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do you guys even know how much i love my till fictive? i want him to be real, now. i think about him constantly. i love him so much. i can’t wait for him to become real in my mind. i wish i could hold him now. i have to affirm more so he can become my headmate faster.

i feel so, so fondly towards him. i wonder if anyone else feels this way towards alters they’re trying to form.. transprogrammers hit me up if you’re willing to help me form alters heheh…

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how should we use your sub to get the best results? like how often should we listen to it and such?

any amount of time is enough. i personally like to loop my subs in the background.

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yuki’s transdid subliminal. use with caution.

it’s finally finished. 17 pages of affirmations, days of work, and a lot of persisting. this includes changing your past to have trauma of being m0l3s7ed, r4p3d, b347en to a point of near death, and other trauma that would cause severe and debilitating DID. this was very much a passion protect for me, and i thank all of you who helped me with it.

you can listen here.

please let me know of any results. affirmations are written in a scientific, second person formula, including present and past tense. i am overjoyed with how this came out. i do have to say, my mental health has worsened since making it, so it is working.

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R u ok?

yes .. i’m so sorry for my absence. i’ve been having a hard time mentally .

in honesty i’m desperate to become a system faster. i don’t think i can take this. i wish i had someone to program/brainwash me into having my desired alters but alas, if you want something done, you must do it yourself.

even so, i’m so lonely. i wish i had my alters. i feel so sad and empty.

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child with did begs alter to save them while in the ambulance knowing they are heading to the same morgue .

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transdid update — day ?

i’ve decided my best route is to make my own subliminal to develop did, and my desired alters; as well as past revision + neurology affirmations. i’m posting here to ask if there’s anything specific i should add, that may help me develop did faster.

for the formula i’m using it’s second person affirmations that follow the theme of “after this audio you—“ and such. i’ve made subliminals for quite some time, but never for something so complex. if you have any tips on this, please let me know. i will link the audio here for those who are also in this transition when i am done.

that’s all. thank you.

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hello sorry for my absence everyone. i am being billed 119$ by apple because i have bad eyesight and thought i was purchasing another month of nitro… who wants to be kind and send me a gift card with 119$ (JOKE) .

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Never thought I'd find myself saying this, but congrats on the dissociation!

And good luck with the rest of your transition, too. I hope it goes how you want.

i’m glad you approve. thank you, anon. while it seems strange, it makes me happy. i understand the implications of the disorder, and all it entails. i have much respect for the people with it, genuinely.

dissociation comes in bouts that lasts a few hours at a mild level for me. hopefully, with time, it will worsen. i think it’s about what the average person experiences currently, maybe a little more.

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transdid transition — day 4 .

today was a great day. not because it was good, but because i was finally starting to dissociate. it was uncomfortable, not fun, and everything i wanted it to be. despite popular belief, i’m not trying to transition to did for the alters, i’m actually quite fond of the other aspects of it as well. though, the companionship is a huge motivator, i won’t lie.

while making dinner for my family, i couldn’t understand what i was reading. i was reading it over and over and not understanding a thing. this thing i was supposed to boil in water— i put it on the chicken i was baking. my head hurt so bad. i was also noticing changes in my vision— that i don’t know quite how to explain. it was definitely an experience.

i requested from a BAH blog, i hope i’ll hear from them soon.,. it’s 12 am now, i should rest. i’ll affirm and go to sleep now.

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Saw you asking for transition tips so here I am to provide!

All I personally have on the plurality front is talking to random thoughts you have that sound like something a desired headmate would say as if they are that headmate, though I could find posts others have made with better advice if you want.

As for forcing yourself to dissociate, this post (https://www.tumblr.com/tridc0llectr/763735347634012160) has some good advice and I'd also recommend trying staring at your reflection for prolonged periods of time because that works for some people.

thank you so much. the dissociative tip post was incredibly helpful. i’ll pair it with the subliminals i already listen to and let you know. it’s genuinely one of the most straight-forward posts i’ve seen— i struggle with ambiguity.

if you have any more in depth, or just theories about forming alters, i’d love to hear. i’ve been in the tulpamancy space for years and had yet to successfully create one. hopefully though, with practicing dissociation, i’ll have less mental barriers!

