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Years of depression.

Nothing has changed.

Nothing goes the right way.

I'm getting worse every day.

Years of suicidal thoughts.

Years of anxiety.

I hate myself.

I hate this life.

I hate this.

Nobody cares.

Nobody knows.

I'm hopeless.

I need to leave.

I need to die to be free.

I need to fly away.

Don't talk about how much 'suicide is wrong' if you don't know the feeling of hoping to die everyday.

You don't know nothing about my situation and people like me.

Once i die, the world will just keep going.

I need to kill me to be free, but i haven't even the balls to do it.

i'm in a fucking limbo.

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It still amaze me how empty a person can feel.

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Every time I chase happiness I come back worse than before.

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i’m like “i don’t care” and then i can’t sleep because of it

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Sue Zhao // Dialogues on Love #4 // “Maybe I already do”

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do you ever meet someone and you’re like wow I could write a book about you

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I’ve started making bets with myself like, “if ____ doesn’t happen then I’ll relapse.” I feel like at this point I’m going to do it eventually anyway, I don’t know why I’m even trying to stop.

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lol sorry I was distant I was trying to keep myself alive

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There are moments when I know that I'm gonna kill myself at some point in my life... No matter how much I try, how much I struggle to live... This doesn't workout... Life isn't something that's for me... Living isn't something I can afford, it kills my soul.

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i am addicted addicted addicted addicted to anything that distracts me. i cannot deal with my own thoughts, memories, emotions. i dont want to think about myself or my life or anything at all related to me. 

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jedino što me tješi je to što je kristina u jednoj drugoj dimenziji sretna, samo mi je žao što ja moram patiti za njezinu sreću ali će proći i to

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mama oprosti ako ne uspijem, stvarno sam se trudila ali svaki dan je sve teži

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srce mi se slama svaki dan sve više i nitko to ne vidi

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