neuroticbutsymbolic

[neuroticbutsymbolic]

When I say I’m sorry,

it is not because I am.

It’s because of trauma I’ve experienced,

self preserving where I can.

You see if I choose to take the blame,

you might just choose to stay.

Cause in my trauma built perception,

mistakes cause love to fade.

[neuroticbutsymbolic]

Well hey there, I’m Nueroticbutsymbolic.

I’ve been amateurly writing poetry in a variety of styles since 2014.

My whole entire life I’ve fought. To eat. To be loved. To be seen. To be heard. To be accepted and to fit in. I’ve fought for those who couldn’t fight, and I stood right beside those who could.

After years of fighting, it turned to silence and the silence, well, it turned into poetry- poetry I read now and think how? Why? How did this young, damaged, and hopeless teenager not only survive, but also manage to create beauty within an absolutely blackened environment?

The answer to both the how and the why is simply survival.

Finding comfort in that chaos allowed me to accept what I was and remind myself of what I wasn’t- and what I am not, is apologetic.

What I am though, is unapologetically neurotic.

Here, I’ll be anonymously posting some of my neuroticism as I compile all my work into a manuscript of sorts. Follow along for the official publish date drop.

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