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Do any other people with aspd get like insanely competitive. Like I turn into the worst person alive as soon as someone makes something a competition.like I don’t normally care to try and compete with people but when someone acts like they are better I have to prove them wrong

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I don’t talk about my ocd a lot but my compulsions have gotten so much worse lately. I have problems with religion sickness and death. So lowkey think the pope dying is sending me into a spiral. I feel like if I wasn’t on my meds rn I def would go straight into a religious psychotic episode. And life’s kinda been shit lately so doing my compulsions as a means of coping and trying to have control but I know it’s getting out of hand.

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Warning aspd rant (yes I am a bad person idc what you think either)

Been dating a guy for months… he kinda was my second choice but first choice wasn’t gonna happen. Sex is amazing and one of the few times I feel anything. But I also kinda hate his guts. I also hate myself because I’m a piece of shit and should break up with him to spare him. But I’m to the point that I lack so much dopamine that sex is one of the few times I am not so bored with my life. I’d rather not go back to my other thrill seeking behaviors and I can’t put up with new people long enough to have hook ups. He also treats me really well which makes me hate myself more cuz I’m not worth that. But this is the reality of my aspd. I can’t really change it and I can mask well enough that he doesn’t know I dislike him. I’ll probably end up dragging him along slowly dropping my mask little by little until he drops me. That’s my typical routine to get rid of people. I’m just worried that when that happens I’ll relapse into some of my worse habits. But oh well

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straight from my tiktok because i'm so upset at the ableism i faced today with my new psychiatrist.

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i fucking hate the term ‘neurospicy’.

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ugggggg I’m so boreddddd time to let my mental health get so much worse🥰

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i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?

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Tbh I don’t mind when people are scared of me cuz I have aspd it gives me a kinda sick thrill.

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“You can’t be a sociopath you are too nice”

Thank god the mask is working🥳

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I always tell little white lies but make them kinda obvious that way people perceive me as a bad liar so then it’s easier to really lie

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i don’t care if im a bad person, the only thing i care about is being perceived correctly.

you think i’m terrible and a piece of shit? ok. but can you still recognise that i’m better than you?

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Having no empathy makes me feel uncomfortable when people have empathy for me because it feels like pity and lowkey demeaning

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I’m not edgy I’m ill. If I tell you my dark thoughts it’s cuz I feel comfortable with you. Making fun of me for being “edgy” or judging me is going to make me not like you no more.

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Unmasking ASPD is not an excuse to be an abuser

Unmasking ASPD is being allowed to share our dark thoughts with the knowledge we would not do those things

Unmasking ASPD is allowing us to be angry without being told we are manipulating/abusing

Unmasking ASPD is allowing us for a time, to not have to pretend to be "empathetic"

Unmasking ASPD is letting us lash out what we suppressed from our trauma for the "comfort of society"

Unmasking ASPD is allowing us to freely hate who we want to hate without others saying we shouldn't have the right as we have "abused others"

Unmasking ASPD is being able to be open about our past without being asked or told we belong in prison

Unmasking ASPD is knowing our disorder doesn't indicate we are inherently abusers and deserve to be seen as humans who need help

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Actual ASPD

She/her

MDNI

Just gonna post my thoughts and rants feel free to ask questions just be respectful or I’ll get mean.

I also have a whole list of other diagnoses that I might post about idk yet.