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is till your only planned headmate , or do you have others planned ? do you have ideal sys count to reach eventually or js going until ur comfy ??

no need to answer if you dont wanna !!

i don’t mind at all. i’m actually quite fond of talking about my transdid journey. till…. where do i start… originally, he wasn’t even the alter i was going to start with— i didn’t even plan on having an alter of him. after watching his source media though his character touched a piece of my heart, really. i feel a sort of longing towards him that’s like— “i love you and i miss you.” i just felt like he was meant to be my alter, and me his,,, is that too corny?

besides that, i’ve scripted him to help with my transanorexia. i weigh around 92 lbs the last i checked but i’d like to lose a little more,, unfortunately i don’t have the will power. my tilly ……. i wish my tilly was in my head already so i could hold him and cry on his shoulder. i feel so sweetly towards him. i have more things planned out for his role & similar too.

ideal system number? maybe… four? that way, when i learn, i can sink into dissociation for days and know everyone will be okay, like a well oiled machine. once i figure out how to dissociate on a disordered level i definitely will be choosing to be gone more often than not. four would still leave three people available should anything come up that someone else couldn’t handle. i worry about my alters even if they aren’t even here yet lol. (though, i also wouldn’t mind if our system grew by itself, i’m okay with that as well.)

i love answering asks so thank you so much for sending one! hopefully i will learn how to dissociate soon …

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Permahospitalized

permahospitalized: A transid where someone believes they should be put into a hospital and permanently hospitalized- wether it is for a medical reason or not.

Permainstitutionalized

permainstitutionalized: A transid where someone believes they should be put into a mental institution and and be permanently institutionalized- wether for a mental problem or not.

I just posted some permahospitalized tips!!

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transdid & transchinese transition — day 3

hello again! i don’t know if i can even say i’m transitioning to chinese anymore because literally everyone accepts me as a waisan 😭 i just told everyone i am chinese and they were okay w/ it. (including my girlfriend FROM vietnam. she’s chinese & vietnamese and just accepted it when i told her?!? lol??!!) i’m more so trying to get monolids and a flatter face these days… did i mention i’m transED… till is going to help me with that one.

where should i start. i felt very out of it all day. the kind of out of it when you don’t take your medication and start having withdrawal, you know? my vision was going dark— i had this horrible feeling in my eyes like they were dry when they weren’t. i haven’t affirmed anything yet, but i’ll be making an affirmation tape affirming that i am a system & have my desired alters, that i dissociate and have flashbacks, yadda yadda.

i found a few blogs that look promising since i’m transabused + transharmed. i’m too shy to reach out, though.

would you guys like to know more about me at all? or my alters i’m trying to form? i get pretty bored so feel free to send asks, ESPECIALLY tips on forming alters if you have them.

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‧₊ 𐔌 Transplural Tips & Ideas <3 ˚｡⋆୨୧

You heard me, I'm gonna do what nobody's done before... and by that I mean plenty of people have done it before. But that's besides the point! <3 This post is a buuunch of tips about furthering your progression into plurality from start to finish, from a cisplural + cisDID! These are all just ideas though, and none of it is mandatory; you're still just as plural even if you don't do any of these things! <33

Note that this is a very, VERY long read, framed to help you further understand and form your system. It can also be used by cisplurals / severity-plurals! This post includes: general tips to encourage progress, how to recognize and help alters form, inspiration for fleshing out fragments, tips for creating your headspace, and more!

I. General Tips!

⊹˖ ⤑ Affirmations, affirmations, affirmations. It might not seem like it, but your mind can do a lot of things just with the power of suggestion, and the language you use affects you deeply!! No saying things like "I want to be a system" -- be more specific; "I want my headspace to be more fleshed out", "I want my sysmates to be more distinct", etc. This not only helps you get clear goals set that you can actually work towards, but it also helps to convince your brain that you're a system.

⊹˖ ⤑ Avoid negative language and fakeclaiming. Similarly to the above, you need to use affirmations that help convince your brain. Negative language tells your brain those negative thoughts; I go into a little detail about this more here, but essentially, don't use negative language when discussing your transition! Even if you're feeling like your transition is going too slowly, using sarcasm with positive language will still trick your brain that you're being positive. Think of every time you fakeclaim yourself or call yourself a singlet or whatnot as five steps back; in order to make up for doing it once, you have to do a whole lot more of affirming to make up for it! This is to say that it isn't impossible to transition if you're very negative, but you will see more progress faster if you try to avoid it.

⊹˖ ⤑ Find a plural community to help affirm you. There are plenty of discord servers and tumblr communities centered around plurality. Find one and introduce yourself as a system -- not a "questioning system", not a "transitioning system", but as a system. This will help you affirm your identity more, as people will see and treat you as a system, and you can still ask for tips regarding helping your system form!

