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THIS. ALL OF THIS.

my next Destiel hot take be upon ye

I often see the following idea presented, with only slight changes to wording: "Dean wants Cas to choose to stay (choose Dean) vs. Cas just wants to be asked to stay (to be chosen by Dean), but neither of them can say that and therefore it is the inherent tragedy of their love."

I could be wrong, but I think a lot of this interpretation stems from this part of the script in 15x09, "The Trap."

DEAN: I know you're sorry, Cas. About Bel, about Mom. CAS: I was talking about Jack. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it. DEAN: Sorry I brought it up. Maybe if you didn't just up and leave us. CAS: You didn't give me a choice. You couldn't forgive me. And you couldn't move on. You were too angry. I left, but you didn't stop me.

I think this actually speaks to the fact that Dean usually does try to stop Cas from leaving, and that he didn't is what was different this time. Because Dean always seeks a way to forgive Cas, even if it means compromising his own worldview ("Dude, if anybody else – I mean anybody – pulled that kind of crap, I would stab them in their neck on principle.") Dean does, regularly and repeatedly, try to bring Cas in from the cold. He does, regularly and repeatedly, tell Cas what he means to him.

I need you, I'm glad you're here, I'd rather have you, check your messages, I'm not leaving without you, why didn't you wait for me, you've got one job to do and that's to heal, you're the best friend we've ever had, never do that again, let's go home. Etc.

Cas is not waiting to be asked to stay; HE HAS BEEN ASKED. It's in this specific and particular instance that Dean doesn't ask. And that's the problem. It implies that Dean has finally had enough of the way Cas doesn't treat Dean as a partner the way that Dean treats Cas as one. Cas has regularly shown a tendency to go away and try to take care of their big problems alone, without communicating, and come back with proof that he's more than the mistakes he's made-- not for Dean, but for himself. Dean's aware that Cas has this issue! He acknowledges it especially in s12 - "And he's so desperate for a win right now, he can't even see straight." Dean is usually very sympathetic to it even though it drives him absolutely crazy.

Mary's death is not at all Cas's fault, of course. But the fact that Cas ditched them and went to seek help from God and the angels again when he didn't know what to do about Jack -- instead of talking to Dean about it -- is the part that I think pushed Dean over the edge. The fixed point in their relationship - that Dean will always forgive Cas when he runs off to try to save the day - turns out to not be as fixed as either of them thought it was. And to really twist the knife, Dean questions whether his feelings for Cas are even real. I don't think Dean actually believes Chuck has forced him to have feelings for Cas (familial or otherwise), but it reminds me of the way Dean says Jack isn't family in "Unity" - he doesn't truly believe that, but he has to find a way to emotionally justify making an impossible choice between which members of his family he loves more. Cutting out Cas, cutting out Jack, because he is actually literally at his mental and emotional breaking point and there has to be a justification to get Dean through it.

I think the inherent tragedy is a lot more in the fact that Dean wants Cas to stay and Cas just can't do that. You can't remove the noble knight from his natural habitat of questing; he'll waste away. They have incompatible self-esteem issues. Dean needs to feel more important than the mission in order to believe he's loved, and Cas needs to complete missions to prove himself worthy of love. They're fucking idiots, your honor.

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HOLY SHIT this is fantastic!!

If I could choose any talent in the world, it would be a talent like this! How fucking incredible to be able to create something like this ❤️

Love drawing him and his freckles

1h - 2h - 3h

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Getting booped by Jensen Ackles.

What a way to go out 💀

Source: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNd1eqUXD

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Update: TWENTY THREE DAYS later.... having spent an entire Saturday daydreaming scenes (with still no clear idea on how to link them), I sat down to write and spent THREE HOURS hunting for / creating gifs and photos of the two main characters.

I still haven't written a single word god fucking dammit 😫

This. This is the problem with genuinely considering writing again.

Had one little idea and spent a good 7 hours doing research and making notes instead of just writing.

God help me 🤣🤦🏼‍♀️

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“There’ll be peace when you are done” my fucking ass. There’s no peace and I’m not even sure it’s done.

