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gone too soon. even forever wouldn’t have been long enough ♡

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June 25, 2009

I don't remember much about that year - I was 11, almost 12 and was going through some very rough family life stuff. But, what I do remember is Michael Jackson coming into my life. I remember waking up that morning and going downstairs to get on the computer. I was probably going to download music or play the Sims when I saw the headline. I was taken aback. I was...sad? Which was odd, because I was not a fan before and neither were my parents. I knew only the controversies at that point vaguely, really. I remember realizing "Rock With You" was his song, then "You Rock My World" then "The Way You Make Me Feel"...

My interest in MJ grew for sure but it wasn't until a few months later when This Is It landed in theaters and I got to see it that it was solidified - I was a Michael Jackson fan. I felt a lot of guilt - guilt that I was too young to know him truly or come to his defense. But, over the course of my adolescence and even into my adulthood, I have had periods of Michael Jackson fixations lol. He has been a constant in my life and a source of joy and creativity. Michael is one of the main reasons I started writing stories - sure they started out as fanfics, but now I am working on my own novels! I hope he knows that no matter what people thought about him and what people said - he had a multitude of those that he meant/means a lot to and loved him and still do all these years later.

RIP Michael - you deserve to still be here and see the amazing things your kids are doing. I wish those involved in your death had gotten more punishment. But, at least you're at peace now. 💜

-T

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Going on vacation in a couple weeks and there is a record store there. 2 years ago they had a super rare, unofficial, imported MJ vinyl that I had seen on their online store and I'm pretty sure I paid like $75 for it. That's a lot more than I typically would. But there was ANOTHER one that was even MORE rare that was imported but it was $150 at the time. Like OMGGG!!!!

I told my husband 2 years ago that if it was still there next time we came, I would get it. I don't know if I want to spend that now but it's almost like "this was meant for me surely if it's still here all this time later"! lol

I will let you know in 2.5 weeks if this comes to fruition 😂

-T

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Okay soooo I have been working on this for WEEKS! lol For those of you who follow my story The Way The Wind Blows, this is Michael and Marren come to life!! Some things were slightly traced for accuracy (like some of Michael's face pls don't judge, but it's not a 1 to 1 ratio so that makes me feel good about my growing skills! lol) but other things were mostly free-handed. The other photos were the reference photos - I found them on pinterest lol

It's not 100% done yet but I'm so happy with it nonetheles! 🥹 

-T

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Imagine having a conversation with Michael about relationships. During this conversation, you both confide in each other about them not going well. Michael shares his true feelings with you, revealing a secret he's kept from you for a long time.

Based off of the imagine I posted a couple weeks ago with basically the same theme. I kept it as genderless/non-descript as I could.

On AO3 as well.

Hope you enjoy!

You and Michael had been friends for years - you both had lost count. It was somewhere between five and ten years. You both had been there for each other through thick and thin. When no one else was available, you were there for him. And when your heart was broken - he was there for you. You had grown fond of him and cared deeply about his wellbeing but it never crossed your mind that it could be more than friendship. Michael, however, had long passed that line in his heart. But - he felt he could never tell you. He could tell you everything except that he loved you. He didn’t think you’d ever go for him. He had to bite his tongue nearly every time you visited and he had to ignore the press when they’d ask questions. And you? You were oblivious to his affections, even when it should have been obvious. 

One day, Michael invited you to dinner at Neverland. You asked if you could stay for the weekend.

“Of course!” Michael said over the phone.

“Stay the whole week, if you’d like,” He continued.

You liked the sound of that! It was a plan.

It was a long fun day of exploring Neverland and good food - Michael had the best chefs. You rode all of the rides and took a quiet walk around the foot path with Michael. You even climbed Michael’s favorite tree with him. It was a great time and much needed for the both of you - from the turmoil in your personal life to the stress of his career it was simply nice to relax, unwind, and have great conversation - and of course laughter! You found yourself relaxing into the seat you were sitting in in his study. The lights were dimmed and a fire was burning. It was going on 11 PM - the aura was definitely cozy. You peered over your blanket and saw Michael looking at you. You raised an eyebrow at his soft smile.

“What is it?” You asked.

“Nothin’!” Michael giggled softly.

“Is there something on my face?” You asked a bit playfully but also a bit seriously.

“No! Your face is…perfect,” Michael said with a bit more of a serious tone.

“Right…,” You said as you rolled your eyes playfully as you relaxed in your seat. You looked at the fire. The crackling soothed you.

After a few moments, you pursed your lips. Your eyes looked over to Michael, who was leaning his head back just a bit with his eyes closed. You smiled. He was rather handsome. You found yourself holding your breath. He seemed to take it away. Then, you piped up once more.