⊹˖ ⤑ Do research into different forms of plurality, how they manifest, and how they form! Do research into various -genic types, and see which one feels right to you. And if multiple feel right, you can always have multiple, or have different ones for different alters! You can find plenty of resources into helping you understand and mimic various ways of system creation if you know what to search for; try looking into endogenic systems, western tulpamancy, median systems, and seeing what you think might work for you! However remember that your system is your own -- It’s okay if you don’t have clear switches, distinct voices, or a headspace that’s easy to visualize. Many systems are subtle, blurry, or co-conscious, and none of that makes you any less of a system!!

II. Headmate Formation!

⊹˖ ⤑ When you first start off, it might be easier to notice different alters based on when your headspace changes (your actual mood and behavior -- not the inner world!). Don't force them, but notice them. Start by paying attention: any thoughts that might seem out of the blue, sudden shifts in your emotion, any habits that feel unfamiliar... Try to ask yourself if this is you or someone else! This is true for all systems, not just transplurals; I do this a lot when fronting to check if I'm alone in front.

⊹˖ ⤑ Give these changes names! It doesn't have to be a permanent name, but recognize them as a different person (or at least a different facet of you, if you believe in the "parts of a whole" formation). Over time, try to flesh them out; triggers can be things that put you into that mindset, interests can be things that you often engage with during that mindset, things like that! These are fragments, but they can form into full alters over time.

⊹˖ ⤑ When you recognize that this is happening, log it! Personally I use SimplyPlural ("SP"), but you can also use Octo-con (although SP is far more common, octo is mostly used by antis). You can also track this in any notes apps, journals, etc, communicate with alters, keep track of alters, organize alters, and more! Both are compatible with the discord app PluralKit ("PK") too. Some systems use Tupperbox, but I prefer PluralKit personally since it can easily be synced with SimplyPlural. You can use SimplyPlural on both mobile and desktop! I'll also be making a different post full of my SimplyPlural organization for those who want to get extra fancy with it, however this is just up to personal preference

⊹˖ ⤑ Try to communicate with your sysmate. At first you might need to put on a "mask" of sorts to do so, to try to give them a voice, but over time this will come easier as they settle in and find their own identity. You can do this also by letting them communicate with others; let them sign off on posts or messages they send with a specific "proxy" (either their name or an emoji), let them create a separate sideblog on Tumblr, let them use their own PluralKit or Tupper bot -- all of these are fantastic ways to help find what makes them them!

III. Fleshing out Fragments!

⊹˖ ⤑ The next step, once you've started to recognize fragments / facets, is to look into different types of alters. There are some common alter types that pop up frequently (please note that most of these descriptions are based in what they do for your system, but this may not be true of all alters of these types; along with this, there are plenty more not listed):

A) "Littles", which are children, usually needing cared for. These alters usually have the job of holding feelings of childhood, be it good or bad, and seeking out care and attention. Some systems have many of these; some have very few, if any at all.

B) Nonhumans, which can be animals or monsters. They usually hold feelings of being dehumanized, be it by reclaiming it or holding those negative feelings associated with it.

C) Religious alters are very common as well, be it an introject with a religious source, or an alter who believes they are a deity, angel, priest, demon, etc. These usually form to either help guide the system with religious endeavors, hold opinions and trauma about religion, or express some other facet caused by religion.

D) Introjects, which you've probably heard of if you're reading this. They can be from fictional media, internet personalities, friends, family, history, or anything else you can possibly think of. These are incredibly common, and often overlap with the above types, too! It is common for systems to have multiple introjects with the same source or source character, and it is also common for alters to form with the appearance of a character or person without actually being associated with their source.

⊹˖ ⤑ Some roles are more common in systems than others; the most basic are protectors, persecutors, gatekeepers, hosts, and littles. You can find a whole host of potential roles for alters on Pluralpedia, if you're looking for inspiration. There's a lot here; if you're trying to see if a term has already been made, then you can also join the Pluralpedia Discord Server, which has channels exclusively dedicated towards helping you find the system terms you're looking for!

⊹˖ ⤑ So, more on introjects -- the most common types are those which are sourced from a fictional character, content creator, or someone you know. But that's not actually all! Introjects can be sourced from ANYTHING that you get inspiration from. Locations, mythology, colors, songs, artwork -- anything you can think of! If you want specific words for every kind of introject, Pluralpedia has you covered for that, too; however the most common ones that I see are "fictive" (from a fictional media), "factive" (from a factional source), "godtive" (an introject of a god, also sometimes just labelled as an introject), and "songtive" (an introject from a song). Alters can also have multiple sources, so go absolutely ham!

⊹˖ ⤑ You need more inspiration for fleshing out alters? Go to Pinterest and look for artwork or characters that you like, and use those as inspiration and faceclaims for your sysmates. What shows or games do you like? Make your favorite characters that you relate to. You have OCs? Make them! I would also highly recommend searching through "Build-A-Headmate" (BAH) blogs, and seeing what fits your fragments! Picrew, Gacha, or other avatar apps can also be a great way to visualize your sysmates.

