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big shoutout to trans people that decide to change their last name too. sometimes you’ve just gotta throw the whole name out and start from the beginning.

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every time i try to write something creatively i disassociate and don’t manage to write nothing

and sometimes, though incredibly rarely, i sit down to write something creatively and i disassociate and end up writing a whole thing at once and then forget about it

i do not know how to write, if you’d ask me for advice i’d truly say i do not know how to do it or how i do it, because i don’t know how i do it, sometimes it just happens to me and most of the time it doesn’t

and sometimes words just come to me randomly during the day but i have no way of writing them down, no paper, no phone, and those words and verses are lost

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Honestly I don't think you should need a diagnosis of anything to get HRT. I think you should just be able to go buy it at CVS like it's ibuprofen.

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i love engaging in lebianism

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this is in sweden, they are not everywhere but they are around! they set their stand up by mid/late summer, there is one at Odenplan here in stockholm and always one at the market during medieval week in Visby. they are rare enough that you’re gonna think the one you saw is the only one there is but once you see another one you understand that they are probably a bit all over the place

A man in Stockholm really took that last bit to heart.

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(in front of a stunned crowd, overly cocky & smug, painted bloody, standing in a pool of viscera & gore) go ahead, bring a bigger camel, i dont give a fuck, i'll fit it through the eye of this needle too

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united fruit Co, another thing i have boycotted since birth

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i am a butch, definitely, no questions asked

but more accurately i’m a jack, it’s s term that fits and feels weirdly like home

but above all, no matter what else i might be, i’m a lesbian, i’m a dyke

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this tgirl has a ‘butch haircut’ (maybe not rn but ”canonically” i do) because it was what aligned with her sense of self best and so decided to cut of her hip length hair about a year after finding out she was trans because it felt good and right to do so

this tgirl does not wear ‘butch clothes’ because she wants to dress ambiguously but because she wants to dress masculine in a queer way (BUTCH NOT AMBIGUOUSLY)

this tgirl has noticeable stubble because electrolysis is too fucking expensive and she hates to shave

this tgirl has hairy legs, feet and arms because she honestly doesn’t give a fuck and can’t be bothered to do anything (because it doesn’t bother her)

this tgirl wants to present masc and is also poor and isolated, and her desire to present masc and her identity as a butch trans woman causes her even more isolation from within the trans community itself and it’s fucking with me hard

Does that tgirl have a 'butch haircut' because she's defying gender norms or because hair stylists don't respect her desire for a feminine haircut and nobody taught her how to cut her own hair?

Does that tgirl wear 'butch clothes' because she wants to dress ambiguously or is she too broke to wear anything other than the clothes her parents bought her in high school?

Does that tgirl have noticeable stubble because she's genderfuck or because she doesn't know where to start with buying and applying makeup?

Does that tgirl have hairy legs, feet, and belly because she's a hardline feminist or because electrolysis is $300~ a session?

Does that tgirl want to present masc or is she just poor and isolated?

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my voice makes me feel bad

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i should properly read the three musketeers and 20 years after and the last one i forget the name of properly instead of gayly posting about what if they are lesbians instead

that way i could more properly post about them as lesbians instead

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the three musketeers but they are big butch dykes!

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i love you

you love me

homosexuality

people say

we’re just friends

but we’re really lesbians

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i’f i’m posting a lot on here it probably means i’m doing bad and am also restless