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cerulean

his memory resides in the vastness of the sky that mirrors onto the abysmal waters of the ocean wide. i constantly fixate my gaze on these two celestially created entities in hopes of losing myself in them. in hopes of soaring to altitudinal heights enclosed by bleached clouds. in hopes of submerging into the unknown depths of the sea where the surroundings are painted raven black. in hopes of escaping this hue that embodies you.

when curtains of rain cascade onto earth’s terrain an umbra is cast over the atmosphere. however, despite the evident blemish it creates, i am still reminiscent of your being. of your smile. of you. somehow, in spite of the gloom prompted by this downpour, i still feel your loving presence.

in the midst of this bleak november rain there is renewal. the greenery is nourished. the earth is cleansed. there is an opportunity to begin again. i equate this contrast to you. although the cerulean heavens are distorted by precipitation, i am aware of what still lies underneath - you. i cannot escape from it, because even when it’s overcast for days on end your nearness is amplified. i tried hiding from it, but the sky will never disappear and neither will you.

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“not surprised to see the sky and only think of you. tell me, how am i to feel?”

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the end of a decade

as the end of 2019 approaches, like most years, people often make significant changes to improve the upcoming year for the former one had its ups & downs. however, as the end of this first full decade i’ve lived approaches, i encourage you to reflect on the events that took place. all the various people, places & things that have moulded you into the person you are today. although some scars might still be healing, be grateful for the lessons learnt. life’s journey is one which builds character & transforms us into who we’re truly meant to be. so instead of focusing on the regrets, failures & disappointments, rather think about how far you’ve come & how you deserve to feel proud; the road wasn’t an easy one. as 2019 draws to a close i want everyone to appreciate where they came from, where they are and look forward to where they’re going.

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a newly edited repost (from 2 years ago)

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nicotine:society’s ignorance & corporate malice

inhale that nicotine

let it seep into your bloodstream.

consume it day by day

to keep anxiety away.

you start with just having one

but that triples from the time you begun.

the box lets you know it’s addictive

but i find it messed up & wicked

how you let yourself be a guinea pig.

can’t you see the system is a rig?

don’t you know that corporate giants

benefit from you being their client?

they constantly feed off you

because you’re unable to make it through

one full day without a smoke,

while they sit in their offices & think you’re a joke.

& they know you’re slowly reaching your demise

but they couldn’t care less because they fed you with all their lies.

now you’re battling with lung cancer

because you thought smoking was the answer

to all your problems in life

but it didn’t help,right?

now those manipulators sip champagne

whilst you suffer in pain.

but they warned you blatantly

that smoking could be risky

but the commercialism

of this so called heaven

cancels out those two sentences

that they’re forced to mention.

so take a puff

of that so-called good stuff

but don’t be surprised

once you’ve reached your demise.

you decided to spend that cash

but that could lead to you becoming one with the ash.

- (via @natashasaburii)

[natashasaburii]

i just wanted to tell you how amazing you are and every single poem/writing that you publish is so beautiful and it inspires me. you're a beautiful person and i hope you will always smile and stay happy ♡ god bless you and i hope you had an amazing day today! :)

awww,people like you are the reason why i write & keep writing.i truly appreciate this & you! - i hope you have a wonderful day & i hope my words will continue to inspire you too

- endless love & appreciation 🧡

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i watch the clock.

i hear each tick

& each tock.

tick, a crack of a whip.

tock, a slash in toiled flesh.

showcased like a presentation.

waiting to learn (or be taught) a valuable lesson.

tick, that final sound.

tock, bodies fall to the ground.

faces laying in the dust.

faces staring in disgust.

tick, a field of poplar trees.

tock, a grotesque sight to see.

bodies hanging from a noose.

rotting,waiting to be cut loose.

tick, a mass murder lynched.

tock, the loss of life binged.

black bodies swaying to & fro

like the pendulum in front of me goes.

tick, life petering away.

tock, no single sway.

- (via @natashasaburii)

[natashasaburii]

the bee

walking barefoot on the scorching floor.

not fazed or disquiet at all.

mindless of my own milieu

not looking down,without a clue.

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piercing through my baby toe

there the bee's life shall go.

it's life's imprint in me

forever in my mind,that little bee.

