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the ancient fandom relic

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what if i offered shredda a cheese slice. would i be allowed mercy if i offered the scheming eunuch of a sphinx a little sliver of kraft or brie

"Make it a whole wheel, and we've got ourselves a deal, my mystifying, grey-blobbed friend!"

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This is not confirmed at all but it is my personal theory that Dark Brotherhood writer Emil Pagliarulo thought writing Mathieu Bellamont was so fun that he wanted something like him in Skyrim again. So he hard-brainwashed the guy with Dark Brotherhood bible verses, shrunk him down a little in height and threw him into a jester costume. BOOM. Highly skilled crazy as fuck murder guy obsessed with his mother.

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If you're reading this...

go write three sentences on your current writing project.

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brain randomly reminded me of the time i joined a forum game where you have to read through the previous OC's bio and rant about your thoughts and feelings and whatnot. i did a super heartfelt and long thing for someones character. (granted i already knew the oc from passing so i had plenty to praise HAHA) then another guy joined and legit just threw my OC's entire bio through ChatGPT god I AM STILL MAD HELPPPP.

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writing with unmedicated audhd is the worst because i will keep getting distracted by other things so I need to get into the writing mood all over again. then i need to reread each sentence i wrote for context and to make sure i do not repeat anything OR forget including enough context like i write mathieu having a mental breakdown over his moms corpse and then i start grooving out to chess type beats (slowed + reverb ) and picture him grooving instead and then i leave the room to make a casserole only to remember i was in the middle of writing 2 hours later

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Next chapter is live, yippie!

Summary: Mathieu goes to visit his mother. He realizes that his plans are not coming to fruition anytime soon… and that there are many new hurdles to be bested.

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Working on a Mathieu Bellamont fic that shows his life in- and outside the Brotherhood as he grows up. :]

I cannot give any precise content warnings yet but its Mathieu so... expect the general package of disturbing shit. Abuse, murder, mental health issues, yada yada all that stuff!

Second chapter will go up later today!

also here is baby mathieu doodle just about 12 years old how i imagine he looks in the first few chapters if you care.... 👉👈

(@thegrunkiest since you wanted the ping :] )

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Dear video essay creators. A video analysis is when you analyze a piece of media. No no look at me. A summary, no matter how thorough, is not an analysis. An analysis requires you to draw conclusions about the media such as authorial intent, real-world parallels, discussion about themes/worldbuilding/character motivation, and so much more. You have to stop summarizing something and saying that’s analysis. The Gaylors are doing more critical analysis than you. Is that who you want to lose to? The gaylors?

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oblivion remaster is dragging me back into the elder scrolls fandom kicking and screaming!!!

ermm i know the mathieu bellamont fandom is super niche and has like 5 people in it with a set-in design interpretation. but if i were to post my art of him would you guys kill me if he looked like a young black-haired twink or is that a-ok in here (the thought of him looking like a younger lucien is very funny to me and i cannot let it go)

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Omg this is so funny. We talked on Reddit. You asked me to make a gem render for you. I just randomly found you on here searching through the gemsona tag.

haha omg hi :D

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how many people do you think could have been potential beethovens and leonardo da vincis of modern times but will now never come to be because they decided to let AI do it for them instead

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redesign of my cult of the lamb deity oc : i renamed her to freyya! for artfight. :)

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sticker design for pride this year! 💞🏳️‍⚧️

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still thinking fondly of this piece

someone asked me to add sans

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why do people even like harry potter its one of the stalest most uninteresting IPs I have ever seen and I fucking grew up with it

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Ok so I’ve had this question for a while and I feel like you’ll be able to give me a good answer. I understand that we’re absolutely not supposed to support anything JKR does monetarily and I never intend to do so. However is engaging with Harry Potter media *at all* also something I should not do or is it only things that give her money?

Like, would there be anything wrong with me playing Hogwarts Legacy if I pirated it? Is fanfiction and fan art ok to consume? Or is engaging with the IP at all going to be harmful in a way that I don’t see atm?

Thank you for your time!

I don't really think a cis person is the right person to ask about this, but I also know that trans people are sick to death of having to field these questions so I'll do my best to answer this, if everyone who reads my answer will promise me that you will NOT use anything I say in this post as an annoying argument against a trans person who has a different opinion on the matter. Remember whose opinions are actually important here.

And look, number one, you can do whatever the fuck you want. Nobody can stop you. If you, in yourself, in your soul, feel morally comfortable consuming Harry Potter by some convoluted method of Ethical Consumption™, then go and do that, and own it, and have the strength to be judged for your decisions.

Trans people might not trust you - hell, I'll probably not trust you either. They might get angry at you, and criticize you, or roll their eyes and call you a fucking loser. If you have the moral conviction that what you are doing is right, and that you are acting in accordance with your beliefs and you are not doing harm, then stand by that conviction and face the consequences. Have that strength of character.

But if you feel the need to go around posting and arguing that it's unfair, that you shouldn't be judged, that you should get to be a special exception and people are unreasonable when they get mad at you... then that is evidence, proof positive, that you are a fucking loser. That you are cowardly, and you don't actually believe that what you are doing is right, you just want the world to affirm your fragile ego while you enjoy your little treats.

To be clear, I am not accusing you of doing this (you seem to just earnestly be asking for guidance), but there's a hell of a lot of people who do do this, and you don't want to be one of them.

So that's number one. Do whatever the fuck you want, and face the consequences with a spine.

Number two is... just fucking drop it. That is my earnest advice to you. Just fucking drop Harry Potter. They are children's books from the early 2000s, they just are not that fucking good or important. The Hogwarts Legacy game is live service slop; the movies are passable at best and their quality comes from the actors being better than the source material. Just drop it. Harry Potter has nothing to offer that you can't get elsewhere from better media with better authors, or problematic authors who have good grace to at least be dead.

Don't waste your life thinking about complicated ways to circumvent the moral problem of JK Rowling's rancid transphobic hate-aura at the center of the franchise, don't waste your finite time on Earth trying to thread that stupid needle. Harry Potter isn't worth this. Rowling is old, and shriveling from hate and mold fumes, at the very least just wait for her to fucking die, and for her political project to fail, before you pick that world back up again.

I speak as someone who read the first book at age 11, hyperfixated on relating to Harry, and whose entire cultural life was consumed by the franchise for over a decade. It is not worth it. You don't need it, you don't need the stress of trying to navigate how or whether to engage with it ethically. You almost certainly have an enormous backlog of other books, games, movies and TV shows you've been meaning to get around to, so just go do that instead. I promise you it will be infinitely more rewarding, and infinitely less compromised by stress and guilt and cognitive dissonance.

And while you're at it, send some money to a trans charity and go scream invectives at a transphobic politician some time.