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reposting this bc i need to read it everyday

Have you had any recent nsfw thoughts abt Sam winchester?

Yes… always…. I think he is always touching you, hands on your hips or resting on the small of your back, guiding you through crowds or haunted houses, just always with a hand on you. He’s even worse when the two of you are in bed/not in public, hand on your stomach, dipping into your jeans as he kisses you lazily.

That’s another thing. Sam Winchester is a KISSER. It’s his favorite thing in the world. He will always be down to make out. You’re scared? “C’mere, angel, let me make it better.” And he’s kissing the breath right out of your lungs. You’re bored in the motel with nothing to do while Dean goes to grab dinner? “I have an idea,” with a shit-eating grin as he coaxes you into his lap. He loves a lazy make out, just grinding and grabbing and touching and feeling.

#bringbackdryhumping was actually invented for Sam Winchester. If there is something he enjoys more than giving head, (which, let’s face it, there isn’t) it’s dry humping. He fucking loves dry humping. Trust me on this one guys. Dean has walked in on the two of you dry humping a few times and has since started knocking really loud before entering rooms where the two of you are alone together. And then waiting for about a minute so you can get untangled.

Sam likes having his hair pulled, will whimper and whine and beg and plead. He’s a whiner. He loves to whine. He loves to give you big wide puppy dog eyes if you’re on top and then he will beg really pretty. He loves when you ride him or even just take control in general- he’s a switch at his core so he can go either way, but something about watching you do whatever you want to him gets him going.

I love you Sam Winchester please come home. Please. Please

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Lena/Dean is going swimmingly! I am writing more of it when I get home from work. Super excited for this one guys! 

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Working on my Lena/Dean platonic one shot and I actually really love it! It’s refreshing to write something and not worry about how the characters interact with each other. They’re like brother and sister so it’s easy to write.

Here’s something y’all didn’t know! When I first came up with Selena’s character, she was supposed to be Sam’s girlfriend but Dean was supposed to have this massive crush on her. It’s crazy how we got here starting with that. I can’t wait to finish their little one shot, spoiler alert… it’s set when Sam is at Stanford.

Also we have two special guests… any guesses?

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this is actually so sweet, thank you guys so much! working on it when I get home for sure :)

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just saw someone with an oc for spn and the name was Alexandria Singer… what a perfect mix of my babies 😭

not hating! not even close, just thought this was so cute

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Little Angel

Alright guys, let's talk Little Angel. So rereading everything, I realized I got some things wrong canonically. Which honestly bothers me a bit but did help in aiding my story. I am NOT going back and changing things. Please please please do not comment about things being wrong timing wise because I am aware of it. For the sake of my story, I had to move some things around. Now, like I have said previously, Little Angel is half canon half my brain so if things don't match perfectly to the show, that's completely fine. I have also mentioned previously, that I'm moving Little Angel away from canon into just fanon and my brain. Also I've realized that some things don't make sense while reading it.

q. Why was Lena able to speak to things and make contact with other things while Castiel was gone and she was separated from the boys but it all of a sudden stopped working?

a. When she made contact with Crowley, she didn't use her telepathy. She called him the same way they called him and trapped him in the show. Hedione came and visited her himself, offering to take away the soulmate bond. She told him that wasn't something she wanted. Her angel side is stronger with Castiel there! He tried to help her as much as he could with it. Her only being half angel does limit her abilities and it does harm her human side. As you can tell in the part I just posted (here), it is slowly killing her.

Sam moving onto and in with Amelia (canon) broke Selena's heart. Literally and figuratively. So Hedione told her that her soulmate choosing someone else over her left a crack in her heart. Since she's half angel half human, her angel side isn't strong enough to heal something like this. Minor cuts and bruises were never an issue for her because of this angel side of her. After her heart cracked, her angel grace has been "leaking" from her, thus Hedione stealing angel grace for her to live. As we saw with Castiel in Supernatural, others grace only lasts and helps for so long before the body begins dying again. With Selena being half human and her body dying, her internal organs are shutting down leading to the blood being coughed up and her having constantly nose bleeds. Her organs shutting down is causing her to be confused and having a lack of brain function. I will continue to show her body breaking down until she dies because SPOILER ALERT, she does die and then is brought back as a human by our resident witch.

You may be wondering, why can't Castiel heal her? Honestly, she would need the grace removed from her before he healed her. Thus when they remove the grace from her body, she dies, he heals her physical body and Rowena brings her back to life with some sort of spell. The grace that remained in her body was saved in a vial that Rowena kept. Sam had her infuse Selena's grace into the ring that he gave her when he asked her to marry him. Although she wasn't an angel anymore, she would always be his angel. He wanted all parts of her to remain with her.

