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Euphemia Potter and Sirius Black

The first time Sirius went to James’ house, was in the second break from their first year. James was going home to his family and he had asked him mom if his new beste mate could come with him to join them for Christmas.

At first, Euphemia didn’t approve of it, having another 11 year old in their house while she wanted to celebrate Christmas with her small family. But after having heard James talk about how the boy had a bad home situation, she said yes to James’ idea.

Euphemia and Fleamont were carefull with the black haired boy. They knew he was vulnerable, (even tho Sirius claimed he wasn’t) They were carefull because he do, in fact, was a Black. But after having him at theirs for one night, they realized he really wasn’t like a Black, not at all.

Sirius was polite, he smiled and talked a lot. He was nice to both Euphemia and Fleamont and he cared a lot about their son.

The first moment Euphemia realised how bad Sirius needed a real mom, was when she walked in on the boy having a nightmare one night.

Sirius was breathing heavily. Whimpering and silcent tears walking down his small face.

Euphemia softly touched Sirius’ cheek as Sirius flinched awake. He sat up fastly, gasping for air and breathing fast.

“Shhhh, its alright sweetheart.”

Euphemia hugged the boy close, ignoring the flinches and his shaking body. Just talking softly to him, telling him it was alright.

“Everything will be alright, shhh, it’s okay.”

Sirius had stopped crying, feeling safe here.

The second time Sirius was at James’ home, was when he was around 16.

He had had an awfully huge fight with his mother and father. Being beaten up and his body still shaking from the curses.

When he made the Potters he collapsed on the grass of their garden. Feeling the blood drip from his body and every bone felt broken.

He was gasping for air heavily, trying to breath but not getting any air. He saw everything going black, letting out a last frustrated cry.

When he woke up he saw Euphemia bending over him, looking worried, sad and angry.

Sirius let out another cry, trying to say he was sorry but not getting everything out of his mouth.

“Its okay hun, I’ve already told James and Fleamont. We’re all mad at the Blacks and we’re letting you stay here for as long as we can, we’ll find a solution.”

Sirius’ eyes changed from scared till peacefull.

He was home.

Sirius’ his body still hurted a bit but he was doing better and better. The Potters had taken him in, he didn’t think he’s deserve it but they hadn’t listened to that and had said it should’ve always been this way. He was one of theirs.

Sirius heard a knock on his door.

“Sweetheart, James is getting the food at the store with dad, can you help me with preparing the dessert?”

Sirius knew this was honestly just a moment for Euphemia to be with him. She had been trying to be as much with Sirius as possible. Let the boy show he was safe, and theirs. Sirius didn’t mind.

“Coming!”

As Sirius walked downstairs he saw Euphemia was already melting some chocolate. She gave him a sweat smile as he smiled back, rolling up his sleeves and putting his hair in a loose bun.

“You can call me mom you know, I’ve told you thousand times, you never say it.” Euphemia smiled.

Sirius shrugged.

After half an hour Fleamont and James came back as Fleamont spoke.

“... so as I talked to Mia she asked about what you were doing and I told her you were with our other son and-“

Sirius interrupted.

“Uhm, Flea- no wait. Uhhh. Okay listen... I really appreciate you guys calling me your son and all but I’m still a Black and you have James and I’m not your son as much as I’d love to be..”

James, Fleamont and Euphemia looked at the boy.

The short boy with the black hair till his shoulders. The boy who tried to hide his feeling even tho he was falling apart. The boy who always got a bright blush when James called him his brother.

James smiled. “It’s alright bro, you are my bother honestly you’re not going to change that.”

Fleamont nodded as Euphemia gave him a hug.

Sirius hugged back, closing his eyes knowing he didn’t want I any other way, really.

The third time Sirius was at the Potters was when he stood at their door, well Euphemia’s door.

Fleamont had died from Dragon Pox, and James... He was hiding, hiding with the love of his life. Lily and James were safe, together with Harry.

Sirius used to be the secret keeper of James and Lily, but he had changed with Peter last moment.

Sirius hAd to tell someone, anyone who listened really. He couldn’t tell his friends tho... There was a spy in the middle of them and Sirius didn’t know who it was. It could be anyone. He had to tell someone who would definitely not tell anyone else.

Euphemia had be the first person Sirius thought of.

She was James’ mom and would never ever betray him.

Euphemia opened the door, pointing her wand at Sirius.

“What did Sirius say to me the first time he met me?”

Sirius smirked, it had been truly hilarious.

“Hello miss Potter, I’m James’ new friend and I would like to inform that James once peed his pants while brushing his teeth walking on his hands.”

Euphemia laughed, letting her boy in.

“What’s wrong honny?”

“Well...”

After having talked to her for hours, Sirius finally felt a little lighter. Sirius had felt weird but he whole situation and didn’t really know what to do.

“So Peter is the secret keeper?”

Sirius nodded.

“Merlin I made a mistake didn’t I.”

Sirius talked silently, his head in his hands, shaking furiously.

Euphemia pulled him in a hug.

“You did nothing wrong, and it’s gonna be alright.”

Sirius nodded.

Two weeks later everything went wrong.

Sirius had sent Remus to Euphemia after having heard nothing of Peter.

He was going behind him, making sure everything went alright.

Sirius arrived at Godrics Hollow, his stomach hurting from the nerves and his wand ready. As he walked around the corner he began to run, seeing the house of James and Lily.

He only began to slow down when he saw no lights shining. The house wasn’t a house anymore. Only ruins were left.

Sirius began to feel hopeless.

“N-no! JAMES!”

He ran towards the house, not bothering to look around for anyone watching.

“JAAAMES!!! LILYYYY!!!”

He ran inside as the first thing he saw was his best mate lying on the stairs, motionless.

“N-no... No please no- James.”

Tears streamed down Sirius’ face as he felt his stomach drop.

He fell over his best friend hugging his bother close.

He only realised he still had to be strong when he heard a soft sound coming from upstairs.

“L-LILY?!”

Sirius ran upstairs, a second heartbreaking sight crashing over him.

Lily lying in the ground.

“Fuck-“

Another wave of tears hit him as Sirius realised the two most important people were dead.

Sirius heard a cry. Harry.

Harry was still sitting in his little bed.

Sirius took him out as fast as he could. Hugging Harry as close as he could.

“S-shhhh, it’ll b-be alright P-prongslet.”

He heard a loud sound as Sirius drew his wand. Tears still streaming over his face, holding Harry tightly with his other arm, protecting him at all cost.

It only took a few seconds when Sirius saw Hagrid. The giant had a sad look on his face as he looked at Sirius, who began shaking his head, crying harder, stepping back.

“N-no no no, please no, not Harry.”

Hagrid looked at Sirius with sad eyes.

“I’m sorry, Dumbledore’s order. Said I should get baby Harry to take him to his aunt ‘n uncle.”

Sirius shaked his head, disbelief showing in his eyes.

“No but, but he’s everything I have- please...”

Hagrid stepped closer as he pointed his umbrella at Sirius.

“I don’t wanna do this.”

Sirius kept Harry close to his chest. Thinking about Remus and Euphemia.

He gave Harry a small kiss to his head.

“T-take care of him.”

Hagrid took Harry as he walked away.

Sirius stood there, a numb feeling in his chest, breathing heavily, tears still streaming down his face. Hagrid had taken his motorbike.

Sirius slowly walked out of the house, seeing dementors everywhere. His eyes grew as he started running, the dementors on his heels.