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supernatural 13x05 / anne lamott, bird by bird

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siblings.

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ID: 1. Waist up in profile of Sam sitting at the desk in his bedroom at the bunker, typing on a laptop that looks like it might be open to Tumblr. The closed door to the room is visible on the wall behind him. 2. Repeat. Dean suddenly slams the door open with purpose, arms splayed wide, causing Sam to pause and look up. 3a. Full body of Dean as he pulls his let leg up and leans down slightly, grabbing the toe of his boot with his right hand. 3b. Repeat. Still holding his left leg, Dean leaps into the air and brings his right leg through the loop created by his left leg and right arm. 3c. Repeat. He lands gracefully on his right foot and straightens proudly, striking a brief pose. 4. Back to the profile shot of Sam, who is now sitting back in his chair and staring, confused, at this performance. Dean turns his back without a word and walks back out of the room, hitting the light switch on the way out. 5. Repeat. Sam, now in a dark room with the door wide open, throws his palms up at the now-empty doorway in confused disbelief and frustration. /end ID

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This is legit one of my favourite shirts on him! It makes me think of rhubarb and custard sweets.

And now I need someone to write me a Jensen fic involving rhubarb and custard sweets (and this shirt cos dayyyyum)

Jensen Ackles | AHBL 12, MelbourneAustralia, March 9 2024 [shorty_1981]

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Jesus. Fucking. Christ.

Jensen Ackles as Mark Meachum, 'Countdown' promotional photo, episode 1.07 "Nothing Else Helps".

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Send me your music recs!

Dear Tumblr

Please send me your bestest and favourite songs / artists!

I’m looking for some real angst-inducing, soul-sucking, wreck-your-heart kinda stuff to play while I’m writing 🥰

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He knows what he’s doing.

He looks too good to not post on here

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From what I’ve read Danneel might lose her mind … but I reckon Arrow sounds like she’d be up for the challenge 🤣🥰

This is solely for @godmadeaterribleerror since we were having a chat about beard dean. He needed more screen time

But it's also a public service so y'all are welcome

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I’d like to nominate both @thebitchandjerkwinchesters and @godmadeaterribleerror for some kind of Nobel Prize for pinging my all-time-favourite Dean onto my dash this evening.

Could happily watch another 15 seasons of just bearded Dean in stealth mode, taking down bad guys in the bunker 🤤

This is solely for @godmadeaterribleerror since we were having a chat about beard dean. He needed more screen time

But it's also a public service so y'all are welcome

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Oh fuck allllll the way off 🤣

Jensen Ackles as Mark Meachum COUNTDOWN (2025) [x]

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god i love the supernatural fandom. we may be a crazy bunch of sons of bitches but man do we have thee best of everything. the best ship of all time. the character of all time. the absolute best fics and art. and gif makers and meta writers. the best posts and the funniest fucking people on the internet. the show ended 5 years ago and started 20 years ago and the fandom is still going so strong and new people join us every day. we are so fucking blessed and im just so happy to be a part of it all 🥰

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I swear the more episodes we see, the more Dean-coded Mark gets 🤣

Jensen Ackles as Mark Meachum in Countdown S1E6

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I cannot stress this enough but… whoever you are… YOU NEED TO READ THIS.

I don’t have the words for how obsessed I am with this story. The characters, the plot, the way this so closely follows canon but also doesn’t.

On a rewatch recently I watched the scene with John in the hospital, making a deal to save Dean… and it took me a hot minute to work out where SHE was. That’s how real this story has become 🤣

Please. Come join me in my obsession.

It’s torture waiting for Thursday each week and currently (as of Ch29) my heart is fucking broken and I need the next bit STAT 🤣

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Rating/Warnings: 18+ for canon-typical violence, swearing, severe mental health issues, self-harm and suicidal ideation, mentions of rape/non-con, and sexual content.

Tags: Dean Winchester/Female Reader, enemies to friends to lovers, canon divergence, slow burn, smut, angst, fluff, eventual happy ending.

Series Summary

There's something wrong with you that's not wrong with other people. You're a hunter, and a damn good one, but you might be a monster.