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the impact of deficiency i've caused

has deprived life of a major clause.

the honey filled flowers’ missing guest.

the family member laid to rest.

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the ecosystems imbalance

from my mindless malice.

and the lack of brightness & light

of any bee admirer at sight.

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the inexplicable absence in my mind

left his family mourning behind.

but frequently every now or so

i feel the bee as part of my own.

- (via @natashasaburii)

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thorns caused by exposure

an innocent baby rose put in a world so cruel & cold.

in order to survive & protect itself it grew thorns.

the colder the world became the harder the thorns became.

one day someone will find this rose & remove them.

they will show the rose how beautiful this life can be.

- (via @natashasaburii)

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untitled:the impact of friendship

friendship,the only thing that keeps me going lately.

the sound of their voices makes my heart feel a lot lighter.

the smile that shapes when i see their name on my phone.

the way my heartbeats faster and faster when i'm about to see them.

the wholeness my soul feels when i'm around them.

& the vacant void i have when they're not near or with me.

- (via @natashasaburii)

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is it the end when you don't know when last you'll see people.

is it the end when you go from seeing someone on a daily basis to hardly every month.

is it the end when you feel like you've lost all your friends.

is it the end when you don't even remember what school was like.

is it the end when you can't even get a glimpse of what education looks like.

is it the end when your day consists of spending time looking at your reflection in a blank screen.

is it the end when you struggle to get yourself out of you bed.

is it the end when you've had a good day but it's ruined by the sight of your past shown in a human figure.

is it the end when you no longer want to leave your home because you are so self conscious about how you look and what's been happening to you.

is it the end when it actually all ends?

- when does it end? (via @natashasaburii)

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she has a grace to her.

she has a divine stature.

she has used her toil & pain

& has remodelled it to beauty for her gain.

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she has fiery eyes.

she has an intellectual wise.

for she has learnt many lessons

through the course of her oppression.

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she has a colourful spirit

that accompanies her phenomenal pigment.

but if you look beneath her guise

you see that she’s the reason why the sun rises.

- she is the beauty that comes with strength (via @natashasaburii)

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i should not curse the world for bringing me tough times and hardships & i should not only be over zealous towards the one who created me when something good happens in my favour.i should be thankful for both the good & the bad for they have & still are shaping & moulding me into the person i am meant to be and they determine who i interact with & more.so give thanks for everything even if it seems like the end of the world because truly it only helps you grow.

- (via @natashasaburii)

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bye.

those were the last words you left me with.

no reason why.

no clue left behind.

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pain.

that’s the feeling that you left in my chest.

leaving me with nothing to say.

never getting the opportunity to see you again.

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why.

this is the question i still ask myself today.

not a day goes by where i don’t cry.

not a day goes by where i don’t try.

- (via @natashasaburii)

art: henn kim

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untitled: blooming & whilting

the flowers bloom

in the morning.

i watch them dance

& die by noon.

then comes the night

with its lovely silence,

glistening stars

with their pretty lights.

the light of the moon

appears & disappears

welcoming a new day

and the flowers start to bloom

once again.

- (via @natashasaburii)

[natashasaburii]

do you understand that if you do anything to make yourself disappear out of someone’s life there would be so many impacts on the people that care about you:

- they would be partially blind because they won’t see you again

- they would be partially deaf because they would never hear your authentic voice again

- they wouldn’t even get to know your thoughts intellectually as you grow up & discover yourself

- they would have slight disassociate amnesia because the memories they shared with you would slowly fade away.

so before you pull the plug of life to disappear into the drain please think of the impact you’d leave on the people that care about you.

- (via @natashasaburii)

art: henn kim

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untitled: mental illnesses

people take mental illnesses so lightly.

they think it’s as simple as learning the alphabet.

or even doing a math sum.

they don’t understand the intricacies & challenges people face.

i don’t either.

i just witness a person go from absolutely fine to being triggered by a word,phrase or photo.

i see them suffer & it’s hard because i can’t do anything in all my power to make it stop.

all i can do is try comfort them but that doesn’t feel like enough.

i wish i could “fix” the parts of their mind that make them feel certain ways.

i wish i could remove all the negative thoughts & comments.

i wish i could just do something.

- (via @natashasaburii)