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It only took 6+ months, but I finally have all 4 books(plus the E-book). It's time to reread the whole thing again!

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Going from full-on spiraling during episodes to now getting unironically kinda excited to make an ambiance out of it is my jam. I'll moop around a bit before getting to work in for a mood. The use of somber melancholic OST from SH2 & signalis is a great way to get my perfect ambiance of melancholic solidtue. Is this a healthy way to deal with episodes? No idea but it's better than being the self-destructive pessimistic dumbass of my younger self. Gotta make enjoyment of the rough horrors and pains in one's life to say out of the sinking sands of pessimism/nihilism that's only lead to more self wallowing and hurt. I should have some say in this opinion because I was in that shit deep until I was able to crawl out through a new life outlook in life.

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Being so jam-packed with mental illnesses and all that jazz is weird. I'll be having a pretty healthy day and actually enjoy my surroundings and interactions, then it's like the brain just goes, "Oh yeah we're mentally ill" then I just get hit with a wave of panic, depression, and just feeling as if I'm just gone completely limp. And I just accept that goin "ah there it is those feelings are in full swing again". Probably something more underlying reason for it, but ya know, fuck it we ball?

They all fight each other to be the main nuisance for the day, and I guess at times take a smoke break every once in a while before ganging up on me. Eternal trench warfare with occasional truces. I'm just a silly gal like that<3

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I always think sex sounds enjoyable and fun, but then I'll also think id just cry if put in the situation that leads to sex. Don't know why, but something something acespec plus probably something mental related. Thoughts of I could totally take a roll of dominate and all that jazz when in a sexual situation, then 5 or so minutes later think "actually I'd probably just freeze up and get overwhelmed." It's a cycle of weirdness that I'm not sure others can relate to or not. Though I definitely think others can because there's a lot of people in the world who are ace adjacent so it has to resonate with at least a few. Anyway sex is both interesting & also scary, but still wanting to have that level of intimacy with certain folks.

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GL has consumed me whole. I am just going throughout my day unironically going, "that'd be a good plot for a Gl" when I flirt with fellas. Everything is becoming a Gl plotline to me. I've himejoshi'ed into girl kisser insanity. A disaster lesbian who's delusional to the max.

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Eating bread and sausage like a rat who just stole a serfs only serving of rations. I'm so tired I don't know what I'm doin.

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Why does it feel so weird being acespec who's mostly sex repulsed 90% of the time but is pretty fine with forms of self-pleasure. I feel as if I'm lying to myself even though I definitely think there's a difference between sexual self-pleasure and ones that involve other people. I'm driving myself insane with this for some reason.

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Having mouth sores are hell & eating is a pain. I am receiving cruel and unusual punishments from the universe for no reason. I feel like that pic of bocchi freaking the fuck out on the street. I just wanted to eat spaghetti and not feel like im getting stabbed in my mouth every time I chew.

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plus there are all of like 5 cis guys on tumblr and every one of them is on the cusp of becoming a woman any day now

Isuggestforcefem is hunting them for sport. The few cis men on tumblr are given a suggestion. Jokes aside, the only cis guy knowledge I've encountered on tumblr is them gay yearning hard.

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Never really get the whole DNI when it comes to men because, like most of the time, I see they have exceptions towards trans men and??? They are a dude that's a grown ass man like the rest of the grown ass men? But since I guess trans it's "different" to cis men, which in itself just undermines trans guys as men to begin with. I can understand a little with it because I myself have had some atrocious experiences with men(both cis & trans) before figuring myself out and knowing I'm a dyke and all. Though, being that exclusionary leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I'd say just ignore creep DMs, and if they're that persistent block em. But who am I to say shit like this? I just think it's shitty to trans dudes and the dudes who are actually chill.

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Figuring out i was trans will also be a funny thing because the events that lead to it just sound absurd. I was some tween on omegel with tags of lgbtq and all that jazz. Got some lady wearing the most cunty outfit staring at me before just saying, "gurl just admit you're a tranny" then skipped me. This made me just go, "Huh, that was weird, but like I'm not trans" then later that night had a gender identity crisis that lead to coming to terms I was trans through thinking back on my life and how many signs I missed lol. One was that it somehow didn't feel straight liking girls and getting jealous of women in weird ways, which later figured out that was just gender envy. Anyway it took being called a slur to realize I was trans happy pride lol.

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Bruv customers are gonna make me fuckin explode. There's 4. things you should do before talkin to a CSA who's already doing multiple things at once.

1. Fuckin look through the store first

2. Check the back of the shelf if not visible

3. Look up and down the shelfs and not just fuckin eye level

4. Be fuckin patient if I'm not able to help you ASAP

The amount of times people have come up and asked me for something that's fuckin behind them makes me die inside. And the times people fuckin get pissy because I'm not at their beckon call. I swear I'm gonna end up throwing a bag of epsom salt as some dipshit.

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When and if I die, I will be expecting to be outside the gates of the shiny doors of the GL aquarium to welcome my gay little ass into an eternity of fishies and lesbianism<3

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No idea why I got this weird notion that tumblr was just full of people in their 20s~40s, but I had this mentality that there weren't minors on this site to the point I somehow surprised myself when a blog of some random tween showed up on my "for you" that I just sat staring at my screen in confusion. And like I knew about tumblr before joining and all bout it's shenanigans, but it just failed to cross my mind that minors use tumblr too.

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Call me Io the way being pulled and squeezed by multiple forces causes me to erupt constantly

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Got a pixie cut and any time I see a mirror I'm just like "oh my.. that's a butch dyke I look so lez :3". And it's a great feeling & all though the bangs part I didn't think through because now my forehead is extra sweaty anytime I'm outside or in a warm building for prolonged times. Suffering from lezing out so hard.. ):

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This pride month, I shall continue to be a himejoshi dwelling dyke girlfailing but with more pizazz to honour the past homosexuals of queer history