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the best thing about being a dog is adding “puppy” as an adjective to anything I do. I puppy persevere, sometimes i am in puppy peril , I puppy party with my friends , I puppy purchase small trinkets and treats . It’s the best adjective ever !!!!!

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Posting this to remember that I can totally draw sometimes ,. It’s super old so I might try to draw more AWDs !! Realizing I only draw and doodle puppies 😚

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I think it’s very interesting to see the labels that the lesbian community uses !! I don’t know if I fit in either femme or lesbian tbh , is there any fun little quizzes that I could take ?

I am nonbinary so I think that’s a big reason why I don’t see myself as either , but I guess I’m more masc ? I mean I don’t do girly stuff but I’m not exactly masculine ? I’m not sure it really matters but I’d love to find a label that fits me through the lesbian community :3

Chat what do we think ?

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scrolling thru the rp tag and saw your post, and. dude i feel the same way like istg, server hopping just ain’t the same as it used to be back then (esp back during the pandemic). a LOT of servers nowadays are so serious w/ things like age verification (which understandable when it comes to nsfw roleplays), but istg, i haven’t stayed in a modern rp server for any longer than a week or two. 😭 like bro i just wanna play dolls and have our ocs kiss or do some silly worldbuilding!!! it doesn’t have to be serious all the time!!

REAL !! so many servers are full of lore and long ass character templates you have to fill, and strict rules for face claims. like bro i like building a story but why is everything so strict and serious !! and then they cant even roleplay half the time, its just boring and makes me feel like roleplaying has died :C

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are we even 12 on the playground anymore?

I have so many roleplay/comic ideas about animals but i dont have anyone to world build with . I miss being in middle school and being able to ramble about whatever animal characters i was making up in my head. WHERE ARE THE WARRIOR CAT KIDS?? WOLF KIDS?? HORSE GIRLS?? who never grew out of it and now need to write little edgy blurbs about animals.

i would literally sell my soul for anyone to ramble about my wips with

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Bite me to the core

Haii !! 

i am 20 years old !! my birthday is on june 22nd 

Im nonbinary and use they/them and it/its pronouns !! i havent found a label that i enjoy for my sexuality so for now i am simply queer. 

Both of my parents are from mexico , so i am a first generation immigrant ! spanish is my first language but i have been fluent in english since i was 5. 

I am currently going to college and majoring in english ! hoping to be a teacher :D

I am a certified puppy girl , so expect nonsensical posting at times lol.

I enjoy a lot of different things such as -

 Games - overwatch, minecraft, vintage story, ark, rimworld, ranch of rivershine, roblox, wolfquest

Anime - JJK, The Summer Hikaru Died, Madoka Magica, OHSHC, Sakamoto Days, Dandadan, Blue Excorcist, When the cicadas cry

Shows - Law and Order SVU, bobs burgers, abbott elementary, surviving summer, green leaf, adventure time, over the garden wall, 

Musicals - hamilton and heathers

Other - sanrio characters (pompompurin is my fav!), calico critters, dogs, hermit crabs, books by mary higgins clark, apples (obvi), werewolves !!

MDNI - this blog may contain NSFW elements such as smut, gore, and cursing !! I will also discuss mental health and symptoms, if that is triggering to you please avoid this blog <3

Asks - open ! please ask me stuff !! 

DMS - open ! feel free to message me, i love making new friends

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Happy 29th Birthday ₊˚⭐️

⊹₊⟡⋆🍮⭐️ Pompompurin!⭐️🍮⋆⟡₊⊹ :*:·\(￣▽￣)/·:*·°★*　

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desired reality

worst part about being a weird gay teen? never writing the fanfiction you wanted at the time and regretting it as an adult. im thinking about beginning to write copious amounts of gay porn to cope. i also want to explore gender identities through my writing... hmm lots to think about. chat should i write short stories that include - weird gender expressions, coping through toxic relationships, codependency, body horror, gore, weird world perceptions, and being gay? and would you guys read it >///<

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Reversal Roles

As a kid i used to only want to play house if we could just be a normal family. I never wanted to play natural disasters or war or any sort of struggle. I only wanted to play mommy and daddy love me, i succeed and the world is okay. But now as an adult i tend to consume media that shows a lot of angst because its relatable. I like seeeing characters go through something similar becayse it makes me feel less alone. its almost like i couldnt escape the chaos before it consumed me and i became accustomed to it. so now i seek it out in everyone because its all i know, but there was a time i could see a brighter future soemhwere. there was a time i wanted to play house.

