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Can we take a moment to appreciate the fact that Severus Snape, while being a sucky teacher and a horrible human being most of the time, was a damn good spy. One moment in particular in the fifth movie points this out, when Snape is teaching Harry occulmency he does the typical master torturer move and rolls out the pack of torture instruments. However, it is not scalpels in the roll, it is wands. We see Snape study the wands and then pick out one in particular to use on Harry. No matter what anyone says, Snape was a smart man. In the wizarding world, magic people tend to only use one wand. The wand chooses the wizard, so people will generally only use the wand that picks them. The power Snape had to possess to master more than one wand is truly amazing. Snape was a shitty person but a damn good spy. He knew the risk of only having one wand; just look at James Potter, he only had one and couldn't fight Voldemort the night he broke in because his wand was upstairs. Snape had more than one wand for a very good reason. When he had to be a death eater, he could use a different wand than his regular one and if anyone used the prior incantatum spell to see which he used last, they wouldn't find whatever it is on his normal wand. He also knew the risk of his wand breaking, like when Voldemort snapped Lucius's wand in the 7th book. Snape knew the risks that came with only one wand. To me, an extra wand is like a burner phone, it is always good to have a spare. So while Snape was a cruel bastard, he was a good spy in the sense he was prepared for anything to happen to him.

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Trust is not the same as a bone– when broken, it does not grow back stronger

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With trauma there’s no competition. If you’ve experienced hardship then you have a right to react to it – you have a right to be upset even if there is someone else out there that might have a worse experience. No matter who you are, you have a right to feel pain. It may not be the best right to have, but don't let anyone make you feel less for what you have suffered. There would be no appreciation for happiness without the pain to teach you what there is to lose. No matter how small, pain is pain. Pain doesn't discriminate, it will take out anyone or anything it can get its little fucked up claws into. Don't let anyone make you feel inferior to their level of pain. If you deserve one thing in this life, it is to know that you have a right to your own emotions; and no one can take that away from you.

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There is no point in my trying to be skinny enough for myself. There is no point starving myself until I die. There is no point in the final outcome. It would be all for nothing. Just to have a tight dress in a size small coffin. There is no point being skinny if you are dead. You just rot faster. There is no point in killing yourself to be skinny when you can't see the final picture

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“Love never dies of a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness, errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds. It dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings, but never of a natural death.”

— Anais Nin

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Stephen Dunn, from “Mon Semblable”, Between Angels

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“She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.””

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Neil Gaiman, Stardust

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I cut myself

With the devil’s horn

That slipped from heaven’s grasp

Or maybe

It hurts too much for her to hold

So she throw the horns pain

Not knowing

That a hurt human

One more hurt than heaven’s class

Would pick that horn up

To ease more pain, and to pray

That heaven too

Would hold me

(My poem)

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I want to scream. I want to hit something. I want to wreck something. I want to bang my head against the wall. I want to rip my heart out of my chest. I want to do anything to feel something else than my aching heart. But all I can do is sit here in agonising pain while tears run down my face.

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“It’s 2am and my mind won’t stop and I can’t breathe. I want to rip out every vein in my wrist.”

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(via suicidalnixi)

B&W

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At 14 I thought I was better off dead

And I was right

And I’m still right

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That's a fact

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And you were gone.....