⊹˖ ⤑ Let your sysmates do things without your opinions or preferences seeping in as much as possible. This might be a sideblog full of only things they like, or maybe a Pinterest board exclusively for them, or their own playlist! A little can go a long way.

⊹˖ ⤑ Filling out their SP profiles, if you did that, can also help differentiate them as individuals! You can search for SimplyPlural templates for custom fields and folders, go to the SimplyPlural discord and view what people have shared in it, look at "OC templates" or "About Me" templates and see what people add to theirs, or anything else for inspiration! Like I said above, I'll be making my own post or doc of how I organize mine for those who want it.

IV. Headspace Creation!

⊹˖ ⤑ This one is a bit tricky, because it takes a lot of work. When you're first starting out, it might be best to make your headspace a place you know very well; maybe that's your house, your home base in a video game, or a fictional world that you have memorized very well. This can be changed and edited later, but it will help with visualizing it while you're getting started! Alternatively, it can be a small space that is incredibly simple; the important part is that you can try to imagine this space. I would highly recommend doing some form of mindfulness and meditation practices, as these will help you focus more and clear your head!

⊹˖ ⤑ Once you have that down, and you can easily and quickly imagine this space, you can start "editing" it. Don't rush this! While it may be very easy for some, it can take a long time for others, and rushing it will make you feel disheartened if it goes wrong. It's better to underestimate your abilities in this regard than to overestimate yourself! Try to add small details. For example, if your headspace is your house, try to imagine an object that you don't own in real life, and add it within your headspace. An example might be a lamp, a rug, or a stuffed animal; start small and simple. The next time you visualize or enter your headspace, see if that item is there. Try your best to visualize it as being there, until it becomes permanent.

⊹˖ ⤑ Once you can easily make edits such as this, you can start expanding the areas inside your headspace and make more major changes. This is where the fun part comes in! Your headspace can be anything you want, as long as you ease yourself into it. You can start the planning stage whenever you want, as long as you don't try to rush yourself with the process of fulfilling those plans.

V. Planning and Visualizing your Headspace!

⊹˖ ⤑ Okay, not that snappy of a title, but this is the fun part. Planning your headspace! I think Mindly is a great app for this if you're in the beginning aspects of planning -- finding out what areas you need, before actually linking them together or fleshing them out. Consider it a skeleton of sorts! You can also do this with common note-taking apps like Milanote or Obsidian too. Regular notes with a sort of "checklist" can be helpful, too.

⊹˖ ⤑ So, what areas does your headspace "need"? This is obviously up to you, but the basics include a "front room", individual houses or rooms for each alter, and a general lounging area. From here, you can go anywhere! A hotel, a campsite, a liminal space, a fantasy world, a college campus, a suburb -- all of it is entirely up to your system, and can be personalized (and changed)!

⊹˖ ⤑ Now that you know what areas you're trying to create, you can start visualizing it properly (or if you're not very fond of rough drafts, you can just skip to this step too, lol). The most common ways to make your headspace are with image dumps such as Pinterest boards, which are easily sorted and can have notes attached, or with proper building games, such as Animal Crossing, the Sims, Minecraft, etcetera depending on what kind of headspace you are looking for. Really, any worldbuilding simulator can work, so go crazy! If you're looking for fantasy maps, I can recommend Inkarnate; and if you can't find anything, you can always make a map from scratch on paper or with a drawing app.

VI. Other Useful Tips and Links!

⊹˖ ⤑ Transtrauma tips by @.neelacstraw

⊹˖ ⤑ Headspace / Wonderland tips by @.sophieinwonderland

⊹˖ ⤑ Transplural/DID/OSDD/etc Subs (Youtube)

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transdid transition — day 2

hi everyone 👋 as of right now, i have no updates. i’m going to make a subliminal to worsen trauma/have traumatic memories. that’s about it. in the future maybe i’ll find someone to help me hypnotize myself since it’s always been something i wanted to try— but for now, we have subliminals!

i am extremely fond of till even though he hasn’t even formed yet. no clue why, just am. i thought that was worth mentioning. should i add on here i’m transasian? that’s important too, i think. i’m transitioning to chinese as we speak…

tips & asks appreciated — 🪽

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Im alright, hru?

good! about to start listening to my subliminals after i start this laundry. 🫡 stay on that transdid grind

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:o Fellow 17yo transDIDer, hi!

omg hello! so glad there’s more of us out there. i get embarrassed about my age, really. how are you, anon??