Sirius heard someone scream, “THERE HE IS! ITS BLACK!”

Lights fired beside him as Sirius casted a protection charm.

After what felt like hours of fighting Sirius proceeded to arrive at Euphemia’s, hoping she and Remus weren’t also dead.

“EUPHEMIA! OPEN THE DOOR PLEASEE...”

Sirius fell against the door. Just when he thought he wouldn’t take it anymore, the door opened.

Euphemia opened it, her eyes full of concern.

“Oh sweathear-“

“They’re dead... Pettigrew killed them and they’re after m-me. I DIDNT DO ANYTHING... Please...”

Remus walked up behind the two of them as Euphemia was holding Sirius close.

A group of people of the minestry came running towards them, they heard them scream in the distance.

“WHAT DO I DO.”

Sirius was screaming hopeless, everything falling apart and not knowing what to do.

“Keep him safe, p-please keep Remus safe, and make sure y-you’ll get to take care of Harry, he’s alive, t-they’re taking him to Petunia and Vernon. I love you and thank you for everything.”

“No Sirius-“

The people of the minestry got close, Sirius felt a hand grab his clothes.

He screamed, seeing Remus run into the house.

He felt a hand hit him as Sirius hit and knocked everything he could hit.

Screaming and crying.

“Let him go he didn’t do anything!”

Euphemia was screaming against the people, trying to get her son back.

“MOMM! I DIDNT DO ANYTHING PLEASE MOM HELP ME!”

Sirius stopped fighting back as saw even his Euphemia looked hopeless.

She stepped forward slamming the door behind her so Remus was safe.

“GIVE HIM A TRIAL! HES THE ONLY THING IVE GOT LEFT AND YOU WONT TAKE MY OTHER SON FROM ME! I WONT ADMIT BOTH OF MY SONS LEAVING IN ONE NIGHT, BESIDES, HES INNOCENT.”

The people of the minestry of magic stopped hurting Sirius as they loosened the grip, not letting go yet.

After what felt like hours Sirius was sitting in the middle of a large room. People of the hearing looking at him. He felt so small.

His body was hurting and he felt the bruise they aurors hit grow.

The Veritaserum he has gotten at the beginning of the hearing started to impact him and he felt like something was taking over what he was saying.

The minister was about to talk when he cought Euphemia’s eye, his mom smiled at him. Sirius have her a faint smile back.

“Tonight we gather around for the trial of Sirius Orion Black. Mister Black,” Sirius flinched as he heard the name. He hadn’t been called so since he was 16.

“Is it true that you were James and Lily Potters secret keeper?”

“Partly.”

“Partly?” The minister looked confused and mad.

“I was in the beginning, but we changed the secret keeper.”

“Ehhhjj- Okay who is the secret keeper now then mister Black?”

Again Sirius flinched.

“Peter Pettigrew.”

The whole hall was looking at Sirius.

After a short silence the minister spoke again.

“And we’re is, Peter Pettigrew?”

“I- I don’t know.”

“We found the finger of Pettigrew. It was the only thing left from him, you blew him up.”

“No, Pettigrew is an animagus, he transformed into a rat and ran away.”

“Why would Pettigrew be an animagus?”

“Be.... Because our friend Remus Lupin is a werewolf and because Pettigrew James Potter and I became animagus for him... It’s easier for animals to be with werewolfs...”

Sirius looked down, knowing Remus would be so mad... He looked at Euphemia, she gave him a comforting smile.

“Find Peter Pettigrew!”

Euphemia took Sirius home, his case had been dismissed, they were going to keep an eye on him untill they found Pettigrew but he was allowed to go home.

Sirius was crying softly, cuddled up by his mom in her car. Not able to wait to go home. To see Remus. He was exhausted.

Euphemia opened the door as Sirius ran inside.

Remus stood up instantly, running toward Sirius.

Sirius threw himself on Remus, tears and limbs everywhere. Remus let out a harsh laugh, keeping Sirius close as he cried as well.

Sunlight was slowly rising trough the windows. A new day had started.

Euphemia looked at Sirius, smiling softly as she wiped away a tear.

Her boy would be okay.

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Short story

Remus’ day was horrible. He felt like everything went wrong and nothing could change how bad he felt. Nothing.

Not chocolate, not his favourite book, not even a nap. Nothing seemed to help Remus from being grumpy.

Sirius walked trough the portrait of the Gryffindor common room to find his everything sitting in the window of the room. Remus had been quiet all day. He usually wasn’t the one to talk a lot, but he never was this quiet.

So Sirius had buyed his favourite chocolate, beautiful flowers and a new book at Hogsmaede to try and cheer his boyfriend up.

As Sirius walked in Remus didn’t even look up from the window he was staring trough. He sat in the window, a soft blanket over his knees and his head leaning against the wall behind him.

Sirius slowly walked toward the werewolf as he say down on the opposite of Remus.

“Hey, Love.”

He said softly. He placed the book and chocolate between the two of them as he had already put the flowers in a vase on the small table next to the window seat.

Remus looked up. He looked tired. Sirius gave him a soft smile as he put one of his hands on Remus’ knee.

“Are you okay?”

Remus sighed. His eyes started to water a bit and he tried not to look too mad.”

He made a low growl as he looked back to the window.

“Bad day.”

Sirius chuckled softly as he traced Remus’ knee.

“Well maybe the chocolate will help?”

Remus shaked his head. Shoving off Sirius’ hand as he stubbornly stared into the landscape outside the window.

After having shoved Sirius’ hand of, Remus regretted it immediately. He felt like he now, also ruined the moment he had with his boyfriend.

Right before he went back to being grumpy again, Remus felt a weight jump on his lap.

Remus made a sound of surprise, as he saw the black dog crawling on his lap.

“Padfoot.”

Remus laughed as he bond down to place a small kiss on the pups head.

“Dumb dog.”

He murmered as Remus traced his hands trough the soft fur.

After some time Remus has calmed down, and Padfoot slept softly as Remus cuddled the dog.

Remus smiled.

Maybe today wasn’t as bad after all...

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Armor by Landon Austin

„ „=Lyrics

Remus walked up the stairs to the boys dormitory. His bag heavy on his back and his eyes tired cause of the last hours he had used to read his book.

James had been able to get a date with Lily and they had just left to Hogsmeade and Peter had been sleeping on the couch in the Gryffindor common room cause he had been sick.

As Remus slowly opened the door he heard music. Sirius was singing along with the song on their recordplayer.

„I'm not bullet proof when it comes to you„

Remus smiled to himself as he heard the song. Sirius and him had been listening to it on repeat for days now. They both loved it so much it had gotten their song.

„Maybe I'll crash into you„

Sirius softly sang to the lyrics as Remus found him slowly dancing to the music. Looking rather ridiculous dancing all by himself and doing funny moves but Remus only thought it was adorable really..

„Maybe we would open these wounds„

Remus had trouble laughing as he saw Sirius make a small round. His head low as Sirius smiled.

„We're only alive if we bruise„

Remus slowly walked trough the door, carefull not to take Sirius out of his little music bubble.

„So I lay down this armor„

The title, Remus felt so relatable to the song. He felt like this, a battle against the wolf... Scared to give in even tho he knew it would all go easier to let the transformations happen if he’d just, give in. He also felt like he’d really need Sirius to stay okay... He’d always felt like that to be honest... And he desperately needed Sirius to be okay.

„I will surrender tonight„

Sirius froze as he heard the soft voice behind his back. He spinned around as Remus dropped his back to the ground and took of his sweater so they were both in their blouse.

