queenyuggoth

[queenyuggoth]

Today I woke up and drew the Queen of Wands

Now I'm holding the staff of fire and stoking the flames

My friends are all artists, and together we shine

I recline on the couch

A good book on my knee, a cooling mug of coffee beside

And I catch myself thinking

My life is full of wonder

And I love it

[queenyuggoth]

Growth is hard. Going through it is to be stuck between the past and the future, old patterns and new possibilities and realizing your potential but being held down by the results of past choices. It's discordant as all hell. So I guess the only way forward is to keep laying the foundations for Later in the very difficult Now, hoping that it will start getting easier, feel more right, as time continues to pass.

[queenyuggoth]

I'll keep this short, I know you're busy

Uhm.

If I could water the garden in your eyes

Only to pluck what grew there

Pressed them in the pages of my books

Maybe I would forget about them

But my favourite verses would still sing from the shelf

[queenyuggoth]

Here in the slow hours

Under whirring fan

The sheets summer sticky

Quiet moment beside your slumber

I think about every other night

Years past

The day distilled and the sun sinking orange

Dusty hot smell in my childhood bedroom

How I felt alone with my books

And spent time with dragons' teeth

And how somewhere in the decades you were waiting

The small space before settling into bed

AM radio, sing me to sleep

-Annie MK, 2024

[queenyuggoth]

I'm only as pretty as my girlfriend tells me I am

Internet tgirls boosting pics into heaven with hearts and awe

Here I sit on the ground, looking for a little validation

But I'm not a hyper-fem

My body wants to remind me at every turn

"You were born a man, and you'll have to fight to feel right."

Hair sprouts, junk bulge, face coarse, bones big

Can't take a razor without a spreading burn

I don't think I'll ever look like them

Petite and hairless, genetically gifted

Could be a filter, but no one is sifting

Everyone tells them

You're such a cutie :3

Rainbow of hair and a dress dripping sexy

Skin on display like a manic pixie

It's hard to compare, harder to not

I don't have long hair or a soft, curved complexion

Womanhood is not something you wear or

Should even have to earn

I shouldn't have to present to pass their inspection

But the airwaves are toxic, a constant feedback loop

They're all just as desperate to be seen

To be told they're pretty, they're doing it right

But the girls with heart shaped faces catch all the love

And I look like a cross-dresser, six feet and above

-Annie MK 2024

[queenyuggoth]

Brain Food

As I slow down a little

I see more and more 

Of the magic infused

Green tenacity, blue expanse 

Little used lives in bright brittle 

Of ignorance, I'll refuse

Precision in witchcraft I hone to be sharpest

The measure of practice meets all demand 

The stunted wrathful come armed

They club at the walls of home

I eat more brainfood, lift brainy weights

Run a whole brain marathon 

Faster is better, stronger is best

I'll summon the spirits of the vines

And spread rampant through their garden 

All in good time 

-Annie MK 2024