There might be something in you that needs to be put down. Something broken that can't be fixed.

It's why you've had one rule your whole life. The only thing your father has ever made clear is that, no matter what, you need to stay away from John Winchester. He can't even know you exist, or he'll kill you and never blink.

And when your paths cross a hunt, you should've run, but you didn't. You couldn't. Because you looked at Dean Winchester, and something changed inside of you. Something called you to him, and you can't figure out what it was, but you know it's strong. And you know that, whatever Dean's doing to you, you don't really care to fight it. Things are broken in you, just as much is broken in him, and you fit perfectly together in a way you'll never be able to describe.

But it's more complicated than that, though. The world pulls you and Dean apart again and again.

And you find your way back, again and again.

Author's Note

This story is non-canon compliant rewrite, but primarily plot wise. Think of it as we're cooking with all the same ingredients (i.e lore, characters, setting, and backstory) but with one change (you) that gets us to a drastically different ending.

What the means is that there will be a lot of similar plot points to Supernatural, but the further we go through the story the more it will diverge. I've also take some creative labor with the reader, adding lore that's defiantly not a part of canon, but crucial to this story.

If you have any questions about this, feel free to ask! If not, I hope you enjoy the story!

Chapter List

Chapter 1 - In My Brain and In My Blood Chapter 2 - Under My Skin Chapter 3 - I Get A Little Dizzy Chapter 4 - You Bleed Like Me Chapter 5 - If You Let Me Chapter 6 - All The Noise Chapter 7 - Something I Can See Chapter 8 - Keep Us Far Apart Chapter 9 - Does The Feeling Haunt You Chapter 10 - Look and See Chapter 11 - You Might Drown Chapter 12 - Watch You Work The Room Chapter 13 - You'll Have to Believe It Chapter 14 - Water Is Forever Chapter 15 - Before It Falls Apart Chapter 16 - Try to Catch It Chapter 17 - You Come Back Chapter 18 - You Can Start to Make It Better Chapter 19 - That's Nothing New Chapter 20 - Wait for Me Chapter 21 - If You Want To Survive Chapter 22 - I'd Go Black And Blue Chapter 23 - You've Been Waiting to Break Chapter 24 - Just Hold On Chapter 25 - And It Was Written Chapter 26 - Worth the Fight Chapter 27 - When You Go Chapter 28 - All of This is Temporary Chapter 29 - I'll Be Lonely Chapter 30 - Always On My Mind (7/24)

Pslams (In-Series Bonus Chapters)

Can You Hear Me - You sit on the roof of your car. Takes place a month after Chapter 15. I'll Keep On Waiting - Dean watches you, and Jo shares some thoughts. Takes place after Chapter 19. So Go On - Sam Chapter! Takes place after Chapter 20. Spinning Around - You, Dean, and allegedly Sam go to the movies. Takes place between Chapter 19 and Chapter 20. Just Pretend - You and Dean have some dreams. Takes place almost any time after Chapter 20. On My Way - Dean looks at some fruits. Takes place around Chapter 23. Stay This Simple - You and Jo have a girls night. Takes place around Chapter 19.

Extras From Me

Listen to the Playlist! Memes! More Memes! Even more memes!

Stuff By You Guys!!! (Art, Memes, and Anything more)

Meme Art by @dammbi Dean Art by @dammbi Memes 1, and 2, by @dammbi Soul Art by @youdontknowe Princess Art by @youdontknowe Language Art by @imnotmentallyst4ble Princess Moodboard by @deans-yn Playlist by @imnotmentallyst4ble Series Moodboard by @dammbi Journal Spread by @imnotmentallyst4ble Memes by @brtodd Princess and Dean Art by @youdontknowe Princess Marilyn Monroe Art by @youdontknowe Princess Art by @youdontknowe Knife and Blade Art by @youdontknowe Text Memes by @let-it-sn0o0ow Memes, and bonus meme, by @let-it-sn0o0ow Incorrect Quotes by @dammbi The Blade Prop by @imnotmentallyst4ble