„Before we both lose this fight„

Remus slowly walked toward Sirius as he keeped singing. Placing out one hand for Sirius to take it.

„Take my defenses„

Sirius took his hand, jointing the singing again and smiled bright.

„All my defenses„

Remus took the lead, softly spinning Sirius around and dancing with him as the two of them took stolen glances and song to the lyrics particularly written for them.

„I lay down this armor„

They both laughed, blushing furiously and dancing close to each other.

„I lay down this armor„

Remus looked down at Sirius.

“I love this song y’know.”

Sirius looked back at him.

“Me too, reminds me of us.”

Remus smiled, his hand cupping Sirius’ neck as he felt his heart race. Was he going to do this? He never thought he was brave enough but this moment with just Sirius, slow dancing made him feel like he could take the whole world.

„I lay down this armor for you„

Remus leaned in, his lips softly bouncing against Sirius’ as he felt the other boy froze. For a small second Remus thought he’d done the total wrong thing and had seen everything wrong. All the glances, all the smiles, all the affection.

„I'll be you escape„

Untill Sirius leaned in further, his hand coming to Remus’ shoulder as he stumbled closer.

„I'll be your safe place„

Remus felt like he’d landed in a dream, never thinking this would ever happen.

„I'll be your shelter. Your shelter, yeah„

Everything seemed to fade away, even the music as Remus only had eye for the boy in front of him.

„I'll be you escape„

They broke apart too fast as Remus saw the shorter boy was also blushing furiously.

„I'll be your safe place„

They looked at each other before bursting out laughing.

„I'll be your shelter. Your shelter, yeah„

Sirius took a shaky breath before he spoke, his voice a little hoarse.

“Didn’t see that coming.”

Remus laughed as well.

“Mhm... did you like it?”

“Very much.”

Sirius breathed. Remus looked at him. Feeling as though he wouldn’t even care if Snape would walk in right now. Well maybe he would but okay.

„Maybe I'll crash into you. Maybe we will open these wounds„

“I like the song.” Sirius chuckled.

“Me too, damn I l-love it.” Sirius softly laughed as he heard Remus stumble over his words.

„We're only alive if we bruise.

So I lay down this armor„

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Laila put down her book as she heard her dad call.

“Laila! Come to dads and my room imma read you a bed time story!” Remus called.

She let out a laugh as she ran across the hall to her dads room.

“I’m too old for that daddy, I’m 12 for merlins sake.” She said, still laughing.

Sirius was curled up to one side of Remus, his head on Remus’ left shoulder looking extremely sleepy and comfortable.

Laila jumped on the bed, curling up on her daddy’s other shoulder.

“We could also just talk y’know.” Laila said as she heard Sirius let out a quiet laugh.

Remus turned his head as he put down the book, looking at his daughter. Sirius and him had adopt Laila when she was only two months, her family had put her away cause they couldn’t take care of her and they had called her Laila, meaning “night” Laila looked mostly like Sirius but also copied much of Remus’ acting. She was honestly a perfect match of them both.

“Sure angel.” Remus said.

“I should totally get her a motorcycle at some point.” Sirius murmured. A smile dancing across his lips.

Remus turned his head to his husband. Not even surprised, even smiling at him as Sirius smiled too.

“No Pads, you can’t buy her a motorcycle she’s 12”

Sirius laughed as Laila started whining.

“Noooooo, I totally agree with dad, come on I can have a motorcycle...?”

“No totally not.”

All three of them laughed happily.

“Can we at least go to Harry’s tomorrow? It’s been almost a week since last time and Haz and I have some quidditch to practice before i start my third year.” Laila asked, curling up closer to Remus.

“Mh, sure small one.” Sirius murmured.

“I heard Molly and the kids will go tomorrow as well you’ll be able to see Ginny as well.” Remus smiled.

“That’s even more amazing! I haven’t seen Gin in forever too! We planned to search for Nargels cause Luna told us to. I’m not sure if I believe her but she’s my friend so I could totally try right?”

Sirius smiled at his daughter, being so proud of her. She cared for other but also hexed an older student for calling her two dads something which shall not be repeated. She was so perfect.

Remus laughed. “Sounds great! I’ll send James and Lils a quick owl so they know we’re coming.”

Laila looked at her daddy. Being happy with her family, her friends, her school, being in Gryffindor just like her parents.

Everything was just so perfect.

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The thunderstorm was loud outside the window of the boys dormitory. Remus layed awake with his boy in his arms.

Soft breaths came from Sirius as Remus pressed a kiss to the top of the dark haired boys head. Remus had woken up cause of the storm and he didn’t want to go to sleep.

Storms, he hated them.

Being scared since that one night, that night Gayback had come into his room. It had stormed. Loud thunder and lightning behind the big silhouette of the werewolf...

Remus didn’t want to think about it, but every time there was a storm, it would come back to his mind again.

Remus let out a soft whimper as another loud crack case from the already closed window.

“Damn storm.”

He muttered under his breath. Remus tried to close his eyes. He wanted to sleep really but everytime he closed his eyes Remus saw him again...

Sirius made a soft noise.

Remus looked at him, completely forgotten that the boy was still fast asleep in his arms.

Remus felt calmness take over his fear for the storm as he looked at the sleeping boy.

As Remus looked at Sirius he felt a strong urge to tell him something.

He didn’t know what but he had to tell Sirius something.

“I love you”

The words had slipped out his mouth. He didn’t ment to say it. But as he heard himself say it he couldn’t help but wanting to say it again.

The feeling had been stuck in Remus for so long. He had known all along really, he just didn’t know what exactly it had been.

Now he knew.

Remus wasn’t sure if it was the fact that Sirius was always there for him, or that he didn’t even realise the storm anymore, it just, felt right.

Remus made a movement as Sirius slowly opened his eyes.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you up, Pads.”

Sirius softly smiled up at Remus.

“S’Kay don’t worry.”

Remus smiled down at the boy below him. As he cuddles closer to Sirius, propped up on his elbows.

“Did’ya say s’mthing?”

Remus hestated, was he gonna say it?

“Mmh...”

Sirius opened his eyes slowly. Amber finding grey.

“I love you.”

Remus looked down at his hands, scared of what Sirius would think or do.

A silence took over.

“I love you too.”

Remus looked to Sirius again, seeing him smile.

He gave out a soft laugh, more like a sigh.

“Y-you do?”

Sirius chuckled, he also got propped up on his elbows.

“Yes, of course I do.”

Remus smiled. Totally forgotten about the storm, only having eyes for the boy in front of him.

His hand found Sirius’ cheek as he drew small circles. Sirius leaned into the touch, not breaking eye contact, smiling softly at each other.

“You look tired.”

Sirius chuckled at the random sentence.

“I am.”

Remus smiled.

“Let’s go to sleep.”

Remus said, still looking at Sirius’s eyes.

“Mhh, Kay.”

The two boy settled down again, Remus holding Sirius thightly.

“Night moony.”

“Goodnight love.”

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Lily felt like everything was going wrong.

Petunia had though it was funny to send her a letter. Saying how much she hated Lily, and how much she wanted her to stay away from her and never come back from “that freak school of yours”

James had asked her out again. Which was annoying even though she kind of got interested in the guy...

Now it was midnight as she searched for anyone who was awake. Anyone was okay really.

She stumbled into the boys dorm, no idea how she got there, but she had come in for some reason.

Maybe Remus was awake. She’d be able to talk to him.