If you have any questions about anything, please ask! I have no qualms answering questions like this because it helps me with my writing process. I also ask myself questions like this when reading my writing and others writing. Thats why it takes me a long time!

Until next time

- Ari <3

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Little Angel pt. 12

Lena and Dean share a moment.

Sorry for not posting for so long. Honestly I just got back into writing this story because of a few new songs I've been listening to that remind me of Sam/Lena. I had my Sam resurgence recently so here's some Sam/Lena.

Remember these can be read as one shots or as the entire story. This is Lena's main story! I don't want to give too many spoilers because there is still a lot that I have to write out for her main story.

REMINDER: LEXI DOES NOT EXIST IN THIS TIMELINE.

Word Count: 705

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“Where’s Lena?” 

Sam shakes his head slightly, “She’s laying down. Dean, she’s not doing good. She hasn’t tried to talk to anyone with the mind connection, but she’s constantly getting nose bleeds. Her brain is bleeding and I don’t know how to stop it.” 

“Damn, I wish Cass were here. He could at least point us in the right direction. Well, I’m gonna go check on her, yeah?” 

“I was just in there, she’s resting.”

“I know, but-”

“She should be okay until I get back. I’m just running out for supplies.”

“Yeah, okay.”

Dean waits for Sam to leave before going to check on Lena. He was worried about her, but stealing grace from angels to stay alive? He knew that was going to haunt her for a long time. He knocked on the door before entering.

“Hey Lena,” he said, staring at her. She was propped up against the headboard, her journal in hand. Her face appeared pale, her lips chapped and dry.

“Hey D. Sit with me for a bit?”

“Yeah, sure. Sam would kill me if he knew I was interrupting your ‘resting time.’”

Lena giggles, “He’s being overprotective. I think rejoining you guys was a good choice. I missed you guys a ton. Of course, I hadn’t expected all of this bleeding to happen. I hadn’t tried to talk to anyone in a while, there was no reason for me to, I guess. Garth and I had a system. You know, research. I had tried once or twice with the mind thing but nothing came of it. I thought that maybe I had faked the whole thing, made it up in my head. I figured I was glad I never told you guys, imagine how stupid I would look now if I did. But then, I saw you and Sam. It felt like something had just clicked. I don’t know if it had anything to do with Sam and I being soulmates, but it was so strange. Why now after all this time? That’s why I didn’t want you guys to come back to our hotel with us. I needed some time to think. When we got back to the hotel, I called out to Cass. If you were back, there’s no reason he shouldn’t be. But when I called, I didn’t hear anything. It was like a piece of me was still missing. Cass was and always will be someone I loved dearly. But with him gone, I don’t even want the angel side of me anymore. I just want to be normal. Please, Dean, help me find a way to get this grace out of me.”

“Lena, what if you die? Sammy just got you back, we both did. I couldn’t do that to him.”

She sighs, “You guys will find a way to bring me back. I know you will.”

“Whatever happened to ‘don’t bring me back’?”

“If I have to die to get this out of me, so be it. But I want to be with you and Sam. I want to be a normal human. I don’t want to hear these voices in my head, it’s like I’m stuck on angel radio and I can’t change the station.”

Dean grabs her hand, “We will find a way. I promise you, you’re going to be alright.”

Selena smiles and squeezes his hand. Her face contorts before she starts coughing. Dean wraps his hand around her shoulder and moves her back to lay against the pillow. When she pulls her hand away from her mouth, there’s blood on it. His face scrunches up as he leaves the room to grab a towel. Wetting it, he wrings out the extra water and brings it back to her. He wipes her hand and around her mouth.

“Just rest now, Sam'll be back soon.”

She smiles and turns over on her side, placing her journal on the nightstand. Dean leaves the room, closing the door behind him. He leans against the wall and wipes his face with his hands. Now she was coughing up blood as well. It wouldn’t be long before she dies. He needs to find a way to fix this, and he needs to do it fast.

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Been obsessed with this song recently, it’s giving me Lena/Sam vibes. Hopefully I can write out the idea soon for you guys. I honestly miss writing so much, I just have no time.

