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Can’t wait to flex on all the kids in my family and explain to all the girls that they’re ✨HER✨ cos of ✨ME✨ — and not yo’ mama chile. 😂🩷🥂 Serving hotgal auntie status.

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Falling out of love with this digital era. I feel a constant notion to be forever posting, forever making content, forever on my phone. I hate it.

How am I here feeling lazy because I haven’t posted? How am I less of a creative because my TikTok isn’t popping? How did we even get here?

I genuinely miss a simpler life. Making music used to be about making music. Now I have to be a director, editor, booking agent, brand, influencer, find my niche as well as promote my art?! I’m drowning.

This, is about that.

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Mingle 'N' Mixer at Artefact Liverpool (Pt4)

Fantastic night for everyone involved, met some very gifted and neat individuals :) Super duper well done to Artefact & Tahja for hosting this night !!

Credits :

Host - Tahja @blkjptr @blkjptr_events

Event - https://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/Liverpool/Artefact/Mingle-N-Mixer/40405985/

Venue - Artefact Liverpool

Photos taken with KODAK PIXPRO FZ55 Digital Camera

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Mingle 'N' Mixer at Artefact Liverpool (Pt5)

Fantastic night for everyone involved, met some very gifted and neat individuals :) Super duper well done to Artefact & Tahja for hosting this night !!

Credits :

Host - Tahja @blkjptr @blkjptr_events

Event - https://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/Liverpool/Artefact/Mingle-N-Mixer/40405985/

Venue - Artefact Liverpool

Photos taken with KODAK PIXPRO FZ55 Digital Camera

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Mingle 'N' Mixer at Artefact Liverpool (Pt10)

Fantastic night for everyone involved, met some very gifted and neat individuals :) Super duper well done to Artefact & Tahja for hosting this night !!

Credits :

Host - Tahja @blkjptr @blkjptr_events

Event - https://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/Liverpool/Artefact/Mingle-N-Mixer/40405985/

Venue - Artefact Liverpool

Photos taken with KODAK PIXPRO FZ55 Digital Camera

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Mingle 'N' Mixer at Artefact Liverpool (Pt11)

Fantastic night for everyone involved, met some very gifted and neat individuals :) Super duper well done to Artefact & Tahja for hosting this night !!

Credits :

Host - Tahja @blkjptr @blkjptr_events

Event - https://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/Liverpool/Artefact/Mingle-N-Mixer/40405985/

Venue - Artefact Liverpool

Photos taken with KODAK PIXPRO FZ55 Digital Camera

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Cos I enjoyed this fit 🧡

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Just Here.

I’ve been ignoring my mental health simply just because I don’t know how to deal with it. Talking about the things that have gone to shit in life just doesn’t seem to fix things.

Death has me checking on people when they sleep. I wake up just to check people are breathing. I haven’t even fully registered that I almost died myself.

Finding out I may never be able to have children has been a whole ordeal. Society makes us believe that it’s the one job we as women are here for, so for a while I wondered what was my point and reason. Being around children makes me happy yet devastatingly sad.

I’m at war with myself in my own body, soul & mind, and after talking, I’m still alone with my thoughts.

So while I’m getting on with things from the outside looking in, I’m drowning in anxiety, screaming to get out my own head.

I write these things down to see how much I can overcome and hopefully next year, I can smile understanding the lessons I’ve been given.

I’m begging my future self to get me out of this space.

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16th March 2024

It feels criminal that time has gone on without you, both. Hate that I can never see your smiles, hear your laughs again, meet your kids, go to your weddings. Every mile stone, every small moment, there’s a you shaped hole in each of them.

My heart feels no lighter. It’s still heavy.

Crossing my mind more now that you’re in the realm we all must go to, eventually. Love that I got to have those special moments with you, see your kindness, hear your stories, share secrets. Every mile stone, every small moment, there’s a thought of you here with me.

In those moments, however brief. You’re alive.

I always said that your relationship with death determines how you grieve, however it’s my relationship with love that determines how I carry on. I hate that it has to be this way, I hate that you’re both not here, I hate that I can’t get those moments back.

It feels criminal how much I miss you, both.

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BEEN ABOUT IT

This track was written for all the underdogs; in a world where we are constantly comparing our progress and success to others sometimes we truly need to remind ourselves we got this and we BEEN about it.