Lily softly walked over to we’re she knew to be Remus’ bed. As she heard someone mutter a spell.

She turned around to see Sirius sitting on his bed. His back against the board. A book between his hands and his wand giving him light to see.

“Wha- Black why are you awake?”

Lily muttered.

Sirius startled as he quickly tried to hide the book.

“What are you doing in the boys dorm?”

Lily just realised she was in the damn boys dorm, in her pyjamas, tears in her eyes.

“I, I was looking for Remus.”

Sirius lay the book under his bed as he grabbed his wand and sat on his bed, legs swung over the edge, looking at the redhead.

“Are you okay?”

Lily looked at Sirius. She hated him so much but now he seemed kind of caring.

“I- uh, not really.”

“Is there anything I can do?”

Lily sighed. At least she’d talk to someone.

“Maybe talk a little?”

Sirius stood up, grabbing his wand and a pack of Exploding Snap cards.

“Let’s go to the common room. It’s late and we’ll wake everyone up.”

Lily nodded as she’s walked behind the black haired guy down the stairs.

Sirius let himself fall down onto the ground. Leaning against the couch as he looked at Lily.

Lily sat down on the ground opposite him.

“You know I have a sister right?”

Lily talked soft and quiet.

“Yeah. Petunia right?”

Lily nodded.

“Let’s just say, she’s not happy with the fact I’m a witch and she’s not. She wants to go to hogwarts too but she can’t cause she’s, well she’s a muggle.” Sirius nodded understandingly. “She calls me things as freak and stupid witch and I know it’s not bad but it’s hurts to see you’re family hating you.”

Sirius seemed to search for the right words as he sighed, staring at the floor.

“Even tho, she seemed to dislike you, I’m sure she does love you.”

Lily looked at Sirius.

“How would you know?”

She mumbled.

Sirius gave out a faint laugh.

“Regulus.”

Lily looked at Sirius. Her eyes big, tears starting to fall. Everything seemed to click now. How Sirius acted around the young Slytherin, how he got quiet when a letter arrived. Lily had always been kind of curious to what was going on with the pretty, dark haired boy. Now it made sense.

“I know it’s hard. I really do. But you have to remember that those are just letters. It are letters on some paper. They mean nothing. She’s just jealous. It’s the same with Reg yknow. He’s jealous I’m living my life how I want to and not how my parents want to.”

Sirius spoke careful. Every word slowly coming out.

“But it still hurts.”

Tears were tumbling down Lily’s face.

Sirius nodded.

“I know.”

Lily slowly moved toward Sirius. Sitting next to him and letting her head drop on top of his shoulder. She felt Sirius’ head on top of hers as she let out a deep sigh. She crawled a bit closer.

“It’ll be better. One day, I can promise you that.”

“Okay.”

Sirius sighed. As he closed his eyes.

“Sirius?”

“Yeah?”

“I used to think you were an arrogant dick but you’re actually really nice.”

Lily talked with a hoarse voice, letting it sounds kind of weird but still sweet.

Sirius gave out a small laugh.

“Thanks I guess. You know if there’s anything you want to talk about, you can come to me if you want okay? I know what you’re going trough I might be able to help you.”

“I will, thank you.”

Sirius smiled.

“Anytime.”

After what felt like hours later the two of them were playing exploding snap. Laying across each other on the Gryffindor common room ground.

“About Jamie. He’s not that bad yknow. You should go out with him sometime.”

Sirius said as he smirked at her.

Lily felt herself blush.

“Only if you ask out Remus.”

Sirius froze as he held the card. His eyes big.

“Uh. What?”

He looked at Lily, who was smirking now.

“Remus. Remus Lupin. Your friend.”

Sirius laughed softly.

“I haven’t even figured things out yet.”

He said quietly.

Lily gave him a genuine smile.

“Take your time.”

Sirius looked up at her. He gave her a small smile.

“I will.”

“Just so you know id be totally fine with it.”

“Sure you would.”

Sirius laughed as the cards of the game exploded and let a trace behind of fire sprinkles.

Lily looked at him.

She had always hated the four boys, after getting to know Remus she had seen the good in him. But this guy was different. His smile was so bright and real. He wasn’t bad at all. Yes, Sirius might be a prick and all, but he had a golden heart. And after tonight Lily wouldn’t dare to let anyone hurt him.

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Look at this amazing piece of art, now seem to be on our account on ig👀

Sirius and Lily headcanons

At first, Lily didn’t like Sirius that much. But once she talked to him they grew very close.

Late night chats about Sirius’ parents and Petunia

People often thought they were a couple.

Their friendship-name would be Sily and Sirius would die of laughter everytime he said it

“Evans, stop stealing my leather jacket!”

“You steal my hairbrush every day Black!”

James and Remus would be very jealous of their friendship

Sirius says he has the best hair, but secretly he knows the soft shiny red curls win

Lily was the first one who found out Sirius and Remus liked each other

Lily wouldn’t be a marauder, but she would definitely help with the pranks

And she wouldn’t get caught

Lily would defent Sirius if someone bullied him with his parents and Sirius would defent Lily if someone called her a mudblood

Neither of the bullies would leave the hospital wing for at least 3 days

They would use weird nicknames for eachother

Sirius would be Onion, because Lily misheard his middle name, Orion

Lily would be Gingerbread because “You are spicy, sassy and gingerhaired. It’s genius, isn’t it?”

Sirius cried like a baby at the wedding, because his two best friends were finaly married

Sirius would be the best damn godfather for Harry

Thought he would swear a lot

“Stop swearing in front of my child, Onion!”

“Oh shit, yea sorry I’ll stop. Fuck wait. Shit”

“SIRIUS”

He would buy Harry a mini leather jacket

After Sirius died, the very first thing he heard was: “DAMNIT ONION, COULDN’T YOU COME QUICKER?!”

“My hair is still prettier than yours, Gingerbread”

“Shut it Onion”

@moonsstarss and I made a Instagram account called @/fabuloushairbuddies, you can follow us if you want :)

[moonsstarss]

Sirius has always thought he and Remus were ment to be.

But then, Remus was talking to someone else.

This stupid Ravenclaw girl with her stupid shiny hair and her stupid pretty eyes was stupidly talking to HIS boyfriend.

Sirius was literally sitting across the pair.

Remus has convinced him that he’d had to meet up with “a friend” in the library for a moment. Now Sirius could see why.

The girl couldn’t stop laughing at everything Remus said, and twirling her hair around her finger.

Sirius was so done.

After what felt like hours the two boys returned to the Gryffindor common room.

Sirius’ face on thunder.

“What’s wrong love?”

Sirius turned around to see Remus stand there, in the middle of the empty common room.

“Nothing.”

Sirius mumbled. Fuck, he didn’t mean to sound so harsh.

“Sirius please, tell me babe.”

As Remus tried to grab Sirius’ hand, Sirius turned around. His face slightly red and he was shaking a little.

“Why didn’t you told me?”

Remus’ face gave off pure confusion.

“Told you what?”

He said softly.

“That you and Alexia were a thing.”

Remus got silent.

“You could have told me I wasn’t good enough yknow.”

Remus’ face turned white as tears started to swell up into his eyes.

“Sirius, that- that was nothing. There’s nothing going on between Alexia and me.”

“I saw the way you talked to her Remus!”

Remus tried to grab Sirius’ hand as Sirius grasped is away. Looking up at Remus angrily.

“It’s so fucking mean!”

