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Feeling as if your world is crumbling while the sun is shining outside feels so pathetically wrong. Either I should be happy and horny or it should be pouring outside. The universe has such a cruel sense of humor. Maybe I am its jester.

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I wish I didnt have emotions! I wish everyone hated me so I wouldnt have the good memories to grieve! I wish nobody would fuck so this disease we call humanity would finally die and stop destroying itself and its surrounding! I wish I was never born so I could never know how it feels to be flesh, how it feels to hurt, to grieve. I wish I never knew love so I wouldn't know sorrow! I wish I didn't know about second chances so I would hold onto everyone for dear life! I wish I would never let anyone out of my life! I wish I was a fly so I could live for two days and then return to the sweet and peaceful soil of the earth! I wish love wouldn't hurt so much.

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Hey! Hey! You don't need to have a fixed identity. You don't need to stay still in one period of your life. You are allowed to grow out of things. Hobbies, interests, people, connections. Guess what. Best part. You are also equally allowed to grow back into them. Discover an old pashion, favourite movie, favourite color, favourite animal, favourite piece of clothing, color of your hair. It's okay. You are allowed to change. You are allowed to grow and discover in the state of a confusing identity. It's okay if you lose yourself. You can always find you again. I promise.

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My school project is putting itself together quite nicely.

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Haven't been active much, school work is piling up. Yay yay yippee!!!

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Oh I fucking love making these. So scrumply

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A page from my sketchbook 2 months ago. I like this one, I gotta say.

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Im gonna start going on morning walks coz I gotta walk that dog in me.

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You should start learning an instrument, or start climbing, or singing, or painting or sculpting or gardening or sewing at 20, or 30, or 50, or 80, actually. There is no age when it's not worth learning any of those things anymore. You live to enjoy life and do things that you are interested in and curious about, not to master and perect every craft you partake in. YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE HOBBIES, EVEN IF YOU ARE BAD AT THEM.

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I love looking at fanart on tumblr and reading tumblr posts exclusively on pinterest.

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Also, a project for school in construction.

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A series of creations I have put together today.

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It's hard to be compassionate towards yourself when you know about everything you did wrong.

Still, I try and focus on the things I can change, mend and repair, instead of focusing on my mistakes and marinating in despair.

It's fucking hard, I know. It takes so much energy, because in those moments it feels like the best possible solution is punishing yourself.

You have to remind yourself that hurting yourself doesn't bring anyone justice, it doesn't help you grow and it doesn't fix the problem. It doesn't help the people you might have hurt. It's okay to be an asshole, realize you were an asshole and work on not doing that in the future. You are allowed to fuck up and fix the shitshow you created.

Thank you.

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In all timelines, in all possibilities ...

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it is precisely 1 am :3

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this one is a bit blander, it's getting late. yippee yippee yippee

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I love making shitty art right from the heart. I havent made pieces this low quality in a long time and I must say they're one of my favourites

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I have realised that I have free will. I will be making plenty of these, nyerhehehehegghhgh