monochromatic14u

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I wish u could shapeshifter between being a human and being a winged snow leopard and any of the vagueness inbetween so I can pick and choose which parts I want that day.

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I was punched and pepper sprayed by cops that my university administration set on student protesters yesterday. Including once where a cop ripped my mask off my face, grabbed my jaw, and sprayed pepper sprayed straight into my mouth. The university sent out an alert in the middle of our protest canceling classes for the rest of the day, only citing “adverse conditions”. After protesters dispersed under threat of even more violence and three buses of riot police from all over the state with rubber bullets and bully sticks parked in front of one our school’s famous landmarks. I staggered over to a couple of friends who were watching on the sidelines. They gave me water and an apple and held a bag of ice on my very pepper spray irritated face. As they were walking me back to my dorm we ran into one of their roommates. She had taken cancelled classes as an opportunity to get crumbl cookie with her friends. Standing in front of her, happy in a floral blouse with her box of cookies, in my pepper spray and water soaked tshirt, keffiyeh sadly hanging off my shoulder, holding an ice pack to my mouth, felt like a slap in the face.

After putting my pepper spray soaked clothes, shoes, and keffiyeh in a plastic bag and taking an extraordinarily painful shower, a friend and I went for dinner just off campus. There we had a pot of green tea and ramen to soothe pepper sprayed throats. We got ice cream after (shared a cup with chocolate and raspberry pomegranate with strawberry pieces on top, it was very good). From our spot outside the ice cream place we watched a steady stream of groups of sorority girls in matching jeans shorts and blue bikini tops walking back to their apartments after some apparently raucous parties. The cognitive dissonance was insane. I really felt a little like I was going crazy.

Even this morning, waking up to the smeared sharpie of the National Lawyer’s Guild’s phone number on my arm, a black and blue chest from where a grown man straight up clocked me while I was held up by two other protesters in a wall, and a still sore throat and eyes from the pepper spray, life goes on like normal. I still have final papers to write and a math exam to review for.

I’m not sure I really have a point. But, this feeling only makes me want to fight harder for a free Palestine. So, fuck Israel for being an apartheid state and all of their crimes over the last 76 years. Fuck university administration for not disclosing their level of investment in Israel. Fuck university administration for not divesting from this genocide. Fuck Joe Biden for actively supporting this genocide. And fuck the police.

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Does anyone else feel like their theriotype ages with you? Like whatever age you are, your theriotype follows with growth? Cus I’m an adolescent/ young adult, and my theriotype feels roughly the same estimated age range.

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Tumblr is valid. And Facebook too to some degree imo, but that’s only cus my family that I follow spreads a good amount of not-so-savory stuff at times. But hey, everyone’s experiences are different.

Reddit is just the incel version of Facebook: change my mind.

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Reddit is just the incel version of Facebook: change my mind.

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Mowing grass takes a toll on ya-

Legs, arms: all sore. Head? Aching. But, I feel like a man.

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I want a lover|relationship even if I am aroace.

I want to write cute poems to someone,

I want to write cute letters to someone,

I want to hug someone and never letting them go,

I want to kiss someone,

I want to give my love to someone even if platonic.

A QPR or not, just having someone to love too would be amazing.

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Going live now! Going to be critiquing different Minecraft builds and giving some advice to chat!

Feel free to come join!

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I really wish that I was getting neck kisses and bites while just cuddling, just enjoying the moment and not taking it further. Just simply leaving a non-sexual, but intimate and sensual mark that I’m loved, wanted, and I belong to someone.

Being touch starved with a weird and deep attraction I can’t name really takes its toll when you are lonely.

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MAYDAY ON TUBBATHON! WE ARE LESS THAN A MINUTE!!!

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To all new followers, I hope to make it clear that I am a therian/otherkin, but I referred to be called a therian. I identify spiritually and mentally as a snow leopard/ Aq bars, and I wish I had some certain features of said animal.

If you hold any negative feelings towards the otherkin/therian/nonhuman community, you can gladly see yourself out of my small but growing community.

Non-humans have souls too; we have feelings and experience the same misery brought upon us all by life. Don’t make our already difficult lives worse because of your closed-minded attitudes.

We are all just trying to go through this thing called life in the best way we can manage. Allow us and yourself to have a little bit of joy and whimsey in your life.

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They are supernovas.

Since Phil said Missa is the moon, I have come to ask a question

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When I was little I used to think "how could anyone deny that the Holocaust happened" and now seeing how people talk about Palestine I'm like... yeah I see how that works

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honoured to be your 130th follower <3

Thank you so so much!!

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