Anger got mixed with guilt and sadness as Remus looked at Sirius, desperately trying to tell him he’ll always stay his boy.

“There’s nothing mean about the fact I’m finally making friends!”

They were screaming at each other, tears rolling over Remus’ face as Sirius tried to control his anger.

“Well the seemed to want a lot more then “just friends!”

“Just shut up will you?!”

Remus looked at him with big eyes. Tears hot.

“No I won’t! You should have told me!”

“There is nothing to tell!”

“Stop lying to me!”

“I’m not lying to you Sirius!”

Sirius let out a frustrated sigh.

“Well maybe it’s better to just, take a damn break then!”

He had screamed it. Right into Remus’ face.

Remus went silent as Sirius breathed heavily.

Sirius heard himself say it, it echoed trough his head. Fuck what had he done.

Remus stood there, his eyes full with tears, breathing slowly.

“Okay...”

Sirius walked away.

Running trough the portrait hole as he heard Remus call after his name. Tears started to fall.

Sirius didn’t know how fast or how but he found himself on top of the astronomy tower. Feeling powerless and heartbroken.

He just threw his everything away. He had stopped his own happiness...

He let himself fall against the cold stone wall, as he sat down against the wall next to the edge of the tower.

Sirius dropped his head against the stone, letting the tears free, thinking of how stupid he was. Always ruining everything.

Weeks later, and Remus was sitting alone at the Gryffindor table. As he saw James enter, laughing with Peter he decided to go upstairs. Not wanting to talk to them after what happened with Sirius. James had been with Sirius and of course Peter had joined them, which ment Remus was alone, again.

He dropped his stuff on his bed as he heard a loud cry from the bathroom.

Remus jumped up, realizing it was Sirius as he remembered not seeing him at dinner and knowing the sound.

He quickly ran to the door. Not caring about how the boy had changed his life. He had to help Sirius.

“Sirius open the door.”

Remus talked softly as he knocked at the bathroom door.

“I-it’s op-open-“

Sirius’ voice was hoarse and thick.

Remus slowly walked in so see a sight he didn’t ever wanna see again.

Sirius was on the ground. Sitting against the wall to steady himself. His eyes were red and puffy and tears were streaming down his cheeks like rivers. He had a bleeding nose and he was concentrating on one piece of the wall.

Remus quickly walked over to Sirius as the dark haired guy looked up.

“It’s okay.”

Remus sat down beside Sirius, taking the boy in his arms as Sirius quickly buried his face in Remus’ neck.

Remus made slow soft movements on Sirius’ back, trying to calm him down.

“It’s R-Reg. They g-gave him the d-dark mark, I don’t want t-to lose him Moony. I already l-lost you.”

Remus’ heart dropped.

“It’s going to be okay, it’s okay Pads. Shhh, it’s okay. Listen, you won’t lose him. Sirius he’ll always stay your brother. And I know it’s hard, but it’s going to be okay. You have us you know? We are helping you trough anything Pads. James, Pete, Lils, me.”

Sirius stared at Remus. His eyes glassy and looking soft. Their noses were almost thouching.

“I’m sorry Rem.”

Remus closed the gap between the two of them. Sirius smiled softly against his lips.

Sirius was sure now, they were ment to be together in the end.

[moonsstarss]

“I want chocolate”

Lily was grumpy.

She was on her time of the month and James had asked her out again. She had been late for potions. And just everything sucks.

She walked to the library just wanted to have a peaceful read in the new book she had started reading for a couple days now. When Lily found her usual spot she wondered if Remus’d be there as well. She had become friends with Remus after they both had become prefects. Remus, Sirius and Peter were actually pretty cool. Sirius has helped her when she felt bad about Petunia. He had told her about the letters he’d get from his family. And how he dealed with them. She had seen how calm and mature Sirius looked, just talking to Lily in the middle of the night in the common room. She had helped Peter passing his last potion test and the small guy wasn’t bad either.

The only problem was James.

With his stupid face. And stupid behaviour. And how she hated him. And how she hated that he was so good with quidditch. And how he smiled so bright when he had fun. And how he made her blush as he asked her out-

See, that was the problem.

As Lily tried to put the thought out of her head she looked thought the library hoping to find Remus. Sadly, the only thing she saw was Sirius making out with some bloke.

“Sirius!”

Lily was disappointed really. That night in the common room Sirius had told her about how he felt toward Remus. Lily had said he should talk to him about it. Sirius had laughed and told her Remus wasn’t even into guys as he had propped up his elbows while lying more comfortable on the ground. Putting his next turn on Wizarding chess.

Sirius turned around. The other guy his hands were holding Sirius’ waist close and Sirius still had one hand on the guys neck.

“Lily.”

Sirius said as he blushed hard.

Lily looked with disbelieve at the dark haired guy.

“I- I thought you liked Remus?! Omg you’re such an asshole! Everything goes wrong today and then you’re ruining it even mor-“

Lily got cut off as Remus appeared behind Sirius’ body. Both of Remus and Sirius were now blushing as they awkwardly stood next to each other, holding hands.

“Oh”

Lily mumbled as a small smile appeared on her face.

‘No Evans! You’re on your period and you’re grumpy! Keep yourself together!’

As Lily pushed the thought away she kept on smiling.

Somewhere she knew the two would end up together...

“I want chocolate.”

The words just came out of her mouth.

Sirius barked out a laugh as Remus giggled.

“You okay Evans?”

Lily made a sound of protest as Sirius stepped forward to hug her.

“I just really want chocolate...”

She mumbled in Sirius’ chest as she wrapped her arms around the guys waist.

“Time of the month again?”

Sirius said. Lily sighed.

“Yep..”

Sirius chuckled.

“Sirius?”

“Yeah?”

“Tell James he’s not so bad?”

“Oh so it’s James now huh?”

“Shut up”

Lily smiled as she heard Sirius laugh softly.

Remus walked over to the two of them after looking for a new book at the nearest shelf.

Lily felt Remus’ hand going up to Sirius’ back as he stood next to them.

“Heard it’s you’re time of the month?”

He said.

“Yep.” Lily sighed.

“Mhm... Me too you know.”

Lily giggled. As she looked at Remus.

“We could always share chocolate.”

“Sounds like a plan to me.”

Sirius looked at Remus before turning to Lily.

“I also want chocolate.”

Remus placed a quick kiss on Sirius’ cheek as he chuckled.

“You can have some chocolate too Pads.”

Lily smiled in Sirius’ chest.

Maybe periods weren’t so bad after all.

[moonsstarss]

When Lily got pregnant, she had never been this scared.

It shouldn’t have happened in the first place, but she had no idea how to tell James.

She knew she had to tell him soon. He was going to see it soon anyway.

“James?”

The two of them were sitting on their kitchen table. Lily looked a bit pale and nervous. And James was finishing his dinner. He looked up at her.

“Yes love?”

Lily had loved the first time James had called her that. It had felt so real and perfect.

“Can we... Can we talk?”

She felt like trowhing up even tho she knew James was the most understanding person on earth.

“Yes, of course.”

Worry started to show all over James’ face.

Lily gave him a faint smile. He smiled back.

“I uh.. I’m pregnant.”

Lily looked down at her plate. Fuck this was more difficult then she figured it would be.

She heard the sound of the spoon which dropped out of James’ hand.

“You... I.... What-?”

James sounded scared. Lily looked up to see James looking at her. His eyes were wide and he looked almost sick. Tears stared to burn I. Lily’s eyes.

