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as a dancer, etoile being cancelled (after being greenlit for two seasons) feels practically personal. as if they're saying "there isn't room for you" in the mainstream (about something like ballet, which is so mainstream it's ludicrous), and therefore they're taking it away from us. i realize non dancers probably weren't super interested in this show, but i was. and I know surely other dancers were too. good dance tv content is so hard to find. this was like being given a delicious cupcake, then punched in the gut after eating it and laughed at.

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just witnessed s8 ep 22 "dreams" for the first time and yeah on a scale of "harmless silly haha mash episode" to "the implications and existential dread of this will break you" this one ranks a high 11/10. deeply solid unsettling television.

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ok...your move, Greg Rucka. old guard: fade away now please 🖐️

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trailer so good it pulled me out of a 9 month writing slump

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if i had a nickel for every time my favorite member of a band was the drummer with the higher-pitched voice and crazy vocal talent, i'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happened twice

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screaming, throwing myself out of a window for andy + nile, blowing up a truck for the immortal gays, growing my HAIR OUT FOR THE GANG??? who can say what will happen in 3 months!!! i don't know!!!

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genuinely i believe if M*A*S*H had come out during the height of tumblr fandom, it would beat out even supernatural because there's Truly a gif for every situation possible built in to this show. truly the most show of all time.

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no i love m*a*s*h! one episode goes "ha ha hee hee" and the next episode slaps down a good ol' "wow the arm of american imperialism is really fucked ain't it"

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+ and you'll have moved to new york city partially because of these dumb kids inspiring the shit outta you and you'll go to college there and fall out with your broadway dreams a bit but you're still here in the city post-graduation and you're like wow it's been over 10 years and somehow i'm here and that's crazy

what they don't tell you about seeing newsies in 2013 at the age of 12 is that when they say newsies forever second to none during the finale it isn't just a lyric it's a curse and more than a decade later you'll be on your computer looking at pictures of characters you saw for the first time more than a decade ago. in 2013. and still be thinking ough i just love them so much i don't know what to do about it. and it's because you saw newsies in 2013 at the age of 12. over a decade ago.

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it's been an honor manifesting this with y'all i am literally shaking upon the revelation that i was somehow correct and we're getting it

going into 2025 with the absolute, utmost confidence that it will be old guard 2 year

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going into 2025 with the absolute, utmost confidence that it will be old guard 2 year

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[this got incredibly long winded about like nothing i'm so sorry??? no need to read it in full lmao idk what good juicy info there is in here anyway]

legitimately it's been SO long LMAO but lemme see what little i remember in the heat of the moment ... so I wasn't actually on Tumblr yet, and i'd been a starkid fan for only a few months at that point. most of my interactions with the fandom were based purely in instagram and some very embarrassing wattpad fics I can't divulge the details of for the sole reason of some things just need to stay between me and my limited use of wattpad.

(((and also i realize I said july in the initial post, it was fully june through august.)))

i'd been watching tin can skits for a minute because I was kinda obsessed with Brian for a moment (idk i was 14 also he's great let's ALL be honest) so when they announced this musical's internet release I was SO damn excited because firebringer hadn't come out yet so it'd been a bit since we'd gotten new starkid content, and I was again, very very new, so this was like an intervening divine gift. (by that point I had already worked my way through the entire catalog of starkid content.) anyway backstory aside here's some fun facts about the upload schedule and the general vibes as best as I can recall.

the first upload was part 1 and part 2, so naturally we all thought ok it's gonna upload two parts at once each week. WRONG. these jokers uploaded one part per week for the next months (MONTHS) EXCEPT act 2 pt 6 and 7, thank god, which nowadays everyone's like well that's not a big deal! it was only a week wait! girls (gays and theys) these parts are in like 15 minute segments if not shorter it was HELL.

I wasn't so much theorizing as spewing a lot of again, mostly incredibly embarrassing comments on every single act. i was actively losing my mind in all of these comments, I've looked back on them to respond to this and it's actively killing me. who let 14 year olds be loose on the internet.

a lot of the thrill for me mostly came from 1) getting to be a part of something like this in it's initial release stages (even though I did not get to watch the livestream they did during the release of act 2 pt 6 and 7 unfortunately I probably was busy being a teenager) and 2) getting to read other people's comments as each part came out. some people had gotten to see it live and they'd be like "during my show ___" and other people were doing more theorizing than I was capable of. the twist legitimately got me, i'm not gonna lie, owen's reveal was INSANE and frankly it still gets me every time i rewatch it.

pretty much every time a part came out I watched it immediately. I remember the final parts being dropped while I was at my grandparents and having to watch it and not scream because there were other people in the house. the end all be all of it for me as someone who wasn't super active in the fandom was that i got to BE there while it was released. and then ofc the cast album release was a whole other thing that i was super pumped for because obviously this entire musical slaps (I do not remember if it came out before or after the youtube release at this point, but that's neither here nor there).

anyway if i ever think of anything where i actually Was theorizing...I'll update lmao i honestly can't remember anything super specific but i think it's important to mention i was a gravity falls fan as well right before this time so I wouldn't be surprised if I Was in my head and just forgot. or saw any posts from anyone else (debatable given my limited online scope at that point).

showed my roommate SAF last night and was instantly whiplashed by the reminder that 8 years ago i watched this thing come out live over the course of July-Aug of 2016. truly nothing compares to the absolute insanity of being there for every upload of each new part and watching the story slowly unfold.

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showed my roommate SAF last night and was instantly whiplashed by the reminder that 8 years ago i watched this thing come out live over the course of July-Aug of 2016. truly nothing compares to the absolute insanity of being there for every upload of each new part and watching the story slowly unfold.

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fellow mischief fans....who's gonna give me access to mmni ..... archive no longer has it as we all know and i suddenly dearly wish to find the full episodes because youtube compilations are great but they are not Nearly enough

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if i had a nickel for every time a queer couple ended up binding their souls together forever by dying to save the universe, i'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happened twice

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All I have to say regarding Bob Bryar’s death:

Bob Bryar’s rightwing spiraling was likely due to the fact that he needed psychiatric help and did not receive any. It’s kinda fucked up that he was dead close to a month and nobody noticed. He contributed greatly to meaningful, life-changing works of art, and will always be remembered for this.

However, his racism and other -phobic statements hurt a lot of vulnerable people, and neither his mental health struggles nor his work with My Chemical Romance excuse any of his bigotry. His words were especially heinous given that he was part of a subculture which claims to value diversity and the protection of marginalized groups.

We can/should acknowledge it is sad Bob Bryar did not receive the help he clearly needed, especially within a community which centers itself around mental health activism, but also can/should acknowledge that it was not this community’s responsibility to de-radicalize, and especially not to forgive, Bob Bryar. It is perfectly reasonable for people to both think there is a degree of sadness to his loss, and simultaneously condemn him for his actions.

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danger days haters DNI how tf do you hear party poison, planetary go, and na na na and still become a hater. do you not know how to dance and party and have whimsy and joy in your soul