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To him you are just a FLING

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Am I in love with him?

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When you walk one step away from me remember that i will walk two steps away from you each time

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I have lost my feelings for you

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Its depressing

To be alone

Fighting and consoling myself

I want someone to take care of me

Even for once

Be with me

Assure me that everything will be fine

But it's the opposite

It's always me alone

Struggling

Suffuring

Surviving

While taking care of everyone

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Some wishes are just beautiful only as a wish ✨️

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Forgive me for not being

The person i was before

Been fighting for weeks

Hoping to get through

For the sake of you

I am exhausted

Struggling and fighting

Forgive me for things

I messed up all these weeks

Everyday i wake up

Hoping to bring a change

Hoping things to be better

Than yesterday

But it turns out even worse.

Not that i dont love you

Not that i dont care for you

I love you

More than my life

Wish i could express these feelings

But truly i am proud of you

You make me happy

With your tight little hugs and sweet kisses

Saying how much you love me

Taking care of me

You are my sunshine

Smiling so bright

Giving me hope

Whenever i give up on me

Reminding me to never give up

I promise to change

My life for the sake of you

Because you mean the world to me

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Don't push me

Too faraway from you

You might not see me again

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Sometimes I feel like

I am going CRAZY

Holding myself up

Hiding my emotions

Not being able to share anything

I feel so miserable

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Scars, the most beautiful part of my journey

It never makes me forget

How much I struggled to survive

The battles I lost

Lessons I learned

While I tried to live

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I wish I didn't wakeup today

But here I am

Damn! This is how unlucky I am

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I am TIRED of hearing

"It's ALRIGHT everythings going to be FINE"

Because it never was and never will be

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Let's be strangers once again 💀

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Please don't get attached to me

I can't promise you anything 💔

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I gave up a lot of things in my life

But thanked god for what happened

Thinking as it's what is written for me

I have always choosen others happiness

Over my priotities

I let go of things which makes me smile

Which makes me feel special

Just for others

But at the end i got nothing

Not even love or care

I always complained to myself

I deserve to be loved

I deserve something better

I shouldn't be doing this

I shouldn't be pleasing people

Who doesn't value me

But i never had the courage

To ask for a divorce

As i lost self confidence in me

Thinking that i am not strong enough

To handle things alone and to

Gather myself up and start again

As you have always reminded me

I am worthless

I am no one without you

I am dependend on you

And can't handle things alone

Made me feel insecure

Made me think of

How useless i am

Made me feel that i am good for nothing

Now I feel happy about what

Life has taught me

It made me strong and independent

It made me the women I am today.

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I am always there for anyone

Whenever they need me

But i never expect anyone to be there

For me when i need them

Because that's how it have always been

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Thank you for loving me

When I forgot what love was

Thank you for abandoning me

When I need you the most