“I... I’m sorry James..”

James stood up as Lily looked at him with fear in her eyes.

James walked over to the other side of the table as Lily stood up.

“Come here.”

James openend his arms as Lily fell against his chest, her arms circling around his waist. James held her tight as the tears started to fall.

“It’s going to be alright Lils.”

“Promise?”

“Yes Love. We’re gonna tell Remus and Sirius and your parents and my parents and you’re gonna be the best mom in the world.”

Lily looked up.

There he was, the love of her life. Looking down at her as he smiled. He still was pale, she knew why. He was scared. But so was Lily and she knew everyone will be. But together they’d make it. They were having a baby.

“We’re having a baby.”

She whispered. James laughed softly.

“Yes, were having a baby.”

Lily smiled up at James. Her face glowing and happy. She felt strong again.

“James, can we write Sirius and Remus?”

“Yes please.” James grinned.

“REM!”

“What’s wron- Sirius are you okay?!”

Sirius came run into the room. A huge ass smile on his face.

“WE’RE HAVING A BABY!!!”

Remus stared at him for a good ten seconds as he burst out laughing.

Sirius handed Remus the piece of parchments as he literally ran away like a happy pup.

Remus smiled to himself as he opened the letter.

Dear Moony and Padfoot,

To make a long story short, we are telling you guys that you’re gonna be the best uncles in the world. Yes, we’re having a baby. Come over as fast as you can cause James is freaking out and I think he’s about to pass out, stupid idiot he is.

Love, Lily and James

[moonsstarss]

“They can barely look at me.”

Sirius and Remus were walking trough the halls of Hogwarts. Their hands were linked at they were walking close to each other.

They had just had their third exam today and they were taking a break while making a little walk trough the big castle.

Everything was amazing untill some a large group of fourth year girls started looking at them. And clearly not for Remus.

They were looking at Sirius, all six of them blushing and waving as they giggled.

Sirius looked at them. Raised his eyebrow while turning to Remus.

“Excuse me I gotta hit some girls.”

He said as he let go of Remus’ hand and walked toward the girls.

The six of them looked like they were all having the time of their lives.

“Uh... I’m sorry to break it too you but can you stop staring? It makes my boyfriend sad and I don’t want that to happen.”

Sirius speaked clear but still sounded nice.

One of the girls with long blonde hair and pretty blue eyes spoke.

“You’re dating him?” The girl laughed. “You can get way better then that.”

Sirius looked at the girl with a bold expression.

“Well just because he doesn’t look like how you want someone to look doesn’t mean he isn’t beautiful or something.” Sirius spat.

The browned hair girl with brown hairs laughed.

“What’s even wrong with his face, he looks like he’d been trough hell or something.”

The six girls laughed.

Sirius shot them one rude look before returning to Remus.

“Come on.”

Was all Sirius said before he took Remus hand and particularly dragged Remus to the next empty classroom.

They walked inside as Sirius locked the door.

Sirius walked toward Remus. Standing in front of him. His eyes fixed on Remus’.

Remus looked at the floor. He felt the tears burning in his eyes.

“They can barely look at me.”

He whispered.

Sirius looked at him. His face going paler and his hand coming up to Remus’ cheek.

“No, Re, that’s bullshit.”

Remus felt the tears coming, he couldn’t stop them.

“No it’s not and they’re right. They’re right about everything. I’m ugly and disgusting and I don’t deserve anything I’m having.”

Sirius brought his other hand up to Remus’ face as well. Cupping his face softly.

“What do you mean. You’re perfec-“

“No I’m not stop it.”

Remus hadn’t mean to sound so harsh. Fuck he had ruined it again.

Sirius looked sad at Remus. Letting his hands drop. Sirius didn’t back away.

Remus looked at Sirius.

“You’re too good for me. I don’t deserve anything you give me. I don’t deserve the love I don’t deserve the happiness. I’m a murderous beast who should be just living alone, away from people. I could hurt you. Also I’m not half as good looking at you, and you could literally have any girl or guy you want. And what do you pick? A disgusting werewolf like me.”

Remus was crying as he finished. He wanted Sirius to stay but he knew Sirius would leave in the end anyway.

Sirius looked at him. His hands coming up to whipe away the tears on Remus’ cheeks.

“Re. Listen. I don’t care about your condition. I love you for who you are. And you’re an amazing person with an amazing personality. I love how you’re the sweetest and most caring person on earth. I love how you always try to give me all the love I need and I love how you can make me feel loved even tho I don’t feel loved that often. You’re the person who can make me feel happy when I’m sad and calm me down when I’m not. You’re the one I want to be with for who you are. And also, looks don’t matter to me. I care about you. Even tho the fact that you’re drop dead gorgeous makes things better, I don’t care. You could have looked like a caveman and I’d still love you. You’re just perfect for me.”

Remus was crying so hard. He couldn’t hold back tears as he looked at this boy he loved. He loved Sirius. He always knew he did and he’d always do. Sirius was softly smiling, still whipping away his tears.

“I love you.”

Remus whispered it. He pressed his forehead against Sirius’.

“I love you too. So much.”

Remus sniffled. Smiling a bit.

“Thank you.”

Remus’ arm softly got its grip around Sirius’ waist.

“I will always make sure you know how perfect you are Rem.”

Sirius was also whispering. Trying to make the words theirs. The words were theirs.

Remus nodded. He couldn’t be happier with this perfect man in his life. He was his. Totally his and they loved each other. Remus wondered how he got so lucky to have Sirius in his life.

“Now can you excuse me and may I hex the girls mr. Prefect?”

Sirius laughed. So did Remus.

“I don’t know about this okay?”

Sirius laughed.

“No, you don’t.”

Let’s just say the girls all ended up with pink hair and a bubble hex. They knew they shouldn’t mess with Sirius from that moment.

[moonsstarss]

“The world doesn’t revolve around you.”

Remus was reading.

He was just sitting on his bed, reading his book that he really wanted to finish before tomorrow. He only needed 50 more pages.

His brain was working slow and he wasn’t concentrated on the book.

His mind was drifting off to everything but the book.

“Remus”

Remus didn’t look up. He heard Sirius talk but he had to finish this damn book.

“Mooooooony.”

Remus let out a frustrated growl.

“Remus come onnnnn.”

Remus didn’t look up from his book.

“What do you want Sirius?”

“Give me attention, I’m boooored.”

Remus let out a sigh, returning to his book.

“But Moony I want attention.”

Remus looked up from his book. Looking annoyed at Sirius.

“Well the world doesn’t revolve around you.”

Remus looked back at his book without giving Sirius anymore attention.

For the next ten minutes Remus could calmly read his book. Sirius seemed to be doing something.

Untill Remus heard a soft voice nothing like the boy his usual voice.

“Did you mean that?”

Remus looked up. His brows furrowed together.

“Mean what?”

Remus looked at Sirius. Sirius was a bit pale and he stared at the floor. Remus closed his book. Laying it next to his bed at the desk. When Sirius didn’t seemed to finish, Remus shoved a little untill he was at one side of his bed.

“Come here.”

He said softly. Sirius looked up. Eyes big and looking at Remus in disbelieve.

“I don’t want to bother you Rem.”

Remus laughed softly.

“Just come here.”

Sirius slowly walked over. Standing at the bed at the other side were Remus was sitting. Was he blushing?

Remus placed out his hand so Sirius could take it.

Sirius took it.

Softly pulled Remus Sirius closer, untill Sirius was sitting next to him on Remus’ bed. They both looked at their fingers.