My supernatural tattoo is healing beautifully! I can’t wait to show y’all. My sister (who introduced me into SPN) absolutely hates it because she thinks I’m not a fan of supernatural… babe, I wouldn’t have got it on my body permanently if I didn’t at least like it a little. She pisses me off anymore. I’ll share a pic of the tat soon :)

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me after watching an actor/actress entire filmography just bc i thought they were hot💔

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i just love him as every character he’s ever played 😭

Jensen Ackles || Tracker 1.12 || sunglasses

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yes your honour, i know he’s bad. i know he’s evil. i know he’s borderline vile. but i’m ovulating so i don’t care

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heavy on this! it’s so hard to write anything new in fanfiction because, trust me, ALL of it has been written before. it gets intimidating!

and when you think you finally have an original thought, your timeline has three posts from people who coincidentally had the same idea as you.

fanfiction is repetitive! there’s always going to be super similar posts, but it doesn’t mean that anyone STOLE anyone’s idea or ideas, it just means that great minds think alike!

There is something both so validating and disappointing when you’ve been noodling around with an idea and then see someone else wrote something similar AND did it better than you were going to. But also like it clearly was a good idea because someone else thought of it too

Like damn. They beat me at my own game and I kind of liked it ???

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So as promised, here are my pics for Lena.

We have a little bit of Sam and Lena but also Dean and Lena! Lena is interchangeable with blonde and brunette hair. I imagine her having dark hair with blonde highlights but it’s difficult to find someone exact for her, drawing and/or human wise.

I’m probably going to be posting pictures with little blurbs relating to them. That seems to tickle my writing fancy at the moment.

Until we speak again, Ari 🤍

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So instead of having real life face claims for my characters, I found like cartoon versions? Like comic book versions I suppose. Finding someone who’s alive who meets your exact expectations for a character is sooo difficult. Finding these comic book versions was soooo much easier compared to finding real life people. Updated versions of my characters are below, as well as some cute things I’ve found for them.

Let’s start with Alexandra “Lexi” Flynn.

So these are giving demon!lexi core and that’s why I love them so much. I know demons on supernatural don’t have red eyes but I thought it might be cool.

These would be Lexi as a human! Some special Dean and Lexi ones below :)

Since Dean refers to himself canonically as Batman, I figured Lexi would probably be Cat Woman.

Since the mobile app version of Tumblr is stupid, I need to make a separate post for Lena. I only have the pictures saved on my phone.

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Let’s start a Lexi deep dive… (songs/artists from modern time will be included) Spoilers about things that will happen to her in the future are included in this. The trio is Lena, Sam, and Dean.

Alexandra Flynn was born to a prostitute mother and alcoholic father. They were together, but not married. Her father was in and out of rehab whilst she was growing up, while her mother was never home. She essentially raised herself. She was an only child. At the age of 18, she took it upon herself to leave her family. She traveled by any means necessary with what little money she’d been able to save working her jobs. She dropped out of high school in eleventh grade to be able to save enough money so that she could leave. When she left, she’d made her way to Washington state. At the age of twenty one she’d had her own place and eventually moved in with her boyfriend. Her and Theo were together for four years before breaking up. He wasn’t kind to her, she is a dv survivor.

During high school since her parents never acted like parents, she fucked around a lot. She’s lost her virginity by the time she was fifteen. She was always careful though. She'd gotten her nose pierced at sixteen, most of her tattoos were done between the ages of sixteen to nineteen.

She doesn't meet the trio until she's twenty-five. When they meet she's working at a bar in Washington. They stop at the bar because they're in town on a hunt. Before they figure out what's happening Lena accuses Lexi of being a witch. Turns out her coworker Chris is a vamp. They save her from him and Selena apologizes. Selena and Lexi stay in contact. A year later Lena gets a call from Lexi asking them to pick her up because Theo had hit her. After they finish the hunt they are on, they come to pick her up and she's been with them ever since.

Her birth date is July 7th, 1981. Making her two and a half years younger than Dean, one year and ten months older than Sam, and two years and three months older than Lena. Her and Dean become friends, slightly flirty but still platonic. Over time they develop into friends with benefits, then they get together.

Some of Lexi's favorites would be; color, black. food, a Caesar salad. fruit, blackberries. animal, white tiger. dessert, blackberry cheesecake.

Less obscure favorites of her's would be; number, 8. curse word, fuck. season, summer. alcoholic beverage, whiskey.

Some of her favorite music artists include Pierce the Veil, Skillet, Led Zeppelin, and Falling In Reverse.

People with the INTJ personality type tend to be highly independent, confident, and self-sufficient. They are analytical, creative, and driven.

