mkeoutmedusa

[mkeoutmedusa]

So for 6-7 months now I haven’t been able to commit back to my ed and weight loss. I feel bad and disgusting about eating and I cry about it every single day but I’m never able to just not eat or restrict as much as I used to??? I have very short period where I will get my 10k steps do my omad and what not then actually lose but I can’t keep up with it for longer than a week and I just gain all the weight back. I just can’t fall back into my honeymoon phase no matter how hard I try and I’m so sick of myself like at this point I’m hoping to get a disease or illness that makes me lose weight because every single morning I tell myself I’m not eating today or I’m only eating Greek yoghurt and fruits and then I go ahead and eat full meals and just cry and feel bad for myself. Can anyone just give me some advice like I’m so sick of myself and my body I want to rip my skin off but I can never take the steps to just close my fucking mouth so I can actually lose weight and just be fucking skinny I’m so sick of my fat face and body I wish I could just be in a trance or under a spell to be in my honeymoon phase again

[mkeoutmedusa]

How to get back into my honeymoon phase pleaseee help me I need to be back in that phase so bad things were so easy

[mkeoutmedusa]

Yeah the reason edblr accounts stop posting is bc they either recover or die? Unfortunately most of them probs got too sick …

Well I hope not, but I’m sure it’s honestly because they get termed. Our accounts get termed soo often

[mkeoutmedusa]

I’m so fucking fat and disgusting I hate myself I hate food I never ever want to eat again

[mkeoutmedusa]

any tips on how to reduce the possibility of getting banned, I wanna make posts and interact with the community, show my progress and stuff so bad but I’ve already been banned twice :(

[mkeoutmedusa]

I’m tired of seeing my community and safe space just die out. I’m tired of getting termed and watching all my moots get termed. This is my third account, I’m not gonna even try to grow it cuz it’ll get termed eventually anyway. I’m not even gonna post anything asides from this so maybe that reduces my chances of getting termed so fast. This community is dying and that makes me so sad. Is there like any other platform with active ed communities cuz edblr is so dry now :(