Their hands softly linked.

“Of course I didn’t mean that. I just had to finish my book. That’s all.”

Remus said, as he softly placed his head on top of Sirius’, which had fallen on Remus’ shoulder after Sirius has gotten comfortable.

Sirius nodded.

“Okay. But tell me when I’m annoying you okay. I don’t want that to happen.”

Remus chuckled.

“First of all, you could never annoy me Sirius. Second of all when did you turn so soft?”

Remus looked at Sirius. Sirius looked up.

“For you.”

Sirius mumbled. Remus felt a blush creeping up from his neck. He looked Sirius in his beautiful eyes.

“Why?”

Remus asked as he came closer.

“Cause I like you.”

Sirius whispered.

Remus closed the gap between them. His hand came up to Sirius’ neck. Their lips moved in perfect sync.

Sirius broke the kiss. Smiling too hard. Remus chuckled at the sight of Sirius like this.

The boy was always so perfect and always had to be so charming and pretty for the world. Remus knew Sirius didn’t want to be like that. In this moment he could see it. He saw Sirius looking at him. A genuine smile on his face. His cheeks flushed red. His eyes happy.

Remus smiled at him. His hand softly going over his cheek as Sirius leaned in the touch.

“I like you too.”

Remus whispered. They smiled at each other before laughing softly.

That night they fell asleep together. Cuddling close. Maybe the world did revolve around Sirius, after all.

[moonsstarss]

“How do I look?”

Remus stood in front of the mirror. His reflection looking back at him.

He pulled at some nasty scar on his face. Knowing it’ll leave even worse marks but he couldn’t help it.

They were so ugly... Why did people even talk to him, he looked awful. How did people not scare away the moment they saw him?

He was grateful for everything tho. He was at Hogwarts. He was a prefect. Had amazing friends. Even a boyfriend. His parents were supportive. His live was better then ever before.

The only thing was how he looked. All his friends had glowed up during their time at Hogwarts. Even Peter had lost weight and looked kinda good now. James had got handsome and Remus wasn’t even gonna start about Sirius. The boy had always been pretty but now he was just drop dead gorgeous.

And here Remus was. Having ugly scars, weird curly hair and basic eyes. Not having an amazing body like James’ quidditch body. Not having cute blue eyes like Peter’s eyes. Not having cheekbones and amazing hair like Sirius. Nope, none of that.

He was trying to get his hair a bit neat. Maybe cover his scars. He didn’t knew what to do. He had to leave for the ball in half an hour and he was already done with all of this.

The only reason he was going, was Sirius,

He had seen the happiness in Sirius’ eyes as they talked about the ball. Those eyes made Remus ask Sirius out.

And to be honest, he didn’t regret it.

He could dance with Sirius all night. Laugh and be happy with him. Watch James make a fool of himself in front of Lily, who had said yes to his ball proposal, to everyone’s surprise, Lily included.

It didn’t mean he wasn’t going to have fun. Or that he didn’t like balls. The problem was how he looked. He was wearing a blue dress robe with a black tie and black shoes. Trying to look as good as possible for Sirius.

After another fiftheen minutes of picking, pulling and making look okay. He looked in the mirror. Sighing.

Remus heard a knock at the bathroom door.

“You can come in!”

Sirius came in. He was wearing a perfect black dress robe with a red bow tie. His hair looked extremely soft and was brushed gently. He had a little line of eyeliner under his eyes, which were only visible if you looked at his eyes. But it made him look hella hot. He had a huge grin on his face as he came in.

Remus let out another frustrated sigh.

“How do I look?”

He felt Sirius come closer to him. Untill Remus not only saw his own reflection but also Sirius’ in the mirror.

“Perfect.”

Remus sighed turning to Sirius. Sirius did the same, looking up at Remus with those deep grey eyes.

“So perfect.”

Remus brushes his hand gently over Sirius’ cheek.

“Y-you think so?”

Remus was stumbling. His hand still caressing Sirius’ cheeks. He was blushing.

“Yes.”

Sirius brought his hand up Remus’ neck. Gently pulling Remus’ head down.

Their lips met. Moving together like it belonged.

Remus’ hand got up to Sirius lower back to pull him closer. Remus slowly moved his lips from Sirius’ down his face. Leaving kisses on his way to Sirius’ neck.

Sirius let out a whatever laugh. He dropped his head, making place for Remus.

Remus started kissing harder, leaving open mouth kissed all over Sirius’ neck.

“Moons, we have a ball remember.”

Remus let his head fall against Sirius’ neck. Wrapping his arms around Sirius’ torso.

Sirius laughed softly.

“Can’t we just stay here?”

Remus asked as he nuzzled in Sirius’ neck. Looking pretty stupid because Sirius is a lot shorter.

“Well I really wanna go...”

Sirius mumbled. Remus looked up. He smiled standing straight again. He looked at Sirius.

They smiled at each other.

‘Come on then.”

Remus put out his hand, Sirius took it and together they left for the ball. Walking over to James and Lily.

When they arrived James stared laughing.

“Your neck.”

Was all James could get out before another wave of laughing crashed over him.

Lily was laughing as well. As Sirius looked stunned, totally red but smiling softly.

Remus looked at him.

Maybe he didn’t care that much about his looks anyway. He had Sirius and he thought Remus was beautiful. That was all that mattered.

[moonsstarss]

My mother wants to meet you

Remus was sitting on the couch in the Gryffindor common room. The room was empty except for the armchair with the small boy in it.

Remus looked at Sirius, a concerned look on his face. Sirius had been trying to read his book for potions for half an hour now and he hadn’t moved one page. Sirius’ eyes were dark and his skin was pale. He almost looked sick.

“Uhm, Sirius, Baby?”

Remus tried to sound as calm as possible.

Sirius looked up from his book, his eyes slowly scanning Remus’.

“Yeah?”

Sirius voice was soft and small. Something Remus had never heard before. He almost sounded... scared?

“What’s wrong? We have just arrived at Hogwarts for a week now and you’re acting kind of weird. Is it something I did?”

Remus talked slowly. It was true! Sirius had been acting all weird around Remus and Remus was so scared he might have done something wrong. He was so scared of losing Sirius.

“Oh no! No it’s... uhm it’s not you... I guess.”

Sirius was stumbling. He didn’t seem to get out of his words.

Remus walked over to the armchair Sirius was sitting in. Sirius looked up. Tears forming in his eyes as he looked scared.

Slowly Remus pulled out the potions book out of Sirius’ hands. He slowly sat down on the edge of the chair before picking Sirius up. He slowly turned to Remus was sitting on the chair now before he pulled Sirius onto his lap.

The moment Sirius was on his lap he hurried his face in Remus’ shoulder. Starting to shake a little.

“Hey it’s okay. I’ve got you. I won’t go anywhere. I’m here.”

Remus held Sirius tight. Not knowing what to do except for holding him. Softly rubbing his shoulders and repeating the sentence over and over.

“Hey it’s okay. I’ve got you. I won’t go anywhere. I’m here.”

Sirius didn’t seem to calm down. He just kept on shaking and grabbing Remus’ shirt.

Remus felt a hot place on his shoulder before he realised Sirius was crying.

“Sirius what happened?”

Remus was whispering, trying to not scare Sirius away.

A short gasp came from Sirius.

“C-can’t... can’t breath...”

Another gasp.

“Shh... It’s okay. Sirius I’m gonna count and on the one you’re gonna breath in and on the two you’re gonna breath out okay? Does that sound like a good idea love?”

