via themindmovement)

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I had what seemed to be a frightening dream last night. I was visiting New York with some of my friends (the idea of visiting New York happened shortly before I fell asleep last night.) We were all getting ready to go out and see the city, but I had a strong feeling of not wanting to go. But with hesitancy I agreed and started to get ready. I'm not sure what happened, but most of the people faded out and it was only me and one other friend. We were left alone at this strangers (huge) loft in a city we had never been in before(scary!).  This is when the action started. Two men approached the loft. (I remember the feeling of fear in me when I saw them approaching the loft, I ran to hide but then came back out to face them.) They made their way inside and revealed that they had guns and were attempting to hold us hostage, but we escaped. The rest of the dream was us going into different stores, being on subways, walking down the street...all the while people were shooting at us, trying to kill us. We learned to be on the lookout and by the end we developed a method to trick the shooters into thinking we would be somewhere but actually be elsewhere. It ended with me back in contact with our friends that had previously faded out in my dream.

When I awoke I was pretty startled but I have since reflected and that has made me feel better. I cannot help but reflect when a dream is this daunting because I feel it holds a lesson. What if it was simply just a dream thrown together because I had the thought of going to New York before I fell asleep last night and most of the faces in my dreams were of those I saw or were in contact with yesterday? What if it was because my thoughts were burdened by fear-based emotions yesterday? What if the series of unfortunate events  happened because I did not choose to follow my original instinct to not go out in my dream because I had an irrational fear of being judged by my friends for not wanting to go out? What if it is a combination of all three?

Any way, I think the dream formation was interesting. The way a pattern of these events were realized within the dream and we accommodated accordantly. We went different paths than they expected and although I don't remember the end, I feel like we were well on our way to a happy ending. Could this dream be a metaphor for the obstacles we have to face in our lives when we go against our instincts? The process of learning and growing from our mistakes? This was a drastic dream for such a lesson, but it's a fun idea to toss around in my head. Thanks for reading and reflecting with me, hope you all have a good day!

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Prelude.

The name given to me is Logan and I am starting this blog because I am in the process of releasing the conventional duties that society has bestowed upon me and live my own life to the fullest, by my own standards. I have never claimed to know a lot about anything.  I have just made it a lifestyle to follow my instinct, my heart.  I am a simple character, currently ripened to the sweet age of 22. I was born into the United States, raised in Alabama. At the age of 19, after quickly realizing the university life wasn't my scene, I made a whimsical decision to pack my belongings and move to the foreign state of Colorado. If you had asked me 'why' at the time of my move, I would have said it was because I simply needed a change. I thought I was only 'running' from an issue that I was avoiding at the time. My feeble mind wasn't yet ready to dig deeper..

Through my own life experiences and personal perspective, life is all about the connections we make with all living species and the impact we leave on all of the life that surrounds us. I cherish every connection that I recall making. My connections started at a very young age and have since expanded to multiple states and a couple of other countries. But I want to know more people and make more connections. I want to increase my perspective every single day that I am graced with life. I want to thoroughly enjoy every moment and listen to everyone who is willing to talk to me. You know, really understand people. I want to love every soul I come across and give as much as I can. I feel that this is the only way I can truly experience and expand my knowledge. I feel it is part of my life's purpose. I want to change my "I am wanting to do" to "I am willing to do", and ultimately..."I am doing." I want to live every moment to the fullest, like it is my last. 

So this is the start of my personal journey. I have no plans. This is what I am calling my "real-life" experiment. At the moment I am writing this simply because I felt the urge to, I do not know what will come of it. The ideas I have right now would be to fill this blog full of writings about my journey, pictures, videos, etc. But life is constant and therefore always changing. I am simply living in the moment right now with no expectations. Our past is a lesson, our future is a mystery. All we have right now is a present.