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the way in Cool About It by boygenius they say "i'll pretend being with you doesn't feel like drowning" and then later on the album in Anti-Curse drowning is described as feeling like something kind of soothing, like a warm hug rather than something scary and sufficating, despite it slowly killing you. shut up omg

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somewhere on the internet i've seen someone say that Kafka would listen to The Smiths and Dostoevsky would listen to Radiohead and it feels so weirdly accurate

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I can't get over how accurate this is

Neil Perry was definitely the kid that would trauma dump in the middle of playing, stare at the other person for a few second in complete silence and then climb back on the slide as if nothing happened.

Charlie Dalton was definitely the kid that would self-proclaim himself king of the swings and monopolise them, making the other kids queue and guess the secret password in order to swing.

Todd Anderson was definitely the kid that would hover around group of kids by himself, waiting for someone to invite him to play but not finding the courage to go up and ask himself.

Steven Meeks was definitely the kid that would use very complex words for an elementary schooler and sigh every time he had to re-explain the rules of a game in an easier way.

Gerard Pitts was definitely the kid that would find random bugs, grab them and then drop them on other kids, explaining what type of bugs they were as the other kids screamed and ran away.

Richard Cameron was definitely the kid that would get upset when someone tried to change the rules of games and then explain why it was wrong to do so.

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the way i could totally picture my english teacher writing Dorian Gray x Basil Hallward fanfiction in his free time

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as a girl with a list of reasons to not have kids in her notes app, i have something to say about the whole "girl with the list" thing on tiktok because i swear it's getting out of hand sometimes.

the way people talk about the human body — the female body, specifically — within the childfree discourse needs to be stopped. no, your body does not get "ruined" by childbirth. a body affected by complications during pregnancy or childbirth is not "disgusting". yes, there are severe health risks and yes, your body will go through changes during pregnancy and childbirth, but it will not lose any worth or beauty. you might be perceived or perceive yourself as less beautiful because of patriarchal beauty standards, but mayyybe in a discourse with feminist intent we should NOT reenforce and uphold these patriarchal beauty standards by using derogatory terminology when talking about pregnancy and childbirth. we can point out the risks and complications of having kids and be open about our reasons to stay childfree without calling mothers' bodies disgusting and ruined.

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i'll take the third one (my doctor told me today she could tell i probably have low iron just by looking at me. what nutrient deficiencies could my blood test this week possibly reveal hmmm we'll see)

STOP! before you decide you are irretrievably doomed, try one of the following options:

transition

bdsm

iron supplements

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wait kids need ai to make their favorite characters talk??? they can't just do that in their heads normal style?? what happened to making your favorite characters kiss by making little videos in your head and projecting it into your psyche cinema style before bedtime

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driving home at 4am while listening to Ride by Lana Del Rey brings a vibe into my life i didn't know i needed

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first time wearing an outfit where some scars are slightly visible kinda nervous lol

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if we want to be ultra specific i'm probably pansexual because i'm attracted to people of all genders and also kinda regardless of gender like if ur hot ur hot, and i also don't really have a type except for people who look very queer or androgynous. but also the thought of being in a straight relationship makes me feel weirdly trapped, but so does the thought of being in a butchfemme relationship for example, and i think that is because i hate the thought of being in any relationship where there are in any way expectations regarding gender expression. but yk what i kinda hate labels for myself i'm just queer i only say i'm bi because it's uncomplicated and an umbrella term and people know what it means i guess. and the flag is pretty :D

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the framing of Lolita as a romance, a love story, or even "erotic literature" (that's literally what came up when i googled the genre of the book i wish i was kidding) instead of a psychological horror has done irreversable damage i fear

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i'm too tired to write in my diary so i'm venting on tumblr. i'm barely motivated enough to type this fml

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so many minor inconveniences today that the whole day felt like a major inconvenience

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i've been saying "i hate everything" way too often within the past few days.

anyways i hate everything

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RIP Lucy Gray Baird you would've loved the Fleetwood Mac 1997 live performance of Silver Springs

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when i move away in september i'll throw away the blade. i'm so done with this shit i just wanna feel better

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it's not true that i'm not particularly good at anything. i am actually very good at making myself cry by thinking about random minor inconveniences from months ago.