Remus was scared he was so scared. He didn’t know what was happening. He was usually the one having attacks like these around the full moon and Sirius was always there to help him. Sirius was so good at it...

After a while Sirius was able to function a little again. He was crying. But breathing regular and lying in Remus’ arms as calm as possible trying to stay this calm.

“Love what happened?”

Remus was scared the question might turn things bad again but he had to ask. Sirius was his everything. He couldn’t stand seeing him hurt like this.

Sirius looked him straight in the eye. Tears running down his beautiful face. His eyes red and puffy. Sniffling softly.

“My mother wants to meet you.”

It came out outta nowhere. As a whisper.

Remus freezed. He knew Sirius mother was awful. He knew the things she did to her eldest son. He knew how fucking scared Sirius was for this. He had been there while Sirius nightmares had come. He had listened to Sirius rambling about how he was never gonna let that happen. He had said if himself... “She won’t even want that Sirius. Don’t worry.”

Apparently she did...

“She...”

Remus didn’t know what to say. He was scared for himself but even more scared for Sirius. If his parents found out Remus was a werewolf they’ll hurt Sirius. If they found out about their relationship they’d-

“Do they know about us?”

Sirius let go another wave of tears.

“Y-yes. B-Bellatrix told t-them. S-she found out w-while I k-kissed you at t-the ball.. I-I’m so s-sorry Re..”

Remus kissed Sirius’ forehead. Holding him even closer.

“It’s okay. I’ve got you. We’ll be okay.”

“But R-rem”

“Sirius listen to me. She won’t hurt you I will not allow that.”

Sirius looked at him like he just got hit in the face.

“You’re not saying y-you’re actually g-going. Right?”

Remus looked at Sirius. A faint smile on his face.

“We’ll be okay. We have each other. And I love you. Nothing will ever stop that.”

Sirius looked at Remus. A hint of happiness in his eyes. A small smile creeping up his face. Tears still streaming down his cheeks.

“I love you too.”

Sirius whispered.

[moonsstarss]

Sirius felt like crying, he felt like breaking down.

Nothing mattered anymore. Remus had left.

He knew he wasn’t completely gone, that he was probably in the library or something, but Sirius knew he never had Remus the same again. He didn’t want him back the same. He couldn’t handle it. He deserved this.

His family was right after all...

He was a mess, he didn’t deserve anyone.

Remus walked trough the halls of Hogwarts. Running past people who looked happy and peaceful.

His head was a mess. He couldn’t think straight.

Sirius has done this to him. Why? Remus thought he could trust Sirius. He had loved him.

Now he was alone again.

Walking to the black lake he sat down, started crying. Looking at the night sky. Thinking.

Fuck he still loved him.

Sirius didn’t know what to do. The tears kept streaming down his face, he couldn’t help it.

The common room was quiet. He felt alone so alone. But he knew he deserved it.

Remus hates him, god it was his fault anyway.

His family had told him things awful things.

They had said no one would ever love him, that he shouldn’t have been born cause no one loved him anyway.

After years of hearing it, trying to fight it, Sirius had believed them. He had broken down all alone no one there for him. That was the moment it had all went wrong.

Now he felt even worse about himself. What was he thinking.

Remus didn’t know why, he tried to think of reasons why Sirius had done this. He couldn’t think of one.

Why the fuck had Sirius done this..?

Lily walked toward the portrait hole. She was exhausted. It was late, the castle had been empty as she came back from perfect duties.

James had asked her out again, she had wanted to say yes. But she couldn’t.

As she mumbled the password she heard muffled groans, cries, whimpers.

She slowly walked trough the portrait hole.

Sirius was on the ground.

[moonsstarss]

Remus coming out to Sirius

Remus looked at Sirius. Sirius was sitting on his bed, looking at the Marauder Map probably looking at James and Lily on their first date. Peter was taking extra classes for his failing class. And Remus was trying to read his book.

It wasn’t working.

Not with Sirius sitting right there. His eyes focused on the map, big and shiny. His black hair falling loosely on his shoulders, his tongue sticking out a bit. Remus couldn’t concentrate.

He wanted to tell Sirius how he felt, but was scared he’ll scare him away. Sirius didn’t even know he was into guys. What if he told him...

“Pads.” He said softly, trying not to sound too scared.

“Yes Moons?” Sirius looked up from the map.

“Can I tell you something?” Remus got red as he heard the crack in his voice.

“Yeah sure, is there something wrong?” Sirius put away the map, sitting up against the board of his bed.

“No no, I just want to tell you something.” Remus smiled walking over to Sirius.

He sat down on the foot side of the bed. Leaving some space between them so if Sirius wouldn’t accept it, he would have some space.

Sirius just smiled softly.

“I uhm... I might be bisexual...” Remus spoke softly, sounding confident, but also so small.

Sirius looked shocked but still smiled. Remus got scared.

“That’s... not what I expected... But that’s great!” Sirius said, still smiling.

“You, y-you’re okay with it?” Remus asked, surprised.

“Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?” Sirius said, moving closer and softly touching Remus’ hand.

“Thanks...” Remus mumbled, looking at their hands now. He was circling over the back of Sirius’ hand with his thumb.

“For what?” Sirius said as he smiled the soft smile he only reserved for Remus.

“Accepting me for the second time...” Remus mumbled.

“I’d accept you for the hundred time Remus.”

Remus smiled.

“Is there a special someone?” Sirius asked.

“Yeah, a boy.” Remus whispered.

“Lucky boy.” Sirius laughed, a little sad.

Remus looked up to see Sirius smiling, he smiled back.

Maybe Remus would be brave enough to tell Sirius he was the special boy...

[moonsstarss]

Tears.

“Moony, I’m sorry...”

Anger.

“Just shut up and leave me alone!”

Guilt.

“I-I didn’t mean to.”

Broken trust.

“I thought I could trust you, Sirius.”

Sirius felt lost, so lost. He had told Snape how to get trough the womping willow. He didn’t mean to, it just happened. Snape had been a dick and Sirius had been so angry with him that he didn’t think things trough...

“How could you?!”

Remus felt betrayed, so bestrayed. He had trusted Sirius with his secret, thinking he wouldn’t tell anyone else. Now he stood here. In the middle of the common room, new scars and bruises on his body. Screaming at Sirius. They were both crying but Remus didn’t care. He was so mad...

“Remus, I’m sorry I really didn’t mean to.”

Sirius didn’t know what to do. Remus didn’t know about his parents. And how he didn’t want to go back home this summer. He didn’t know he got tortured, were his anger problems came from. He was crying. Desperately trying to tell Remus he didn’t mean to, and that he was genuinely sorry. He didn’t listen...

“Go away! I don’t need you!”

Please tell me you didn’t ment it, I need you. Remus felt his heart sink further and further as he saw the boy he loved. He loved Sirius, he did but now. Now he just felt betrayed, sad, angry. Why would Sirius ever do something like this to him...

“Moony, I-“

The nickname had slipped trough Sirius’ mouth. He didn’t mean to. He just wanted his Moony back. He just wanted that this never happened. He just wanted that he wasn’t born. He wanted to drown...

“Don’t ‘Moony’ me!”

Remus felt like screaming, tearing his scum apart as he ran out of the common room. Leaving Sirius alone. He heard Sirius was crying. But he didn’t care, not anymore...

“Please, Remus, please stay here, I-I’m sorry...”

Remus had left...