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"You turned me into this!" He pointed an accusatory finger at her.

She, on the other hand, was unfazed. She only had a look of mere annoyance as she pretended to examine her nails. "You wanted it."

"I did not! I only asked—"

She was in front of him suddenly. "For something that normal mortals can't attain. For you to live long and prosperous. I gave you that."

The trees rustled in the wind. The only other thing that could be heard were his short, huffed breaths of indignation and the light hum she gave as she watched him.

"I don't believe in hitting women," he finally exclaimed, raising his dark eyes to meet hers.

She arched a brow questioningly.

"But for you, I can make an exception."

He's on her in an instant, but she is far older, faster, stronger. Kicking him off is a breeze, and so is pinning him to the ground by his throat. "I could always shove a stake into your heart, if you want me to. If you think this is too much for you. If you hate it as much as you claim."

He's unsure of where she got the makeshift stake from, a tree branch pressed against his chest where his no longer beating heart is. He doesn't need air, not anymore, but he's still not used to not inhaling as she presses a hand against his throat.

"Stop struggling or I will do as I say and stake you."

He tries to do the same move of kicking her off as she did him, but it doesn't quite take. He stops when he feels the sharp edge of the branch dig in just a tad, trying to remember that he doesn't need to breathe anymore. He wasn't a human. And yet, he still inhaled when she eased the pressure off of his throat. His eyes met hers, hatred spilling over his words as he spoke. "You're a monster."

She glared down at him for a moment, disgust in her expression. "You're still a fledgling. You can't tell me that you actually weren't aware of what you were asking when you asked me. Did you know what I was?" Her voice grew lower as she leaned down to catch his gaze.

He only managed a nod, to which she scoffed.

"And you're upset that I did what you asked me to do? What you practically begged me for?"

"Immortality seems like a long time. I didn't exactly take into account how absurdly long it is. You see people and society change, you experience centuries, your loved ones all die unless they're turned, you can live long enough to watch the sun burn to a crisp and destroy everything. It's a lot to handle mentally," he babbled, obviously overwhelmed by the situation and how the disgust on her face was turning into what looked like pity.

"I can teach you, if you would like. How to be stronger. How to handle immortality better," she finally offered.

"I think I'd rather you just stake me."

She let out another hum. "Odd that you would give up what you wished for so desperately without a fight."

"What can I say? Sometimes what we think we want isn't what we really want." He smiled ruefully up at her. "Sometimes it's not what's best for us in the long run." His hands gripped hers suddenly, preparing to shove the branch down into his heart.

She flings it away before he gets the chance, and breaks it in half, then another half, then another, until there's only twigs. "If," she begins, eyeing his bewildered expression, "you change your mind about being stupidly and stubbornly suicidal as a new immortal being, do come find me. I will teach you everything I know about being immortal and how to cope with it."

With that, she was gone. He blinked at the spot where she was and sat up, eyes going from a tree branch high up and then going to where she had just been standing, and then he was gone too.

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INCREDIBLY bold of Jax to claim to be the funny one when this happened in the exact same episode

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I keep minishifting (which is still shifting) and getting memories from my DRs

Please I just wanna permashift already

(This isn’t a bad/negative post btw. I’m glad I keep experiencing these things but I also just wanna permashift lmao)

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Dialogue Prompt

"You look pretty when you're half asleep."

"Shush. It's five in the morning."

"Well, you probably won't remember this, then. I'll be sure to tell you again when you wake up."

"Shh!"

"Good night to you too."

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may have to do an endoscopy and I’m Nervous…

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HEY important, but there's a site called Citron Games which have been taking games off itch.io and uploading it to their site and claiming they're the publisher/copyright holder of them!

I've seen a lot of vns on there from devs I know/follow, but I've also seen some IFs on there as well.

I'd recommend checking the site to make sure your game isn't on there and if it is, issuing a DMCA takedown!

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well this fucking sucks

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I have been all over the place so I’m sorry for the small hiatus I took 😭 I practically work full time now and have had a lot on my plate. I'm doing my best to get back into the swing of things and writing and other creative things but it just might be slower than normal!

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Dialogue Prompt

"You could have killed me!"

"Could have being the key words there. I didn't. You're so very welcome."

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The snail is so cute oh my gosh!!! Okay SO. I love that you’re kind and supportive, I also love your art!! I’ve scrolled through some before (the Homelander art and also the deer art), and my fav pieces are the one with the deer and (if I remember correctly?) vulture and Homelander with (I think) the stars where it’s a side view plus the Homelander looking down at Starlight piece. Your art captures emotions and expressions (and also looks) very well and I mentally start screaming when I see a new art piece bc they’re so good 😭 I also love that you travel! I admire it bc I’m a homebody at times so the fact that you travel to places is cool idk. :>

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🩷⭐️. 💌👀 also hii how are you

Everything. I love everything about you (Three Days Grace voice lmao). I love you very much and I’m very grateful you’re part of my life and have been part of it for so long. I also love your writing and creativity!!!! You’re one of the most creative people I’ve ever met and I think I told you this before but I sometimes go back and re-read your stories because your writing is mesmerizing and pulls me in. You’re also super understanding and kind and I love that about you as well!! ❤️

Also I’m good!! I’ve been working a lot and have no motivation to do anything and then I had my first day off this Tuesday and hoooooo boy did I need it bc I’ve been feeling burnt out 😭 How are you?? I hope you’ve been well!! <3 You can always message me on Discord or wherever else you want, I love hearing from you 😌💕

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mutuals send me a 💌 and ill tell u something i love about you

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I swear I have new fics and original stuff coming soon, I’ve just been working my ass off and been burnt out lmao 😭

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Was in the kitchen standing there after eating and my cat walked past me, brushed me with her tail, and I didn’t know she was there until her tail brushed me so I freaked out and jumped physically a little and then she freaked out and jumped and skittered a few feet away and I heard her claws on the floor and I’m laughing over it because we had the same reaction to each other 😭

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Tlou spoilers

“Joel died thinking Ellie was next” “Joel died thinking he failed as a father again” did you just rip out my heart

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There's literally nothing better than being in a creative drought and then suddenly getting heaps of rain.

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Dialogue Prompt

"I hate granola."

"You're literally eating it right now."

"It's peanut butter granola. I like peanut butter and I don't want to eat peanut butter from a jar, so leftover peanut butter granola it is."

"Fair enough, I guess. Gimme some."