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Loving this workout! It’s really helped slim my arms

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Sometimes I just want to leave everything behind and start over new somewhere else

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All I want is to just go away for a little while

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All I want is to feel good enough

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At the point where I’m living off of nicotine, caffeine, and alcohol. How did it ever get to this

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Why am I so embarrassing 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

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I somehow got taller which is fantastic news for my bmi 💀

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My boyfriends getting back today, which is fantastic because when I stay with him I never eat 💀

Not bc of any reason, it’s just he hardly eats and has no food I like at his place 😭😭😭

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Does anybody have any tips on quitting drinking? While trying to quit binging, I ended up becoming an alcoholic haha

I’m so embarrassing and I never know how to stop. It’s just sad atp

I’m trying to quit weed too but it just feels like I can’t

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Why is it impossible to restrict when I’m staying at my parents house??

The second I’m back at school I always lose like 10 pounds in a week but I can hardly lose a pound in 3 weeks at my parents house

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A few days ago I realized I no longer view myself as fat????? I gained 3 pounds but I look and feel better than ever?????

I genuinely love my legs now, I used to hate them. But now I’m obsessed. And I think I have a really beautiful face. I think I’m really beautiful.

I put on a bikini and even though I gained a bit of weight, somehow I look thinner and super super good in it.

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I feel like I’ll never feel attractive. No matter how much people tell me I am or how much weight I lose. I just feel like it will never be enough

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Dating in college is the worst thing I’ve ever been subjected to. Why is it so much more confusing than it was before. Why do I attract people I don’t want but then am hung up over someone that’s too hung up over their ex to date me. I downloaded tinder, I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom.

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Finally reached the point where my family and I are fighting over whether I’m overweight or not. Also I was medically obese as a kid but my father damn near lost his mind trying to argue that I wasn’t. Super weird. For the record I was 180 pounds at 5’4 and 13 years old.

Also I’m now a small-medium in junior sizing which is exciting. Most of my life I was a XL in adult sizing, so this feels like winning the lottery or something.

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TW: sex and sexual coercion

It’s funny how you only notice all the red flags after you’re out of the relationship. I told my ex that I didn’t want to have sex until marriage many many times and he would still ask me if I was allergic to condoms and he made sure that I knew that he kept condoms on him. And when I said I didn’t want to have sex he constantly tried to convince me to have anal, even though I explained many many times that I DID NOT want to have anal sex. And when I told him that I didn’t feel comfortable giving blowjobs or handjobs anymore and that it made me feel ashamed of myself. He would tell me stuff like “I miss when you touched my penis” Oh and if I brought up alll of this he’d always switch up and say he was sorry and didn’t want to make me uncomfortable. And then would wait a week or so and do it again. But I genuinely fell for his nice guy act and thought he was just stupid.

And then he’d praise me for wanting to “save myself” for marriage. And he watched lesbian porn which is such an ick. I get an ick when they watch any sort of porn but especially when a man solely watches lesbian porn. Absolutely sickening. And he thought only women could be virgins and I later found out he was into Andrew Tate and all that manosphere nonsense.

And for the record I don’t actually care about saving myself or whatever. I’m just trying to find somebody that wont lose respect for me after having sex with me.

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It’s wild, in the span of a week, I went from have 0 friends to now having a friend group and a new bestie. Also I’m now talking to someone and everything is just good now

I guess things really do have to get terrible before they can get better