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Summer Death and Rebirth.

I have been watching and reading 'The Summer Hikaru Died' and it makes me so saddd. I relate so heavily to Yoshiki and "Hikaru" both !!

Yoshiki hanging onto the only thing that makes him feel anything through his haze of depression is a feeling i can relate to so deeply. He does not care that "Hikaru" hurts him because even that is better than feeling numb and asleep. The fact that he waited 6 months before saying anything really cements how depressed he is and how desperately he needs this. Hikaru not knowing how to be a human, wanting to kill everyone around him but being unable to do so because of his love of Yoshiki??? like damn.... idk it reminds me of me in highschool when i was in a very toxic and unhealthy relationship , it scratches the itch in my brain for a toxic doomed yaoi.

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if you wanna go far, you gotta go far

me : i sure would like to gain online friends and make more posts about my thoughts and ideas

also me : *has not posted since early july*

WHOOPS

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Sometimes I draw stuff and sometimes I like it :3

I’ve been playing a lot of wolf quest lately so this is slightly inspired by it !! I might draw some of my wolves and their stories , idk yet if I have the motivation to do it lol

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I am all seeing and un-knowing. paradoxical posting.

Having BPD is such a weird thing. i grew up in a community that promotes self-love and being soft with your mental health, which i can see being helpful for some people. but this fed into my belief that i was not mentally ill because i did not hate myself and i did not suffer from any symptoms that made me seem small and fragile. i am loud, brash, and constantly trying to lead conversations into getting as much attention as i can.

then i went to therapy and learned that not only do i have a mental illness , it is seen as the Bad People Illness. I could not believe it. I was always the victim , how could I be a bad person? Further more how could i be suffering from these symptoms if i have always been so self-aware and smart? after all, many of my friends came to me for help with their issues and I was the most capable to help them. How could i need help? Its been a struggle to realize I do have symptoms of BPD. I do constantly look for attention, I do play the victim, and I do hurt other people with my actions. I cant help but think that this is the opposite of the "mental health" positive space i grew up in. this space frowns upon negative thinking and promotes loving all of your flaws which can feed into the superiority complex that can come with BPD. Idk I am going through a mental health journey and i have many thoughts and rambles to go along with it.

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Mounting Hashtags, Labels, and Words

When I was younger i really tried to create a person out of stapling together labels and words I identified with. I found myself latching on to anything that could explain who I was and make me fit into communities. I think this also expanded into me latching onto mental illnesses that I think I had and trying to use them to make up for a lack of personality and self identity. It was much easier to say "Hi I am PTSD ADHD CPTSD Depression and anxiety." then having to say my own name and own up to that. being a concept is much easier than being a person who has consequences that go along with their actions. I think that the further I delve into who I am and meeting myself for the first time, the more appetizing it is to add labels and adjectives to myself. I have been working on living in the moment and not in this fantasy land where suffering equates a personality. A problem I have encountered is using the same method with my issues. It feels so right to take something small and pile on things until it becomes a giant issue I can be the victim of. It holds me back in many ways because I find it easier to list of issues then to stop and try to fix them one by one. It is insane how mental diseases affect the way people see the world and themselves. I find myself looking at my actions and being able to breakdown what I am doing and where it comes from.

Idk this is just me rambling and trying to be better at writing out my thoughts. i think ultimately it is a good thing to be aware of who i truly am and I am working on being a better person.

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Creation

I have been debating creating an account on social media to actually post my thoughts and feelings for so long. I think the only reason I have not done it yet is because I was battling the internal shame of being perceived for so long. But! I am no longer afraid to post and express myself :3. hopefully I will actually use this and not just log off and disappear lol.