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Look what came in today!

The Kickstarter that I got from Mini Alley finally came! It’s a book stop that I can set up on my own. It’s gonna look so great once it’s done ^^ I’ll keep you guys updated

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Game Dev Diary # 3

I’m really horrible at doing a regular posting thing XD but thank you for reading anyway.

So where to begin? A few weeks have passed now since my last update. To summarize, I’m taking a new class now so I don’t have to be part of a group anymore. In truth, I felt that I wasn’t as helpful as I could have been. I didn’t want to take a leadership role in the group mainly because I wanted the others to rise up and get that needed experience for themselves. Because of that, I ended up being the UI guy XD which was fine. I ended up learning a few cool tricks when it came to making a good UI at least in the basic sense.

I wasn’t perfect by any stretch of the imagination but neither were my team mates to be frank. Regardless, we were able to get all the work done and submitted everything within the allotted deadline. What I’d really like to do is to get those projects from Perforce and take some time to review them again so that I can retain those certain code structures. They’d definitely be handy in the future but hopefully I can still access it all.

My current classes now are two and they seem pretty easy. One of them is even about mythology which I love so it’s going to be great XD but I do need to try and collate all the projects that I’ve done in the past; mainly because I do need to start setting up to get my portfolio going. I need to make a website for that as well but we need to do one headache at a time.

With that in mind, I need to keep practicing my game dev skills as the two classes I’m taking aren’t as hands on as I’d like. I can’t get too rusty especially since I do want to get a job using these skills in the future eventually. So I was thinking that I’ll finally start diving into RPG Maker to make something simple with it. My goal would be to see what I can make with the limited resources I have and just a finished product that way.

So that’s it for now. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. I’ll update when I can XD

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Life has been sucking as of late. This is just what I feel though. In truth, I probably shouldn’t complain. There are a lot of other people that have things worse off than I do. I should be grateful but it’s hard. Especially when it’s something that you can’t seem to control. For me, it’s been just me trying to be a dad to my kids. Initially, I had thought that it was my ex limiting their time with social media. But I’ve come to learn that they didn’t seem to want to spend as much time with me as I thought they did. My friends tell me that it’s cause they’re growing up. But I don’t think I’m asking too much of their time honestly. I’m happy if I even get to have a video call with them once a week but even that has been something so hard to do these days. It makes me question what I’m doing here in the US. Is my sacrifice just meaningless? I trying to give them a potentially better life but what if they don’t want it? I obviously want to respect whatever wishes they have but I just hate wasting years that I’ve spent here now to go to nothing. And balancing school, work, and trying to get my driving license, the weeks just seem to go by so quick and I never feel satisfied enough. Just sucks. I’m ranting to the void I know but I just truly feel alone. I have friends but I don’t think they’ll understand me. Heck my best friends don’t really get me in that regard. And I’ve also just accepted that I’m just a little too ugly for women to see me in relationships with em. How I even got into relationships in the past is beyond me at this point XD but I guess that’s life. You do what you can. I was thinking to start a private journal for my kids where I can just place my feelings unto there for them to read if I ever pass away or something. You never know. But yeah life goes on. At least I’m alive right? Gotta make do with what we can. I’ve let down a lot of friends online in many ways and I’m trying to right those wrongs as best I can. I also want to make more content so I’ll work on that too. Initially I thought to make content to show to friends and family but now I feel that I want to do it more for myself. That way, I can leave some mark in this world to know that I was here

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A little something for what’s to come! Go check out nkbee’s artwork when you can

Commission portrait for @masternest 🥳

Thank you so much for your endless support. Really looking forward to read your OC’s lore!

I’ll be posting my carrd comm sheet this week pls

Stay tuned!! 🙂‍↕️🫶💖

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Game Dev Diary # 2

So I'm finally back to posting after more than a month of when I should have posted an update. Am I a horrible person? I believe so XD lesson to learn here is do not count on me as I'll just let you down. I've already let down one friend group and another specific friend for failing to do specific things. And what have I been doing? I guess just living life but I have been procrastinating as well. Why am I telling you all this and including this into my game dev diary? Well firstly, I guess it's my diary and I'll do whatever the heck I want with it. And secondly, I don't know. Typing it out now like this though, it does make me feel better. It helps me put my chaotic brain with thoughts and ideas running by at a thousand miles a minute and tries to make sense of it all.

So, what are the state of things? I think I should tackle that first. I feel that also putting some basic info of what's been going in my life will help any possible readers who might also relate to me and maybe we can try to both change for the better. Here's to us XD

Honestly, I have been feeling pretty down lately. I've tried to zero in on what the main cause is aside from the multitude of other shitty things that one can include in existence. What I've come to realize is that not speaking to my kids is the biggest damper. What makes things worse is that it's more them not wanting to spend that time with me. That actually really hurt me the most but anyway, let's not get into details. I might save that for another post or not.

So from where I had last left of from the last game dev entry, I had completed making the tactical game. I'm too lazy to get into detail of how so I'll probably save that for a separate post in the future or something XD

Aside from that, the next class stated and essentially I had to make a sneaking game with AI components. Wasn't easy to say the least and I've started to hate dealing with AI because of it. I did manage to squeeze out a working system as best I could but I would like to master it so I'll try getting back to it eventually in the future

Now we are in the present class which started a few days ago and involves me needing to work with team mates again. They don't seem bad though but I do want to meet the deadlines that have been placed by us for this. To keep things short since I'm getting lazy to type now is that we need to make a side view platformer with sneaking elements and other mechanics. I've been given a specific task of first making the health bar and damage aspect as well as a spike trap to demonstrate the damage on the player. I'll try to get on that and update when I can. But again, don't count on me XD my thoughts lately have also drifted to the passing of Akira Toriyama and I'll most likely make a separate post for him in the future

Thank you for reading this far. I appreciate it really. Till next time

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