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Henry Cavill // Daddy Issues.

Jesus. ❤️ Yes. Please. Come break my heart.

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And still this heart of mines burns for you and only you...

My nights were filled with thoughts of why wasn’t I good enough for you.

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Dreamt of you last night...

It's been a year since I last laid eyes on you...

Every time I've come to term with the idea that you will never be mines, you invade my dreams...

Mayhap it wasn't a dream but a nightmare...

For even in the realm of sleep, I am denied you...

At least this time around, I was gifted with gazing upon your face...

My attraction for you still glows hot...

Still haven't figured out how to turn it off...

Sometimes, playing out our last conversation in my head helps...

This heart of mines burns for you still...

I wish I knew how to forget you.

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The butterflies in the stomach.

The nervousness when am around him.

The happiness and giddiness I feel when in his presence.

The inspiration to be a better me than days past.

The need, the urge, to look and feel beautiful when he is near.

Getting tongue tied when I speak directly to him.

Him being my first thought in my waking hours & my last thought as I drift to dreamland.

Feeling a soul crushing force as he uttered," Am not interested."

Was that not love I felt?

Was that not a heartbreak I experienced?

Granted, it wasn't reciprocated, but it was love all the same.

It could've been something magical.

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Of course one gets clingy...

Have you ever been in love?

Real love?

The kind of love where upon gazing on your love interest your body goes into a kind of physiological metamorphosis...

The kind of love were the term "butterflies in your stomach" is truly understood...

The energy one gets from this love is transformative...

Were one was wrapped in a cocoon of disinterest...

Wrapped in the energy of love, one emerges with a newfound sense of purpose...

How can one not cling to such a wonderful feeling?

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When I am afforded the opportunity to be in your presence, I look at your hands.

I imagine what it would feel like caressing my face as I look up at you anticipating your kiss...

I imagine what it would feel like upon the small of my back as you draw me into you so that I may breath you in...

I've imagined them countless of times squeezing my bosoms as you thrust...

The best image of them is high up my thighs as you drive to destinations unknown...

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It is said that the first person on your mind when you awake from a slumber and the last person on your mind as you drift into dreamland is either the cause of your happiness or that of your misery.

Well in my case, 24/7 thoughts of you bring me nothing but misery. Like a wounded dog that still wags its tail at his abuser, I reach out to you...

As if that wasn't enough, you've slipped into dreams that are no longer nightmares but has become that which I am denied in reality....

In my waking hours I keep myself sane with the last true words you spoke to me, "I'm not interested."

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Dreamt of you last night.

This time was different.

Instead of passing me by...

This time you allowed me to touch you.

This time you allowed me to caress your face.

Holding you...caressing you...eventually kissing you...

In dreams we are one...

In dreams our love is so tangible I feel it upon waking...

In dreams it's no secret that I am yours and you are mines..

The nightmare was waking up to the unrequited love that is our reality.

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I can make the decision to love you for a long time....

I have made the decision to love you for a long time....

That was the easy part...

It is easy to fall in love....

Especially if we made the decision to do so together...

The hard part comes at cultivating that love....

Growing in love and maintaining that love....

Can we teach one another to love til we are in our golden ages?

More importantly, can you see yourself loving me as I love you?

Things My Exes Said // #498 Submitted by Anon

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It's a sad affair when the one your heart has chosen to love doesn't love you back.

They always say follow your heart...

True love always prevails...

Well in the movies they do...

What is one to do with this unrequited love that still resides within the heart?

One does not wish to love another...

It was your laughter...

Your smile...

Your energy...

That blossomed this love within...

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Don't... don't say nothing...

Internalize it and make beautiful poetry...

Save yourself the heartache of getting ghosted...

Save yourself from the awkward silences where there was once laughter...

Save yourself the embarrassment of being ignored in public...

Let him come to you...

Don't break traditions...

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It's been more than six months since I confessed to you

Of my love for you.

Without so much as a word or action from you

This sad heart of mines still pines for you.

In your absence

In your indifference

This heart of mines still craves you.

As the poet Mark Anthony states:

I am a dreamer,

and a badass,

and a romantic

to the bones.

I am the moon,

stars, earth,

water,

and fire.

I am fierce,

and soft,

fabulous,

and forever.

Though I am without flaws....

For like that of a Wolf

I have imprinted on you.

Like Dracula to his Mina

I have crossed oceans of time to find you.

And I am willing to wait as long as it takes to

possess those parts of you which mean the

most to me: your mind and heart.

All that I ask is that you

See me.

See me now.

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Love seems so easy when you witness other people glowing in it.

Don't try to sell me the idea of 'your time will come.' Its been years, that seems a bit much doesn't it?

Why when I choose love, love doesn't choose me?

Why when love chooses me, it's not your eyes staring back at me?

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Really?

Please don't.

Can we just enjoy each other company without getting heavy?

Love complicates thing.

Fools fall in love everyday.

Only the brave truely knows what's at stake.

Love is like pulling out a gun.

Be careful where you aim that weapon.

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For what?

Human love is too emotionally messy.

Can we get a dog instead?

They understand unconditional love.

We only play at it.

And guess what?

We're bad at it.

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Wouldn't that be nice. Then what? Break my heart into a million pieces when we come to a disagreement? Say you like me today then eventually down the line second guess your emotions? Please, spare me your emotional confusion.

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"What is magic?" she whispered in his ears. Looking into her eyes and kissing her softly on the lips he said softly, "Magic is when you fall in love with someone and see the whole universe in their eyes. Magic is when your not afraid to tell someone your in love with them. But what's really magical about it is they feel it too."

Comet Lovejoy, Cosmic Magic Wand