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Accidentally woke up at 6:20 today instead of 5:40. Man that felt good🥲

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Dream photoshoot

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Me with my overflowing trinkets barely fitting my room

Me on my way to make bad financial decisions 🐛🛍️✨

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Chihayafuru has shown me shown how random sports manga can be

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I FUCKING HATE MY TEACHER UGHH

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I don’t know if it’s me being a heartless bitch but I can’t really feel sort of the love between shima and mitsumi.

Maybe it’s my lack of comprehension skills, I just don’t really root for their relationship. I like them as separate characters and the development that they go through but for them to be in a relationship doesn’t feel like the right choice (for now at least).

Which is why I like that it shows them breaking up because they’re not in the same stage of maturity and how they perceive love. So while I do like how Shima is sort having moment of realisation right now, I still don’t see it as enough for Mitsumi.

CUS MY GIRL IS SO AMAZING AND DESERVES ONLY THE BEST SORRY SHIMA YOU WERE A TERRIBLE BOYFRIEND😭😭

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Give me a bunch of manga/manhwa/just stories in general guys. Something interesting and with relatively good art please. 🙏🙏🙏

Tropes I like: arranged marriages, strong female characters, simpy men, morally grey characters, friends to lovers, historical fiction in general, cute romances

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Ah Duo lowkey has one of the most frustrating situations you would be in. Imagine being the milk sibling of the crown prince and he makes you his wife even though you dream of leaving the palace and becoming a merchant. But I guess it’s okay because he seems to love you (?) and who are you to refuse a prince.

BUT THEN YOU LOSE YOUR WOMB GIVING BIRTH. You’re considered useless for the time period and you’re constantly in fear for your child’s life after seeing the treatment you received during your birth. But it’s okay your son is alive and the crown prince still loves you (ig) and keeps you as his wife despite your inability to bear more children.

You make a decision to swap your babies with your mother in law and she agrees. But the boy in your hands now has died, having formed a deep connection over the months spent together despite him not being your son. You carry this guilt of being grateful that it wasn’t your son who suffered his fate.

You and the crown prince more or less become more like friends than lovers and you live out the rest of your days in the inner court, forever confined inside, only being able to see your child from a distance.

Your husband is now the emperor but you’re not the empress. He has started taking other consorts and you just want to leave as you see your duties to already be done. Then your grown son now becomes a “eunuch” in the palace. To see him almost everyday but not being able to treat him like a son and tell him that you’re his mother.

Everyone in courts seems to want you out, seeing you as a useless consort who can’t bear children and somehow you’re content with the idea of leaving. Your son is safe and you finally leave, yet somehow still chained to your previous life.

It’s a life no one can escape.

Even in the light novels it’s clear that the emperor still hold some sort of affection towards Ah-Duo, but I just know she must feel like a caged bird, forever forced to play role she did not want or believe she wasn’t born to fulfill.

And now she’ll stop it from happening again to her son and Maomao. Even if it means having Yang break his promise to her. Hell, he broke the first one so why not break the second one. Just to make sure her son could be happy. 😭😭😭

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Guys please are there any Lady Ah-Duo lovers here???? Im so lonely in this fandom like discuss moree 🙏🙏🙏🙏

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Finally started reading yakuza fiance and having a moral crisis. I usually HATE MLs who sleep with other women while claiming to love/like FLs especially if they’re dating.

This is not the case with yakuza fiance. Tbh, I don’t care that Kirishima is sleeping with other girls because frankly Yoshino doesn’t give a rat’s ass what he does. He is shown to sleep around with many girls while continuing to professing his love to Yoshino but it hasn’t given me a major ick somehow. Like yeah it is kinda icky but it hasn’t stopped me from continuing to read when I usually would drop the story if the guy was a douche. Kinda interesting which is probably also due to the storyline and characterisation.

Most FLs who experience these always pretend to not be bothered and cry alone but I think with Yoshino’s unenthusiastic approach to their relationship, it has allowed me to enjoy the story, action, and sorta “groveling/begging” Kirishima does. It’s funny seeing a mafia yakuza guy say the shit he does.

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It’s sad loosing your love for a subject you would’ve died for in the past because of a different teacher. Makes me feel like I wasn’t that good to begin with.

*Side note, this still hasn’t lessened my hatred, anger, and annoyance at my new teacher. Fuck you for ruining this subject for me����

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The pain of liking characters/fandoms with so little canon info AND fanon content. I’m starving with the minuscule amount of crumbs I get😔

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How devoted do you have to be in reading a fanfic until you google translate it because the author translates their foreign work but publishes every 2 weeks😔

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Lowkey need a good cry session or rage room session

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How unhappy should you be to go to a therapist? Like is a few weeks of unhappiness enough of a reason to go to a therapist? I’ve been experiencing a surge of unhappiness every few months for a few years but then usually it goes back to normal. This time feels more stressful, idk why.

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Just started watching JJK and the way itadori ate sukuna’s finger is so goofy

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