This track is for anyone who’s never felt good enough 🧡

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Can I Be Real for a Sec?

I feel like I’ve been on auto pilot since 2019. I’ve buried 7 people in 3 years and just feel absolutely desensitised to life itself; not in any bad way, just neutralised.

I have no clue what day it is, what I’m doing here, nothing. It’s wild. I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel happy. Is unfulfilled the word? I don’t even know anymore - it’s like I switched off and screaming at myself to switch back on again and I don’t know where to start. Is this grief? Is this adulting? Is this *normal*?

Watching people around me just getting on with life and not that I’m comparing, I just am in a totally different routine. It’s weird, if I’m honest with myself. How do you all do it? Does anyone know what they’re doing? Can you help me cos I am struggling to navigate.

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IS MIZZY JUST MIZ-UNDERSTOOD?

Or is he just a c*nt? 💁🏽‍♀️😂

For those who haven’t seen, there’s a teen (18) who’s gone viral for absolutely ridiculous pranks that have involved taking someone’s dog as well as walking into strangers homes.

He was arrested, fined and given a TV interview with Piers Morgan in the UK;

https://youtu.be/mdij3Eq0TqQ

And while Piers is probably one of the worst people to “host” as he never lets anyone speaks and says some more than questionable things, my focus here is this young man.

HOW? WHAT? WHERE? WHEN? AND WHY?!!!

Where are these boys parents/guardians? Family? Are they ever going to address or discipline him?? Because their son is growing up to be an absolute menace. He’s a whole 18 and just knows better than these “pranks” and to just act like it’s just not a thing too? HE’S WHOLE ASS WALKING UP IN HOUSES LIKE RALPH YARL WASN’T SHOT FOR *KNOCKING* ON THE WRONG DOOR?!!!

It’s so disappointing that the youth of these days don’t recognise the laws, the real dangers they’re putting themselves in in-order to go viral, DAILY.

WAKE THE F*CK UP!!!

And there’s people truly making comment on the fact that he “may” have this and that, but truly, what if he’s just trouble?

My point, and my advice is this - and it’s simple. When making content, involving the public or not, ask yourself this ——

Is it really worth the risk of someone locking off your jaw or unaliving you? Are you really willing to do time or go sleep forever over a piece of content?

Cos the answer is no. If you’re struggling, it’s really no. This generation need to realise being viral for all of 5 minutes isn’t the be all and end all, anything you do in life you are going to have to work at it - there’s really no easy way to be successful.

This guy’s continuously upping the anti on his pranks and challenges, SO many kids are. We need to be a bit more aware, ourselves, of what the next generation are doing in order to get likes and follows - if we don’t step in and give some direction, it ends up with more kids like Mizzy.

If I was his Mum, he wouldn’t have a phone and he wouldn’t see the light of day nor his friends for the foreseeable future. If I was his Dad, I would rock his jaw until he thought I was sending him back to God 😂

He’s made his family look a mess, himself, his entire lineage. 18, and what university or business is willingly offering a place to someone like this? Cancel culture is very much here and real. The fact that he STILL can’t even seem remorseful is so deafeningly stupid to me.

Hoping someone can get through to this boy, honestly. There are so many other ways to become a successful content creator beyond being a foolish, self centred, unaware, out of control young adult that chases clout for views and likes this.

18 is old enough to know better. Period.

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I loved myself and had confidence when I was bigger, and I love my body as it changes; but if you’ve known me, my whole life I’ve been big. This has been such a big personal journey - proud for coming this far, excited for what I’ll do next because I’m proving I can do it and absolutely kicking myself for not doing it sooner. It’s crazy cos if you asked me I would have sworn I was still the same size I was on the left. Proud of me. And this summer if you see me doing up Teyana Taylor in Faded at Asda, mind ya damn business 💁🏽‍♀️😂💖🫶🏼 #transformation #weightloss #weightlossjourney #weightlosstransformation #slimmingworld #slimmingworlduk #caloriedeficit #lifestylechange #fyp https://www.instagram.com/p/CqbxUVDIKea/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Ain’t no Mama like the one I got 😌🫶🏼✨ my biggest flex, legit is my Mum. 💁🏽‍♀️✨ Happy Mama’s Day Everyone 😘💖🫶🏼 #mothersday #mymum #momsday #mom #mum #mother https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp-dmmEoLpe/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=