Her favorite songs are The Drug in Me Is You by Falling In Reverse and Mr. Brightside by The Killers. She doesn't have a favorite movie, not being one to ever really watch tv. Her favorite book is Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte.

If her main story were based in canon supernatural this is what I'd imagine would happen. In her main story, which will, if I'm being honest, probably never be written, she does turn into a demon! She gets killed during season 7 by the leviathans. Dean, Lena, and Sam have to run away right after she gets killed. When they make their way back to get her body and give her a hunter's funeral, she's gone. They spend time trying to find her but to no avail. She dies before Bobby does. Her body had been taken to hell by Crowley where she endured pain, years of pain. Since time is different in hell versus earth, she was only dead and gone from the trio's lives for about six months before she reappeared with Crowley.

I imagine them seeing her again would be something like this; (Sue me, I wrote a one shot in Lena's had to add one here too).

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"Dean, we've looked for her for months. I don't think she's coming back. She hasn't answered any texts, any calls, nothing. She hasn't tried to reach out in any way." Lena said, resting her body against Sams.

His arm circles around her back to grab her hip, "She left. She took the first opportunity that she could-"

"No! She wouldn't just fucking leave. She couldn't, she cared about all of us you know that. We all saw her die, I don't understand how her body could just be gone. A body doesn't just disappear-"

They'd all heard it. A laugh. A laugh sounding exactly like Lexi's. All of their heads whipped around looking for the girl. Dean was the first to see her. She looked healthy, her hair bounced higher than it ever had. Her nails were still painted black as they always had been, he could remember the day she'd let him repaint them for her. They'd had a rough hunt, one where Lena ended up having to go to the hospital. They'd tried to convince Sam to come back to the motel with them, Lena wasn't going anywhere and he could come back the next day, but he'd refused. He told them to go back themselves and he'd wait with her. So they had returned to the motel room, alone for the first time in a while. They had surpassed the friend stage, started sleeping with each other some time ago. Somewhere, somehow over the past year they'd gotten even closer. Sleeping in the same bed when they could, kissing whenever Selena and Sam weren't looking, showering together, hands groping at each other any chance they could. They weren't necessarily hiding it, just not talking about it.

"What're you doing?" He'd asked that night, running a towel over his hair.

She smiled at him, with teeth, "Painting my nails."

"Why would you do that? It's just gonna chip again."

"Yeah, it will but I like having them like this."

He continued to watch over her shoulder as she painted her nails. Once her right hand was finished, he saw her dip the brush back into the bottle.

"Can I do the other hand?"

She turned towards him, "And why would you want to do that?"

He shrugged, "I don't know."

She seemed to consider him for a moment, eyeing him up and down. He watched as she stood and motioned for him to sit down. He took a seat at the table and allowed her to sit on his lap. She pushed the nail polish towards him and held her hand out. He smiled before taking her hand in his and pressing a kiss to her fingers. He'd gotten to work quickly, brushing lightly across her fingernails with hesitation. He missed a bit, nail polish getting on her skin surrounding her nails.

He chuckled, "Sorry, I tried my best."

He felt a kiss being pressed against his temple and moved to look at her. She wrapped both arms around his neck and moved to straddle his waist. His hands wrapped themselves around her waist automatically. He leaned into her embrace and felt her lips placing kisses around the planes of his face. He released a sigh, relaxing into her embrace.

He'd remembered being so comfortable sitting with her in that way and it just being the two of them, that he recognized the feeling then just as he again did now. His heart soared at the sight of her, the air being forcibly choked from his lungs. The entire world seemed to stop and all he could focus on was Lexi. He continued to take in the girl, who'd stopped just ahead of them. She was wearing a black leather jacket, black shiny heels, and god help him... the tightest pair of jeans he'd ever seen in his life. When he was finally able to pull his eyes away from her ass, he saw her standing next to Crowley. What the hell would she be doing with Crowley?

"Crowley!" He found himself yelling as he stomped towards the pair.

Lena and Sam ran after him, urgency in their actions.

"Dean!" Lena yelled, grabbing at his arm.

He shook her off quickly continuing on his path. Nothing was going to stop him from taking her away and keeping her with him at all times. His hands will never leave her, he'll tie her up in the bunker and make her stay. She'll never be able to run away again.

Lexi's head whips around to meet his gaze. His pace falters as his eyes lock onto hers. His green irises clash with her fully black eyes. Black eyes... Crowley... her not being dead... she's a goddamn demon.

"What the hell did you do?" he growled out, coming to a stop in Crowleys personal space.

