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The pain of being an Arab myself and understand how destructive our own people are to one another..

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I too look at castiel that way

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not to be misandrist but i dont think the male mind is capable of comprehending supernatural

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7.09

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*Using the events of s5 with a little bit of alternations*

⚠️ tw for suicide nd alcoholism ⚠️

Once Sam jumped into the hole dean felt like he was stabbed right through the heart.

Days, weeks, months had gone by and Dean was still grieving. See everyone has their own way of grieving Dean's way was to rot at Bobby's house, he did not move an inch from his bed, he let himself drown completely in his sorrow. Bobby tried his best to convince him to go on hunting trips with him and constantly told him it'll help, but dean's only reply was "I'm done".

Day after day, the bottles of boose kept increasing, but drinking was his only escape. It was his way to numb the pain, it was his way to fill in the void inside of him that kept growing ever since the incident. It was his way to be at peace, it allowed him to sleep without rewatching his brother jump to his death. However some coping mechanisms lose their purpose at some point. The alcohol was not doing it for the now only child winchester, even so he tried to keep on going but what was left for him to hang on to if the only person he ever cared for was gone? And so one night, when Bobby was out, Dean went looking for some pills and since he knew Bobby more than his own father he knew exactly where he kept them so it didn't take much time for him to find those colorful tablets. He wrote a farewell letter to his adoptive father his one and only father, thanking him for taking him and his younger brother under his wing and apologized for being such a pain in the ass for the past few years. Dean knew the right dose, he always has. As he swallowed those pills down with whiskey he could feel the inside of his stomach already lightning up in flames, but he didn't care, he wanted it to end, he wanted to be where he belonged, in hell, next to his sammy.

Few minutes later, everything went silent, his body was completely numb, his eyes rolled to the back of his head.

The old man arrived at his house, he opened the door, it was quiet way too quiet. He placed his keys on the coffee table and called out: "Dean?" his eyes caught the letter, he opened it with shaky hands, that can't be, Dean wouldn't do that he tried gaslighting himself. He dropped the letter and ran as fast he could breaking down the door and holding Dean's unconscious body between his arms. "No Dean wake up" He yelled. "Wake up now boy" he yelled again as his eyes filled up with tears. "Dean don't do that to me" he mumbled while holding his body closer to him. "Castiel!!" he screamed. "Get down here cas now!" he screamed again hoping the angel would answer his prayers. And he did. "what happened?" he asked confused. "Fix him now or i swear" Bobby threatened. Cas placed his hand over Dean's forehead and it only took a few seconds before he opened his eyes again.

He adjusted himself, looked at his hands all confused.

"No no noo" he screamed in anger.

"WHY DID YOU BRING ME BACK?" he looked at the angel and his adoptive father with eyes full of tears.

"i was ready to go i was ready to die" he yelled.

"Well too bad because i wasn't" Bobby snapped

"the only person who brought a purpose to my life is gone. The only person i ever loved and cared for and looked after is gone. And there's a hole inside of that just keeps on growing and growing everyday and it- it hurts it hurts so much i thought- i thought i could numb the pain but it's crushing me it's sucking the life out of me i can't i just can't" he cried out.

Bobby and Cas stood above him, with sadness and despair in their eyes.

"i think i could help" Cas mumbled

Dean looked up to him with the tiniest bit of hope.

"i could erase every memory you ever had with sam it would be like he was never your brother- like he never existed" he continued while avoiding eye contact.

"no i can't allow that" bobby added

"this is my decision bobby" dean replied firmly.

"do it cas" he said as he stood up and faced him.

"but this is going to hurt" castiel warned him before proceeding.

"i said do it" he repeated.

The angel placed the palm of his hand over the hunters forehead and channeled every power he had, it didn't take long before dean fell to his knees screaming as all of the memories with his younger brother flashed before his eyes. Bobby looked away since he couldn't handle seeing his son in that condition.

Once it was over dean fell to the ground unconscious.

"his body is going to need a little of time to readjust" cas told Bobby in a reassuring tone.

"i hope you realize the consequences of what you just did" the adoptive father added before leaving the room and slamming the door behind him.

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i wrote one🤭 well at least chapter 1

an au where sam doesn't come back from s5 and castiel erases deans memory of anything related to his brother and dean moves on with his life nd then he stumbles across something deep that actually reminds him of sam and it all comes crushing down.

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standing ovation

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an au where sam doesn't come back from s5 and castiel erases deans memory of anything related to his brother and dean moves on with his life nd then he stumbles across something deep that actually reminds him of sam and it all comes crushing down.

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Need Cas to beat Johns ass in the reboot I’m begging

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Busting SPN Fanon Part 1

Fanon myth: Sam started the Apocalypse.

Canon fact: Dean started the Apocalypse when he broke the first seal.

4.16 On the Head of a Pin

DEAN Is it true? Did I break the first seal? Did I start all this? CASTIEL Yes. When we discovered Lilith's plan for you, we laid siege to hell and we fought our way to get to you before you— DEAN Jump-started the apocalypse. CASTIEL And we were too late.

And let's not forget that Sam wasn't the only one who could kill Lilith; Archangels were also capable. So let's say Sam backs off and decides not to kill Lilith after all. Apocalypse averted? No. Raphael, who is pro-Apocalypse, steps in and kills her instead. Not only did Sam not start the Apocalypse, logically he couldn't have stopped it. Everything hinged on Dean breaking the first seal, the only part that the angels and demons couldn't have done themselves.

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baby

The way Sam looks impossibly small here is heartbreaking to watch

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Just thinking about John in the comics taking little Sammy to a field to kill him

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just thinking about the first time sam died in the script it was written "he believes dean" he believed that dean was gonna patch him up, take good care of him. HE BELIEVED HIM. even though dean was just babbling so he himself doesn't lose his mind. I love how sam always believes dean whenever it comes to him taking care of him, whether he's sick, or got shot/is in danger. The way he knows that his older brother will always look out for him kind of like a parent whenever their child is sick they reassure him that it is all going to be okay and the child trusts the parent blindly. Except this time it was a brother and it had always been a brother because John never cared enough about the well being of either of them

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that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

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my baby deserved sm better

something about chuck deciding the idea of actually physically torturing sam himself personally sounds kind of icky so he stands over them as he has eileen do it. something about dean standing there as he forces sam to go through withdrawal, and has cas stick his arm through sam's chest, and death stick his arm through sam's chest, and gadreel possess sam, and cas burn sam's tattoo off, and crowley possess sam.

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Imagine if these two had interacted. Deanmon and Casifer would have been an evil erotic power couple for the ages!

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this is probably exactly how a female hysteria diagnosis went back in the day