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‘‘ But what is failure? To struggle while you’re growing as a person, or not to grow at all?''

[nerwenoronra]

I know this sounds kind of silly.

But i have thought of all the ways you could leave.

When you're still here.

And I know this probably sounds stupid.

But it keeps me up at night.

The way it would kill me.

'It's not you, it's just me' sounds lazy

But it is so true.

Because I can not make myself think any other way.

Even for you.

[nerwenoronra]

Something more

Summary: Just some thoughts about what it would be like to travel with Joel while the reader has way to many feelings about the handsome man sitting beside her. 

Word Count: 706

Warnings: Not really, sorry haha

Notes: Hi there lovely people. Don’t know why and how, but my brain can’t stop with these random drabbles. I really hope you enjoy them. Please let me know what you think! I really want to know what you think :).

Enjoy!

Something more

Say hey, good lookin’, what you got cookin’?

How’s about cookin’ somethin’ up with me?

Hey, sweet baby, don’t you think maybe

We could fin dus a brand new recipe?

The sound of Hank Williams was softly making it’s way into my ear as I was leaning my head on my hand, which was propped up by the window. My head leaning against the glass while my eyes were gazing up at the clear sky. Green leaves were slowly falling down with the wind. A soft gust of wind that was blowing against the trees, making a peaceful combination with the music coming from the car.

There was nothing that could compare to this moment of happiness. It had been a while since I had known this peaceful quietness. It was almost addicting how it relaxed me. It was a bubble that I never wanted to leave.

I turned my head over to the left to watch the handsome man sitting next to me. His hand propped by the window like mine was. His hands was against the side of his face and his face in a state of calm. He was enjoying the peace and quiet just like I was. His eyes were focused on the road in front of us. I felt a smile on my lips.

What a journey to be here with him. I could be anywhere as long as I was with him.

Not that he knew that.

I wanted to keep staring at him but he was starting to notice the way I was looking. His eyes slowly made contact with mine as he tried to keep his focus forward.

‘ You ok darlin?’

My smile widened. What a guy. ‘ I’m fine. Great actually’ I told him. I saw Joel’s mouth turn up into a smirk as he looked at me. His hand reached out and patted me on my knee. From someone else this would not mean much. But coming from Joel, it meant something. His fingers grabbed tight on the sides of my leg. Holding his hand there for a while as he rubbed his fingers on the skin underneath. His fingers relaxing the muscles in my leg. I moved my body around a bit so that I my leg would be more comfortable.

As I found the right position, Joel was already using his other hand to keep a firm grip on the wheel. He was casually leaning back against the backrest and the whole look made him even more attractive than he already was.

I was feeling like a teenager all over again. Realizing that everything that he did made me go giddy over him. He held me in the palm of his hands and he didn’t even know it. The thought of telling him how I felt made me turn back to the window. My face almost betrayed the emotions that I felt towards this man.

But as the music continued I felt the atmosphere of the situation having a influence on me. This moment could last forever for me and I felt that I wanted to hold on to it for as long as I could. I wasn’t the type to be forward with my feelings. But now I wanted to be forward. I wanted more. I wanted to be more. With him. It had always felt like something that was unreachable for me.

But maybe it wasn’t as impossible as I thought

Making a choice, I put my hand over his that was still casually rubbing my knee. The gesture made Joel look back at me and I immediately made eye contact with him. I didn’t know if he knew. Knew that this small gesture that I made meant so much to me. But Joel had known me for a while and he knew the way that I was.

So as I did something very small, I felt the impact that my action had. Because Joel smiled at me with a knowing look. His eyes twinkling and a chuckle coming from his mouth. He knew exactly what I was trying to tell him without saying it. there was something more. He knew there was something more.

What a guy he was indeed.

[nerwenoronra]

Please Don’t

Hi there everyone! I’ve been playing the last of us again and my mind just ran off with some thoughts. Thoughts that turned into drabbles. This is one of them. I wrote it down, not sure where I want to go with it. IF I want to go somewhere with it. I hope you all like It. Please feel free to comment or anything else. I haven’t done anything before on Tumblr.

Thank you so much for reading and all. Hope you have a nice day, evening, night. Stay safe and stay healthy.

There was a moment. One moment. These few seconds in time where a choice that I made could influence the future ahead of us. A moment that felt so unimportant if I didn’t feel the things that i felt at that moment.

That feeling of dread and danger. My stomach just dropping down like a brick on the ground. I almost felt like I was choking. But I needed to calm myself. The fear was almost paralyzing me. If I would let it control me, it would mean death for him. I had to get myself together and push trough.

I felt my feet move while I wax carrying myself forward. Towards this person that I was trying to reach. This person that I felt that I needed to save. Everyone else could die. But not him.

Not him.

My arm was already reaching out before I even came close to him. My mind set on that one goal. I saw someone else turning around to look at me. A strange look in his eyes while he follower my movements. I didn’t care. I was looking at the man in front of me. His back was to me and I could not see his face.

His brown jacket was open and hanging loosely around his form. He had a scarf around his neck to protect him from the freezing cold. The same freezing coldness that I felt in my gut.

My footsteps came closer to him and made little patterns in the snow. I crushed it under my feet as I walked. The sound of it made the man in front of me turn around. His posture relaxed. Safe. He had no idea what was coming for him.

As he turned around, I found his eyes looking at mine directly. His head turned to the side a bit. He almost looked confused. His eyebrows shooting down a bit and his lips tightening in a firm line.

He could not even make a sound before my hand had finally reached him. I grabbed onto his arm and I grabbed it tight. Like my grip could stop him from the fate that I knew was coming his way.

His eyes moved down for a split second, looking at my hand grabbing his arm. Then he looked up again, ready to say something to me. There was no time. I was afraid that he would pull away before I could even show him how important my words were.

His lips moved and he opened his mouth to say something, when I stopped him.

‘ please don’t’ I pleaded him. My eyes growing wider to show my desperation. Tears already forming in my eyes as my fear came back at me with full force.

‘ You’re going to die’.