"If you want to know, you're going to have to take a step back."

He notices Crowley gripping Lexi's wrist in his hand. The sneer on his face could've killed a man.

"Take your hands off of her now."

"You might not want to do that squirrel. Your girlfriend isn't stable yet."

Confusion passes his features, "Stable? I'm going to ask you one more time and I want an answer. What the hell did you do?"

"I saved her life! If it weren't for me, you would have a dead girlfriend and a whole hell of a lot of guilt about it."

"So you're telling me, having my girlfriend become a demon is better than her being dead? If she's a demon, that means she was tortured. You torture her?"

Crowley rolls his eyes with a laugh, "Personally? No. Did I know it was happening? Yes."

Dean growls, "It would've been better if you'd just left her alone Crowley!"

A soft whine pierces through the space around him to his right. He looks at Lexi taking in the sight of her. Despite being a demon, she looked really good. The only thing stopping him from grabbing her and taking her away from all of this, was her herself. His eyes met hers, no longer black and once again the chocolate brown that melted his heart. He reached out his hand only to watch her flinch away from him.

"This is better? You think this is better, you son of a bitch." he angrily snaps at Crowley.

A smirk lights up the demon kings face, "It's been six months for you Dean, it's been sixty years for her. Give her some time to adjust. Let her come to you."

"She's not a dog!"

Crowley rolls his eyes and drops Lexi's wrist from his grasp. Dean keeps his eyes focused on his girlfriend's face as she looks him over. Making sure to stay very still when she walks around him in a circle. He hears a sniff at his neck and closes his eyes. The scent of her filled his nose as she walked around him. She smelled like spicy cinnamon. He opened his eyes and cast a glance at her. Her eyes searched his, looking for signs of recognition. What she found in his eyes was so much more than that.

Love. Anger. Hate. Sadness. His eyes glistened with unshed tears. She could feel the anger pulsing off of him in waves, disrupting the calming air Crowley had been trying to achieve. The hate, burning hot hate, burned through her whole being. She felt the hatred in her lungs, every breath of air she breathed hot and charged with energy.

Getting turned on by the scent of Dean wasn't anything new. He always smelled like leather, whiskey, and sex. Pure manly energy filled her head as she smelled him. Flickers of memories passed through her mind as the scent filled her. Driving down the highway listening to Led Zeppelin as the summer breeze blew through her hair. Waking up next to him, tangled together in motel sheets. Watching him get dressed in the morning. Counting the freckles on his nose as he laid asleep next to her. Listening to him sing softly as she's falling asleep.

Her breath came quickly, she couldn't seem to catch it. Taking a step away from Dean calmed her senses. Her mind wasn't filled with memories of her past life. She cast a quick glance towards Crowley. He was the one helping her though all of these new feelings and becoming a demon.

"It's okay Lexi, you're okay." Crowley reassured her.

"What's going on Crowley? Why does she look scared?"

"She's okay. She's just going through a lot right now. You aren't helping! She's not ready to be around you guys yet."

Dean scowls, "We're her family! She needs us, more than she's ever needed you."

Crowley looks at Lexi before nodding, "Okay. You guys take care of her then. Try taming a newborn demon and just see what happens."

He disappears in a cloud of red smoke, leaving her with Dean, Sam, and Lena. She looks at them wide-eyed, not sure what to do.

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Wasn't sure how to end that if I'm being honest. Let's get back to her though.

Honestly, I've been rethinking her a bit. She is a total badass but also sort of soft. It's hard to explain but I love her so much that I take a lot of her personality from myself. Here's a list of her kinks! Based off the list I used in Lena's. The link to her story will be below.

GSA: 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 18, 19, 20, 21, 23, 24

GSTL: All

BFE: 4, 5, 16, 17, 18, 20

BBM: 4, 5, 7, 8, 9, 11, 12, 17, 18, 21, 22, 24, 25

Clothing: 3, 4, 12, 13, 14, 16, 17, 18

BDSM: 1, 4, 5, 9, 13, 20, 21, 24, 25, 27, 41, 44, 48, 50, 59, 60, 61, 67, 70

PTH: 1, 4, 38, 39, 43, 50, 61

MISC: 3, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 21, 28, 29, 30, 34, 39, 41, 42, 44, 47, 50, 52, 55, 57, 59, 67

I hope the numbers are right!

I hope you enjoy getting to know my characters as much as I love getting to describe them for you. I did some digging and I have some things to add about my characters.

There's more posts coming!