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update: december 05, 2024

hello. i'm pretty sure it's been a few months since i've posted here. i'll get straight to the point: i dropped my last class, which means i'm not actively taking classes anymore. this is the continuation of the cycle i've been stuck in of trying to take a class or two and eventually dropping them. i thought this time might be the time i succeed, but i guess not.

it's weird because i was doing okay at first. when i first started college, and for a few years after that, i took up to four classes (since i was still disabled) and got As in all of them. and now i can't even take one without falling very far behind and being unable to catch up.

what changed? it's hard for even me to understand. it feels a lot like some kind of severe burnout that i can't recover from, despite taking a break for years. there's this essay i was hoping to read about how some research is saying many people may not recover from it, as hopeless as that sounds. whatever it is, i'm starting to realize that maybe college isn't for me, at least not anymore, and at least for now.

so what will i do now? i don't know. i've always wanted to work on music stuff, like songwriting and performing, so maybe i'll attempt to spend my time working on that--if i can. (it's been a bit difficult lately.) i also want to continue reading, get back into writing at some point, and maybe do my own studying. i don't know. i guess we'll see.

i don't really know what to do with this blog. i'd have a hard time deleting it, and for all i know, i might return to school at some point. maybe i'll still use it for productivity reasons that aren't related to school for now. maybe i'll use it to keep up with my life.

anyway, here's to life continuing on i guess. i'll try to make the most of it, despite what happens, and i'll try to update this blog when i figure out what i'm planning to do with it.

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09.09.2024—some recent spreads in my hobonichi cousin

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[research life]

Literally the second week of school and I’m already swamped with readings and coursework 🥲 But I also did back2school shopping and restocked a bunch of stationary so I’m ready!💅🏻🫶🏻🩷✨

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i had my second co-working session with my class today! my instructor was the only one who showed up (again), but i found it really helpful for getting stuff done. my instructor is really nice, too.

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9.3.24

took the L again today; i'm so tired from my traveling. i didn't get much done and didn't do any studying outside of work. BUT --

i did more than nothing at work

the air was nice and crisp so i went on a walk after logging out of work a bit early.

will get em tomorrow!

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motivation struggles

i've really been struggling with motivation lately, and it's been making me fall behind. i'm not sure what to do about it. maybe i need to spend less time trying to work and instead spend that time doing things i enjoy? because i'm not getting anything done then anyway. i'm not sure if that would help, and i'm too afraid to check because it's hard to let myself do something enjoyable when i really should be getting things done.

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september 3, 2024 - tuesday

did some studying at a new cafe today! i have a lot of catchup work to do, which is kind of worrying me because i'm not the best at catching up once i've fallen behind. here's to hopefully succeeding at it this time!

to-do list:

read gender text chapter 28

read gender text chapter 32

read gender text chapter 34

read gender text chapter 35

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august 30, 2024 - friday

i dropped forensic anthropology due to my scholarship not working anymore, so now i'm only taking one class, which works because i no longer have access to half my narcolepsy treatment and there are other things i want to spend my time doing at this point in my life. anyway, today i have to write some reading journal entries on some of the past readings and watch a video essay. i also have to get my presentation figured out if i'm doing that online instead of in person.

to-do list:

journal on "intersectionality in a transnational world" by bandana purkayastha

journal on "intersectional dignities" by emir estrada and pierrette hondagneu-sotelo

watch "work sucks, put on an apron" by the financial diet on youtube and take notes

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a sunny day for studying | august 25, 2024

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august 25, 2024 - friday

i'm stressed. i've fallen a bit behind where i want to be and lost some of my forensic anthropology notes. this means i'll have to get a lot more done today to make up for the days i didn't really get anything done.

to-do list:

read "the five sexes, revisited."

read "theorizing difference from multiracial feminism" and take notes.

read "gender: an intersectionality perspective" and take notes.

type up forensic anthropology notes.

read forensic anthropology text 2.1.

read forensic anthropology text 2.2.

read forensic anthropology text 2.3.

read forensic anthropology text 2.4.

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i've been wanting to be more active here after school started, but school itself has been way too overwhelming to get back into.

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3/8/'24 | studied outside for a change; got interrupted. that was not my cat, but i guess it is now? 🐈‍⬛

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16/100 days of productivity | 29/10/2023

did some simple notes on physiology and read through murakami’s short stories while waiting for my friends.

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[summer reading]

Ahhh finally the summer! Been relaxing and reading lots of fun books + academic books as well 🫶🏻

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are there any studyblr challenges starting next month? i'm finding it difficult to find any.