“So…have you been on any dates recently?” You asked almost sheepishly.

Michael opened his eyes and looked over at you with a raised eyebrow. He smiled softly.

“Why do you wanna know?” He asked.

“I don’t know - don’t we tell each other everything?” You giggled softly.

Michael’s eyes flashed a bit of sadness. He leaned forward and chuckled softly with a nod.

“Everything…,” He said softly. He cleared his throat.

“Uh…not really. I’ve been on a couple over the last few years. But…no one catches the spark. No one…no one feels worth it. Yet, at least,” Michael said with a shrug.

“Oh, c’mon, Michael! I don’t think you’re giving anyone a true chance! You’re not getting any younger, you know,” You said, teasing him gently.

“Hey, don’t remind me!” He playfully shot back and pointed at you. Then he shrugged.

“I know it’s a small chance on this Earth it will happen. But, I am hoping to find someone who truly loves me for me. And I love them for them,” Michael said softly.

“You’re right about that being a small chance. I thought…I thought that’s what I had. Love isn’t always like that, I suppose,” You said, turning a bit more melancholy. 

Michael looked at you as he listened. After you finished talking, he shook his head and faced his body more toward you.

“Listen to me. They never loved you, (Y/N). Not truly. Nobody hurts someone they love like that,” Michael said sincerely. 

You stared at him for a moment, unsure of what to say at first. You looked at the ground and nodded. You exhaled and looked back at him. Something about his eyes that evening felt different to you. You rubbed the back of your neck gently.

“And…and you know something about true love?” You asked softly with a smile.

Michael rolled his eyes playfully and shrugged again.

“I don’t know if I know true love. I just know love. I know you’re not supposed to break someone’s heart who don’t deserve it,” Michael said before he looked at the ground. He closed his eyes for a moment before he opened them again.

“And I know…I know that…that I love you,” He said. He didn’t look at you immediately. 

Your mouth dropped open. You blinked and looked at him almost in disbelief. 

“What do you mean?” You asked softly, then realizing that was a rather stupid question.

“I mean…it. I love you. I have for…many years. But…I never told you,” He said softly.

“Why…why didn’t you?” You asked, almost sad about this.

“I never thought there was a good time. And you never seemed interested in me, anyway. Don’t act like you weren’t totally oblivious to my affections,” Michael chuckled softly. 

You smiled at his humor even during the tougher times. You nodded and exhaled. You sat back in your seat and looked at the fireplace again. Michael couldn’t tell what was on your mind in that moment. Neither could you. He looked at the fire then back at you.

“You don’t need to feel the same way. Not now, not ever. I just…needed to tell you. Finally,” He said.

You looked at him and nodded.

“Is that why no one else has been worth it?” You asked with a smile.

“Maybe,” He giggled softly. 

You smiled.

“What if…you took me on a date?” You asked softly.

“Would…you want to go on one?” He asked.

“Maybe,” You smirked playfully.

Michael laughed softly before nodded.

“Let’s do it. We can take it slow. We can just see where it goes. There’s no pressure,” He said softly, but immensely hopeful. 

You nodded and smiled before leaning over toward him.

“I agree that we should but…I have a good feeling about this date. I hear he’s quite the gentleman,” You said with a soft giggle. 

Michael smiled and nodded. He was relieved. Relieved he finally told you how he felt and relieved there was a possibility that you felt the same way.

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"...Is that (Y/N)? With them? I thought...Oh, jeez,"

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Michael totally would of been the guy to do face masks/fun skincare stuff with you - I said what I said ✋

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do we all have a comfort mj era we revert to in times of crisis

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"They never loved you, (Y/N). Not truly. Nobody hurts someone they love like that,"

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"I don't really know if anything will help me at the moment, (Y/N). Thank you, though,"

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"I should be happy - this is all I ever wanted. But the timing...I have so much going on; the album and the tour...this is a lot,"

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I am just throwing it out there - I plan on posting some imagines soon and I am not in that great of a mood so they are probably going to be dramatic and angsty as all hell LOL

-T

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Michael in this is just so adorable I can’t

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I don't have anything of note to say at the moment - I'm going through a lot IRL tbh haha

I'm working on some other writing stuff atm and hopefully will start on The Way The Wind Blows again sometime soon!

Just wanted to check in and say haaaaay <3 Maybe I'll post an imagine or two this weekend - we'll see!

-T

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Lmfao I found this at the very bottom of my Michael Jackson gif folder and I have no idea when I even saved this omg.